Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Fear of existence.
I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this torturous existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's just so cruel and terrible to me how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing as non-existence truly is all I personally see as positive, all that could bring me any relief is to fall asleep eternally with the abomination of existence all gone and forgotten about. To me existing really is just only suffering and what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering of existing can get, it can easily just get way more torturous at any moment just for one to die in agony from old age if they suffer for that long.

It's all just so hopeless to me and painful, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, existence was never worth it for me and I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all. I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to cease existing painlessly to escape from the terrible tragedy of existence is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, existence to me really is just so harmful, I never wished to suffer in this existence and never would do no matter what rather I just want nothingness, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really never should have existed.
I really never should have suffered in this existence and no matter what I'll always find it so terrible and torturous to exist, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten and I'm free from all cruelty and suffering but of course this existence never should have been imposed, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, harmful tragic mistake.

The fact that this existence was even imposed will always be a tragedy to me no matter what, I see existence as the most harmful, painful imposition that just causes so much suffering and problems there were never a need for, I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what and it's a problem I only hope for permanent relief from, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped suffering in this existence wishing for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me. I really never should have existed and I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved and burdened with this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway, to me existence truly is the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I only wish for permanent peace from and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence. I really would prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I could personally never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just wish I never existed, never existing at all would have saved and prevented me from so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to sleep permanently.
No matter what I'd always prefer to sleep eternally, for me eternal sleep is peace that cannot be found in this torturous, futile existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and to me existing really is only suffering. I suffer because I exist and I just don't want to suffer at all, I could never see any benefit, point and value to suffering in this existence all for the sake of it rather I just want to forget about it all, what comforts me about eternal sleep is that nothing can concern me if I'm unaware for all eternity and there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.

I'll always just see existence as an unnecessary harm that just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer until death takes away all anyway and I'd always just prefer to sleep eternally than be conscious in this existence, for me dreamless eternal sleep really is all that's desirable and is all I could ever hope and wish for. I just wish for this existence to finally be all gone for me but of course the suffering just continues instead and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, the tiredness I feel is such that only eternal non-existence could take away for me and finally bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity with nothing able to concern me at all in any way, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence so tragically causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention for me.
It really would be suffering prevention for me and the way for me to find safety from suffering in this existence I never would have chose that I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way, no matter what nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. There's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and torturous for me, having the option to just peacefully die really would be suffering prevention for me and the way for me to find peace and safety from suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, death is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing sooner to save myself from suffering as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing.

I see no point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all but of course I wish I never existed in the first place, I could just never see any point to any of this at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this deeply undesirable existence rather I just want all the suffering to be prevented for me. I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unable to suffer in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose, I could personally never see any value to prolonging the suffering of existing rather it's all just so unnecessary to me, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eventually all will be forgotten in death.
It truly will be which is all I hope for, I just wish for this torturous, cruel existence to finally be all forgotten about, I only wish to be permanently unable to suffer and I'll suffer until non-existence takes away all for me anyway, I see existing as only suffering and I find it so tragic how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all that just caused problems and so much pain there was never a need for at all. I just hope and wish to permanently forget about this existence and I'll only be at peace once this existence is all gone for me, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious where nothing can concern me and I cannot suffer in any way with this existence all forgotten about and I see existing as just waiting to die anyway as eventually all will be gone no matter what.

I just wish for this existence to be no longer my problem and I see so much cruelty in how the option to die painlessly is denied even know death is all that's inevitable anyway with their being no disadvantages to not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get and I just want to never suffer ever again. For me permanent non-existence is all that's positive as after all only then will I be incapable of feeling any pain and unable to suffer in any way and to be unable to suffer is all I see as desirable, I just wish for peace from the torturous, futile burden of existing as a human that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for but of course the suffering just continues instead, I'll suffer as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing non-existence.
Non-existence truly is all I need and is all I could ever personally hope for, only non-existence can solve everything for me as after all it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten. I just wish for this torturous, painful existence I always saw as a mistake to be finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead, it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the pain and suffering of existing where existing beings are tortured so much all for the sake of it.

I personally really will always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering which is why permanent non-existence really is what I need, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy and I never should have suffered at all but now I suffer so much and have done for so long all I can hope for is the peace of permanent non-existence. I just want to never suffer ever again, for me existing really is just waiting to die with every second just hoping for the peace that only never suffering ever again can bring me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to finally forget about it all, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me peace, it's all I see as desirable, I truly was never meant for any of this and never should have been forced into this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was never worth it.
To me existence really was never worth it rather it was something so harmful that just caused so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only wish and hope for nothingness instead, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten and nothing can concern me. I really will always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, all I hope for is this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake to finally no longer be my problem but of course I just continue to suffer instead.

I wish I was never forced into this existence of cruelty and suffering, to me existence really will always be an abomination and it's one that just torments existing beings, I could just never see anything appealing about any of this, I could never see anything desirable about any of this rather I just want to permanently forget about this existence, I just want peace from this painful, dreadful existence I personally never saw as worth it and never could do. I see existing as being nothing but suffering, there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, there's just so much pain and cruelty in this existence and it all just continues, I'd rather just not exist and finally escape from it all, existence to me really was never worth it rather it's something I only hope for permanent relief from, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for existence and I really never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as such a torturous unnecessary burden to be conscious suffering in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, something as cruel and futile as existence is something I'll only hope to be permanently free from no matter what. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where I can finally forget about this existence that I was never meant for, I'm personally only meant for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone for me, I just wish for permanent peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'll only be at peace once I finally cease existing, to me existence really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering.

To me existence will always just feel like a mistake no matter what and it's one so dreadful and pointless that just harms and torments existing beings causing suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I really just was never meant for any of this and if it's up to me I'd just choose to sleep permanently, all I hope for is the relief of an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem. I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I was never meant for without the option to just painlessly free myself from it in peace and never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I was never meant for that was so tragically imposed in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is completely futile.
It truly is completely futile to me, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden so unnecessary ultimately responsible for all suffering just for one to decay and die anyway. To me human existence really does always feel like a mistake and it's one I was never meant for, to me personally existence itself certainly is the ultimate problem and it's one that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about, in an existence so futile ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to no longer being burdened with this existence.

If I don't exist then nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem which is all I could ever wish for, I just see existence as ultimately so meaningless as well, it's all just suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it which is just so cruel and terrible to me, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as I see no point, value and benefit to being burdened with this existence rather I see existence as so deeply undesirable in every way possible. I'd prefer to not exist than be conscious in this futile existence with no limit as to how much one can suffer, existing to me really is just waiting to die as after all, all will finally be forgotten in death anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I could ever hope for, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I always search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, all I wish for is non-existence, it's all that can bring me peace, I just wish for true permanent peace from the torturous, unnecessary burden of human existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, all I want is to never suffer ever again. I suffer so much just from existing, more than anything I wish I was never forced to be conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy, it's just so dreadful to me how this existence was even imposed at all.

I'd just never wish for the cruel, futile imposition of existence that just harms existing beings and torments them until death takes away all anyway and I'm always just so tired of suffering in this existence and I'll always be tired no matter what, I really was never meant for this and I never should have suffered at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existence, it's all just so cruel and painful to me. There's so much pain in existing and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to cease existing in peace and forget about it all, non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me relief from the cruelty of existing, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence where there is all this suffering, I just wish I could cease existing in peace and forget about it all, I'll only ever wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is all that's inevitable.
It truly is all that's inevitable, eventually this torturous, unecessary existence will be all gone and forgotten no matter what which is all I hope for and see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to choose to cease existing peacefully is denied even know death is all that's inevitable anyway as I'd rather cease existing sooner to save myself from suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.

The thought of being enslaved in this existence just to die in agony tortured by old age really is so horrific and unbearable to me, I see existence as being nothing more than futile, pointless suffering, I'll always see it as a torturous, terrible abomination to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just destined to die anyway and I'd always prefer to not exist, permanent non-existence truly is always preferable for me than just waiting to die in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake in the first place. I wish I could jus choose to fall asleep permanently as non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that could ever be for me no matter what, I just wish for this existence I always saw as so deeply undesirable to be all gone and forgotten about, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence that I never would have chosen and was never meant for, to me existing truly is just only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me, I really never should have been forced into this cruel, futile existence that just leads to decay and death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me, I see the permanent end to all futile, unnecessary suffering as something positive, it's all that could bring me peace from this torturous, cruel existence that I was never meant for and never would have chosen, I just hope and wish to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing and hoping to be gone.

To me existing really is just waiting to die and I suffer so much just from existing, non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all I see as desirable, I just want this torturous, unnecessary existence to be all forgotten about and finally no longer my problem, non-existence is all that could ever be positive for me. I just want non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake that just tormented existing beings, dreamless eternal sleep really is all I wish for and could ever do, I just hope for permanent relief from all suffering, to me being permanently unable to suffer could only ever be positive. I just want to forget about this existence I saw as just causing so much harm and so much suffering all for the sake of it, existence itself to me really is the ultimate problem and it's one that only ceasing to exist could bring me peace from, I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this torturous, futile existence ever again, I've only ever wished to not exist and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for the peace of never existing ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this futile, torturous existence.
There truly is so much cruelty in this futile, torturous existence, it's all just so terrible and painful and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish to be unconscious of this existence, I'll personally only be at peace once this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about. For me peace really could only lie in being permanently unable to suffer where finally nothing can concern me, there's just so much cruelty in this existence and what is so terrible and painful to me is how it can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I really will always see existence as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings are tortured all for the sake of it just to decay and die anyway, this world truly is the most horrific place, there's just so much suffering in existing, I wish to just cease existing in peace and never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer trapped in this existence just wishing for the relief that only dreamless eternal sleep can bring me. I just want permanent peace from the cruelty of existing and I'll only be at peace once this existence is all forgotten and no longer my problem, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the pain of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this cruel, torturous existence that just harms existing beings and causes them to suffer so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always and only be suffering.
No matter what existing to me will always and only be suffering no matter what, I suffer just from existing, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be burdened with this cruel and torturous existence that there was never a need for at all. I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll just hope for peace from it all, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering.

Only non-existence appeals to me as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent for all eternity, there are no disadvantages to the peace of non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone, I'd always prefer to not exist, I could personally just never see anything desirable about suffering in this existence. I'd be so relieved to sleep eternally and never exist ever again as existing to me really is only suffering and I suffer so much from just being conscious in this existence, I'll always see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes so much harm, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope for peace from the suffering, I just wish for this existence to be finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.
If it's up to me I really would choose to erase my existence as I want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence at all and I never should have existed, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I never became conscious in this existence that I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, no matter what I'll always find it the most undesirable, harmful burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes me to suffer. To me existing really does feel like only suffering and I wish I could just erase it all for me, I just wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me, it'd bring me so much peace to be able to erase my existence and never suffer ever again as all I wish for is the absence of all suffering and harm.

I'd never wish for this existence that just causes so much pain, problems there were never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay from age and die anyway, I just want my existence to be all erased and forgotten about, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity with nothing able to concern me in any way, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence just hoping to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what but really I wish I could just erase my existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

As long as I exist I'll just hope for death.
As long as I exist I really will just hope for death, it's all I can hope for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about, to me existence really is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want this existence to be all gone instead. I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake is finally no longer my problem, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just hoping to be gone, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all that could ever bring me any peace.

I'll always just see existence as an abomination that brings and causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for until death takes away all anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to be tormented by old age, I could personally never see any value to being enslaved in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about no matter what, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself but of course I continue to suffer instead and existence feels like only suffering to me, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence.
No matter what nothing really would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for nothingness instead, I only hope for the peace of an dreamless eternal sleep where all is gone, to me existence could never be a desirable state but rather something that just causes so much suffering and so much harm until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I could ever wish for, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, for me non-existence really is always preferable and it's all that could ever bring me any relief.

I could personally just never see any point, benefit or value to suffering being conscious in this existence rather I see existence as the most tragic, harmful imposition that just torments existing beings, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I wish I never existed more than anything, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence that just tortures and torments existing beings. I just don't find it desirable to exist in general, no matter what I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just hoping and waiting to die, I just want all the suffering to finally be gone for me but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing for the peace that only never suffering ever again can bring me, for me personally non-existence is the relief in this existence so cruel and futile.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence.
I really was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence and I never should have suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, existing to me really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway, existence to me really is just only suffering and it's suffering I only hope for peace from. As long as I exist I'll only ever wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I was just never meant to exist and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway, existence is just so cruel, it just causes so much harm.

It really is all just so dreadful and terrible and I was just never meant for any of this, only non-existence is what I'm meant for, I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten, existence to me really is the problem, it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and I really would never wish for any of this. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for non-existence, true permanent peace from this existence certainly is all I hope for and is all that can bring me any relief, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to finally be gone for me as I was just never meant to suffer in this existence and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me and bring me peace from this unnecessary torturous existence, I only hope to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, existence is just so cruel and painful and only leads to way more suffering and to me existing is only suffering, I suffer as I'm unfortunate enough to be conscious burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me. What appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and that there are no disadvantages to it, one cannot suffer from the absence of existence after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself and what is so terrible to me is how existing can very easily lead to way more suffering and torture tormenting existing beings so much more as a result.

Non-existence really would solve everything for me as after all I cannot suffer from the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, to permanently cease existing really is all I could see as ideal and desirable, I just wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake to be all forgotten about and finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, there's so much suffering and cruelty in this torturous, undesirable existence it really is all so dreadful and painful, I truly would always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can personally solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.

 

[Hotsackage]

Sincerely hope they get maid in the uk

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only ever wished to rest.
To rest really has been all I've ever wished for, I just wish to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake, I see it as just being cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and the fact that this existence was even imposed is such a tragedy to me. I'd just never wish for the cruel, harmful tragedy of existence rather I only wish for nothingness, I wish for this existence to finally be all gone for me, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me peace from the cruelty of existence where existing beings are forced to suffer, I never wished for existence and never would do.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all that just caused and brought so much suffering and to me existing just feels like nothing but suffering, it's suffering I just wish for permanent relief from, I just hope and wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is finally forgotten, non-existence really is always preferable for me than suffering in this existence. I see non-existence as preferable as after all there is no suffering in non-existence, if I'm gone then nothing can concern me which is all I could ever hope and wish for, I just want to rest, I was never meant to suffer in this terrible and torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this painful existence there was never a need for, I just hope and wish to forget about it all.

 

[Lavínia]

I don't know if it's rude. I've been writing a lot lately, trying to focus on finishing my book. This... cyclical side of yours? caught my attention, so I wrote a "pre" one-chapter essay about obsession.

Repetition, rhythmless downward spiral
- Existences are their own things, not limited to words, classification. Poor judgment in naming things, does not catch gaps.

Knock-knock, ancestral return locomotive. Checking the remaining structure, in stubbornness.
- Just a moment, please, please, a little moment, one more. A break, calm down and wait. Wait more, a little more. Hold on to get better, waste your time.

Wet cardboard, twisted into the gentle and simple image of a premature rabbit.
- Existence is nothing more than pain, suffering. Something so tepid, imposed as a standard and obligation of passage for all beings. Laughable and unjustified cruelty.

Vile metallic air, wearing silk stockings, so beautiful but familiar. Incestuous touch of gray.
- Monotony is recurrent, sweet poison that is always betrayed. The most valuable milk of this thing camouflages itself as such, treating itself as nutritious. Living is not nutritious, it is washing, impermeable sludge that insists on remaining.

Oracle of piñatas, selfish vines. A demon that embraces thirst, whirlwinds of storm.
- Simply overrated, given the ignorance. Narrow-minded, primate ant that paints itself as a lamb, they are not sheep. Maybe? Not even wolves. Just a malicious shell, a curtain of vicious, cowardly intention that scares and rejects attempts.

Chivalrous annoyance, slimy fixation on disturbances. Iconoclastic snails laced, bound to sin.
- I do not understand how you can see, see this twisted phenotype in such a way. Similar to vipers. Arrest the inconsistency! Hammer, exercise and assume the impracticality of such mannerism, there is no fortune enough to accept this, nefarious mud, as something worthy! Nor deserving of pity, scourge that afflicts me, you are! Nothing! Nothing! Only an unpreparedness of soul, yes, a fragile conviction could awaken such filth of considering you something! You are not something! It should not be. Existence should not exist! Do not bring more pain!

Tyranny rumbles in slender steps. Absence, delightful railroad without trains. No more trains, no more noise. No smoke, no passengers. Endless tracks echoing in darkness. Shared merely the denial.
- I hope I never exist, the concept of existence does not please me. It does me no good, I see this existence as a labyrinth.

It rumbles, again.
- Reflection of pain and suffering, nothing more. I wish that non-existence embraces me, and purifies the sense of existence from my mind.
It rumbles again.
- From my memories, from my entire being. This obligation, biological and sentient slavery to be. I don't want to be. I wish it would stop.
Rumbles again.
- I wasn't made for this, this cruel, futile and torturous existence. Existence, I prefer non-existence. I was never made for this, it should never have happened.
Rumbles again.
- I could be in eternal peace, in non-existence forever, without ever feeling. It's so much meaningless agony, without any purpose. Continuous and penetrating.
Rumbles again.
- It screams, comes back and haunts us all. We are all victims, all existing creatures.
Rumbles again.
- What has not yet come, what has already died, they are freed, in peace. I want peace, I need peace.
Rumbles again. I hate existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Don't belong in this cruel, horrific world.
I truly don't belong in this cruel, horrific world where there is all this endless suffering rather I only belong in non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy to suffer in this torturous, futile existence, to me existence really is an imposition that just causes so much harm tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway and to never suffer ever again is all I hope for. I really don't belong in this horrific world and I really was just never meant for the suffering and cruelty of existing, to suffer in this existence will always be something so terrible and harmful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone.

I've always found it so painful to exist and it's pain that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, I just hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again. I wish for peace from this existence I don't belong in that I was never meant for and peace for me could only lie in non-existence, it could only lie in this existence being all gone and forgotten about for me, I was never meant for the cruel, torturous burden of existing and I'll always see it as so burdensome to suffer in this existence no matter what, existence itself to me will always be the true problem and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from.

 

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Only hoping to not exist.
No matter what non-existence truly is all I could hope and wish for, I just want some peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, for me personally non-existence really is all that could ever be ideal, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence suffering all for the sake of it.

It really is just all so cruel, terrible and painful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just hope and wish for this existence to no longer my problem, for me non-existence really is all I could wish for. I just hope for this existence to no longer be my problem and I was just never meant for any of this suffering, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings are tormented so much. It's all just so painful and terrible to me and I always suffer from being trapped in this existence just hoping to be gone, to me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd just never wish for any of the suffering of existing, I just want all to be gone for me instead, non-existence really is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, for me existence really was never worth it, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence, the fact that this existence was even imposed is the most terrible tragedy to me.

 

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So terrible and cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing.
It really is all so terrible and cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just hope to be non-existent, I wish there's the option to just simply choose to find peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, existing to me really does feel like nothing but suffering and I see existence as the most cruel, harmful terrible tragedy that just brings so much pain and suffering until death takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just want peace instead and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence as well and I find it so painful to be conscious in this existence, what is so terrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering and agony of existing can get, I just want to finally peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me and I suffer so much from how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the wish to permanently stop suffering. It's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I really never should have suffered in this painful, torturous existence that just torments existing beings at all and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I wish this existence was never imposed and it never should have been, I just want this existence to be all gone for me.

 

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I'd choose to erase my existence.
I truly would choose to erase my existence as I want it to be like I never suffered at all and I really never should have suffered in this existence I always saw as the most harmful, terrible tragic mistake, erasing my existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, relief and safety from suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose under any circumstances. To me existing really is only suffering and I suffer so much from being conscious burdened and enslaved in this existence and only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for.

I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence of cruelty and suffering and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, I was just never meant for the suffering of existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, I just wish for the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again. I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just to decay and die anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence really was never worth it for me and I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. To me existence is the most cruel, undesirable burden that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from and I always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again where finally nothing can concern me.

 

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Only hoping for freedom from all suffering.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is freedom from all suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about and only non-existence could bring me the freedom and peace from suffering I search for as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence which is all I wish and hope for.

Non-existence is always preferable for me as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep yet no limit as to how much one can suffer in this torturous, undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me and it's suffering so futile and unnecessary that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it, I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence and to me existence feels like nothing but suffering. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course I never should had suffered at all, eternal non-existence really is all that's ideal and desirable for me, I was just never meant for this existence of pointless cruelty and suffering and the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific and unbearable to me, I just want permanent safety and freedom from all suffering instead, I wish for this torturous, futile existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my concern, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway.

 

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Existence is really harmful.
It really is so harmful, existence just causes an immense amount of harm torturing and tormenting existing beings as a result, it's all just so terrible and cruel, there's just so much suffering in existing and the suffering just continues, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence there was never a need for just waiting to die anyway and I could personally never see any value to suffering in this harmful existence rather I just hope to be non-existent.

I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this harmful, torturous existence is finally forgotten about but of course the suffering just continues instead with me enslaved in this existence just hoping to be gone wishing for the peace that only permanent non-existence can bring me, no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. I just wish for permanent relief from this harmful existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this harmful existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, the way I see it existence really does just cause only harm, there's so much suffering in this harmful existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from it all, I just want this existence to be no longer my concern, I'd never wish for something as harmful as existence rather I just wish for nothingness.

 

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Existence is the source of all problems.
It truly is the source of all problems and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, no matter what I'll always see it as so terrible to be conscious in this unnecessary existence there was never a need for, no matter what I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just hope for permanent non-existence and the fact that this existence was even imposed at all is always the most terrible, cruel tragedy to me. I'd just never wish for existence and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I really do suffer so much from the imposition of existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and so much pain and problems until death takes away all anyway, I just see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again.

Existence itself really is the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of and ultimate cause of all suffering, I'd just never wish for this unnecessary existence that just leads to decay and death anyway rather I just want for all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I just wish for this existence to no longer be my problem and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence. I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just brings so much pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I wish for and all I could personally see as desirable, existence to me just feels like a mistake that is the source of all problems there was never a need for at all.