Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how painless death is denied.
I really do always suffer from how painless death is denied for me, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never exist ever instead but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence just wishing and hoping for death, permanent non-existence truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway and I see so much cruelty in how painless death is made inaccessible with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what until death takes away all anyway, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence at all. I find it a burden to exist, to me existence itself really is a problem there was never a need for that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and I always suffer from how painless death is denied, there's just so much suffering in this unnecessary, torturous existence and it terrifies me how one can suffer for so long, all I hope for is to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, it's so horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just hope to never exist ever again, I just want to forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for existence.
I really would never wish for existence, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist no matter what, the fact that this existence was even imposed is just so dreadful, cruel and futile to me, I'd never wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist. I see existence as a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I see nothing desirable about being conscious burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can solve everything for me.

Only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish for existence and all the harm and suffering it causes, I'll always find it so harmful to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and as well as that I just have no interest in existing either and I was never meant for this. Human existence really just does feel like a terrible tragic mistake to me and I see no point, benefit and value to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just want all to be gone for me, nothing would make me wish for existence, I just want the peace of being permanently unconscious instead, I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and existing to me just feels like only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me, I'll suffer until all is gone for me in death anyway, to never suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence is all I could hope for and is all I see as desirable. I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most dreadful, cruel tragedy to me that just causes harm and I'd never wish to be conscious in this harmful, futile existence that just causes suffering.

To me existing really is just only suffering, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes, for me non-existence certainly is always preferable, it's all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, existence to me will always be an abomination, it's something that brings so much suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and to never suffer ever again is all that could bring me peace from this existence so torturous and unnecessary that I never would have chose. Nothing would make me wish for any of this, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this existence at all and I find it so dreadful how I was, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, there certainly is so much suffering in existing and to never suffer ever again certainly is all I see as ideal, I just want all to finally be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for the pointless suffering of existing.
I really was never meant for the pointless suffering of existing and I really never should have suffered at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most cruel, terrible tragedy to me, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish to never suffer ever again, I was just never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to be free from it all. I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I cannot suffer in any way but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence just waiting to die in this existence I was never meant for and no matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist.

I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me, existence was certainly a cruel mistake I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I find it a burden to be conscious of anything at all and I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes rather I just hope to be non-existent. I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where I'm finally free from all pointless suffering and all is finally gone, to me existing will always be just suffering all for the sake if it and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again as non-existence is what I'm meant for, I'm only meant to be permanently at peace from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
No matter what non-existence would always be preferable for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited and endless amounts, to me existence is the most cruel, futile burden that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's truly all so dreadful and terrible to me, only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any peace and in general I'd always prefer to not exist. I'd always prefer to be non-existent as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence rather all would be gone and forgotten about instead and to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I could hope for.

I just see nothing desirable about existing, I see no point to it either rather it's all just suffering to me and it's suffering so unnecessary that there was never a need for, non-existence truly is all that's ideal for me, it's all I've hoped for and could ever wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I really do just want to sleep for all eternity, I wish there's the option to just choose to never suffer ever again as existence really does just feel like a mistake to me and it's one I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I'd always prefer to avoid, I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Old age just sounds like extreme torture to me.
It truly does and that's certainly a reason as to why I'd prefer to not exist, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing just to die in agony tortured by old age, I could never see any point and benefit to being enslaved in this existence destined to decay and suffer way more. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, nothing would make me wish for the torture of existing where existing beings suffer so extremely all for the sake of it until death takes away all for them anyway, to permanently not exist really is all I could wish and hope for.

I just want this existence to be all forgotten about and finally no longer my problem, existence to me is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it, I wish to be incapable of suffering, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of any of this, I'd just never wish for the cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel destined for nothing but the torture of old age and I see it as all so futile and pointless anyway. I wish for the option to just simply die in peace to save myself from suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway but of course we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong instead, it's all just so horrific to me, I personally just wish for peace from the abomination of existence, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering, I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake and all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I personally find it tiring to simply exist and it's tiredness that only non-existence can take away for me, as long as I exist I really will wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just want all to finally be gone for me.

I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just hope for the peace that only non-existence can bring me and I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and to me existence really does just feel like only suffering and I'm always so tired of it, I find it tiring to simply be conscious suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway. I just hope for all to be gone for me, I always saw existence as something deeply undesirable and it's something I'd never wish for rather it's something I only hope for permanent relief from, I just wish for the relief of eternal sleep, I've only ever hoped to sleep eternally and eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for. Nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for non-existence instead, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, permanently ceasing to exist is all I could see as desirable but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing nothing desirable about existing.
I really could never see anything desirable about existing rather it all just feels like a mistake to me, existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about no matter what, it's something I just wish to be unaware of, I find it a burden to be conscious at all, I'll always find it so burdensome to be enslaved in this cruel, futile existence. I never would have chose any of this and never would do no matter what, I just wish I was neve forced into this existence of pointless suffering that there was never a need for at all, I just see existence as causing suffering and problems all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can suffer until death takes away all anyway.

I personally always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I was never meant for any of this and I always find it dreadful to exist, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, I just wish for this deeply undesirable existence to no longer be my problem, only non-existence can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing. I only wish to never suffer ever again, I could never see anything desirable about any of this rather I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'll always see existence as the most dreadful burden that just causes harm and I just don't have any interest in it either, I could just never see any value or benefit to suffering in this existence rather I'd always prefer to just not exist and permanently forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless amounts of suffering.
It really does just cause endless amounts of suffering just tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway, it's really all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'll always see existence as the most harmful abomination that just brings pain, there's just so much cruelty in existing. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes rather I see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I just wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

Only never suffering is truly ideal to me, I just hope and wish for the permanent absence of all suffering, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me which is all I wish for, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway rather I just wish to be non-existent. I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I could never see a point to any of this rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this existence at all, it's such a tragedy to me how this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering was even imposed at all, for me existence itself is the problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist, all I wish for is the peace of permanent non-existence where all is finally gone, I just hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence so torturous and futile that I never would have chose and always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. To me existence really is just suffering all for the sake of it, it's suffering so dreadful and unnecessary that I wish was never imposed more than anything, I'll always see existence as the most dreadful, pointless imposition ultimately responsible for causing all suffering and all I hope for is permanent peace from it.

I wish for relief from this existence I always saw as so harmful causing existing beings to suffer so unnecessarily, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I hope for from the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my concern and I'm permanently safe from all suffering. Only non-existence can bring me safety from suffering as after all if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I hope for, I just want to never wake again, the only relief for me really could only lie in being permanently unable to suffer where all is finally gone, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for peace from this existence that just brought suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to die is a result of existence.
My wish to permanently cease existing really is a result of existence, no matter what nothing would make me wish to exist, I see existence as something deeply undesirable in every way, I wish to cease existing as after all I was forced to be conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake where I'm just waiting for death anyway. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself which is why I will always wish and hope to not exist no matter what, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel, futile existence just waiting to die anyway suffering so unnecessarily in this existence I never would have chose, only permanent non-existence could ever be ideal to me personally.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for yet the option for me to just painlessly cease existing is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I just don't wish to suffer at all which is why I only hope for non-existence, I just don't see value to suffering and struggling in this existence all for the sake of it rather I just want peace instead, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'll always hope to not exist as long as I'm unfortunate enough to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was something that was never worth it for me.
It truly was never worth it for me rather it's something I just want to permanently forget about and escape from, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering with all finally gone and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I just don't see any value, point and benefit to being conscious in this existence rather such is always the most cruel, futile burden that I never would have chose that I saw as just causing so much harm. Existing to me is only suffering and I could just never see it as desirable to exist, I see nothing desirable about being forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering, under no circumstances could existence be worth it for me rather it's something I see as a mistake.

I'll always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all and I had to suffer so much as a result, none of this suffering really could be worth it for me and I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from this torturous undesirable existence where existing beings suffer so extremely all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can suffer. I'd always prefer to stay permanently unconcious of this existence no matter what, I was never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering, I could personally just never see it as worth suffering in this existence rather I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffering until old age is unbearable.
The thought of suffering until old age is so unbearable to me, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, ceasing to exist would be my way of escaping from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where death is all that's inevitable anyway. I find it so terrifying and horrific how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, I'd never wish for the burden of existence rather I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist, existing to me really is just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, I just wish to cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all but of course the suffering just continues.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option for me to choose to permanently stop suffering as the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to die in agony from old age is so unbearable to me, I'd never wish for the burden of human existence, to me existence just feels like a mistake that causes and brings so much harm. It's all just so cruel to me, there's so much suffering in existing, I see existence as the most torturous, unnecessary burden that was completely futile, I certainly would never wish for any of this, I wish for non-existence to save me from all pointless suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, existing to me really is just waiting to die, I certainly never would had wished for or chosen any of this, I just want all to be finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to forget about this existence.
All I could ever hope and wish for is to forget about this existence, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want all to be forgotten about instead, I only hope and wish to be permanently unconscious where I cannot suffer in any way, I'll always see existence as the most torturous, unnecessary burden that just brings so much suffering and it's something I'd always prefer to forget about no matter what. To me existence really will always be an abomination, I see it as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to sleep permanently to finally forget about this existence as all I hope for is to be non-existent.

I'll only be at peace when this existence is all gone and forgotten about with me finally unable to suffer and existing to me really does feel like nothing but suffering, I'll suffer until all is gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, there cannot be any suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I hope and wish for. I just want to forget about this existence that just caused me to suffer and that I saw as being deeply undesirable in every way possible, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I wish I was never forced into more than anything, I really never should have been forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would had chose in the first place, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be an abomination to me.
It really will always be one, I see existence as the most futile, torturous abomination that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this harmful existence suffering all for the sake of it. To me existence really does always feel like a mistake and it's one that has just tormented existing beings and caused them to suffer until death takes away all anyway, no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this, I just wish to be non-existent instead, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering.

I'll always see it as something so terrible to suffer in this cruel existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway, it really is an abomination to me and it's one I just hope for permanent peace from, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, the only relief for me could ever lie in never suffering ever again where this abomination isn't my problem anymore and I'm no longer burdened with this existence just waiting for death. The way I see it existence really does cause only suffering, existence itself is the problem to me as it's the source of all suffering and I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this abomination, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, non-existence is all that could ever be desirable to me as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, I just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping to fall asleep permanently.
All I could ever hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently, I just want this cruel, torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake. No matter what I really will always see it as so terrible and dreadful to exist, I see existence as a futile burden that just causes suffering which is why I just wish for eternal sleep, only eternal sleep can bring me peace, solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering.

Eternal sleep really is all that's positive to me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, for me eternal sleep really is all that's desirable, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just want to forget about it all, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer all for the sake of it and prolong the suffering in this existence I never would have chose, never would have wished for and was never meant for. Nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for permanent peace from this existence that just brought suffering, non-existence really is always preferable for me, it's all I could ever wish for, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and I cannot suffer from it, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I'd always prefer to be unconscious of this existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to never suffer ever again.
All I could hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just want all to be forgotten about for me, the only peace for me could lie in this torturous, unnecessary existence no longer being my problem but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake. To me human existence really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering which is why I only wish to never suffer ever again, I just hope for the peace of non-existence where all is gone and I cannot be harmed at all and to me existence just causes harm.

I find it so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, non-existence really is always preferable for me and would solve everything for me, I just wish to be non-existent and as long as I exist non-existence is all I'll hope for, I was never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so immensley all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for non-existence, non-existence is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me peace, I'd always prefer to not exist to escape from the cruelty and suffering of existing, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I just wish I was never forced into more than anything, I'll always see it as so dreadful and futile having to suffer in this existence which is why I only hope to never suffer ever again, I've only ever hoped to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
It really would as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious, non-existence would solve all problems that there were never a need for at all as it removes the source of all suffering which is existence itself, all I see as ideal is being non-existent, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer, the fact that non-existence solves everything is why I wish for it. I wish to never suffer ever again in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, in fact for me existence itself is the ultimate problem and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it, I just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.

Having the option to just peacefully cease existing would be suffering prevention for me, it'd be the way for me to find peace and safety from suffering as after all I cannot suffer if I don't exist, there's no suffering in the absence of existence, I see existence as just causing suffering and problems all for the sake of it and it's all just so futile anyway. Non-existence really is preferable for me no matter what, I just want the peace of death to solve everything for me and save me from the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human where there is all this pointless suffering, for me non-existence is the only desirable state, I find it really tragic how this existence was even imposed at all as I never should have suffered, I never should have been forced into this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering and nothing would make me wish to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It really does always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes so much cruelty and suffering, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence rather I just hope to permanently cease existing instead, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, no matter what I'll always see it as an abomination to be burdened with this existence, I see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and always will do.

I see it as a tragedy how this existence was imposed that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for especially as there were never any disadvantages to not suffering at all, all I wish and hope for is to be permanently unable to suffer, to me existence truly could never be worth it, I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, it's something that just brings so much suffering until death takes away all anyway. Existence just feels like a mistake to me and always will do, I could personally just never see any point, benefit or value to suffering so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence I saw as completely futile. I just want to not exist instead, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence that always felt like a mistake, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one I wish I never became conscious of more than anything, I really never should had been forced to suffer in this existence and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I'll suffer until I'm finally free from the mistake of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence to be deeply undesirable in every way.
No matter what I really will always find it so undesirable to suffer in this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I only hope for non-existence, I just find it the most cruel, futile burden to have to exist and I simply don't see existence as a desirable state, I wish that more than anything I was never forced to suffer in this existence. I never should have been forced to exist at all and what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, the thought of suffering in this existence until old age is so unbearable to me, I'd never wish for that rather I just want to not exist at all.

For me non-existence is all that's positive, I just want permanent peace and relief from this pointless, torturous existence I never would have chose in the first place, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence for me is the relief, it'd solve everything for me, I'm always so tired of being conscious in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way. I just want t forget about this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, I'd never wish for the deeply undesirable burden of existence rather I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, existence really did just always feel like a mistake to me and it's one I'd never wish for, as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I wish to never suffer ever again, I wish for this undesirable existence to be no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing peace.
All I've ever personally wished and hoped for is some peace, I just wish for the peace of never existing ever again where all is finally gone, I just hope to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, only being permanently unable to suffer where all is gone could ever be ideal to me. I only see ceasing to exist as desirable, I just want to permanently cease existing with this existence finally no longer my problem, I'm always so tired of being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all as I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, peace from this existence is what I need.

I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, only ceasing to exist can take away what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence and it just feels so cruel and dreadful to me how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again. I wish I could just choose to fall asleep for all eternity so finally I can be at peace, for me peace could only lie in non-existence, it could only lie in being unconscious for all eternity where all is finally gone, existence always felt like a mistake to me and it's something I wish I was never imposed more than anything, existence to me is the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I've only ever hoped for permanent peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the most torturous, futile imposistion.
I'll always see existence as that, I find it so torturous having to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, the fact that this existence was even imposed even know there was never a need for it at all was very tragic to me. I see existence as an imposition that just causes suffering and torture all for the sake of it all while one is just waiting to die anyway, I see it as all so futile and unnecessary and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get, it can all easily get way more unbearable which is just so horrifying to me, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I'm always so tired of being conscious, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all no matter what, existence itself is the problem to me as it's the source of all suffering, I'll always see existence as something so dreadful and harmful, it just harms existing beings, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have suffered at all, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this imposition. I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity where all is forgotten, there's just so much cruelty in existing it's all just so dreadful and terrible, I wish there's the option to simply cease existing in peace so I can finally escape from the imposition of existence but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just suffering all for the sake of it.
I really will always just see existing as suffering for the sake of it, it's all just so torturous and dreadful to me, I never wished to suffer in this existence and I never could do, nothing would make me wish for this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where one is destined to decay and die anyway. It really terrifies me how a human can be conscious in this existence for so long just to die in agony tortured by old age, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to be non-existent, I wish for this existence to be no longer my problem.

I wish for nothing to be able to concern me, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it and all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, all that existence does is just create suffering, pain and problems there were never a need for that could had been prevented by never existing at all. In fact to me existence itself is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, without existence I cannot suffer in any way which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, for me non-existence is the solution to suffering, it'd solve everything for me and bring me peace from this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, it'd save me from all future suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is always preferable for me.
I really would always prefer to cease existing and to not exist is all I could ever hope for, I just want this existence to finally be gone for me, I wish to never suffer ever again, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as the most torturous, unnecessary abomination that just caused existing beings to suffer, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious of this existence but more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering just destined to decay and die anyway but of course I've suffered for so long and the suffering just continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, I just hope to be permanently free from all the suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake where I'm just waiting to die anyway. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent, if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way which is all I wish for, I'd always prefer to cease existing than to be conscious of this existence, I could personally never see any benefit to being enslaved in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. The fact that this existence was even imposed will always be a tragedy to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten as I really would always prefer to not exist, I just hope for this existence to be no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish I never suffered.
I always wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony I can feel, I find it so tragic how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering at all, to me existence really will always be the most cruel, harmful abomination that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I always wish I never suffered more than anything.

Existence to me is the most terrible tragedy that there was never a need for that just causes so much suffering and problems that were completely unnecessary, I wish I was never forced into this existence, I was never meant for any of this and I really never should have been forced to suffer at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious of this existence and I always suffer so much from existing, I'm always so tired of being conscious, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long. Human existence always feels like enslavement to me as after all it was something that was forced in the first place with suffering seen as to prolong no matter what, I find it so painful and dreadful to be trapped in this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering without the option to painlessly free myself in peace and never suffer ever again as all I wish for is permanent relief from all the suffering in this existence I just saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, there's just so much cruelty in existing, to me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering and more than anything I wish I never suffered, to me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish for the option to simply cease existing in peace.
I always wish for the option to just cease existing in peace, I only hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake. I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to painlessly cease existing is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'd always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up suffering way more unbearably.

I see nothing desirable about existing at all rather I see existence as just being suffering all for the sake of it and it's all so futile anyway, it just feels so cruel to me how painless death is denied even know this existence was imposed and it all just leads to death anyway, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence of pointless suffering rather I just hope to be non-existent. Non-existence really is all that can bring me peace, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence just waiting for death anyway, only non-existence could ever bring me relief from what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself which is why it's just so painful to me how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world, to me existence really is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that non-existence is permanent is why it's desirable.
It really is why non-existence is desirable to me, I only hope for a permanent solution to solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all there is no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten as if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way. There's no suffering in permanent non-existence which is why it's all I hope for, for me non-existence is the only peace, I only hope to be permanently unconscious and permanently incapable of suffering but of course the suffering just continues, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, existence will always feel like a mistake to me no matter what and it's one that only ever caused me to suffer.

I find existence as deeply undesirable in every way which is why non-existence certainly is all that's desirable to me, I just hope for the absence of all cruelty and suffering in this existence I always saw as a burden and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all no matter what and I'd never wish for existence under any circumstance rather I just wish for the permanency of non-existence. I only hope to sleep eternally where all is finally gone for me, I'll always see existence as something so cruel and futile and I suffer simply from existing, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only eternal sleep can solve everything for me.
It really is all that can solve everything for me as after all there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, if I'm asleep for all eternity then all is finally gone and forgotten which is all I hope for. I just hope for this torturous, unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to save myself from suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway.

All I hope and wish for is to never wake ever again, I'd be so relieved to fall asleep permanently with this existence finally no longer my concern, existence really was never worth it for me, I always found it deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from existing which is why I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone for me. I'd never wish for any of this no matter what and I could never see the point to suffering all for the sake of it rather I just want peace, relief and freedom instead, I just hope to be permanently unconscious free from the cruel, futile burden of existence where nothing can concern me. I really will only be at peace when this existence is no longer my problem, I'd always prefer to not exist, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately have a problem with which is existence itself, there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent incapable of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, I only hope to permanently cease existing and forget about it all, I'll always see existence as an abomination, I'll always see existence as the most cruel mistake and it's something I'd never wish for that I saw as just causing nothing but harm all for the sake of it. I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this cruel, torturous existence where there's all this endless suffering, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing which is why I only hope to not exist, I wish to never suffer ever again.

I wish for permanent peace from this existence that just torments and harms existing beings causing problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, there's just so much suffering in existing and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering. I find it the most terrible tragedy how I was forced to suffer in this existence at all, I just wish and hope to painlessly cease existing in peace and finally be unconscious but of course suffering is seen as to force and prolong instead, it's all just so cruel, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know this existence of pointless suffering that just leads to death anyway was imposed in the first place and I'd never wish for any of this, I always suffer because of the imposition of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for existence.
I really would never wish for existence, for me existence could never be worth it rather I just want to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, I'd never wish for any of the suffering and cruelty this existence causes rather I just want all to be gone for me, I just want to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm.

I just don't see any value to existing rather I see it as a burden to exist and it's one that only non-existence can bring me peace from, I've never wished for existence and never would do no matter what, I'm always so tired of being conscious burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting for death anyway. I just hope to not exist, non-existence is always preferable to me than being enslaved in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I'd always prefer to not exist, in an existence so cruel and futile non-existence really is the only relief for me, I suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to be enslaved in this reality where there is all this unnecessary cruelty and suffering. Existence is something I'd always prefer to avoid, I'd never wish to suffer at all under any circumstances, I just want all to be gone for me and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed in the first place, I see existence as the most torturous, futile imposition that just causes so much harm, I truly would never wish for any of this.