Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is a burden.
I'll always see existence as a burden no matter what and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is peace from the burden of existence. I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence, I see existence itself as the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just wish for peace from the suffering in this torturous, futile existence and peace for me could only lie in non-existence where I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from being conscious, it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace from, non-existence really is all I could ever wish for, I just want to no longer be burdened with this existence and the fact that this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed really is the most terrible dreadful tragedy to me. I wish I was never forced to suffer, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want peace, I want to never exist ever again, peace for me could only lie in dreamless eternal sleep where finally I'm unable to suffer at all, I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

All will be gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway.
It truly will which is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it all I want is to forget about this existence, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, existence for me really was never worth it rather I just see it as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway.

I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again as I just don't see existence as a desirable state, I was never meant for any of this and I've always found it so dreadful and torturous to exist, non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do, I just want to finally forget about this harmful cruel existence, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and I'll only be at peace once I never exist ever again. I truly would always prefer to not exist, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as nothing would make me wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to never suffer ever again.
All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence, I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and to me existing really is only suffering, it's suffering so futile and unnecessary that just leads to decay and death anyway, non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do. I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile existence no matter what rather all I hope for is nothingness, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always wish to not exist and non-existence is all I've hoped for, in this existence so torturous all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity.

I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing and I always wish to just fall asleep permanently, I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again, to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I see as desirable. I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I just never should had been burdened with this existence and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I wish for peace from all the suffering and it's all I could hope for, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily waiting to not exist anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I just hope to fall asleep permanently and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as the most dreadful mistake, I'll always see existence as the problem and non-existence really is always preferable for me than being burdened with this cruel existence.

All I hope for is nothingness, I just want to sleep for all eternity, I just wish to be unconscious incapable of suffering with all finally gone and forgotten about, I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather it's a burden I was never meant for and never would had chosen, I'll always see existence as the most tortuous, cruel burden that just causes and brings all this suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and for me eternal sleep truly is always preferable. I'm always so tired and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can ever bring me peace and relief from, I just hope to fall asleep permanently, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake ever again, non-existence is all I wish for as simply just existing is enough to make me feel tired, I've just never wished for any of this and I was never meant for it either, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, it's all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist, in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and is all I hope for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I just wish to never exist ever again. Only eternal sleep is desirable for me and is all that can bring me peace from this torturous, futile existence that I was just never meant for and never would had chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want nothingness.

I just want peace and I wish for the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from suffering and I'm always just so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I only hope for nothingness. I only hope to fall asleep eternally and finally be at peace, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why non-existence is all I'll hope for, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me any relief from suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want this torturous, futile existence to be all gone, forgotten and no longer my problem, for me the absence of all suffering could only ever be positive, I just want some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that's positive for me as I see existence as the problem.

I see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence just waiting to cease existing anyway, I just want to never think or feel anything ever again, I just see existence as so unnecessary, so futile and the thought of suffering until old age is so unbearable and horrific to me. I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, non-existence is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable existence I never would had wished for and I'd just never wish for any of this, non-existence is all I personally see as positive which is why it's all I hope for, it'd solve everything for me in this existence I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it.
No matter what I really would always prefer to prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway. To me human existence truly does feel like the most futile, torturous burden and it's one I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with all finally gone and forgotten for me instead, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence jusr continues, it really is all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to fall asleep permanently, dreamless eternal sleep really would solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone. I could never see any point to any of this, to me existing really is just futile suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to death anyway, permanent nothingness really is all I could wish for and could ever do, I just want to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for permanent sleep.
To sleep for all eternity really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I'm just so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, as long as I exist I really will just wish for nothingness, I could only ever hope for the relief of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, existing to me really is just only suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and torturous to exist.

I'd just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll just wish for nothingness, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this painful, harmful existence, I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering. I just want to never exist ever again, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, it really is all just so terrible to me and cruel, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer just from being burdened with this existence.
I always suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I'll always just see existing as being pointless unnecessary suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I'll always see existence as the most torturous burden and it's one I'm always so tired of, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from the cruel, futile and torturous burden of existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten. I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, existing to me really is only suffering and what I see as so dreadful is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get, I suffer just from existing and I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, all I hope for is the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just unnecessary suffering.
To me existing really is just unnecessary suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence more than anything and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence anyway, no matter what I'll always just see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I really was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it rather all I hope for is to fall asleep permanently.

I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where all is finally gone for me, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just want to escape from, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone, I just want peace from the unnecessary suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until all is gone for them in non-existence anyway, to permanently cease existing is all I hope for and could ever do. I only see non-existence as desirable and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this existence of unnecessary suffering where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting for death no matter what, it's all just futile unnecessary suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is always the problem.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the problem, it's the source of and ultimate cause of all suffering after all and as long as I exist I'll just hope to permanently be free from it, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I wish for is nothingness.

I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again as I was just never meant for any of this as well, existence to me really is the most futile, torturous burden that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and as long as I exist I'll wish to never exist ever again, I'll always just see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existence is the problem that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all that was all so unnecessary. I really would always prefer to not exist, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it and I see existing as just being only suffering, it's suffering so futile that just leads to death anyway and what is so horrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, existence to me really is the true problem and simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death, all I wish for is nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and to never exist ever again really is all I hope for. Non-existence would solve everything for me as it'd remove what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and it'd save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and if I had the option to just painlessly cease existing I'd be so relieved as it feels like I've suffered for so long and it terrifies me how one can suffer for so much longer.

I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this futile, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, the thought of suffering until old age is just so horrific and unbearable to me and I see it as just so futile anyway, I could never see a point to any of this, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get just for one to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway. I really would just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope for nothingness, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering, I wish for all to be gone and forgotten for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about this existence, I truly would always prefer to not exist, I find it deeply undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
I really would never wish to exist under any circumstances, for me non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this futile, torturous existence and to me existing truly is just only suffering, it's suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence. I just don't find existence to be a desirable state in general rather I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I just have no interest in existing as well and I always find it burden to exist and it's a burden only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of existing and I see existence as so unnecessary.

I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me peace from this existence I always saw as the most harmful terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is all just so cruel and painful to me. I see existence as something that just causes harm but as well as that I just find it futile to exist, only non-existence appeals to me, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all even know there was never a need for any of this, for me eternal sleep really is always preferable than the burden of existence and it's all I've ever hoped for, I just want to not exist for all eternity and never suffer ever again.