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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existence to me is a burden.
I'll always see existence as a burden no matter what and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is peace from the burden of existence. I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence, I see existence itself as the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just wish for peace from the suffering in this torturous, futile existence and peace for me could only lie in non-existence where I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from being conscious, it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace from, non-existence really is all I could ever wish for, I just want to no longer be burdened with this existence and the fact that this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed really is the most terrible dreadful tragedy to me. I wish I was never forced to suffer, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want peace, I want to never exist ever again, peace for me could only lie in dreamless eternal sleep where finally I'm unable to suffer at all, I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
All will be gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway.
It truly will which is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it all I want is to forget about this existence, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, existence for me really was never worth it rather I just see it as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway.

I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again as I just don't see existence as a desirable state, I was never meant for any of this and I've always found it so dreadful and torturous to exist, non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do, I just want to finally forget about this harmful cruel existence, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering and I'll only be at peace once I never exist ever again. I truly would always prefer to not exist, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as nothing would make me wish for any of this, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Only wishing to never suffer ever again.
All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence, I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and to me existing really is only suffering, it's suffering so futile and unnecessary that just leads to decay and death anyway, non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do. I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile existence no matter what rather all I hope for is nothingness, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll always wish to not exist and non-existence is all I've hoped for, in this existence so torturous all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity.

I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing and I always wish to just fall asleep permanently, I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again, to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I see as desirable. I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I just never should had been burdened with this existence and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I wish for peace from all the suffering and it's all I could hope for, I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily waiting to not exist anyway.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I just hope to fall asleep permanently and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as the most dreadful mistake, I'll always see existence as the problem and non-existence really is always preferable for me than being burdened with this cruel existence.

All I hope for is nothingness, I just want to sleep for all eternity, I just wish to be unconscious incapable of suffering with all finally gone and forgotten about, I could just never see existence as a desirable state rather it's a burden I was never meant for and never would had chosen, I'll always see existence as the most tortuous, cruel burden that just causes and brings all this suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and for me eternal sleep truly is always preferable. I'm always so tired and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can ever bring me peace and relief from, I just hope to fall asleep permanently, as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake ever again, non-existence is all I wish for as simply just existing is enough to make me feel tired, I've just never wished for any of this and I was never meant for it either, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, it's all I could hope for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist, in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and is all I hope for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I just wish to never exist ever again. Only eternal sleep is desirable for me and is all that can bring me peace from this torturous, futile existence that I was just never meant for and never would had chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want nothingness.

I just want peace and I wish for the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from suffering and I'm always just so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I only hope for nothingness. I only hope to fall asleep eternally and finally be at peace, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why non-existence is all I'll hope for, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence at all.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me any relief from suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this endless suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want this torturous, futile existence to be all gone, forgotten and no longer my problem, for me the absence of all suffering could only ever be positive, I just want some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that's positive for me as I see existence as the problem.

I see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence just waiting to cease existing anyway, I just want to never think or feel anything ever again, I just see existence as so unnecessary, so futile and the thought of suffering until old age is so unbearable and horrific to me. I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, non-existence is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable existence I never would had wished for and I'd just never wish for any of this, non-existence is all I personally see as positive which is why it's all I hope for, it'd solve everything for me in this existence I never would had wished for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it.
No matter what I really would always prefer to prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway. To me human existence truly does feel like the most futile, torturous burden and it's one I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer with all finally gone and forgotten for me instead, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence jusr continues, it really is all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to fall asleep permanently, dreamless eternal sleep really would solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone. I could never see any point to any of this, to me existing really is just futile suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to death anyway, permanent nothingness really is all I could wish for and could ever do, I just want to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all I hope for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Wishing for permanent sleep.
To sleep for all eternity really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I'm just so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, as long as I exist I really will just wish for nothingness, I could only ever hope for the relief of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, existing to me really is just only suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and torturous to exist.

I'd just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll just wish for nothingness, in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this painful, harmful existence, I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering. I just want to never exist ever again, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting for death, it really is all just so terrible to me and cruel, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Suffer just from being burdened with this existence.
I always suffer just from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, all I hope for is to never exist ever again, I'll always just see existing as being pointless unnecessary suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I'll always see existence as the most torturous burden and it's one I'm always so tired of, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from the cruel, futile and torturous burden of existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten. I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, existing to me really is only suffering and what I see as so dreadful is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get, I suffer just from existing and I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, all I hope for is the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and I can be at peace.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existing to me really is just unnecessary suffering.
To me existing really is just unnecessary suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence more than anything and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence anyway, no matter what I'll always just see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I really was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it rather all I hope for is to fall asleep permanently.

I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where all is finally gone for me, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just want to escape from, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone, I just want peace from the unnecessary suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until all is gone for them in non-existence anyway, to permanently cease existing is all I hope for and could ever do. I only see non-existence as desirable and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this existence of unnecessary suffering where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting for death no matter what, it's all just futile unnecessary suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existence to me is always the problem.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the problem, it's the source of and ultimate cause of all suffering after all and as long as I exist I'll just hope to permanently be free from it, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I wish for is nothingness.

I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again as I was just never meant for any of this as well, existence to me really is the most futile, torturous burden that just causes all this harm and suffering until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and as long as I exist I'll wish to never exist ever again, I'll always just see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existence is the problem that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all that was all so unnecessary. I really would always prefer to not exist, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it and I see existing as just being only suffering, it's suffering so futile that just leads to death anyway and what is so horrible to me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get, existence to me really is the true problem and simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death, all I wish for is nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Eternal sleep solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and to never exist ever again really is all I hope for. Non-existence would solve everything for me as it'd remove what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and it'd save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and if I had the option to just painlessly cease existing I'd be so relieved as it feels like I've suffered for so long and it terrifies me how one can suffer for so much longer.

I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this futile, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, the thought of suffering until old age is just so horrific and unbearable to me and I see it as just so futile anyway, I could never see a point to any of this, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get just for one to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway. I really would just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope for nothingness, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering, I wish for all to be gone and forgotten for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about this existence, I truly would always prefer to not exist, I find it deeply undesirable to exist.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Never wanting to exist.
I really would never wish to exist under any circumstances, for me non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this futile, torturous existence and to me existing truly is just only suffering, it's suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence. I just don't find existence to be a desirable state in general rather I find it deeply undesirable to exist, I just have no interest in existing as well and I always find it burden to exist and it's a burden only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of existing and I see existence as so unnecessary.

I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me peace from this existence I always saw as the most harmful terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is all just so cruel and painful to me. I see existence as something that just causes harm but as well as that I just find it futile to exist, only non-existence appeals to me, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all even know there was never a need for any of this, for me eternal sleep really is always preferable than the burden of existence and it's all I've ever hoped for, I just want to not exist for all eternity and never suffer ever again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
To cease existing is all I could ever wish for.
It truly is all I could ever wish for and is all that could ever bring me any peace from suffering, all I personally hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where all is gone for me, I just find it deeply undesirable to exist and I'm always so tired of existing, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I've only ever wished for eternal nothingness and it's all I could hope for. I just want to never exist ever again, to me existence itself really is an unnecessary harm that causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I just see it as all so futile as well, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to be unconscious for all eternity.

I'm just always so tired of this existence of unnecessary futile suffering and cruelty where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, I only see non-existence as desirable and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist ever again. I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and finally forget about this existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I was just never meant for any of this as well and I see existence as the problem, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering, it really is all just so dreadful to me, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
It truly is all that's inevitable anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, eventually this existence will be gone and forgotten about which is all I wish for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have a guaranteed, painless way to cease existing even know death really is all that's inevitable anyway and this existence is just unnecessary, futile suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, death is all that's inevitable and I'll always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existing really is just pointless suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish it was never imposed.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence and I see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway and this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place, the fact that this existence was imposed is always such a terrible tragedy to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally forgotten, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, harmful existence rather I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I really am just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.
I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, as long as I exist I'll just hope for peace from the suffering and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to have a death like never waking ever again even know this existence that caused all this harm and suffering was so tragically imposed.

I really will always see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish to not exist, as long as I exist I really will just hope for nothingness and eternal sleep has been all I've hoped for, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake again and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is nothingness. I just want to never wake ever again, in an existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable, it's all that can bring me any relief from suffering and I see existing as being only suffering, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again where all is finally gone, I just want to forget about this futile, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I wish to just never suffer ever again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
So terrible to me how there's all this suffering.
It truly is so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, only in non-existence will I be safe from suffering and be permanently unable to suffer which is why it's all I wish for. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten for me, I just see it as so cruel how there's all this pain and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence to me really does feel like a mistake.

I see existence as an abomination that just causes all this suffering and harm, it's just so harmful to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering but of course I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it truly is just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this. Non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents really is just something always so dreadful to me, I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
So horrific how even trying to die can go wrong.
I find it so horrific how even trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering with no risks of ending up in a situation of way worse agony as all I wish for is to never exist ever again. I just wish for permanent relief from the torturous and futile burden of human existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway, to me existence really is the most harmful imposition that just causes and brings so much suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it all, I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how painless guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me. All I hope for is to never wake ever again and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and for me non-existence truly is the only peace, I'll only be at peace from the suffering of existing once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I see existence as a burden that just causes so much harm and I'd never wish for any of this, existence itself to me will always be the true problem.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Just wanting to sleep.
All I personally hope for is to sleep, I just want to never wake ever again, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again and if I had the option to just fall asleep permanently it'd solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway. No matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to sleep, eternal sleep is all I've hoped for and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want some peace from the suffering and peace is all I hope for as long as I exist.

I really was just never meant for any of this as well and I have no interest in suffering rather I just want to sleep, in an existence where there's all this futile suffering and cruelty that just leads to decay and death anyway eternal sleep truly is the only peace and relief for me, I just want peace and to never exist ever again really has been all I've hoped for, non-existence would solve everything for me and really is all I see as desirable. I'm just always so tired of this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering that was so tragically imposed and I'll always feel so tired no matter what, it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, as long as I exist I'll only wish for death.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Non-existence really is always preferable for me.
It really is always preferable for me than the futile unnecessary suffering of existing and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could hope and wish for, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I'm no longer burdened with this existence and all is finally forgotten.

I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather I only hope for nothingness, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, non-existence is preferable for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I wish and hope for, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope to not exist. I'll only be at peace in non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and this harmful existence that just causes and brings suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway is finally all gone, I've always and only wished to not exist and it's all I could hope for, eternal sleep really is preferable for me than the suffering of existence, existence itself to me will always be the true problem. I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes all this pain and suffering, to me existing will always be only suffering no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to not exist, I just wish for some peace.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
I'll only be at peace once the suffering is gone for me.
I truly will only be at peace once the suffering is gone for me and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I just want to never wake, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy. I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is nothingness, I just wish for permanent relief from all the suffering of this futile, torturous existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

All I could wish for is to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering but of course all the suffering just continues, it really is just so dreadful to me and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all I could wish for, I just hope to never suffer ever again and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know this existence was so tragically imposed. All I hope for is non-existence, it's the only relief for me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer for all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want peace from all the suffering of this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, I'm always so tired of it all.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existence was never a desirable state for me.
It truly was never a desirable state for me and it's something I'd just never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to sleep permanently, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I'll always see existence as the problem, I see existence as a burden that just causes and brings all this suffering.

I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is nothingness, for me eternal non-existence is all I see as desirable and I just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, existence to me is something so dreadful that just causes harm and suffering. It's a torturous futile imposition and I'd just never wish to suffer, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty, pain and suffering of existing and I'd just never see existence as desirable rather I see existence itself as the true problem, it's the source and cause of all suffering after all and I just don't see anything desirable about being conscious in this existence rather I just see it as all so futile, there's just so much suffering in existing, it truly is so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep permanently.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
I truly do find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is non-existence, I wish to be non-existent and unable to suffer, to me human existence really is the most futile, torturous burden and I find it the most terrible tragedy how it was even imposed at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never suffer ever again. It's just so horrific to me how existence causes all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the torture of existing can continue for so much longer, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing.

The fact that a human can be enslaved in this existence for so long just to die in agony from old age is just so terrifying to me and I see so much cruelty in how the option to just peacefully cease existing with no risks of it going wrong is so cruelly denied even know this existence was so tragically imposed. I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just want nothingness, I just want peace, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and finally be free from this torturous existence of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that felt like a terrible mistake that was never worth it for me, I just want to never suffer ever again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence really is the most dreadful, cruel abomination and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence, only in non-existence will all be gone and will I be unable to suffer which is all I wish for, I just want to never exist ever again with all finally gone for me.

I just see it as so harmful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was forced causing all this harm as a result, for me non-existence really is always preferable and is all I'll hope for. I was just never meant for any of this and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to decay, be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then is this harmful existence finally all forgotten and no longer my concern, I only see never suffering ever again as desirable and I see it as so harmful how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know I never would had chosen and never would had wished for any of this, I never should had suffered at all.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
The only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again.
It truly is the only relief for me and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it.

I'll suffer until all is forgotten for me in non-existence anyway, in this existence where's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only relief for me and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again with this existence finally all gone and no longer my problem. I see existing as only being suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death no matter what, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again. I just want to forget about this existence, non-existence really is always preferable for me than being burdened with this existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist, I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, all I wish for is an permanent sleep where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Existing is only suffering to me.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence, I really would prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence but of course more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence at all.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty was even imposed and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering so dreadful and unnecessary that just torments existing beings until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'll just always prefer to not exist, in this existence so torturous non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I really am just always so tired of suffering and as long as I exist I'll hope to never suffer ever again, I just have no interest in existing and I never will do, I see it as so deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die. It's just suffering there was never a need for at all and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never exist ever again, dreamless eternal sleep is all I hope for and is all that can bring me peace, I just wish for peace from suffering, all I wish for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten for me.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Non-existence is all I see as positive.
It truly is all I see as positive for me as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and to never suffer ever again really is all I wish for, I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to finally be all gone and no longer my problem, non-existence is all I see as positive as after all, only when I no longer exist will I no longer be burdened with this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I only hope for non-existence as I find it deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer just from existing.

I'll always see existence as the most cruel, harmful abomination no matter what and it's one that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and I really will only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not suffer than prolong the suffering and cruelty of existing just to be tortured way more unbearably and cease existing anyway and I'll always just see existing as suffering for the sake of it. As long as I exist I'll just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently free from this unnecessary existence that was so tragically imposed and more than anything I wish I never suffered. Nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of this existence rather I just want to not exist, for me eternal non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all that can bring me the peace and safety from suffering I search for, I just want to never suffer ever again instead of being tormented by this futile existence just to suffer way more.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Always finding it torturous to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it so torturous to exist and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, all I could ever wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I suffer so much from being burdened with this torturous existence, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer and I see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it.

It's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and I just wish this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering was never imposed more than anything, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep, I wish for an permanent sleep where this cruel, futile existence is finally all gone, I find it so torturous to simply be conscious. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why I'll always wish for death no matter what, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'd just never wish to suffer at all, I just hope for some peace instead and for me peace could only lie in finally being free from this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what under any circumstances, all I hope for is to never exist again.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Suffer from how I cannot just choose to find peace.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to find peace from this existence and never exist ever again, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know this existence was so tragically imposed causing all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it as a result, there's just so much suffering in this existing, it's all so torturous and dreadful to me.

I always wish to fall asleep permanently and it's all I could ever wish for, the peace of an eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering and all I could ever hope for is peace from it all. I just wish for non-existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief from the suffering of existing, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, I wish to die peacefully with all finally gone and forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering. I just want to fall asleep for all eternity and finally be free from it all, the peace of non-existence really is always preferable for me than the unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing and is all I could wish for, I'm just so tired of suffering and I always find it so painful to suffer in this existence just waiting and hoping to not exist anyway.
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,188
Only in non-existence will I be at peace from this torturous existence.
I truly will only be at peace in non-existence and in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it non-existence really is the only relief for me, it's all I could hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I've always hoped to sleep permanently and it's all I could wish for, I just don't see it as desirable to exist and to me existing really is only suffering.

I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want to be at peace from this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I just will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway. For me non-existence truly is always preferable and is all I could wish for, I just wish for all to finally be forgotten for me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's really all just so cruel to me. I'll personally always see non-existence as the only relief and to never exist ever again really is all I see as desirable, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence, I just want nothingness, I just want to rest, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen, I'd never wish for any of this.
 
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