Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Always seeing existing as something so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something so dreadful that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

It just terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to face the torture of old age and no matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, existence to me is the most torturous and futile burden that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing. It's all just so dreadful, painful and cruel and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I wish for no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is denied even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only looking forward to non-existence.
No matter what I could only ever look forward to non-existence, all I personally wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence of futile unnecessary suffering to finally be all gone and forgotten and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again as I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence.

I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just wish to never suffer ever again, as long as I exist I really will just wish for non-existence, I'd never wish for the torturous burden of existence that I always saw as a mistake and for me existence truly is the problem, it's something that just causes so much suffering and harm all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather all I want is for all to be gone for me. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this. To me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as positive, it's all I look forward to and is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel unnecessary existence and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I personally suffer just from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to not exist as a response to existence.
My wish to not exist is a response to existence and no matter what I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I want all to be finally gone for me, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and to me existence really is the problem, it's just something that causes harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'll always wish to not exist. For me existence itself really is the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I'll always and only see non-existence as positive and it's all I could hope for no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this futile existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for. I'd just never want to suffer at all rather I only hope for non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, existence truly is a burden that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only hope to never exist ever again, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is for this existence to finally be all gone, I just never wished for any of this and I never saw existence as a desirable state rather it was just something I was never meant for that only caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, existence itself really is the true problem for me and is just something I'd never wish for, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it at all and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so much longer just for one to suffer way more unbearably. It's just so horrific to me how one can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, the thought of suffering for that much longer is so unbearable, I really would never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I personally see as desirable, I'd just never wish to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake.
I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake as non-existence really is all I hope for, I wish for no more cruelty and suffering, existence to me just feels like a mistake and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'd never wish to exist and I always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist.

For me existence is a burden that only non-existence can bring me peace from and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could wish for. The peace of an eternal sleep really is always preferable for me than the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and I've only ever hoped and wished for eternal sleep. I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and to me existence really is the problem, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily rather I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I only wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
The way I see it existence truly does just cause suffering and harm, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to exist and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, to me existing really is only suffering and I'd never wish for this harmful, torturous existence that I personally always saw as a mistake. To me existence truly is the problem and it's one I'd never wish for, I'll always see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd personally just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather all I hope for is to not exist.

I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just hope for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll just always see existence as something so harmful and to be permanently free from this harmful existence really is all I see as desirable. For me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I hope for as I just don't want to suffer at all, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just causes suffering and harm and to me existence is just something so painful, so cruel and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and what terrifies me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I personally just want some peace and I could never see any peace in this existence of unnecessary suffering that I just never would had chosen that was so tragically imposed in the first place, existing to me really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so horrific how existence causes all this suffering, pain and torture until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway. I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it forced to suffer so unnecessarily, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I just never should had suffered at all. To me existing truly is just unnecessary suffering and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence and there's just so much suffering in this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I just never should had suffered in this torturous and futile existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for peace from the suffering of existing, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want all to be forgotten for me.

I'll always see it as something so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and I'll just always see it as so torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence, for me existence truly is the problem and is just something I'd just never wish for, existence to me feels like a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for that I only hope for permanent peace from and the only peace for me could lie in never existing ever again. I just hope for all to be gone for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence, for me the only relief truly could only lie in non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I really was just never meant for any of this suffering and I never should had been forced to suffer at all, it's so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed, I'll always see existence as the most torturous imposition.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to finally be forgotten.
All I hope is for all to finally be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence truly is all I could wish for no matter what and is all I look forward to. I just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence.

I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, to me existence truly does feel like a terrible mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again and existing to me really is just only suffering, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from. If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence as I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I'm just always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so unnecessary.
It truly is just so unnecessary to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to not exist, I just wish for some peace from this futile, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'll just always see existence as the most cruel unnecessary imposition and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

I personally just want to never suffer ever again and I find it so tragic how this existence that just caused all this suffering and harm was even imposed at all, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one that just causes harm and suffering and I'll always see this as just so futile and unnecessary I could never see a point to any of this rather it's all just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, existence to me really does always feel like a mistake and it's one only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from. I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, if I never existed it'd saved me from so much unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I'm always just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible and dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for no more pain and suffering and to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, to me existence itself is an abomination with no limit as to how much agony one can feel torturing existing beings until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just want peace from this existence but of course painless death is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to so cruelly force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so tragically imposed and it all just leads to decay and death anyway. Non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for this painful, torturous existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I just never should had been forced to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, cruel existence I just never should had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring non-existence over suffering.
No matter what I'd just always prefer non-existence over suffering, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile and torturous existence rather I just wish for some peace, existence is just so painful and cruel, there's just so much suffering in existing and I'd always prefer to not exist over this.

Non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death no matter what, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'll personally always see existence as a mistake no matter what. To me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and suffering and the fact that a human can suffer for so long is just so terrifying and horrific to me, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only wish for non-existence, to me existing really is only suffering and its suffering all for the sake of it that is so futile and unnecessary, I only hope and wish to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death will come eventually.
It truly will which is all I wish and hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to not exist, the peace of eternal non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence no matter what rather all I hope for is non-existence.

I just wish for some peace and I'd never wish for this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existence as waiting to die, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed. I always find it so tragic how this torturous unnecessary existence was so tragically imposed causing all this suffering and cruelty as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and all I could wish is for all to finally be gone for me in non-existence, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just wish for this existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what and I never should had suffered.