Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never desirable for me.
It truly was never desirable for me rather it was something that just caused harm and suffering, I really would never wish for any of the suffering of existing rather I just want to be gone, I just wish for this cruel, futile deeply undesirable existence to be all forgotten about and no longer my problem but of course I continue to suffer instead with me just hoping to never exist ever again. In general I just don't find existence to be a desirable state which is why no matter what I'll only hope for non-existence, I'll always wish for death as long as I exist, I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence and I'm just not meant for such either rather I just want to never suffer ever again.

I could never see anything desirable about existing rather I find it the most torturous, unnecessary burden to exist, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist and I'd just never wish to be conscious in this existence at all rather I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, I really never would have chosen or wished for any of this. To me existing is so undesirable under all circumstances, I see existing as nothing but suffering, it's just pointless suffering all for the sake of it that was so tragically imposed that just leads to decay and death anyway and I'm always so tired of being conscious, I truly would never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I just want nothingness instead, only non-existence could bring me relief from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way possible, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this torturous, futile existence.
There really is so much suffering in this torturous futile existence I was never meant for that I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's something I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I just hope to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues.

There really is so much suffering in this existence and what is so dreadful to me is how there's no limit as to how unbearable it can get, to me existing really does feel like nothing but suffering and nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it. I'd just prefer to not exist instead, non-existence really would solve everything for me and save me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, to never suffer ever again really is all I could wish and hope for, I just wish for permanent peace from this torturous cruel existence that just causes so much harm. Existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, it's all just so terrible to me, I just hope to be permanently free from it all, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and to me existing will always feel like only suffering, existence really is an abomination to me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wishing to sleep permanently.
No matter what I'll only hope and wish to sleep permanently, I just want to never suffer ever again, eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, no matter what peace for me could only lie in nothingness, it could only lie in this cruel futile existence finally being no longer my problem and eternal sleep is all I could see as desirable.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes, existence itself is the ultimate problem to me and just being conscious in this existence is enough to make me wish for death, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I'll only hope for an eternal sleep where finally I cannot suffer in any way and I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would have wished for. For me existence could never be worth it, it's something I'd always prefer to avoid and I could never see a point to any of this rather I only hope to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I see as causing nothing but suffering and harm and I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be conscious of this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently to finally escape from this existence I never should have been forced into.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence as an abomination, it's something so cruel, harmful and terrible that just causes endless amounts of suffering, all I personally hope for is to be permanently free from it and it's all I could ever wish for, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about for me. I'd never wish for the abomination of existence and I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, all that existence does is torment existing beings and harm them with no limit as to how much agony they can feel until death takes away all anyway.

I'll always see it as so torturous to suffer in this pointless existence no matter what, I just hope to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from the abomination of existence but of course the suffering just continues instead with me enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty just hoping and wishing to be gone. To me this existence truly does just feel like a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes and brings, I just want some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in non-existence when I'm finally safe from all suffering, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence. I just want to never suffer ever again, I could just never see anything desirable about being enslaved in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it, I just hope for non-existence but of course I wish I never existed more than anything, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of the abomination that is existence.

 

[Schizo_turk]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

life is not for everyone

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just peacefully free myself from this existence.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this existence and never exist ever again, I find it so painful and torturous to be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I see so much cruelty in how the option to just painlessly cease existing is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place. I personally just want peace from the suffering of existing, I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity with all finally forgotten about but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead and I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this cruel, futile existence just hoping for death anyway, there's just so much suffering in existing and I never wanted to suffer in the first place, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just hope to be non-existent, I hope for non-existence to solve everything for me, it's just so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have the option to choose to permanently stop suffering as non-existence is all I see as desirable. All I wish for is the option to simply cease existing in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to much worse agony and the fact that I'm denied that just shows how horrific this world really is, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in suffering in this existence.
I really never have had any interest in suffering in this existence and I'd never wish for the suffering this existence causes no matter what, in general I just don't see existence as a desirable state and I don't see any value to being conscious in this existence rather I'd just prefer to not exist instead. Permanent non-existence is all I wish and hope for, I personally find it the most cruel, futile burden to exist and I suffer simply from existing, just being conscious in this existence is enough to make me wish for death, all of this just feels like a mistake to me and I was never meant for it either.

To me existence is a problem that just causes and brings suffering and it's something I only hope for permanent relief from, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just wish and hope to be permanently unable to suffer, I find it tiring to simply exist and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence can take away for me. I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, I just see existence as something so unnecessary that there was never a need for as well, I could never see any point to any of this and the thought of suffering until old age is really horrific and unbearable, I just don't see anything desirable about that at all rather I see it as the opposite, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, non-existence is all that can personally bring me any relief, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, pointless existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see it as something so dreadful to be forced into existence.
No matter what I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this existence, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish I never suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed at all especially as there was never a need for existence with their being no disadvantages to never suffering at all. All that existence does is cause so much pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay and die anyway, I see existence as just so harmful, I'd never wish to be enslaved in this reality where there is all this endless suffering rather I just want it all gone and forgotten for me, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered.

Only never suffering at all is perfection to me, existence really always does just feel like a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just want to fall asleep permanently where I'm finally free from this existence I was tragically forced into, to me human existence is just pointless suffering, I find it deeply undesirable to exist. I find it painful to be conscious in this existence I never would have chose and I find it so dreadful how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place and it all just leads to death anyway, I'd rather die sooner to escape from suffering but of course I never should have suffered at all, existence really is completely unnecessary, it's something I'd never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is my way to find safety from suffering.
It really would be my way to find safety from suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, for me having the option to painlessly free myself from this existence would be suffering prevention in an existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for where all that lies ahead is decay and way more torture.

I'd personally always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this pointless existence, there's just so much cruelty in existing and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this harmful existence just waiting to die anyway, personally I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it, I just don't see any value and don't see any point to suffering in this existence which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. All I wish for is to be permanently safe from all harm and suffering but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake that I never would have chosen, I wish for the option to just painlessly cease existing with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering as a result as I just don't want to suffer at all rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, I wish to be safe from all suffering and what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, it's all so horrific to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish to be non-existent, non-existence really would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from this existence.
All I personally hope for is peace from this existence, I just hope to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again and for me peace could only lie in eternal sleep, it could only lie in the torturous abomination of human existence being permanently forgotten about and no longer my problem. For me there could never be any peace in suffering in this horrific reality where existing beings are tortured all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway.

There could never be any peace as long as I exist and nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence rather I just want to cease existing with this existence finally all gone, being permanently at peace from this existence is all I could see as desirable but of course I wish I never suffered at all more than anything and I never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence. I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again but of course we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from suffering as peace from this existence really is all I hope for, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for peace and only eternal non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I've always wished for the peace of never suffering ever again and it's all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the most harmful abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the most harmful abomination that just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer so much for the sake of it until death takes away all and all is finally forgotten about anyway, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this harmful existence and I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence either. I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist and I wish I could just choose to permanently free myself from all the suffering of existing and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I suffer just from being enslaved in this harmful existence where there is all this endless suffering just waiting to die anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist.

Non-existence really is all that can bring me relief from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, existence is an abomination that just brings and causes so much pain all for the sake of it, I really would never wish for any of this at all, I just hope for the peace of non-existence to bring me relief from this harmful existence that just brings suffering and causes so many problems there was never a need for. What is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why to not exist is all I hope for, non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, it's all that can bring me any peace from the torturous harmful abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, nothing would ever make me wish to be burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I wish I was never enslaved in this existence of pointless cruelty and unnecessary suffering at all. I could personally just never see any value to suffering in this existence rather I see such as always so dreadful and deeply undesirable in every way possible, to me existence truly is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and it's just something that harms existing beings.

I'll always find it a burden to exist and I find it so tragic how this unnecessary existence was even imposed at all that just caused so much suffering, I find it dreadful how I had to suffer at all in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead. I find it dreadful to simply be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway and it just terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence. To me existence is the problem, it's something completely hopeless that just causes so much pain all for the sake of it until all is forgotten about in death anyway, as long as I exist I'll only hope for death, I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for this existence to finally no longer be my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that can bring me any relief.
It really is all that can bring me any relief, the only relief for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again where all is finally forgotten about, I just wish to forget about this torturous, undesirable existence that only ever brought so much suffering and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence. I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again where nothing can concern me and I'm finally unable to suffer and existence to me is only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

Non-existence truly is all that can bring me any relief from what I see as the true problem that is existence itself, non-existence truly is all that's positive to me in this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and so many problems there were never a need for in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would always prefer to not exist and non-existence is preferable for me than suffering in this existence. I just wish and hope for the relief of never suffering ever again where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and to never suffer ever again is all I can hope for, I've only ever wished for non-existence, I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep but of course the suffering just continues, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've existed for so long.
It really feels like I've suffered in this existence for so long, it's all just so painful and dreadful to me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer with me trapped in this existence just wishing to finally be gone, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish to sleep permanently. I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake when really I never should have been forced to suffer so unnecessarily at all, to me existing is always deeply undesirable and I find it painful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it.

It feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always so tired of suffering, it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from all suffering, I just find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering at all. I really would never wish for any of this under any circumstances, I'll always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering. I never wished to suffer in this harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for much longer just to die in agony from old age, I only hope to painlessly cease existing, I always suffer so much from how painless death is so harmfully denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I truly do always wish to erase my existence, I want it to be like this existence was never imposed as I really never should have been forced to suffer at all, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition and it's something that just causes pain and suffering and there's so much suffering in existing. I really would never wish for any of this and I never would under any circumstances, I'm just not meant to suffer in this existence and I see nothing desirable about it either.

I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just wish for all to be forgotten about for me but of course the suffering just continues instead in this existence I never would have chose, I wish to just erase my existence and being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me, saving me from all future unnecessary suffering as a result. I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering, in fact to me existence itself will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and without existence one cannot suffer in any way, to be permanently unable to suffer in this existence is all I could personally see as ideal, I just want all to be gone for me, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's something I really never should have been forced into, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It really is all that's positive for me as after all it's the permanent end to me suffering in this torturous, undesirable existence I just saw as causing nothing but suffering, no matter what I'd never wish for the futile, cruel burden of existence rather I just want all to be gone for me. Non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief and it's all I could see as desirable, non-existence would be the relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the permanent absence of existence which is why it's all I hope for, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering permanent non-existence is all that can bring me any peace.

Non-existence would save me from suffering and never suffering ever again could only ever be positive for me, I just wish to be free from this cruel existence I never would have wished for that was so tragically imposed even know there was never a need for any of this and there were no disadvantages to never suffering at all, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist. I'd prefer to not exist over suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen, non-existence is preferable for me than being conscious burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts just to be tortured by old age, the way I see it existence just causes nothing but suffering which is why I just hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish to finally forget about this existence and be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much because I exist.
I truly do suffer so much because I exist, it's all just so cruel and terrible, I wish to just painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again but of course suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, nothing would make me wish to exist in this reality where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering rather I just wish to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this torturous, undesirable existence and I'm always so tired of suffering.

It's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing which is why non-existence is all that's positive for me, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing and hoping to be gone. I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and I'll suffer until all is finally forgotten about for me in death anyway, I just want to be at peace from all the suffering of existing and I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake that just harms and torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all so painful and torturous, I just hope to be free from it all, the only relief for me could only lie in permanent non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and all is gone.

 

[RoyBlight]

Such suffering... I'm rather speechless now...

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existence will always feel like a mistake.
It truly does always feel like a mistake, I see existence as the most terrible tragic abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway, it's all just so cruel to me, I truly would never wish for any of this but rather I only wish for non-existence, only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this torturous, unnecessary existence that just harms existing beings and causes them to suffer so immensely.

It's all just so painful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this mistake, I just hope to never suffer ever again, to me existing really is just cruelty and torture all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it all, I just hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just hope for permanent relief from the torturous, undesirable abomination of existence that just causes existing beings to suffer until death takes away all for them anyway. I personally just want for this existence to be gone and forgotten, I just hope for all the suffering to be gone for me, I see existence as a mistake and it's one I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I find it so tragic how this torturous, unnecessary existence was imposed with endless amounts of suffering being created as a result, all I personally hope for is peace from the mistake of existence and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I just want this existence to finally be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is only suffering to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as only being suffering and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just want to never exist again instead, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about, I really will always see existence as a mistake, to me existence really is an abomination that just causes so much harm and nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious in this harmful existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway rather I just want to never suffer ever again.


I just want this existence to finally be all gone for me, only in the absence of existence will I be unable to suffer which is why non-existence is all I could personally see as desirable, it's all that could ever feel positive to me, I only hope to be free from all the suffering and existing to me feels like only suffering. I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be conscious in this harmful, unnecessary existence where existing beings are tortured all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope for all to be gone for me. I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I'll always see it as the most terrible harmful tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all that just caused and brought so much suffering so cruelly, there's just so much cruelty in this torturous, painful existence, I really would never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from this torturous, futile existence.
All I could ever hope for is peace from this torturous, futile existence, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering continues with me just hoping to be gone, no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination, it's something that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and no matter what I'd prefer to be permanently unconscious of this harmful undesirable existence that just torments existing beings, peace for me could only lie in non-existence and to not exist is all I wish for.

I just want to fall asleep eternally but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I just saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake and nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and torture of existence no matter what rather I just want all to be gone for me, to me existence will always be something so dreadful. There's just so much cruelty in existing, I wish I could just peacefully cease existing and forget about it all but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping for some peace, I'l only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem, all I hope for is to be non-existent incapable of suffering but of course I'm still just trapped in this existence, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to choose to never suffer ever again, I just want to forget about this existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in existing which is just so terrible and torturous to me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped and enslaved in this existence just hoping to be gone. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I just hope to be non-existent where all is finally forgotten.

I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from the terrible cruelty of existing where existing beings are tortured all for the sake of it, the fact that there is all this suffering in existing is certainly why I'd always prefer to not exist I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this existence just hoping to be free from it all, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to never exist ever again. I'll always find it painful to suffer in this cruel existence that just caused so much suffering that there was never a need for at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent peace from it, I just hope for this existence to finally be gone and forgotten for me and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace to finally escape from this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm, I'd just never wish to be conscious in this harmful existence and as long as I exist I'll suffer and hope to be free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the most cruel, futile abomination.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile abomination that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel and it's all just so unnecessary anyway. No matter what I really would never wish for the pain of existing, I find it so dreadful to suffer and be conscious in this torturous existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, the fact that the abomination of existence causes so much suffering really is the most terrible tragedy to me and it's one there was never a need for.

I see existence as only causing harm and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this harmful existence that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it and just continues to do endlessly, existence to me is just something so hopeless, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and to be permanently unconscious of this existence is all I could hope for. In an existence where there is all this pain and torment non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any relief and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to free myself from this existence and never suffer ever again, I'll personally always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know existence really is the most torturous, futile abomination and I never would have chosen or wished for any of this, I'd never wish for any of the suffering and I suffer so much from being conscious in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of being trapped in this existence.
I really am always so tired of being trapped in this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me and I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just want it all to be gone for me, the fact that this existence was even imposed will always be so tragic to me. I just wish I could choose to peacefully cease existing and finally escape from it all but of course the suffering just continues instead and I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I really was never meant for the suffering this existence so tragically causes and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence no matter what and it's pain that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me.

I was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, only eternal non-existence could ever be positive to me personally but of course all the suffering in this cruel, futile existence just continues instead and I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence, the tiredness I feel is such that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from. All I hope for is the option to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering and I see it as so dreadful how that is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful existence, as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness, I just want this existence to be no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and could ever be no matter what, peace for me could only lie in being permanently free from the torturous unnecessary abomination where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that's positive for me as after all there is no suffering in the absence of existence where all is gone and to be permanently free from suffering is all I hope for. I really was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, nothing would make me wish for this painful existence where existing beings are tormented so much rather I just hope for non-existence.

Never suffering ever again really is all that's positive for me and could save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death, I just hope for permanent relief from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I only hope to be permanently free from, to me personally non-existence is all that could feel positive. I see never suffering ever again as always positive for me, it's all I hope for, I just wish for peace from this existence I just saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake that just harms existing beings until death takes away all anyway and all is finally forgotten about, I just wish to forget about this existence that just causes existing beings to suffer and was so tragically imposed, there's just so much suffering in this existence which is why non-existence is all that feels positive for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is forced suffering.
It truly is just forced suffering that just tortures and torments existing beings, it's all so terrible, cruel and painful, I really would never wish for any of this and no matter what I'll always see it as the most harmful tragedy to be forced into this existence in the first place. To me human existence really is enslavement as after all it was something that was so harmfully imposed causing so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for yet suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it really just is all so undesirable to me, it's so painful to be forced to suffer in this existence without the option to just choose to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again as all I hope for is the absence of suffering, I wish for this torturous, cruel existence to be all gone and forgotten about.

I'll always see it as tragic how I was forced to suffer in this existence so unnecessarily and existence to me really is only suffering, I just wish I never existed more than anything, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway, I just want to forget about it all instead. I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again where finally this existence is all gone but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to painlessly cease existing is denied even know this existence was so harmfully forced in the first place, I'll always see it as so harmful to be forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing painless death to solve everything for me.
It really is all I need, I just hope and wish for permanent peace from this futile, torturous existence I was never meant for and I never would have chose, I just want to never suffer ever again, painless death would solve everything for me as after all it removes the ultimate cause of all suffering which is existence itself and without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way, there's just so much suffering in this terrible, harmful existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake.

It's all just so painful and I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to just peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, for me non-existence is all that's positive, only non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues. I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to being enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it destined to decay and die anyway, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination that just causes harm which is why I just hope and wish for painless death to solve everything for me. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed just hoping and wishing to be gone, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep to solve everything for me in this existence I never would wish for under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the problem.
Existence itself really is the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty that just tortures and torments existing beings, it truly is all just so terrible and painful and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself. I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence as to me existing is only suffering and I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, I'll always wish for death no matter what as what I truly have a problem with is existence itself, it's just so cruel how there isn't the option for me to simply cease existing in peace even know this existence was so tragically imposed and I suffer so much because of the torturous, unnecessary imposition of existence.

As long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as the problem and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is all that can bring any relief. I just want this torturous undesirable existence to be all gone and forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer enslaved in this existence just wishing and hoping to be gone, existence to me really is something so dreadful, there's just so much cruelty in existing and I see non-existence as preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this existence there was never a need for that was completely unnecessary just to be tortured in agony from old age.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
All I hope and wish for is some peace and it's all I could ever hope for no matter what, I just want for this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic abomination to be no longer my problem and finally all forgotten about but of course I continue to suffer instead and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I just wish for this torturous painful existence to be all gone.

I just want to sleep for all eternity with nothing able to concern or harm me in any way and I'll always see it as so harmful to exist, to me existing is only suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I just want peace from it all and peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again, for me it could never lie in this horrific reality where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To me existence really is the most harmful, dreadful mistake and it's a mistake I only hope for permanent peace from, in an existence where there is all this suffering, cruelty and torture non-existence really is all I personally see as positive, I was never meant to suffer, I never should have been forced to suffer at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is so tragic to me and it's a tragedy I only hope for peace from, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific reality, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to cease existing as a response to existence.
My wish to permanently cease existing truly is a response to existence, I wish to not exist as I was so tragically forced into this existence of pointless suffering and wanting to die is all I know, for me non-existence is all that's desirable, ideal and could ever be positive for me. I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence is the problem which is why I only hope for death, I find it painful to suffer in this existence and I see existence as a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and so many problems there were never a need for at all, it's all just so dreadful to me and undesirable, I'll always wish for death no matter what and it's all I could wish for.

I just wish for this torturous, unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem and I'll always wish for death as after all what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, to me existence is an abomination as it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and no matter what I'd prefer to be permanently unconscious than enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just waiting to die anyway. I personally see no value in existing rather I see it as something so harmful that causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish to not exist, only non-existence could bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'll only wish to cease existing.