Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, to me existence really does just feel like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering and it's just so dreadful.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering rather I only want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, to me existence truly is the most cruel, torturous burden and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I personally just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want to rest, I just want all to be gone for me, I'm always just so tired of this harmful existence I just never would had chosen and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I never should had been forced to suffer at all, as long as I exist I'll just wish for non-existence, I just want permanent relief from this cruel, harmful existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, harmful existence and I never should had suffered at all, I only hope for non-existence, existence is just so cruel, so painful and so torturous, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is always the problem.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the problem, it's the ultimate cause of all suffering after all and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather all I hope for is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just hope to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I personally just want to never suffer ever again and I always find so dreadful to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish for no more suffering but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdemed with this torturous futile existence suffering all for the sake of it just to die in agony from old age, existence to me really is always the problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only eternal sleep can take away for me and bring me any relief from. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently so I can finally be free from what I always see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'd never wish for tne suffering, cruelty and torture of existing rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering for the sake of it.
It truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile torturous existence rather I only hope and wish to not exist, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, to me existence really is the most torturous abomination that just brings and causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile existence of suffering all for the sake of it and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from.

The fact that this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed truly is always the most terrible cruel tragedy to me and I'd just aways prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any peace from the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as only suffering, to me existence really does just feel like a terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently so finally I can be free from this existence of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. I personally just want to sleep permanently, in this existence so torturous and cruel peace for me could only lie in eternal sleep where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just want to never suffer in this torturous existence ever again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long already.

 

[FuneralCry]

Alwaya finding it deeply undesirable to exist.
I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, for me only non-existence is all that's desirable and is all I hope for, I'm always so tired of this torturous, futile existence of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'll see existing as only being suffering, it's suffering so futile and unnecessary that only non-existence can ever bring me peace from, I personally just want to never suffer ever again.

I'm always just so tired of this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and I just don't see existence as a desirable state at all rather I see it as the mos terrible harmful tragedy how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed and the way I see it existence really does just cause harm and suffering, it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway. It's just so terrible and dreadful to me how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly in an guaranteed way even know this existence was so tragically imposed causing all this suffering as a result, I personally just don't see existence as a desirable state rather it always feels like a mistake and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as deeply undesirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer just from existing.
Existing to me really is only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious and aware in this futile, torturous existence, I just find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was even imposed and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to not exist, to me existence really does feel like the most dreadful mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from. Existing really is just only suffering to me and I'm always so tired of suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me the peace I search for.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it tortured in this futile unnecessary existence just to die in agony from old age, the suffering of existing really is endless, it's just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I only hope for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again. I just never should had been forced into this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it at all and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, to me existence is just undesirable, unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and as long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace of an permanent sleep, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten.

In this existence so cruel and torturous that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering non-existence really is all I can hope and wish for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to sleep permanently, only the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this futile, undesirable existence I just never would had chose that I always just saw as a mistake, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to be gone. I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only eternal sleep can take away for me, I just want to never wake ever again and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep so finally I can be at peace from this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just want some peace and for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief, only in non-existence will this existence be finally all forgotten and no longer my problem, I'd just never wish for any of this, I just never should had suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just feels like enslavement to me.
It truly does feel like enslavement as after all I was so tragically forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake yet the option to painlessly cease existing is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for non-existence.

I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want all to finally be forgotten, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and no matter what I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, to me existence is an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for non-existence and I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence just waiting and hoping for death anyway. I'll always just see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty, pain and suffering in existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'm just always so tired of this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chose, the fact that painless guaranteed death is denied for me is just so painful and cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me and is all I'll see as desirable, to not exist really is all I'll hope for no matter what, I just want some peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, I'd always prefer to cease existing as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and I just find it so deeply undesirable to exist.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, existence to me is just so cruel, so torturous and futile and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I only wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll hope for non-existence. I just wish for all to be forgotten for me, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I'll always prefer to not exist but only never existing is true perfection to me as more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is completely futile.
It truly is completely futile to me and I'd just never wish for the futile unnecessary suffering of this existence rather I'd prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence really is the only peace from this torturous deeply undesirable existence that I always saw as a mistake in the first place and to me existence really is the problem.

It's something so dreadful and cruel that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence at all, I just wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this futile existence that just causes and brings all this pain with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll always see existing as so futile. To me existing really is just waiting for death, it's just suffering there was never a need for at all and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again so I can finally be at peace from this futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for. Nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of this harmful unnecessary existence rather more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, to me existence really is the problem and is just something I'd never wish for that only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to finally be forgotten for me.
All I personally hope and wish is for all to finally be forgotten for me, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering rather I just want this torturous unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem and I'll always just see existence itself as the problem no matter what and it's one only non-existence can solve for me and take away. Existing to me really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again.

I've suffered so much for so long and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for peace, I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I only hope for no more pain, no more suffering and in this torturous existence non-existence really is all I see as positive, it's all I could wish for, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and existence is just so cruel. It's just suffering and I suffer simply from existing, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and it's one I'd never wish for, for me only non-existence is positive, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from the suffering of this torturous existence, I just hope to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wish I never suffered.
More than anything I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence at all, I just never should had been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always find it the most terrible tragedy to exist, to me existence really is always the problem which is why I only hope and wish for non-existence. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this torturous, futile existence suffering all for the sake of it and no matter what I'll always see existing as being only suffering, existence to me is such a cruel, harmful imposition that just causes so much pain and suffering there was never a need for at all.

It's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence no matter what, I'm always just so tired of suffering in this existence and I truly never should had suffered at all, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always find it a burden to exist. It's a burden only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from and I'll suffer until all is gone and forgotten for me in non-existence anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I wish I never suffered, to suffer in this existence is always something so deeply undesirable to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for eternal nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I hope for is true permanent peace.