Even if I didn't always realize it, I have known for a long time that I would die from suicide and I've figured out on my own that my life was always going to end this way. I was never meant for this world and never will be. I've tried as hard as I can to enjoy the good things in life but even then, I still think about suicide on a good day the same as I would if I was depressed. It's never been a matter of if for me, but always a matter of when. When will I kill myself? I guess I don't completely know that yet, I just know it will happen.
For now, I just want to have a good time for a while and end my life when I lose interest in those things that I enjoy. When that time comes, I will probably make another goodbye thread but until then I'm not ready yet.
For now, I just want to have a good time for a while and end my life when I lose interest in those things that I enjoy. When that time comes, I will probably make another goodbye thread but until then I'm not ready yet.
