Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

The thought of suffering until old age is unbearable.
It truly is unbearable for me, it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age, I just never wished for any of this suffering in the first place anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief from the cruelty and suffering of this futile, torturous existence, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing. I see existing as just being futile suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, I really would never wish for any of this, I see existence as the problem and the thought of being trapped in this existence until old age is so horrific.

I just don't want to suffer at all and I find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all, I'll always see it as so unnecessary to exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a painless guaranteed death even know I never would had wished for any of this in the first place and to me existing is just waiting for death anyway. I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel existence, I just want non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll only and always wish to not exist no matter what, I just want peace from all the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, futile existence and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I'l just always find it so unbearable and torturous to suffer in this existence and it just feels like I've suffered for such a long time, what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for way longer causing all this agony as a result, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence.

Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, I never wanted to suffer at all in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence is the only peace and it'd solve everything for me in this futile, torturous existence where I just suffer all for the sake of it. I just wish for non-existence to bring me permanent relief from suffering I search for and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as all I could ever hope for is to not exist, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for and never would had chose, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just want to never wake ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm.
It really is just so dreadful to me and no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, harmful existence suffering all for the sake of it, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence is the only peace for me and is all I hope for. I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again with all finally gone for me, I could personally just never see existence as a desirable state rather it's just something so cruel, so harmful that I only wish for permanent peace from, no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want some peace and only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake and the fact that this harmful existence was even imposed truly is the most terrible tragedy to me, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from this harmful existence that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway. All I wish for is to never exist ever again, for me existence really was never desirable and as long as I exist I'll just have so much dread for what lies ahead, existence really is just so harmful, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring to cease existing over suffering so unnecessarily.
No matter what I'd prefer to cease existing over suffering so unnecessarily in this futile, torturous existence, I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more and it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in non-existence, for me non-existence is the only peace and is all I've wished for.

I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence that causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness, I just want peace from all the unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay from age and cease existing anyway, non-existence truly is the only relief for me which is why it's just so painful to me how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again. Non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for this futile, unnecessary existence to be no longer my problem, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is peace, I just want to sleep for all eternity and never exist ever again with all finally gone for me, I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep where nothing can concern me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer and to never suffer ever again truly is all I wish and hope for, I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to be all gone and no longer my problem, existence to me really is only suffering and I'll always see it as so dreadful and harmful to exist, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from.

For me non-existence is all that's positive in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, it's endless and there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so futile to me as well and so unnecessary, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, the fact that this existence of suffering was even imposed at all is just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace. I just want to never suffer ever again, the only relief for me could ever lie in being permanently free from this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll just wish for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep with all finally gone for me, I've only ever wished for some peace and it's all I could hope for, I just wish for non-existence, I wish for all to finally be gone for me and peace for me could only lie in never existing ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered in this cruel, futile existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I'm only meant for the peace of non-existence and I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all. The fact that this existence was imposed truly is the most terrible harmful tragedy for me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to be unconscious for all eternity, I wish to never suffer ever again, all I see as desirable is being permanently incapable of suffering with all finally forgotten.

For me existence was never worth it rather it's something I see as just causing all this suffering and harm all for the sake of it, I'll just always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what and it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could see as positive. I just hope for this existence to be all gone for me, I was just never meant to suffer and I always wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want permanent peace and relief from all suffering and cruelty but of course the suffering just continues in this existence that just felt like a mistake to me, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and I was just never meant for the suffering of existing, I just never should had existed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this futile, dreadful existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be permanently free from it all, I only wish for non-existence, existence to me really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and I see existence as something that just causes harm with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

I just wish more than anything I was never burdened with this existence that just causes and brings all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just to be tortured by old age and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, existence to me really is the most cruel imposition that causes all of this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed. I just wish I never suffered more than anything a I always suffer so much from being conscious burdened with this cruel existence, I'll just always see it as so undesirable to exist no matter what, I only hope for nothingness, all I wish for is to fall into an permanent sleep and finally forget about this cruel existence, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, existence itself to me really is always the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

See so much cruelty in how painless ways are denied.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless ways for me to permanently be free from this harmful, torturous existence are denied as all I want is to never wake ever again, I just want to fall asleep permanently and I suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, in this existence so cruel and futile non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and would solve everything for me.

I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally gone for me but of course I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it truly is all just so dreadful and terrible and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only wish for some peace instead, what terrifies me is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture instead. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I was just never meant for any of this as well, I never should had been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake at all but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone, I only hope for eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake, as long as I exist I'll just wish for non-existence, I just hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally this existence is all gone and no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I really am always wishing to erase my existence as I just want it to be like I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence at all and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden I never would had chosen that only ever brought me so much suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence. All I personally hope for is to not exist, non-existence would bring me so much peace and solve everything for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty.

To me existence itself really is the true problem and always feels like a mistake to me which is why I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want all the suffering to finally be gone for me, I just want to forget about this existence, I just want some peace, I really was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of this. To me existing really is just only suffering which is why only non-existence could ever be positive for me, I really am just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me relief from but of course I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering, I just wish for some peace instead, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to sleep.
All I wish for is to sleep, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of permanent, eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I can forget about this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just hope for nothingness. I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and nothing could ever concern me, eternal sleep is all that's desirable for me as I see existence as only suffering, I see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I just want to never exist ever again.

I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and relief, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, existence itself is the problem to me and I was just never meant for the burden of existence. I'd never wish for it no matter what as well rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, I just hope for all to be gone for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep, all I hope for is nothingness, the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again, I'm just so tired of it all and I've always felt so tired, it's tiredness only eternal sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for human existence.
No matter what I'd just never wish for the burden of human existence and I'll always find it so torturous to exist, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything no matter what at all rather I only hope for nothingness. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist, it's a burden so cruel and futile that just causes all this harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness.

I just want to never suffer ever again, in this existence so cruel non-existence really is the only peace for me and I just don't find it desirable to exist, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence I personally saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I really never should had been burdened with this torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from the suffering, I just wish for all to be finally all gone and forgotten for me, I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to forget about this existence.
I truly would always prefer to forget about this existence, all I wish for is permanent peace, relief and safety from suffering but of course all the suffering in this torturous existence just continues, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope for nothingness. I just want to fall asleep permanently and I'll only be at peace once this existence is all gone for me, existence to me really was never worth it rather I personally just see existence as a mistake that causes and brings all this harm and suffering and I'd just prefer to be unconscious of it, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just wish for freedom from this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I just want to never suffer ever again, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen. Nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to sleep for all eternity, I just want peace from all the suffering in this cruel, futile existence I personally saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy and it's one I'd just always prefer to forget about, non-existence truly is all I hope for and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence I just wish was never imposed, nothing would make wish for the suffering and cruelty of this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for the peace of non-existence.
The peace of non-existence truly is all I could hope for and ever do no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it really is so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and finally forget about this existence I always saw as a mistake.

To me existence really is the most terrible harmful tragedy and it's one I'd just never wish for, I really will only be at peace once I'm no longer enslaved in this existence, I'd just never wish to exist at all under any circumstances rather I just hope for non-existence, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than prolong the suffering of existing just to suffer way more all for the sake of it, non-existence really is all I could ever hope for and is all I see as desirable. I just wish for some peace and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is all I hope for, it's the only relief for me, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep as all I hope for is non-existence. I just wish for some peace, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I wish for no more suffering, no more cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is enslavement.
It truly is to me as after all it was something that was forced yet I'm so cruelly denied the option of a way to just painlessly free myself from it that is guaranteed and leads to no more pain, no more suffering, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I personally find it the most futile, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of cruelty and unnecessary futile suffering that just always felt like a mistake to me and I just suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence, it's suffering that only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me.

All I wish and hope for is to fall asleep permanently, I just want to never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong even know I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for any of this, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence, it's just so painful to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again. I just wish for peace from this existence but of course I continue to be enslaved in this torturous existence of futile unnecessary suffering that I just never would wish for under any circumstances, for me non-existence is always preferable and is all I hope for, I just want permanent peace from all the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence, I just wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what I really will always see existing as being only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this torturous, futile existence, as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope for nothingness, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten, to me existence really is the problem that just causes and brings suffering, I see existence as the most terrible tragic harmful mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for peace.

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, there are no disadvantages to not existing after all which is why I've only ever wished to not exist, I'll always just see existing as suffering all for the sake of it and I always wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want to be unconscious of this torturous, futile existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing. I see existence as an abomination and the most terrible tragedy, I just want permanent relief from all the suffering of existing, and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I see existence as a burden that just torments existing beings and causes them so much pain, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway, I just never should had suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just so futile.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just so futile, to me existing really is just waiting for death and I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, futile existence that I always saw as completely pointless and unnecessary in the first place, to me existence itself really is the true problem, it's the cause of all futile unnecessary suffering after all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again.

I could just never see a point to any of this, it's all just suffering for the sake of it until all is finally gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and for me non-existence really is all that's desirable as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in the peace of permanent non-existence which is all I hope for, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile I'd just never wish for. For me eternal sleep really is always preferable but of course I'm so cruelly denied the option of a death like never waking ever again with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway. For me non-existence really is the only peace, it's so unbearable to me how the suffering can continue for much longer just for one to face way worse torture and agony, I wish this existence of unnecessary suffering was never imposed more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I always wish I could just fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful to me, in this existence where there's all this suffering non-existence really is the only relief for me.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much I can suffer just to decay and die anyway, it's so horrific to me how a human can exist for so long and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again to save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. I'd always prefer to not suffer, I just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy that just causes harm and suffering. I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want some peace from the cruelty and torture of existing but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful existence just waiting to not exist anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for permanent non-existence.
I always wish for permanent non-existence and it's all I could ever hope for, I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable, I just want to never exist ever again, the fact that non-existence is permanent is exactly why it appeals to me and is all I wish for.

I wish for a permanent solution to solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'm always just so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it, for me existence really is the problem and to find permanent relief from it really is all I hope for, I just wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where finally nothing can concern me. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I just never should had been forced to suffer in this existence rather I only wish and hope for nothingness. I just want to fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep truly is the only peace and relief for me in this existence so painful and cruel where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just want to find peace from all the suffering, I really was just never meant for any of this and I never should had existed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Preferring to prevent suffering than prolong it.
No matter what I really would prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die as after all, all will eventually be gone and forgotten in non-existence no matter what and I'd rather prevent unnecessary suffering.

I'd prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep, for me non-existence truly is always preferable and is all I could wish for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile unnecessary existence rather I just want to never exist ever again, I could just never see any point to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just want to forget about it all, it all just leads to death anyway after all and to not exist is all I hope for. Non-existence really would solve everything for me and is all I personally see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this futile, torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chose and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to save me from all future suffering even know death really is all that's inevitable anyway, eventually all will be gone in non-existence with none of this able to concern me which is all I hope for, I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence of futile suffering where one is just destined to decay and die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most terrible tragedy.
To me existence really is the most terrible tragedy that just causes so much harm and suffering and problems there were never a need for, it's all just so cruel and torturous to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer. I wish I was never forced to become conscious of this cruel, futile existence, I always find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all and as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again, to me existence really does just feel like a terrible mistake and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

I was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of this, to me existence itself really is always the true problem, it's the cause and source of all suffering after all and I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. To me existing really is just waiting to die anyway, it's just suffering so unnecessary and I'll always see existence as as something so terrible, it's an abomination to me, I always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just want the peace of an eternal sleep, I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.