Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for no more suffering.
No matter what all I'll ever hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather I only wish and hope to not exist and I'll always see existing as being only suffering no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and for me existence really is the problem, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish and hope to be unconscious for all eternity, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. I'd just always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this torturous unnecessary existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and to me existing truly is just only suffering, it's just unnecessary cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer. Nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish and hope to not exist, non-existence really is all I could hope for, it's all that can bring me any peace from this existence I'd just never wish for under any circumstances, I truly never should had been forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten for me in non-existence.
All I hope is for all to finally be forgotten for me in non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just wish for some peace, I'd never wish for the torturous and futile burden of existing as a human rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep. I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence as I'm just so tired of suffering and I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just hope to not exist instead and for me non-existence really is the only relief, no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want all to finally be gone for me.

I wish to finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'll just always see existence as the problem no matter what, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope for non-existence. For me non-existence really is the only peace from suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, eternal sleep really is all I can hope for and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to permanently cease existing and never exist ever again as all I hope for is nothingness, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again, I'd personally be so relieved to finally cease existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is always so dreadful.
It truly is so dreadful to me and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, as long as I exist I really will only hope to not exist and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake no matter what.

To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I'll just always see it as the most cruel and torturous burden to exist and it's a burden so dreadful that only ever caused me to suffer, I just always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'd just never wish for this dreadful existence rather I just want to not exist, I wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten. I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want peace from this dreadful existence and what is so terrifying to me is how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, no matter what I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to forget about it all, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can ever bring me relief from and the only relief for me really could only lie in never existing ever again, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just futile suffering.
It truly is just futile suffering to me with no limit as to how much one can suffer and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish and hope for non-existence.

I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and no matter what I'll always see existence as the most terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty just to die in agony from old age, the suffering of existing really is endless and I'll suffer until all is finally gone for me in non-existence anyway. I'll just always see it as so futile to exist, to me existing really is just only suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all rather I just want to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to sleep, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I could hope for, I'm just always so tired of it all, I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only looking forward to not existing.
All I can look forward to is to not exist, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this futile torturous existence where I just hope and wait for death anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die as after all eventually all will be gone and forgotten in non-existence no matter what and to never suffer ever again really is all I hope for.

In this cruel, futile existence where there is all this endless pain and suffering non-existence truly is all I personally see as positive and desirable, all I hope for is to not exist, I've just never wished for the burden of existing as a human and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, existence really is a burden that only non-existence can ever bring me peace from and the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep really is all I see as desirable, non-existence would solve everything for me in this torturous harmful existence that I personally always saw as a mistake that was so tragically imposed and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy. I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just hope for non-existence, I really am just so tired of it all and as long as I exist I'll just wish to not exist, non-existence really is the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing the peace of non-existence.
The peace of non-existence really is all I need and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again with this cruel, futile existence finally all gone and forgotten about, to me existence truly is just an unnecessary harm that causes pain and suffering and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep, I just want to painlessly cease existing, for me existence itself really is the problem and is just something I'd never wish for that I only hope for peace from.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous, futile existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, non-existence really is the only peace for me in this harmful existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die no matter what. It's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering this cruel existence causes is endless, it really is all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence, I just want to sleep for all eternity but of course the suffering of this cruel existence just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just need the peace of non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I personally see as desirable.
It truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want peace from the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, futile existence, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious and unable to suffer with all finally forgotten about, ceasing to exist really is all I wish for. I never should had been burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most torturous unnecessary burden to exist, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this undesirable existence and for me existence could never be a desirable state rather I see existence as the problem, it's the cause and source of all suffering causing so many problems there were never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence.

I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existence rather I just want to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be gone for me, I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence rather I just want to not exist, I wish for no more suffering, I want to never exist again and it's all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me from this harmful existence.
It truly is the only peace for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this torturous, futile existence to finally be no longer my problem but of course the suffering in this harmful existence just continues which is all so dreadful and terrible to me, no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist. Non-existence really is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again, peace for me could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten and as long as I exist I'll just hope for some peace.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and for me existence itself will always be the true problem which is why I only hope to not exist, simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death and I'll only wish for non-existence no matter what. I wish for no more suffering rather I just hope for peace, existence to me is something so harmful that just causes and brings suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering of existing really is endless, it's all just so dreadful to me which is why I only hope for non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence destined to decay and die anyway and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just waiting for death.
No matter what I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous and cruel existence rather I just want to not exist.

I just wish for peace from the suffering of this harmful, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and for me non-existence really is always preferable, it's all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish for any of this and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, to me existence really does just feel like a mistake and it's one so cruel and terrible that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering this existence causes really is endless. I'd just always prefer to not exist and as long as I exist non-existence really is all I'll hope for, I'll always see it as s deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, to me existing really is just so futile, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering was never imposed at all, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for peace, I just want to rest, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does always feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway, to me existence really is the problem which is why I only hope and wish to not exist, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me. I'll just always wish for non-existence as I see existence as a mistake that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, it truly is all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence, I just want peace instead and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten. I'd just never wish for any of this and the way I see it existence really does just cause harm, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just never should had been forced to suffer at all, I'll always just see existing as only suffering no matter what and I suffer just from existing, I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence I always saw as a terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace and relief from suffering, all I wish and hope for is to never wake ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, it'd solve everything for me after all and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in the peace of eternal non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, for me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, as long as I exist I truly will just hope and wish to sleep permanently and dreamless eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable, existence to me really is the problem as after all it's the cause of all suffering and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, I just want to never exist ever again. For me existence really is just something so dreadful and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just wish for peace and for me non-existence really is the only peace, I'm always just so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would have wished for and just never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for no more suffering.
All I personally wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, I just want all to be forgotten for me instead, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just want to not exist, non-existence really is the only peace for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again.

I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather it's just something I want to be all gone for me, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, I'm just so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I personally always saw as a mistake and for me existence really is the problem, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for some peace and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again. For me non-existence really is all that's desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, I only see non-existence as positive and it's all I hope for as I'm just so tired of it all and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I never should had been burdened with this cruel existence at all and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this torturous, futile existence I personally always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is the problem and is something I'd never wish for that I only hope for permanent peace from.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all just so cruel to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, for me existence really is the problem and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want this dreadful existence to be all gone and forgotten about, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this futile and torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, for me existence truly is the problem, I'll just always see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and finally bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, cruel existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me any peace and relief from the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, futile existence, no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and in this existence where there's all this suffering non-existence really is all I personally see as positive and is all I'd hope for.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace from this cruel, harmful existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is an abomination and it's one that just causes so much suffering and harm, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist and for me non-existence is the only relief, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, for me existence really is the true problem and it's one that only non-existence can bring me peace from. I just want to not exist permanently and I suffer so much from being burdened with this torturous existence where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway, existence to me really is the problem which is why I just hope for peace from it, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten for me and I'd prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, non-existence really is all I could ever wish for, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence solves everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep. Eventually this futile, torturous existence will disappear into nothingness which is all I wish and hope for, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want all to finally be gone for me, I'd prefer to forget about this existence that just caused all this suffering and harm no matter what, I personally just want peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I was just never meant for the torturous burden of existence and I'd just never wish for it no matter what rather I just want to rest.

I just wish to be non-existent and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence, for me peace truly could only lie in non-existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I've suffered so much for so long, non-existence really is the only relief for me which is why I suffer so much from being denied the option of a death like never waking ever again. In this existence I always saw as a mistake a peaceful death really would solve everything for me and is all I hope for, existence is just so futile, so painful and torturous, to not exist is all I could ever wish for and is all I'll hope for in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it torturing existing beings until all is gone for them in non-existence anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten for me.
All I personally hope and wish for is for all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I just wish for no more suffering, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is the only peace for me in this existence so cruel and torturous that I always saw as a mistake and to me existence will always be the problem no matter what.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous existence of futile suffering that there was never a need for at all that I'd just never wish for, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence as all I wish for is to not exist, to permanently cease existing and finally be free from the suffering of existing really is all I hope for, I just want to forget about this existence, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain, no more suffering and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is just only suffering. It's suffering so cruel, unnecessary and dreadful and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all, I never should had been forced to suffer and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to painlessly cease existing, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable to me than suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, for me non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and is all I'll wish for no matter what, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

I personally just want to never suffer ever again and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and to me existing really is only suffering, it's suffering so cruel and unnecessary with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering this existence causes is endless, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this. For me non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any relief from this torturous existence and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, for me dreamless eternal sleep really is the only relief in this existence so futile that just causes and brings all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrific to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong.
It's so horrific to me how even trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather I just hope and wish to not exist, I see so much cruelty in how we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the choice to permanently cease existing as I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to not exist. For me non-existence really is the only relief from the dreadful suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, for me non-existence really is the only peace and all I hope for.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and I just want to never exist ever again, I always suffer so much from how painless death is so cruelly denied for me as I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again. Existence to me really is just an abomination, it just causes suffering and harm and I'd never wish for any of this, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering at all and it terrifies me how this existence can continue for so long, I always wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace and safe from all suffering.
It truly is the only peace for me which is why it's all I hope for, I just wish to be permanently safe from all suffering in this futile, torturous existence but of course the suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just want to not exist.

All I wish for is the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more pain, no more suffering and I'll always just see existing as only suffering, as long as I exist I truly will just wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see existence as the most dreadful mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'm just so tired of suffering in this futile existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want non-existence. I just hope for peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and to me existing will always be only pain and suffering, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with all finally gone and forgotten about which is why it's all I hope for. I'm just always so tired of it all and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope for death, for me existence really is the problem and I just never should had been burdened with this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer at all and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish this existence was never imposed, to me existence really is the most torturous burden.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I can look forward to.
It truly is all I can look forward to and is all I hope for, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just wish for non-existence, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish for no more suffering.

I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence, only non-existence is positive to me and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existence really is just waiting to die, it's just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just never wish for any of this. To me existence really is the problem and is just something only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I hope for is to never wake ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as all I hope for is non-existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, in this existence where there is all this cruelty, torture and suffering non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable, I just never should had been forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
It truly is an imposition and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of cruelty and suffering was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really is the only peace for me.

I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it, the fact that this existence was even imposed really is always so tragic to me, it's all just so terrible, I'll always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I'll always see it as dreadful to exist, to me existence really is always the problem, I see it as something that just causes suffering and harm until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer. Non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all I can hope for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, to me existence really does just feel like an mistake, I see existence as an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and there is just no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Painless death is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me than prolonging the suffering and torture of existing, I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for nothingness, I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option of a death like never waking ever again as non-existence really is all I hope for, I just want to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering.

I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, if I don't exist I cannot suffer and to never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing. Only in non-existence will I be free from all unnecessary suffering which is why it's all I'll hope for, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and to me existing really is only suffering, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again as all I wish for is no more pain, no more suffering, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather I just want to never wake ever again, non-existence truly is preferable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel like a mistake to me.
It truly will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes harm and suffering, no matter what I'd just prefer to not exist, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from the mistake of existence but of course the suffering and cruelty just continues. It truly is all just so terrible to me and painful and as long as I exist I really will just wish to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want all to finally be gone for me, in this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for non-existence really is all I see as positive and is all I could wish for.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I just hope and wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more suffering, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me. I'll personally always see existence itself as the true problem and it's a problem only non-existence can bring me peace and relief I search for from this torturous, cruel existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I truly will just wish for peace from the suffering of existing, existence really does always feel like a harmful mistake to me that just causes and brings so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is an unnecessary harm.
No matter what I'll always see existence as an unnecessary harm, one that just causes and brings so much suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and it's all just so dreadful to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I just hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in finally being free from this existence I always saw as an abomination, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, existence is just so cruel, so painful and harmful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this harmful existence I always saw as a mistake, existence to me is just something so torturous that just caused all this harm until all is finally gone in non-existence.

No matter what I'd prefer to just not exist than suffer all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existing as jst waiting to die. It's just suffering and torture all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me any relief from the unnecessary suffering of this harmful undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, existence to me really is the most cruel, torturous burden and it's one I'd never wish for that only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I personally hope for is to never exist ever again and I'll just only be at peace once this existence is all gone and forgotten, to me existence really is the most harmful torturous abomination and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

I only hope for some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in eternal dreamless sleep, I just wish to never exist ever again and for me existence really is the problem, it's something so dreadful and terrible that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering, in an existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty dreamless eternal sleep really is the only relief for me and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I'll always wish for death no matter what. I wish for no more suffering rather I just want some peace, I just want all to be gone for me and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem, there's just so much cruelty, so much suffering in existing, it's all just so painful and cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'm just so tired of it all and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
Peace from this existence truly is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish to suffer rather all I wish for is nothingness, I just want all to finally be gone for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to find permanent peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake. As long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake ever again, in this existence so cruel and torturous only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, death is all that's inevitable so I'd prefer to cease existing to save myself from all futile unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway.

I personally just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just want all to finally be gone, existence is so torturous, so futile and so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping to be gone and as long sd I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I've suffered so much for so long and I really never should had suffered at all, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would have wished for and never would had chose, nothing would make me wish for any of this, for me existence really is the problem.

 

[Rational man]

Only hoping for peace.
Peace from this existence truly is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish to suffer rather all I wish for is nothingness, I just want all to finally be gone for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to find permanent peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake. As long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake ever again, in this existence so cruel and torturous only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, death is all that's inevitable so I'd prefer to cease existing to save myself from all futile unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway.

I personally just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just want all to finally be gone, existence is so torturous, so futile and so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping to be gone and as long sd I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I've suffered so much for so long and I really never should had suffered at all, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would have wished for and never would had chose, nothing would make me wish for any of this, for me existence really is the problem.

Ive always admired people who find peace in living, those who experience true peace of mind. I think buddhists have found a sense of equanimity amidst suffering and uncertainty. They seem to take life as it arrives whereas im constantly trying to bail water from a sinking boat. I guess I missed the lesson of acceptance, that is, sometimes boats sink and there's little to be done.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful and the way I see it this existence just causes suffering and harm, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see it as a dreadful, terrible mistake to exist no matter what, to me existence is the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and I'd just never wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal permanent sleep where all is finally gone, forgotten and nothing can concern me and I'd just never wish for any of this, existence to me is something that just causes harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and as long as I exist I truly will just wish to be gone, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I wish for is to permanently not exist, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing. No matter what I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's just so terrible to me how existence causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it until all is finally gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what and I'll always see it as so harmful to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is peace for me.
It truly is peace for me and it's all that can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence that just always felt like a mistake to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only wish and hope for non-existence, I just wish to sleep for all eternity where all is finally gone for me and no longer my problem.

I'd just never wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from the futile unnecessary suffering of existing and to me existence really did always just feel like a mistake, it really is all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. Non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all that can bring me any relief from suffering in this cruel existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible to me. I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and I'd never wish for the mistake of existence rather I just want to never exist ever again, I just see it as the most torturous, futile burden to be conscious enslaved in this existence waiting to cease existing anyway and it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I just want to rest, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I've already suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist, to me existence really is the problem and it's a problem that only non-existence can take away for me and solve, I'll always see existing as only being suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence where I'm just waiting for death, I find it a burden to exist and always will do. I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from, in this existence where there's all this cruelty, torture and suffering the only peace for me could ever lie in eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me.

I wish for no more suffering and I've already suffered so much for so long from being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and I'd never wish for any of this, I just never should had been forced to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering. I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and I'm just always so tired of it all, I find it so painful how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again as to find peace from all the suffering truly is all I hope for, I see it as so tragic how this existence of suffering and cruelty that there was never a need for at all was even imposed.