Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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To never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for.
It truly is all I hope for, I just want some peace from the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I just never saw existence as a desirable state rather I see it as something that just causes suffering and harm until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway and I just want to never suffer ever again. Non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most harmful terrible tragic mistake and I'd be so relieved to cease existing, non-existence is all I hope for and is all I could wish for.

I'd just never wish for this existence rather I just hope for peace, I just want to never exist ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally free myself from the suffering of this torturous existence and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing. I just want to never exist in this horrific dreadful reality ever again but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence at all and I'll always see it as such a burden to exist, it's one so cruel and futile that just causes all this harm and suffering, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I wish for is some peace, I just hope for all to be forgotten for me with no more pain, no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only wished to not exist.
I truly have only ever wished to not exist and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all futile unnecessary suffering where finally all is gone and I cannot be harmed in any way, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, harmful existence and for me non-existence really is the only peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, to me existence is the most undesirable burden that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering and I'd always prefer to be permanently free from it all, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I've just only wished to not exist and it's all I could ever do, I never should had been burdened with this existence at all and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I've personally always seen existence as the problem and it's one that just caused me to suffer, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful how there's all this suffering in existing. I only hope to not exist, as long as I exist I truly will just wish to sleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as all I hope for is permanent sleep, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to not exist and it's all I've ever wished for and could ever do, I just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me.
I truly do always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me as all I hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile torturous existence and I always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep with no more pain, no more suffering. I just want all to finally be forgotten for me and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I'm just so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long just to suffer way more with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just wish more than anything this existence was never imposed and I'll always see existence as the most futile, harmful imposition. I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is peace, non-existence truly is the only peace for me in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering and all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just want to forget about this existence, I wish to be unable to suffer, to me existence really is just so painful, so torturous, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I wish for no more suffering, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of cruelty and suffering.
I truly will only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of cruelty and suffering and to never suffer ever again really is all I hope for, I'm always just so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again.

I'll personally always see existence as the problem, it's something so futile and torturous that just causes all this suffering and harm until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, I see it as so deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I really am just so tired of it all, it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from. I just want peace from this torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and to me existing really is just only suffering, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I'm always just so tired of it all, more than anything I just wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never burdened with this futile undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what, it's the source of all suffering after all and I just want peace from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
I truly would always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and non-existence is all I'll hope for as long as I exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'm just so tired of suffering, I'll just always find it so painful, dreadful and torturous to exist, to me existence is the problem that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm until all is forgotten in non-existence anyway and I just see non-existence as preferable.

Existence is just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for no matter what, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, non-existence is all I see as positive and is just always preferable for me, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only being suffering. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather I just hope for peace, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering and it already feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen that just brought so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much suffering in existing and what is so dreadful to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's suffering so unnecessary and more than anything I just wish this existence of suffering was never imposed at all.

I just never should had been forced into this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I'll personally always see existence as a mistake, it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway, to me existence really is the problem and I wish to not exist as I just don't want to suffer at all, I only wish and hope for some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more pain, no more suffering. I just wish to not exist and it's all I could hope for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I just never would had chosen that I see as just causing only harm, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable, it's all I wish for, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, it's suffering so futile to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly does terrify me how a human can suffer for so long just to face way worse suffering and torture in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence. I just want some peace from this torturous existence of cruelty and suffering where existing beings suffer so much until all is finally gone for them in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist.

Permanent non-existence really is the only peace for me, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, for me only non-existence is desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this, I just hope for peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing instead and it really feels like I've suffered for so long, the thought of being trapped in this existence just to die in agony from old age is just so horrific to me. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what and the only peace for me could lie in never existing ever again, I always wish for the option to simply cease existing in peace, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I wish for is to sleep, I just want to never wake ever again with all finally gone and forgotten for me and I'd just always prefer to forget about this cruel, futile existence no matter what, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope and wish for is non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again where all is finally gone and forgotten for me and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for non-existence. Eternal dreamless sleep really is the only peace for me, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and torturous to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want peace and non-existence really is the only peace for me, non-existence is all I see as positive.

I just don't find it desirable to exist and as well as that I see existence as the most cruel, futile and harmful burden that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, it really is all so dreadful to me and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence, nothing would ever make me wish for the burden of existence rather I just want some peace, I just want for all the suffering to be gone for me. I just never should had been forced to suffer at all and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, I just wish to permanently cease existing instead and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer and I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what, existence to me really is always the problem, it's just something so cruel and dreadful that just causes harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering of existing just continues.
It truly does just continue and I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never exist ever again, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd prefer to forget about this existence. I just wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering rather I just want to not exist, I was just never meant for any of this and I never should had suffered at all in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what.

I really just never should have suffered at all, to me existence truly is something so dreadful, torturous and harmful and I'd just never wish to suffer at all rather I only hope for peace, non-existence really is the only relief for me in this torturous, futile existence where there is all this harm and suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, existence to me truly is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist could ever bring me peace from. I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence and I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me as all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for under any circumstances, I never should had suffered in this cruel existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the suffering of this futile, cruel existence.
I truly would never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile existence rather I only hope for non-existence, for me non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me peace from this torturous existence of cruelty and suffering that I personally always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just hope to never exist ever again.

I just see existing as suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, in this existence where there's all this endless suffering non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace, I'd just never wish for any of this and I find it the most terrible tragedy how I had to suffer, I wish this existence was never imposed as I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again with all finally gone for me. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to not exist, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just want relief from all the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I really am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, and I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and finally I can be at peace, I just want sleep. I just want to rest and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and finally forget about this existence I always saw as a mistake that I just never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for some peace.

I'm always so tired of this futile, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering this existence causes is endless, no matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the suffering. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to never exist ever again, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as dreamless, eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable in this existence so cruel and torturous thatI just never would had chosen, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering so futile and unnecessary, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, to me existence really does just feel like the most cruel mistake that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, existence to me really is the problem as after all it's the ultimate cause of all suffering.

I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be forced into this cruel, torturous existence, there's just so much suffering in existing and in fact the suffering of existing is endless with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would just never wish to be burdened with this existence and I see existence as the most dreadful unnecessary burden and it's one that just causes so much pain and more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I never should had been burdened with this existence at all but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues. It's all just so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I'm just always so tired of this existence and I see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and for me peace could only lie in eternal sleep, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the relief of non-existence and the only relief for me could lie in never existing ever again, all I wish for is to be unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

This existence never should had been imposed.
This existence just never should had been imposed and I never should had been forced to suffer at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, futile existence rather all I hope for is non-existence. For me non-existence truly is all I see as positive and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence of unneccessary cruelty and suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I'll always see non-existence as the only relief for me and it's all I could wish for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me.

I just find it so dreadful how this existence there was never a need for was even imposed and as long as I exist I'll just always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me existence really is the problem, it's just something so dreadful and cruel and I just never should had been forced to suffer, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I only wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most torturous burden and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what rather I just want to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It really is always preferable for me and is all I hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this futile, torturous existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. It's just unnecessary suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I just find it so terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age and I'd just never wish for this existence, I'll always find it a burden to exist and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence.

I'll personally always see existence as the problem no matter what and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just want some peace, I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I always suffer from being conscious in this futile existence and only non-existence can bring me peace from the suffering of existing. I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, I just wish for relief from the suffering of existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for nothingness, non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and all I hope for is to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about for me, I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as non-existence is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen that I always see as the problem. To me existing truly is just only suffering and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want peace and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace, I just want to never exist ever again and to not exist has been all I've hoped for, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering eternal sleep really is all I personally see as positive and is all I wish for.

I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering rather I just want some peace, I want all to finally be forgotten for me, I never should had suffered at all it just feels like I've suffered for so long, existence to me really does feel like the problem, it's something so dreadful and cruel that just causes harm and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just hope for non-existence. For me non-existence truly is the only relief from this deeply undesirable existence that just brings and causes all this suffering and problems there were never a need for, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this cruel existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's one so cruel and torturous that just causes all this unnecessary suffering and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish for any of this, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty non-existence truly is all that's positive for me and is all I could hope for.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I only wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten. I truly am so tired of being burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I've ever hoped for is permanent relief from the burden of existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity. I want this existence to no longer be my problem and no matter what I'd just prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I never should had been forced to suffer in this existence at all and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, unnecessary existence, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is the only relief for me.
It really is the only relief for me as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, all I hope is for all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace, I just want to sleep and for me dreamless eternal sleep really is the only peace, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only hope to not exist. Non-existence really is all that's desirable for me as after all, only in non-existence will I be able to find permanent relief from suffering, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, existence to me is the problem and is something so dreadful that just causes suffering and harm and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want some peace.

I just hope to sleep, for me non-existence really is the only relief from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always just see existing as being unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and no matter what I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence. I just want to never suffer ever again instead and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep with all finally gone and forgotten for me, I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence than suffer all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
Non-existence truly is all I hope for and could ever do, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just want some peace, only non-existence can bring me any relief from this existence that just causes so much suffering and pain with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to sleep, I just hope to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain, no more suffering, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all that can bring me relief from suffering.

To me existing really is only suffering, it's all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I really would just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I only see ceasing to exist as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence. My wish to die is a response to existence, non-existence really is all I could hope for and could ever do no matter what, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, I just want to never wake ever again with no more pain, no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To be at peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing is all I hope for.
To be at permanent peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing truly is all I hope for and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, no matter what I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one I'd just never wish for, only non-existence could ever personally bring me the peace I search for and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to find permanent peace from this futile, torturous existence as non-existence is all I hope for and is all I personally see as positive, existence is just so cruel, so painful and so torturous and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for peace, I wish I never suffered at all and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I was just never meant for and never would had chosen, I wish I could just choose to find permanent peace from this existence, I only wish and hope to fall asleep permanently. I just want to never wake ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it truly is just all so painful and terrible to me, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so torturous to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering permanently ceasing to exist really is all I see as desirable. I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existence just continues and I'm always so tired of being conscious burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting for death anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this torturous existence.

I see existence itself as the true problem that just causes all this pain and suffering there was never a need for at all and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather I find it a burden to exist and it's one so cruel and torturous that just causes all this suffering and I suffer just from existing, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all I could hope for, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep instead, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily at all, I really never should had suffered in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten for me.
All I wish and hope is for all to finally be forgotten for me, all I wish for is peace from this cruel, torturous existence and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, all I hope for is to sleep permanently, I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence that only ever caused harm and suffering in the first place, to me existence really is the problem, it's something I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

I wish I could erase my existence, I wish I could just disappear from this existence, for me permanent non-existence truly is all that's positive, I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want peace and for me existing truly is just only suffering. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this undesirable existence that I just never would had chosen, I just hope for non-existence instead, I only wish for peace from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake in the first place and I'll always see existence as the problem. I just wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I really do always suffer so much because of the torturous, futile imposition of existence, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'm just always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

This existence never should had been imposed.
This existence truly never should had been imposed and I just never should had suffered at all, I'll just always see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for, I just find it so tragic how this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for was even imposed at all, existing to me really is only suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to rest, I just want some peace, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering non-existence really is all I wish for but of course this existence never should had been imposed. I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from the imposition of existence, eternal sleep really is all that appeals to me and is all I've ever wished for, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence and no matter what I'll see it as a burden to exist, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence at all rather I just want peace, I just want to rest, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I always suffer so much because I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing non-existence as desirable.
No matter what I could only see non-existence as desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I could hope for, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and I'd just never wish for this torturous, futile existence rather I only hope to not exist.

I just wish for peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I only wish to not exist and it's all I could wish for, non-existence would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, in this existence so cruel dreamless eternal sleep really is the only relief for me and is all I could wish for. I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I only hope for non-existence, to me existence is just something so dreadful, so futile and torturous, I see existence as the problem and this all just feels like a mistake to me, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I hope for is to finally be at true permanent peace where all is finally gone.

 

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For me non-existence is all I see as positive.
It truly is all I see as positive, all I personally wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from all the suffering and cruelty in this existence I just never would had chosen, non-existence is all that's positive for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten about, all I wish for is no more pain, no more suffering, existing to me is just so dreadful and futile and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get all while one is just waiting to cease existing anyway.

For me existence really is the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I only wish to not exist, non-existence really would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in an guaranteed way as I just want to never exist ever again, I just wish to not exist for all eternity. Ceasing to exist would save me from all future suffering and I'd just rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this torturous, futile existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous existence and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues. It's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish for some peace, I just want to not exist and only in non-existence will I be at peace from this futile, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence.

For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I was just never meant for any of this as well and I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from. I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the cruelty and suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for under any circumstances, to me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence that never should had been imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping to sleep.
To sleep really is all I hope for, I just want to fall asleep for all eternity and never suffer ever again, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, for me non-existence really is all I see as positive, I just want to never exist ever again. I just wish for permanent relief from this cruel, futile existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want sleep, I just hope for some peace, I just want to rest but of course all the suffering just continues, it really is all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

I never should had been burdened with this existence at all, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, to me existence really does feel like only suffering. I wish I could just choose to sleep for all eternity, dreamless eternal sleep really is the only relief for me in this existence so torturous I never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, for me existence truly is the problem, I always wish I could choose to fall asleep permanently and forget about it all, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace and for me peace could only lie in dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is the only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and is all that can bring me any peace from suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous that I just never would had chosen, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer and I always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer all for the sake of it in this futile existence, all I've personally ever hoped for is the peace of non-existence where finally I can rest and all is forgotten about.

For me existence truly is the problem and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake ever again, I just wish for non-existence, I just wish for peace and for me non-existence truly is the only relief, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake ever again, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and is all I could hope for. I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this harmful torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently as non-existence really is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just don't have any interest in existing and I see existing as only suffering, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily.

I just don't see anything desirable about existing rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I only hope to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, non-existence really is the only relief for me from this undesirable existence and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just don't find it appealing to exist rather I see it as a burden to exist. For me existence itself is the problem and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just wish for non-existence, I just hope for some peace, non-existence is all I hope for and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again. I'm always so tired of suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I always hope and wish to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence has been all I've hoped for.
It truly has been all I've hoped for, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place and no matter what I'll always see existence as the problem, to me existence just feels like the most terrible tragedy that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway.

I'd just always prefer to not exist, in this existence so cruel where there's all this suffering non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and is all I've hoped for, I'm just always so tired of suffering and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope to not exist, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this harmful torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay from age and cease existing anyway. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I just wish I never suffered at all, I never should had been burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I really am just so tired of suffering and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering and cruelty where I'm just waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to cease existing is a response to existence.
It truly is a response to existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for peace, I just wish for non-existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me.

I just never should had suffered in this torturous, futile existence at all and I'd never wish for any of this, to me existence really is the problem and source of all cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, for me ceasing to exist really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, existing to me is just so cruel, so futile and so dreadful and I could never wish to suffer rather I just want peace. I just want nothingness, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I only see non-existence as a relief and the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again, I'm just so tired of it all and I'll always find it so painful to exist no matter what, it's pain only non-existence could ever take away for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I really am just always so tired of it all, I only want to never exist ever again.