Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It really is always preferable for me and is all that can bring me any peace and relief from suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist than be tormented in this harmful existence just waiting to die anyway, in general I see non-existence as preferable as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and nothing could ever concern me, all I hope is for this existence to be no longer my problem but of course I continue to suffer so much instead in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

Non-existence truly is all that could personally bring me the relief and safety from suffering I search for but of course I continue to be trapped and enslaved in this existence just hoping to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can personally bring me the relief I search for from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existing and to not exist is all I could ever wish for, it's all I personally see as preferable, it's what I see as ideal. I'd prefer to not exist over being conscious in this existence there was never a need for suffering all for the sake of it just waiting for death anyway, it's just so terrifying to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to be conscious suffering in this existence no matter what, I just wish for the peace that only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me and it's all I'll hope for as long as I'm unfortunate enough to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing the peace of eternal nothingness.
All I need is the peace of eternal nothingness to save me from the torturous, cruel abomination of existence, I'd never wish for any of this and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I always have done and always would do no matter what, I just wish for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping for the peace that only never suffering ever again could bring me. In an existence so futile and painful eternal nothingness is all I hope for, all that could bring me any peace is being unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering but of course I just continue to be enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed only hoping for all to finally be forgotten.

I just want to forget about this existence and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem, to suffer in this dreadful existence is always an abomination to me, I find it such a futile, cruel burden to be conscious at all, peace from this existence really has been all I've ever wished for. I truly was never meant for any of this, I was never meant for something as horrific as existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's just so much suffering in existing which is why I only hope for peace, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence which is why it's all I could ever hope for, for me existence was never worth it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish this existence was never imposed.
I really do always wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much suffering and so much harm and to me existence feels like nothing but suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again. To me existence will always be an abomination no matter what and it's one I wish I was never forced into, the fact that this existence was even imposed is always so tragic to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want all to be gone for me.

I wish for this existence I always saw as a mistake to be finally be no longer my problem but of course I just continue to suffer instead, existing to me just feels like nothing but suffering and more than anything I wish I was never forced into it, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that was completely unnecessary that only ever brought so much pain all for the sake of it. No matter what nothing would make me wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I wish I could just have the option to simply cease existing in peace and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place and I see existence as just causing nothing but harm, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wanting to not exist.
No matter what I'll always and only wish to not exist and it's all I could ever hope for, I just wish for this torturous, futile existence to finally be no longer my concern and all forgotten about, non-existence is all that's ideal for me, it'd solve everything and bring me so much peace, relief and safety from suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist.

I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course I'm trapped in this existence of unnecessary suffering that I never would have chose and never would have wished for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to permanently be free from it all, to me existence really is the most unnecessary tragic mistake that just causes so much harm torturing existing beings all for the sake of it and I just would never wish for any of this. I've always hoped to not exist and it's all I could ever hope for no matter what, I just wish for permanent peace and relief from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way possible, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and it's all I'll wish and hope for, to not exist really would solve everything for me in this existence so torturous and cruel that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, for me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can save me from the cruelty and suffering of existing.
It really is all that can save me from all the cruelty and suffering of existing, all I wish for is to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen just hoping to be gone. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to be permanently safe and at peace from it, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, there's just so much suffering in existing and I'll only be safe from it once I'm non-existent unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way.

Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this harmful, torturous existence rather I just want to never exist ever again, I wish to be permanently safe from this existence I always saw as the most cruel terrible mistake and existence will always feel like a mistake to me, it's one that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway with no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get. Existing really can get way more torturous at any moment which is just so cruel and dreadful to me, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently safe from all suffering, I just wish for this existence to finally no longer be my concern but of course I continue to suffer instead with me trapped and enslaved in this existence that was so harmfully imposed, there really is just so much cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It really does just cause so much harm and will do until death takes away all anyway, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer in this harmful existence ever again, I just wish for this existence to be all gone for me, to me existence truly is the most terrible cruel mistake, it's an abomination to me that just tortures existing beings and I really never would wish to be conscious in this harmful existence rather I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again. I see existence as causing nothing but harm and suffering and to never suffer ever again really is all I could see as desirable, I just wish to forget about this existence, I just wish for the cruelty and suffering of this existence to be all forgotten about for me.

Existence just causes so much harm causing suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how unbearable and torturous it can get and I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this harmful existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence that just torments existing beings, I'll always see existence as so harmful as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering. Existence to me really is just only suffering and I'll suffer until non-existence takes away all for me anyway, I just find it so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence can bring me peace from, I just wish for peace from this harmful existence but of course I cannot just have a death like never waking again so the suffering just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to never wake ever again.
All I could hope and wish for is to never wake again, I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to be all forgotten about for me, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it, never waking again really would solve everything for me and is all I hope for.

I just want to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm, eternal sleep is all that could bring me peace from this existence I always saw as the most harmful, terrible tragic mistake, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again and it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have that option even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place. Nothing would make me wish for the imposition of existence rather I just wish to be non-existent, for me eternal non-existence really is the only peace from this existence so undesirable, I could just never see anything desirable about suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone for me. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking as I'm always so tired of being conscious in this torturous, cruel existence and I really would never wish for any of this, I was just never meant for any of the suffering this existence so cruelly causes and I'll suffer until death takes away all anyway, eternal sleep certainly is all that can bring me peace, I just wish for the relief of this existence finally no longer being my concern.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peace is all I hope for.
Peace from this cruel, futile existence truly is all I hope for and is all I could ever do no matter what, I just wish for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just want to never exist ever again and as long as I exist I'll just hope for some peace.

For me non-existence really is all that's desirable, it's all that could bring me any relief, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering and it's a mistake I only wish to be permanently free from, I was never meant for this existence and I'll always find it painful and tiring to exist, I just wish for this existence to be all gone for me, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I'm unable to suffer in any way. I'll always see it as something so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for any of this, I just want nothingness instead, I just wish for this deeply undesirable cruel existence to be finally all gone, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, the fact that this existence was even imposed is always the most cruel tragedy to me and I'd never wish for the imposition of existence, nothing would make me wish for any of this suffering rather I just want some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me, non-existence is the solution for suffering for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer so much from waiting for death, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how this existence was even imposed that was completely unnecessary and there was never a need for at all. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and to never suffer ever again in this cruel existence is all I hope for, for me non-existence really is all that's ideal, it'd solve, take away and bring me peace from what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

Existence is the problem to me as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and it's something I only hope for permanent relief from, I just hope and wish for the relief of never suffering ever again where finally this existence is forgotten, non-existence really is all that can bring me peace and I always suffer so much from being denied the option to just painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again. I wish to not exist and I'd always prefer to be permanently free from this existence no matter what than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence there was never a need for that I always saw as the most cruel, painful tragic mistake, I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, eternal sleep really is all I could ever hope for but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping and wishing to finally be free from it all, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this harmful existence.
There really is so much cruelty in this harmful undesirable existence, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, I wish I could just painlessly cease existing in peace and forget about it all but of course we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong instead, existence to me is just so harmful, it just brings and causes suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence. I only hope and wish for nothingness instead, only in non-existence will this cruel, harmful existence finally no longer be my problem, existence is so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless.

It's all just so cruel, there's so much cruelty in this existence and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for much longer with no limit as to how much one can suffer, to me existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped and enslaved in this existence I never would have chosen just hoping to be gone. I only hope for permanent relief from this harmful existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake but of course the suffering just continues instead, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, existing to me really is just only suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty in this harmful existence, I'd never wish for existence, to me existence is something I'd always prefer to avoid.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence that was so tragically imposed, I always suffer so much because of the imposition of existence and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me, all I hope and wish for is to cease existing in peace with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake finally no longer my problem. I personally always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and it's pain that only eternal nothingness can take away for me and bring me relief from.

I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is just only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want all to finally be gone for me which is why it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing to save myself from suffering in this existence I always feel so tired of and I'll feel tired until non-existence takes away all for me anyway. Only ceasing to exist could ever be ideal for me, I just want to never suffer ever again in this existence I always saw as the most cruel tragedy, I suffer so much because of this existence that just feels like a mistake, I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering and I'm always so tired of it, it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and I can finally forget about this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for this existence.
I really was never meant for this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty until death takes away all anyway and to never exist ever again is all I could hope for, I was never meant to exist and I really never should have suffered at all in this existence, to me existence will always be the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm and torments existing beings and I'd just never wish for any of this. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want nothingness, to not exist is all I'm meant for, I was never meant for something ad torturous and unnecessary as existence that just causes an immense amount of harm and I see it as all so futile anyway.

To me existence really is just futile, pointless suffering that just torments existing beings and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to be tormented by old age, to me existence will always be something so hopeless, I see existence as the problem, it's the source of all suffering after all and I just don't want to suffer at all in any way I only wish for true eternal peace instead where this existence is all forgotten about. Only non-existence can take away my suffering and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence I never would have chosen that I was never meant for, only non-existence can solve what the true problem is for me which is existence itself and I was just never meant for all this suffering, I never should have suffered in this existence that I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way, I see nothing desirable about any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied peaceful death.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existing as a human that always felt like such a terrible mistake to me in the first place, death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd rather choose my death to save myself from all futile suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what rather I just hope for nothingness, I could personally never see any benefit, value and point to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all.

I just hope for this torturous, futile existence I never would have chosen to be all forgotten about but of course I continue to suffer enslaved in this existence all for the sake of it instead, I wish I never had to suffer at all, nothing would make me wish for the pointless suffering of existing, to me existence really could never be worth it rather it's something I only want permanent peace from that I could never see any benefit or value to. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently escape from suffering in an existence I see as just causing so much harm and problems there were never a need for at all, existence really does just feel like a mistake to me and it's one that only ever caused me to suffer and the fact that I cannot just have the option to painlessly escape from all this suffering causes me so much pain, I'd never wish to be conscious in this unnecessary, painful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to erase my existence.
All I wish and hope for is to permanently erase my existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, for me existence was always something so deeply undesirable that only ever caused pain and suffering, in fact to me existing is only suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. Being able to erase my existence really would solve everything to me and bring me so much peace from this torturous, futile existence that just tortured existing beings, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the torture of existing rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I see existence as a burden and it's one I was never meant for that I never should have been forced into, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any relief.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer conscious trapped in this existence of unnecessary suffering but really I never should have suffered at all, to never suffer in this existence ever again really will always be all that's desirable to me personally, being able to erase my existence would be such a relief for me and save me from so much unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. Nothing can concern me or harm me if I'm permanently unconscious but of course I never should have suffered at all, the fact that this existence was imposed is really tragic to me, it just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I always wish to erase my existence of pointless cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
To me existence itself really will always be the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I'll always see it as something so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what and to me existing really is just only suffering, I suffer as I'm unfortunate enough to be burdened with this existence and simply existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death. My wish to die is a response to existence and wanting to cease existing really is all I know, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous undesirable existence where existing beings are tormented so much, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, it's all just so painful and terrible.

I really would never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from the problem of existence, I just wish for this torturous, unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem, I always suffer so much from this existence I always saw as the most terrible, harmful mistake and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem that just causes suffering which is why it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing with no risks of trying to die going wrong and lead to way worse agony as I only want to never exist ever again, I only hope for peace from this deeply undesirable existence I saw as causing so much harm, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist, I find it painful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it, for me non-existence really is all I wish and hope for, to never suffer ever again really is all that could be desirable to me, only non-existence can bring me peace from this painful, torturous existence I see as just causing nothing but suffering. For me just being conscious in this existence is the most futile, cruel burden that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, to me existence just feels like a mistake that causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for.

I'll always see it as so cruel and dreadful to be enslaved in this existence just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, I could never see any point to any of this, it's just pointless suffering and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that can continue for so long, I really wish I was never forced to exist, to me existence is the most torturous, futile imposition and I always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence. I wish to not exist every second and it's all I could ever hope for no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'd never wish for any of this at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this painful existence, I just wish for this existence to be forgotten and no longer my concern, peace for me really could only lie in never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can save me from suffering.
Permanent non-existence truly is all that can save me from suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten about. If I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I hope for, I just wish for the absence of existence where I cannot suffer at all, cannot be harmed in any way and there is no more pain, no more suffering, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence and I'd never wish to exist.

To me existence is the most torturous, dreadful abominaton with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway and I just wish to be safe from all this, I only wish for the safety from suffering that only eternal non-existence can bring me, I'd never wish to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and to me existence is the most unnecessary burden that just causes harm, suffering and so many problems. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence and nothing would make me wish for any of this, I just see no point to suffering at all as well rather I just wish for permanent relief and permanent safety from all suffering, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unable to suffer in this existence, I just want peace from this dreadful, unnecessary existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never worth it for me.
It truly was never worth it for me rather existence to me was always the most torturous, futile abomination that just caused so much harm, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway. More than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced into this existence I always saw as a mistake just hoping and waiting to die anyway, the fact that this existence was even imposed at all will always be so tragic to me, I see existence as the most harmful, terrible tragedy that just causes so much harm and I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence either.

I really was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish to exist no matter what rather I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence rather I just want this existence to finally be all gone for me, I could just never see it as worth it for me suffering in this existence that just causes pain and problems there were never a need for that was so unnecessary rather I just want to not exist. For me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence so cruel and torturous, I'd never wish for the dreadful, futile burden of existing as a human where there is all this terrible suffering all for the sake of it, I just don't see existence as a desirable state in general, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is cruelty and suffering.
It really is just cruelty and suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence, I'll always see it as something so terrible and dreadful to exist, to me existence is nothing but suffering and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I really would always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this torturous futile existence that was so tragically imposed.

To me existence really is the most terrible tragedy, it's something that just causes endless amounts of suffering torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so cruelly causes rather I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as just causing nothing but harm. Existence to me really is just nothing more than cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and only being permanently free from this existence could ever be desirable to me, I just hope and wish for non-existence where finally I can be at peace and I can finally be free from this existence I always saw as an abomination, to me existence truly is just only suffering and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful how I was forced to suffer in this existence that was always so unnecessary.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most terrible tragedy.
It really is the most terrible harmful tragedy to me that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this suffering and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it'd remove the source of all suffering which is existence itself, without existence one cannot be harmed and cannot suffer in any way which is all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to avoid the terrible tragedy of existence.

I just wish for peace from this torturous, futile existence I saw as just causing nothing but suffering but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence without the option to just peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, the fact that this existence that just causes so much suffering was even imposed is just so tragic to me, I'd never wish for the terrible tragedy of existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again. I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, existence to me is just something so cruel and harmful, I'd just never wish for any of this, non-existence is always preferable for me but more than anything I wish I was never forced into the terrible tragedy of existence, I really never should have suffered and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again. I just want permanent peace from this existence I never would have chosen, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, to me existence will always feel like the most cruel mistake no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be free from it all, for me non-existence is the only peace.

 

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Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It really is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me peace from the terrible unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing, no matter what I'd prefer to die than be conscious enslaved in this existence, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem and finally bring me peace from the terrible harmful tragedy of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it.

I really was never meant for any of this and never should have suffered at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, all I wish for is to permanently cease existing in peace and never exist ever again. I just wish for this torturous, undesirable existence to be finally all forgotten about and no longer my problem, non-existence is all that could ever be positive for me, non-existence would solve everything for me in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen. I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and there is no more suffering, no more cruelty, no more pain, for me existence really was never worth it and it's something I just wish for permanent relief from, non-existence is all that's desirable for me and is all I see as ideal but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have suffered in this existence, the fact that this existence was even imposed is such a terrible tragedy to me.

 

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I've just never had any interest in suffering.
I truly have never had any interest in suffering, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, undesirable existence and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist but of course the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake. No matter what I'll only hope for non-existence as long as I exist, I just don't see existence as a desirable state at all rather it's something I only hope for permanent relief from, I really was just never meant for this existence of cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again.

I see nothing appealing about suffering in this existence rather I just want to sleep eternally, dreamless eternal sleep is all that can bring me peace in this existence I'd always prefer to forget about, I just want to permanently cease existing with all finally forgotten about for me, I'll always see existence itself as the problem, it's something I've never had any interest in that I wish was never imposed more than anything. Nothing would make me wish for the torturous, unnecessary imposition of existence that just causes so much pain and so many problems until death takes away all anyway, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to painlessly cease existing is denied for me even know I've never had any interest in suffering in this existence and never would do under any circumstance, I just want permanent peace instead.

 

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Never wanting to exist ever again.
All I wish for is to never exist ever again, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, existence to me really is just only suffering and all I hope for is to be permanently free from it all, I just wish for this torturous undesirable existence to be all forgotten and no longer my problem. Non-existence really is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, I just wish to be at peace from this existence of pointless suffering and to me existence truly is only suffering.

I suffer as a result of being conscious in this existence and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, relief for me could only lie in this existence being all gone and no longer my problem, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just wish for peace and for me peace could never lie in this horrific reality where existing beings are tormented so much until death takes away all anyway. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope to be non-existent, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I never should have suffered in this torturous existence in the first place, existing to me really is just only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Don't belong in this existence.
I really don't belong in this existence of cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it, eternal sleep really is the only relief for me, I just want this existence to finally be forgotten about, I just want to never suffer ever again, I never should have existed, to me human existence is such a terrible, tragic abomination. It's just pain and suffering that leads to even more suffering and what is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how torturous it can get, I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I don't belong in, to me existence is only suffering and I'll suffer until all is forgotten about for me in death, I just want to sleep eternally, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace, relief I search for.

Existence to me is just so painful, there's just so much pain in existing, it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me, I don't belong in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it, I just want some peace, I just want to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, nothing would make me wish for this harmful existence of cruelty and suffering rather I just wish to be free from it all. I was just never meant for any of this, I don't belong in this existence and I'll only be at peace once all the suffering is gone, to me existence is an abomination, human existence is a terrible mistake to me, non-existence is the only way for me to find peace from this, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much as a result of existence.
I really do always suffer so much as a result of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I suffer because I exist, all my suffering is a result of existence, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty that just torments existing beings, there's just so much suffering in existing. It's all so terrible and painful to me, I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, there's no suffering in the absence of existence which is why it's all I'll hope for, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten.

I could personally just never see any point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, I really will only be at peace when this torturous unnecessary existence is finally no longer my problem, non-existence truly is all that's positive for me, it's all that could bring me any relief from this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose. I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, I wish I could just peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all, existing to me really is just so dreadful, I'll always see it as so dreadful having to suffer in this existence that is just so undesirable to me, existence to me will always be the true problem and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so torturous to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from this torturous, futile existence I always saw as the most harmful, tragic mistake, I personally find it so dreadful to just be conscious in this existence, existence to me is the most cruel burden that was so tragically imposed.

I'd just never wish for the imposition of existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, to me existing truly is just only suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away for me all anyway, for me non-existence really is always preferable, it's all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent. There isn't any suffering in what I see as ideal which is non-existence, all I wish for is to forget about this torturous existence and I'll always find it so painful to exist, I really would never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way, non-existence really is the only relief for me which is why I suffer so much from how the option to cease existing painlessly is denied for me, I only hope for peace from this torturous existence that truly never was worth it for me and never could be no matter what, I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me non-existence really is all that's desirable.
It really is all I personally see as desirable, I just hope and wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, I just find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and always will do no matter what, I could never see anything appealing about being forced to suffer in this existence, I just don't see any benefit or value to having to exist at all rather to me existence is always the most cruel, futile burden and it's something I just don't see as desirable at all, existing to me will always be completely undesirable in every way, I also see it as so unnecessary to suffer in this existence as well.

I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence that there was never a need for that just harmed and tormented existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist, I could never see any point to any of this rather I just want to forget about it all, I just wish for this cruel, futile existence to finally be all forgotten about for me. I only see eternal sleep as desirable where there is no more pain, no more suffering, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, painful existence rather I'd just prefer to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this terrible, tragic existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope to be non-existent, I was never meant for this existence and wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

To die means to never suffer ever again.
And this is why non-existence is all I wish and hope for as I just want to never suffer ever again, only in the absence of existence where all is gone and forgotten about will I be at peace but of course all the suffering just continues instead. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering and torture at any moment and to die means to never suffer ever again, I only hope to be permanently unconscious of this existence, I just want to forget about this existence I see as causing nothing but harm and suffering, to me existence could never be worth it.

I'll always find it so undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and finally I can rest, I'd be so relieved to be free from this futile and torturous existence I never would have chosen that was so tragically imposed, to me existing really is just only suffering and nothing would make me wish to suffer at all. As long as I exist I'll only hope for the relief of never existing ever again, I just wish for this cruel, painful existence to be no longer my problem and I'd always prefer to not suffer than prolong the suffering and cruelty of existing just to suffer way more unbearably with no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I've wished for is eternal sleep.
No matter what eternal sleep really is all I could ever wish for, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again, there's just so much cruelty in this torturous, unnecessary existence it really is all so terrible and painful and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake rather I just want to sleep eternally. I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I was never meant for any of this suffering and I'd never wish for any of it rather I just want to sleep permanently, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep after all and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way.

There's no suffering in what I personally see as the only ideal state which is eternal non-existence, to never exist again is all I see as desirable, eternal sleep is all I've ever wished for and could ever do no matter what, to suffer in this existence will always be an abomination to me, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering. I'd always prefer to sleep eternally but more than anything I wish I never became aware of this existence, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this existence I never would have chosen that I was never meant for rather I just wish for nothingness, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I wish was never imposed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence can I be at peace.
Non-existence really is all that can bring me peace from this cruel, torturous existence and it's all I could hope for, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful abomination that just harms existing beings and causes problems there was never a need for, to me existence is something so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and once one exists they are capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts, it's all just so horrible to me.

I just don't want to suffer at all and I could personally never see any value to suffering in this existence rather I just want some peace instead, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is forgotten, only permanent non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have chosen, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer as a result of being conscious in this existence. Only non-existence can bring me peace but more than anything I wish I never suffered, the fact that this existence was imposed is always the most terrible tragedy to me, I never should have been forced to suffer but now I've suffered for so long all I can hope for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way possible, I've personally only ever hoped for peace from this existence and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep eternally.