Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as something so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something so dreadful that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

It just terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to face the torture of old age and no matter what I'll always see existence itself as the true problem, existence to me is the most torturous and futile burden that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing. It's all just so dreadful, painful and cruel and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I wish for no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is denied even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only looking forward to non-existence.
No matter what I could only ever look forward to non-existence, all I personally wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence of futile unnecessary suffering to finally be all gone and forgotten and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again as I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence.

I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just wish to never suffer ever again, as long as I exist I really will just wish for non-existence, I'd never wish for the torturous burden of existence that I always saw as a mistake and for me existence truly is the problem, it's something that just causes so much suffering and harm all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather all I want is for all to be gone for me. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this. To me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as positive, it's all I look forward to and is all I could hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel unnecessary existence and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I personally suffer just from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to not exist as a response to existence.
My wish to not exist is a response to existence and no matter what I'll only hope to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I want all to be finally gone for me, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and to me existence really is the problem, it's just something that causes harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'll always wish to not exist. For me existence itself really is the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I'll always and only see non-existence as positive and it's all I could hope for no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this futile existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for. I'd just never want to suffer at all rather I only hope for non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, existence truly is a burden that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only hope to never exist ever again, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is for this existence to finally be all gone, I just never wished for any of this and I never saw existence as a desirable state rather it was just something I was never meant for that only caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, existence itself really is the true problem for me and is just something I'd never wish for, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it at all and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so much longer just for one to suffer way more unbearably. It's just so horrific to me how one can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, the thought of suffering for that much longer is so unbearable, I really would never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I personally see as desirable, I'd just never wish to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake.
I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake as non-existence really is all I hope for, I wish for no more cruelty and suffering, existence to me just feels like a mistake and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'd never wish to exist and I always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist.

For me existence is a burden that only non-existence can bring me peace from and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could wish for. The peace of an eternal sleep really is always preferable for me than the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and I've only ever hoped and wished for eternal sleep. I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and to me existence really is the problem, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily rather I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I only wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.