Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Always seeing existing as something so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something so dreadful that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

It just terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to face the torture of old age and no matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, existence to me is the most torturous and futile burden that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing. It's all just so dreadful, painful and cruel and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I wish for no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is denied even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place.

 

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Only looking forward to non-existence.
No matter what I could only ever look forward to non-existence, all I personally wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence of futile unnecessary suffering to finally be all gone and forgotten and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again as I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence.

I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just wish to never suffer ever again, as long as I exist I really will just wish for non-existence, I'd never wish for the torturous burden of existence that I always saw as a mistake and for me existence truly is the problem, it's something that just causes so much suffering and harm all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather all I want is for all to be gone for me. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this. To me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as positive, it's all I look forward to and is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel unnecessary existence and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I personally suffer just from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to not exist as a response to existence.
My wish to not exist is a response to existence and no matter what I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I want all to be finally gone for me, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and to me existence really is the problem, it's just something that causes harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'll always wish to not exist. For me existence itself really is the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I'll always and only see non-existence as positive and it's all I could hope for no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this futile existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for. I'd just never want to suffer at all rather I only hope for non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, existence truly is a burden that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only hope to never exist ever again, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is for this existence to finally be all gone, I just never wished for any of this and I never saw existence as a desirable state rather it was just something I was never meant for that only caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, existence itself really is the true problem for me and is just something I'd never wish for, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it at all and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so much longer just for one to suffer way more unbearably. It's just so horrific to me how one can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, the thought of suffering for that much longer is so unbearable, I really would never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I personally see as desirable, I'd just never wish to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake.
I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake as non-existence really is all I hope for, I wish for no more cruelty and suffering, existence to me just feels like a mistake and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'd never wish to exist and I always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist.

For me existence is a burden that only non-existence can bring me peace from and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could wish for. The peace of an eternal sleep really is always preferable for me than the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and I've only ever hoped and wished for eternal sleep. I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and to me existence really is the problem, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily rather I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I only wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
The way I see it existence truly does just cause suffering and harm, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to exist and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, to me existing really is only suffering and I'd never wish for this harmful, torturous existence that I personally always saw as a mistake. To me existence truly is the problem and it's one I'd never wish for, I'll always see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd personally just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather all I hope for is to not exist.

I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just hope for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll just always see existence as something so harmful and to be permanently free from this harmful existence really is all I see as desirable. For me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I hope for as I just don't want to suffer at all, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just causes suffering and harm and to me existence is just something so painful, so cruel and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and what terrifies me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I personally just want some peace and I could never see any peace in this existence of unnecessary suffering that I just never would had chosen that was so tragically imposed in the first place, existing to me really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so horrific how existence causes all this suffering, pain and torture until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway. I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it forced to suffer so unnecessarily, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I just never should had suffered at all. To me existing truly is just unnecessary suffering and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence and there's just so much suffering in this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I just never should had suffered in this torturous and futile existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for peace from the suffering of existing, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want all to be forgotten for me.

I'll always see it as something so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and I'll just always see it as so torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence, for me existence truly is the problem and is just something I'd just never wish for, existence to me feels like a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for that I only hope for permanent peace from and the only peace for me could lie in never existing ever again. I just hope for all to be gone for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence, for me the only relief truly could only lie in non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I really was just never meant for any of this suffering and I never should had been forced to suffer at all, it's so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed, I'll always see existence as the most torturous imposition.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to finally be forgotten.
All I hope is for all to finally be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence truly is all I could wish for no matter what and is all I look forward to. I just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence.

I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, to me existence truly does feel like a terrible mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again and existing to me really is just only suffering, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from. If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence as I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I'm just always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so unnecessary.
It truly is just so unnecessary to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to not exist, I just wish for some peace from this futile, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'll just always see existence as the most cruel unnecessary imposition and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

I personally just want to never suffer ever again and I find it so tragic how this existence that just caused all this suffering and harm was even imposed at all, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one that just causes harm and suffering and I'll always see this as just so futile and unnecessary I could never see a point to any of this rather it's all just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, existence to me really does always feel like a mistake and it's one only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from. I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, if I never existed it'd saved me from so much unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I'm always just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible and dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for no more pain and suffering and to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, to me existence itself is an abomination with no limit as to how much agony one can feel torturing existing beings until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just want peace from this existence but of course painless death is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to so cruelly force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so tragically imposed and it all just leads to decay and death anyway. Non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for this painful, torturous existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I just never should had been forced to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, cruel existence I just never should had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring non-existence over suffering.
No matter what I'd just always prefer non-existence over suffering, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile and torturous existence rather I just wish for some peace, existence is just so painful and cruel, there's just so much suffering in existing and I'd always prefer to not exist over this.

Non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death no matter what, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'll personally always see existence as a mistake no matter what. To me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and suffering and the fact that a human can suffer for so long is just so terrifying and horrific to me, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only wish for non-existence, to me existing really is only suffering and its suffering all for the sake of it that is so futile and unnecessary, I only hope and wish to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death will come eventually.
It truly will which is all I wish and hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to not exist, the peace of eternal non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence no matter what rather all I hope for is non-existence.

I just wish for some peace and I'd never wish for this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existence as waiting to die, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed. I always find it so tragic how this torturous unnecessary existence was so tragically imposed causing all this suffering and cruelty as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and all I could wish is for all to finally be gone for me in non-existence, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just wish for this existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what and I never should had suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
No matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and suffering. I only hope to not exist as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can ever bring me peace and relief from.

I just want all to finally be forgotten with no more suffering, in this existence so cruel and torturous non-existence really is all I personally see as positive and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as the problem, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden only non-existence can bring me peace from. I just want to never exist ever again and my wish to die is a response to existence, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll wish for the peace of an permanent sleep, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me relief from this futile, torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake rather I only hope for non-existence. I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I always find it so torturous to be conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway.

I'll always see existing as only being suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep for all eternity, I wish for no more suffering rather I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me. I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for some peace and only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the burden of existence and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I just never should had been forced to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence I never would had chosen at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To never suffer ever again is all I hope for.
It truly is all I hope for and the only relief for me could lie in non-existence, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only peace.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, existence really is the problem to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I wish for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist. In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep could appeal to me, I only see non-existence as desirable, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness. I wish for all to be gone and forgotten for me, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this painful torturous existence, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me relief from no matter what, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of painless death being denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless guaranteed death is denied for me so I can finally find peace from the torture and suffering of existing, existence really is so cruel, painful and torturous and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so I can finally find peace from this futile existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway.

I'll always see it as so dreadful how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me as all I wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again, death is all that's inevitable so I'd personally prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more and decay and die anyway. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all I hope for and I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead. It's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything and I'd never wish for the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen, I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence rather all I wish for is nothingness, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering but of course the cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me.

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what and I'd just never wish for the pain of existing, to me existence really does always feel like a terrible mistake and it's one I'd never wish for rather I just want some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me in non-existence and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again. I just want all to finally be gone for me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want eternal sleep, I wish to not exist and it's all I can hope for, I'd just never wish to be conscious in this existence rather all I want is to rest, I just want to never exist ever again, it's just so horrific to me how this existence causes endless amounts of suffering and torture, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, nothing would make me wish for this painful existence and I'd never wish for any of this suffering no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, non-existence is all I personally see aa desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly feels like I've suffered in this cruel, torturous existence for so long and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather all I hope for is to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake that I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues, it's all just so painful and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, for me existence truly was never worth it rather it's something I just wish for peace and relief from, I just wish for this existence to be gone and forgotten for me but of course I wish this existence was never imposed. As long as I exist I'll always hope to forget about this existence, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, in this existence so cruel and futile only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me peace could only lie in an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me but of course the suffering just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer and all I could hope for is peace from the suffering and cruelty in this futile, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence truly is the only relief for me.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to fall asleep permanently, I just want to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from how painless death is so cruelly denied for me as I only hope for non-existence. I wish for no more pain and suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as causing so much harm and I'll always see it as so harmful and painful to exist. To me existing really is just only suffering and I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I'm always so tired of suffering all for the sake of it in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can ever bring me relief from, I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and positive and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what.

 

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I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and to never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for, I just wish for peace from this cruel, futile and torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be unconscious for all eternity as I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, all I could hope for is to never suffer ever again.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous and undesirable existence, to me existence was never a desirable state rather I see it as a burden to exist, I see existence as an imposition that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for permanent peace, only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from this existence that just causes all this suffering which is why it's all I hope for, I just wish to never exist ever ever again, I wish for all to finally be forgotten for me. I wish for some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in eternal dreamless sleep, I just want to finally forget about this existence and I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just hope to never exist ever again, existence to me really does feel like the problem, I see existence as the most terrible tragic harmful mistake and it's one I'd just never wish for that only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

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Only hope to never wake ever again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more pain and suffering and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again as all I hope for is non-existence, to not exist really is all I personally see as desirable.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this cruel and torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it and there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to never wake and in this existence so cruel and torturous the only relief for me really could only lie in eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten. For me existence really is the problem which is why I only want to never wake ever again, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it, existence really is just so painful and harmful, I see existence as only causing harm and suffering which is why I just want to never wake ever again. Only dreamless eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this futile unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what under any circumstances, to me existing really is only suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence, for me the only peace really could only lie in never existing ever again, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

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Only hoping to be unconscious.
All I personally hope for is to be unconscious for all eternity, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish to not exist. I wish for all to be forgotten for me, in this existence so torturous non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I just never would had chosen where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting for death no matter what, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all that can bring me the peace I search for.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, existence to me really does just feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering all for the sake of it in this existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist. I just want to finally forget about this existence but of course the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again so finally I can find permanent relief from the burden of existence and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

 

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I find it horrific how there's no limit as to how much one can suffer.
I truly do find it so horrific how there's no limit as to how much one can suffer in this torturous, futile existence, I'd never wish to exist at all and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed even know this existence was completely unnecessary and there was just never a need for any of this. No matter what I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, to me existence really does always feel like the most terrible mistake and it's one only eternal nothingness can ever bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I'll always see it as something so deeply undesirable to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting for death, it's just suffering there was never a need for at all and it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me. It's so painful how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with all finally gone for me which is why it's all I hope for, to suffer in this existence really is always something so dreadful to me and it can easily get way more torturous at any moment.

 

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Always finding it so undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, to me existence is just not a desirable state rather it's just something that causes harm and suffering until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and I just find it so undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and there's just so much suffering in existing, it really is so dreadful and cruel to me, I personally see existence itself as the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this, I find it a burden to be conscious forced to suffer in this existence and I'm just so tired of this torturous, futile existence. I'll always wish for death no matter what as I see existence itself as the true problem, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering and it's all just so terrible, cruel and painful to me. I'll always see existing as being only suffering and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can ever bring me any relief from this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this deeply undesirable, futile existence that was always so unnecessary in the first place that just caused suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being trapped in this existence and more than anything I wish this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was never imposed, for me nom-existence really is always preferable and is all I can hope for no matter what, I only wish to finally be at peace but of course the suffering just continues and I see so much cruelty in how painless guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me even know I was forced to exist in the first place and I'd never wish for any of this at all.

I suffer just from being conscious and I'd just never wish for the torturous and futile burden of existing as a human rather all I hope for is non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is true permanent peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to be at peace with the suffering of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel existence no matter what, to me existing really is always so deeply undesirable and I always suffer from being trapped in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this harmful, torturous existence rather I only hope to not exist, to me existence really is the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm torturing and tormenting existing beings until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so cruel, torturous and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist. I see it as so horrific how existence just causes all this unnecessary cruelty and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and the fact that this existence was imposed truly is the most terrible, dreadful tragedy, there's just so much suffering in existing.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for some peace and for me the only peace could lie in never existing ever again, I'd just never wish for this harmful existence and I see it as so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, existing to me really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing. The way I see it existence truly does just cause only harm and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want all to finally be all gone and forgotten for me. I'll just always see it as so harmful to exist, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible mistake and it's one I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep can nothing concern me.
And that is why to sleep permanently really is all I hope and wish for, I only wish to be unconscious for all eternity with all finally gone and forgotten about, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just wish for non-existence, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, existence is just so painful, so cruel and so torturous and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want all to be gone for me.

I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem and I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem, it's just something that causes all this harm and suffering and I'd never wish for any of this, to suffer in this existence is always so dreadful and torturous to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for eternal sleep as after all only in non-existence can nothing concern me. Only in non-existence is all finally forgotten for me which is why it's all I hope for, I just want to never wake ever again and in this existence of unnecessary suffering for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, I just want to finally forget about this existence, I just want all to be gone for me, nothing would ever make me wish for this cruel existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what, I personally just hope for peace from the suffering, I just want to never wake ever again with this existence finally no longer my concern.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is enslavement to me.
It truly is enslavement to me as after all this existence was so harmfully forced with suffering seen as to so harmfully force and prolong no matter what and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I suffer so much from being enslaved in this cruel torturous existence I just never would had chosen, existence is enslavement as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option of a guaranteed painless death with no more pain and suffering even despite the fact this existence was forced in the first place.

I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible mistake and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it, no matter what I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I suffer simply from existing, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death. I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering and I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence just hoping to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed and I'd never wish for the imposition of existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, to suffer in this existence really is so dreadful and terrible to me and I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what, I'd never wish for any of this at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of existence.
I personally fear existence and I always have so much fear of what lies ahead in this torturous, futile existence, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I wish for is non-existence, I see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from the torture and cruelty of existing which is why it's all I hope for.

All I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, no matter what I'll always find it so horrific how existence causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and it's all just so dreadful and terible to me, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all that can bring me any peace from this cruel existence and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existence. To me existence really is the problem and is something that just causes harm torturing existing beings until all is finally gone and forgotten and I'll just always see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden, I see it as so terrible and dreadful to be enslaved in this existence and I just always have so much dread for what lies ahead, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to die tortured by old age and the torture, cruelty and suffering of existing is endless, it's all just so terrible to me and I always fear existence.