Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist as a positive solution.
For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to suffering, it'd solve everything for me, I'd be so relieved for this existence to finally be no longer my problem and for me to never suffer ever again. Ceasing to exist solves everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, all problems, pain and suffering are ultimately as a result of existence itself after all and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, ceasing to exist would save me from and prevent all future suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

The thought of being trapped in this existence just to face the agony of old age is really so horrific to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, existence to me is an abomination that just causes suffering and I see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, non-existence certainly is all that's positive for me. I see ceasing to exist as the way for me to find peace from all unnecessary futile suffering that was all just a terrible tragic mistake in the first place, I just hope and wish for this existence to no longer my problem, I wish to sleep for all eternity where nothing can concern me and I'm free from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence, I never would have wished for or chosen any of this, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is only suffering.
I'll always just see existing as being only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to just be enslaved in this existence wishing for the peace that only permanent non-existence can bring me. The fact that non-existence is permanent is exactly why it appeals to me, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I just hope for this torturous, unnecessary existence to finally be all forgotten about, existing to me is just suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, no matter what nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing.

I just hope to be non-existent instead and I'll suffer and hope to be gone as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be burdened with this existence, to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway, to be permanently relieved from it is all I could ever hope for but of course I never should have been forced into this existence of pointless suffering. To me existence itself is the problem there was never a need for and it's something I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, I'm always so tired of suffering, I just want to never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence that was so tragically imposed just waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I only hope to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, nothing would make me wish for the suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I just hope to not exist for all eternity, to me existence really does just feel like pointless suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this. I'd never wish for any of the suffering in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, no matter what nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish to be safe from all suffering, only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent.

If I'm dead then nothing can concern me and this unnecessary, futile existence is finally no longer my problem which is all I hope for, I don't see any value to suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to not suffer at all, I wish to find peace and safety from suffering and only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I've search for, I see existence as an abomination and I find it so horrific how existence causes all this endless suffering torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway. Existence will always be the ultimate problem to me that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I'll always see it as something so terrible and torturous to be conscious of all this capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I just want permanent safety from suffering, I wish for non-existence to bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep.
I really do always suffer from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep, as long as I exist I really will just only hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for the peace that only permanent non-existence could bring me but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking again even know this existence there was never a need for that just caused suffering all for the sake of it was so tragically imposed in the first place and death is all that's inevitable anyway.

No matter what I'd prefer to sleep eternally to save myself from pointless suffering in an existence I never would have chose where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just hoping and waiting to die anyway, eternal sleep is preferable to me as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently non-existent. If I'm asleep for all eternity nothing can concern me and I cannot suffer in any way rather all would be forgotten about, nothing would make me wish for the torturous, futile imposition of existence no matter what and I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed when never suffering at all is ideal. But now that I've suffered for so long all I can hope for is eternal sleep, only eternal sleep can bring me peace from the cruel, terrible tragedy of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it and I find it so painful to be trapped in this existence just suffering so unnecessarily, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake.
I really will always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering, I just find it so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all and I was forced to suffer so unnecessarily as a result in this existence there was never a need for at all, I'd never wish for existence rather I just want to never exist ever again, I wish I never suffered more than anything but of course the suffering of existing just continues.

I'd always prefer to cease existing than be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just waiting for death anyway, I could personally just never see value to suffering in this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me, I'd always prefer to avoid existence. I see existence as the problem that just harms and torments existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel until death takes away all anyway, I've never wished for any of this and never could do rather existence just feels like the most torturous, unnecessary mistake to me. I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist no matter what, existence always feels like a mistake that I could never see as worth it for me rather I just want to not exist, non-existence is all that's ideal for me, I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is preferable for me.
It certainly is always preferable for me, I'd always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is the only ideal state, it's all that's desirable, I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence, for me peace could only lie in being no longer burdened with this cruel, futile existence and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for. Permanently ceasing to exist solves all problems there was never a need for and saves me from all future suffering as a result in an existence I always saw as completely pointless and unnecessary where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing.

If I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about, without existence I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me which is all I hope for, I just see human existence as so undesirable in general, I could just never see any value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I'd just prefer to cease existing instead. If I'm unaware for all eternity I cannot feel any pain and cannot be harmed in any way yet there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this torturous unnecessary existence which is just so cruel and horrific to me, ceasing to exist really is always preferable for me than being enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway, it's horrifying to me how a human can be conscious for so long just to die in agony from old age, I'd never wish for existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and it's all I hope for, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I see as ideal is this existence being finally gone and forgotten about. I'd be so relieved to be permanently unconscious and finally forget about this existence as I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chose and always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I'm free from this existence, non-existence really is all I see as ideal.

I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I'm always so tired of being conscious in this existence just waiting to die anyway and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, I just hope and wish to never ever again, I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human, I see existence as just being suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I'd be so relieved for it to be no longer my problem. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, eternal sleep would solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, I just want all the suffering to be gone for me, I just wish for the peace of non-existence, to suffer in this existence will always be so dreadful to me, I never would have wished for or chosen any of this and as long as I exist I can only hope to be free from it all, non-existence really is the only relief for me.

 

[PathtoDie]

Welcome back! I was so worried when you stopped posting... and I agree that getting access to a painless suicide pill is just so incredibly important to have. I know that we humans can sometimes make irrational decisions, like wanting to die just because something trivial (albeit negative) happened. But sometimes, we strongly decide to die, not just because of one reason but multiple, logical reasons. And I must admit, I have not suffered as much as the poor kids somewhere in the world crawling on the ground with extreme hunger with no way to escape. But I have suffered enough to think that I deserve the right to die peacefully and painlessly. In fact, every single human being should have that right. Forcefully keeping people who want to die for their own logical and sound reasons by making it extremely hard or even impossible in some countries to get access to painless ways to die is so freaking cruel.

Anyways, I went a bit off the rails, but I wanted to also say your words are so nice to read, so poetic, philosophical, and at the same time incredibly powerful and real. Thanks a lot for posting your thoughts!

EDIT: I just realized you were back a long time ago, my bad! I didn't see the 1 to 58 pages selection at the bottom...

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm, existence just harms existing beings until death takes away all anyway, I'll always see it as so dreadful and torturous to be forced into this harmful existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, all I hope for is to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all. I only hope for peace from this harmful existence that just tormented existing beings and caused them to suffer, to me existence really is the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, I see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and brings so much suffering, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty.

Existence just is so harmful and I find it so harmful to be conscious of this existence at all capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I really would never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I find it so tragic to be forced into this harmful existence at all even know there wasn't even a need for any of this, existence was completely unnecessary in the first place, existence just causes so much harm all for the sake of it and it's certainly a reason as to why I'd always prefer to not exist. As after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, only then is this torturous, cruel existence all forgotten about and no longer my concern, to me existence really is nothing but suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I just want peace from this existence that just causes harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I've always felt so tired and I will do until I finally cease existing and to permanently cease existing is all I could ever hope for, I just wish to no longer be burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and waiting to be gone.

I'd never wish for existence and I never would do no matter what rather I just want to never exist ever again, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem and for all to finally be forgotten about as a result, I really never should have suffered in this existence and I'd always see it as so dreadful to exist no matter what, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence just waiting for death anyway suffering all for the sake of it. Only non-existence can bring me peace from all unnecessary suffering and cruelty but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone. I wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently free from this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I always feel so tired of it all, simply just being conscious in this existence makes me feel tired and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I really am always so tired of being conscious, for me non-existence is all that's desirable, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed in the first place and I'll always see existence as the most cruel, terrible tragedy no matter what. To me existence itself is the ultimate problem and I suffer just from being conscious, I'll suffer until all is forgotten about for me in death anyway, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want all to be gone for me, I see existence as the most torturous, undesirable abomination that just harms and torments existing beings and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all.

I wish there's the option to just choose to peacefully cease existing so I can finally escape from the torturous and unnecessary burden of existing as a human, I wish for non-existence to save me from all future futile suffering in this existence I'd never wish to be conscious of and I'd always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so tragic how I was forced to suffer at all when never existing was perfection. I wish I never became conscious in this existence, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware instead, I wish I stayed unable to suffer as I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, for me existence is the problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, all I hope for is the relief of never suffering ever again where finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing.
It truly is all that can bring me any peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this torturous, undesirable existence, existence will always be an abomination to me that just causes pain, I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing as a conscious being in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally forgotten about, I'll always see it as something so dreadful and painful to suffer in this existence just waiting for death anyway, I just want peace from this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering. Existence to me really is the most terrible tragedy that just torments and harms existing beings until death takes away all anyway, I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather I just wish to be gone, I wish for this existence to be no longer my problem, I've only ever hoped for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again. I just wish for the peace of non-existence where I'm finally free from all the cruelty and suffering of existing, the way I see it existence itself really is the true problem and I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering I only hope for peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is cruelty and enslavement.
It truly is just cruelty and enslavement, more than anything I wish I was never enslaved in this existence of endless suffering and cruelty just waiting to die anyway, I see it as the most terrible tragic abomination to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I'd just never wish for the cruel torturous burden of existence rather I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me as after all only in the absence of existence will I be unable to suffer, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about for me, I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed that just caused so much harm tormenting existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it. Existence to me is something I'd always prefer to avoid that just causes suffering there was never a need for, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and I see it as such a tragedy how I was forced to suffer enslaved in this existence, there's just so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied for me even know it all just leads to death anyway and I'd never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for this existence of pointless suffering, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never exist ever again.
To never exist ever again really is all I could hope and wish for, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer instead, existence certainly did always feel like a mistake to me and it's something I'd never wish for that I only hope for the absence of, I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with this dreadful, futile existence all forgotten about.

I've only hoped to sleep permanently and it's all I could hope for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again and the only relief for me could lie in non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway. To permanently cease existing in peace really is all I wish for, I just want permanent relief from the terrible, horrific tragedy of existence that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, I'd never wish for any of this under any circumstance rather I only hope to never exist ever again, I just wish for this torturous unnecessary existence to no longer be my problem. I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I just want peace from all the suffering in existing and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have that, to me existence itself really will always be the ultimate problem to me which is why I only hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, I see existence as the most harmful, torturous abomination that just causes existing beings to suffer until death takes away all anyway and no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I see existence as such a terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather I just hope for non-existence, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from this undesirable harmful existence.

To me only non-existence is desirable as only then am I unable to suffer, only then is this harmful existence finally no longer my problem, all I can hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I really was never meant to suffer in this harmful existence that to me serves no function but to bring and cause suffering until death takes away all anyway, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to being conscious enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist. I just hope for this existence to be finally all forgotten about for me, I could personally just never see this harmful existence as worth suffering in rather I just want peace from it, I'll always see existence as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering just harming existing beings until all is forgotten about in death anyway, existence will always be an abomination to me and it's one that only eternal nothingness can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It really is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long enslaved in this existence destined for nothing but to suffer way more unbearably, the thought of suffering for so long just to die in agony from old age is just so unbearable to me, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what but really I never should have suffered in this torturous, futile existence in the first place. I will always see it as an abomination to exist, it's so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of cruelty and pointless suffering that can continue for so long with no limit as to how much one can be tortured without the option to just peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, I personally just want peace from all the suffering.

To me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I could hope for, I could personally just never see any point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to exist. There's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully not exist to save myself from this torturous, futile existence that just brings so much suffering, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, it really is all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I just want to painlessly cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all but of course I continue to suffer and I'll suffer until death finally brings me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've hoped for.
It really is all I've hoped for, I just hope to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'd be so relieved to fall asleep eternally with all finally forgotten about, in this existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty that's all so futile non-existence is all I could hope for. It's all that could bring me peace from this torturous, undesirable existence I never would have chosen that I was never meant for, all I wish is for all to be gone for me, I just wish to fall asleep permanently where nothing can concern me, all I hope for is to rest, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again.

I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I never became conscious in this existence at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want to never suffer ever again, it's just a tragedy to me how I was burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering at all. Human existence always feels like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes so much harm and will do until death takes away all anyway, non-existence certainly is the only relief for me, it's all that can bring me any peace, for me there could never be any peace in this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I see existence as the exact opposite and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence really is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so painful and terrible to me, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, torturous abomination which is why I only hope to not exist, I wish to painlessly cease existing so I can finally find peace from this cruel existence that just brought me suffering, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence. I just want all to be gone for me instead, existence could never be worth it for me rather it's something so dreadful and harmful that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what that just causes an immense amount of suffering tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway, it's just so cruel, I'd never wish for any of this cruelty rather I only hope to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this cruel existence, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can ever take away for me and I'll suffer until death takes away all anyway. Existence will always feel like the most terrible tragic mistake to me and I see it as something so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all and it's just so cruel to me how the option for me to painlessly die is so harmfully denied even know all of this was forced in the first place and there's just so much cruelty in this existence, I wish I could just fall asleep eternally and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to finally be forgotten about for me.
It really is all I hope for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for this torturous, cruel existence to no longer be my problem, I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently unconscious. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, to me existence could never be something desirable but rather I see it as so terrible and dreadful to exist, I'll always see existing as only just being suffering and I'll suffer until all is finally forgotten about for me in death.

To not exist really is all I could ever hope for, non-existence really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace and relief from the suffering of existing but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never became conscious in this futile, cruel existence but if course the suffering just continues with me just waiting to die and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone. I just want to never suffer ever again, I really will only be at peace once this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about for me and I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it waiting to die anyway, it's so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long, I always wish I could just cease existing in peace and forget about it all, I always suffer from being trapped in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I could never see benefit to suffering until old age.
I really could never see benefit to suffering until old age rather the thought of such is so terrifying and horrific to me, I'd never wish for that rather I just want to not exist, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me permanent relief from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist no matter what and to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence is something I'd never wish for and never would have chosen, I find it so painful to be conscious enslaved in this existence and I could never see any benefit to such rather I just see existence as something that just causes suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this harmful, torturous existence rather I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again.

Having the option for me to painlessly end my existence would be suffering prevention and the way for me to find safety from suffering in this existence where I'm just destined to decay and die anyway. No matter what nothing would make me wish for the torture of existence where way more suffering lies ahead just for one to die in agony from old age, existence truly does feel like an abomination to me, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just torments existing beings and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply free myself from it. It's so horrible to me how painless death is denied as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and I could just never see benefit to suffering in this existence, the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to die in agony from old age is so unbearable.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There really is just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and torturous, I really would personally never wish for any of this rather I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I just hope for this torturous, unnecessary existence to finally be gone and forgotten about. I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, I see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, to me existence really does cause nothing but suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist.

There's just so much suffering in existing and what terrifies me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I just see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, and I'd never wish for any of this, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty. It's just something so harmful that brings suffering and causes problems there were never a need for and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope to not exist, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from this cruel, harmful existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem, I only wish to be permanently unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for existence.
I really was never meant for existence and I never should had suffered at all in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I always will find it deeply undesirable to exist and I'll always see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering, I never should have been forced into this existence and the fact that this existence was imposed is very tragic to me. I just wish I stayed permanently unaware of this existence, existence to me is just so dreadful and harmful, it just torments existing beings causing them to suffer so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much agony they can feel until death takes away all anyway and I was just never meant for this abomination and I'd never wish for it either.

Nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone as I just don't want to suffer at all and existing to me just feels like only suffering, I could never see any benefit, point or value to suffering enslaved in this existence rather I just want peace instead. I only hope for the peace of never existing ever again where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, I was never meant for something as harmful as existence, I was never meant for this cruel, futile burden and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I just want to finally rest, I just want peace from this torturous existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was never worth it.
It truly was never worth it to me and I never should have suffered at all, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and it's one so torturous and futile that just causes endless amounts of suffering. I'd never wish for any of this and I'd always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally forgotten about for me.

I could never see existence as worth it rather it's something I only hope for permanent peace from and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it rather I see it as always so dreadful to exist, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering, torturing and tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again. I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence just waiting for death anyway, the way I see it existence just causes suffering and harm and I'd always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, I could just personally never see it as worth suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone for me, non-existence solves everything for me in an existence I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of trying to die going wrong.
What I fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering and torture as a result, it's so horrific how such can happen, I see human existence as an abomination, I see it as something so terrible to be conscious in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd never wish for any of this. The fact that this existence was imposed is such a terrible tragedy to me, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering capable of being tortured to unlimited extents, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering as I just don't want to suffer at all.

I just hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again instead, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, for me non-existence is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable, I never would have chose to exist in this horrific world where there is all this endless cruelty where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence. I just wish to be permanently free from this torturous, unnecessary existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, I'd never wish for the abomination of existence and I always suffer so much from being enslaved in it just hoping and wishing to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again, I only hope to be permanently at peace from all unnecessary suffering and cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruel, torturous burden of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until all is forgotten about in death anyway. More than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this existence and I find it a tragedy how I was burdened with this existence that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for at all, existence really does just cause suffering all for the sake of it and nothing would make me wish for any of this.

I'm just not meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing as well and I have no interest in it either, I just don't wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist, to me existence is a burden that only non-existence can bring me relief from and the relief of never suffering ever again where all is forgotten is all I could ever hope for, I only wish for non-existence as after all only in the absence of existence can there be no suffering. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I suffer simply from existing, just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, my wish to die is a response to the burden of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from this burden, existence is just so cruel and harmful, to me existence itself will always be the problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wished to not exist.
I really have always wished to not exist and it's all I could ever hope for no matter what, I just hope to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary pointless suffering and cruelty where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it but in general I'd just always prefer to not exist. I see nothing desirable about being conscious at all in any circumstances, I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence no matter what and I just have no interest in existing, I find it so painful and futile to exist and I never should have been forced to exist at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most terrible, cruel tragedy to me.

I just wish to not exist, I see human existence as something deeply undesirable, it all just feels like a mistake to me and it's one I'd never wish for, I don't wish to be conscious in this existence, I never have done and never would do rather I just want peace instead, non-existence would solve everything for me and it's what I personally see as the only ideal state. I just want to never exist ever again and it terrifies me how one can exist for so long, the thought of suffering until old age is so unbearable to me, I'd never wish for that rather I just hope to not exist, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just want to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be only suffering to me.
It really would always be only suffering to me and I'll suffer as long as I exist, there's just so much cruelty in this torturous, harmful existence and it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment, I only hope to not exist as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and unable to feel any kind of pain. I just wish for this painful existence to no longer be my concern, I just wish to permanently stop suffering, to me existence itself really is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I'll always see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, I see it as so dreadful to exist at all, to me existence is an abomination that is just only suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I just hope to never suffer ever again, I see existence as an terrible mistake that just causes harm and I always suffer from how I cannot just peacefully cease existing to prevent and save myself from all future suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway. I'd personally always prefer to prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it just to end up suffering more and more but of course the suffering just continues instead and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, I wish I could just choose to never wake ever again, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting for death.
It truly is just waiting to die and I'm so tired of waiting, I wish I could just choose to simply fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again but of course all the suffering in this torturous, futile existence just continues instead, to me existence just feels like the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. I'd always prefer to not suffer than be conscious in this existence just waiting to die anyway destined for nothing but to decay and suffer way more as a result, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious of this existence no matter what, I just want peace from all the suffering of existing rather than prolong all the suffering in this existence I never would have chosen in the first place.

Non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long, I'd personally never wish for the torturous, pointless burden of human existence rather I just want to die in peace and forget about it all, for me non-existence really is all that's positive. It's all I hope for and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know death really is all that's inevitable anyway with their being no disadvantages to not existing, I'll always see existence itself as so meaningless, pointless, it's just such a terrible harmful tragedy to me that just torments existing beings until all is forgotten about for them in death anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can save me from all unecessary suffering.
It truly is all that can save me from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just waiting to die anyway, all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I just hope for all the suffering to be gone for me. I just want peace from the torturous abomination of existence that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, I wish to not exist as only in non-existence am I safe from all suffering, only in the absence of existence can there be no suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty.

I'll always see it as dreadful to exist, I see it as something so dreadful to be conscious suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited extents, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one so torturous that just causes existing beings to suffer, I wish for non-existence to save me from all future unnecessary suffering as I'd personally always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured. Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself, I see existence as something so harmful and it's something I only hope for true permanent peace from, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would have chosen and would never wish for under any circumstance, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to never wake ever again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never wake ever again, I just hope for true permanent peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just want to fall asleep eternally and finally find peace from all the suffering but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping to be gone. I really would never wish for any of this rather I just wish for non-existence where finally this existence is no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, I just want all to be forgotten about with me unable to suffer for all eternity, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence just waiting for death anyway and it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me.

All I hope for is to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep to take away my suffering and eternal sleep really is all I've ever seen as desirable, I was just never meant to suffer in this existence rather I'll always see existence as the problem. Simply just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, existence is the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty torturing and tormenting existing beings and I'd always prefer to be unaware of this, only never existing again can solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, I only hope to never suffer ever again.