Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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No limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence.
There truly is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, it's all just so horrible and dreadful to me, I just see existence as an unnecessary harm that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and it can easily get way more torturous and unbearable at any moment. I personally find it an abomination having to suffer in this existence at all, the fact that this existence was imposed truly is the most terrible, harmful tragedy to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence, nothing would make me wish to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway rather I just want nothingness, only when I'm non-existent will I be unable to suffer in any way with all finally gone and forgotten about, I just wish to be permanently safe from all harm and suffering, I wish for permanent peace from this horrific reality where existing beings suffer all for the sake of it and are tormented so extremely. The amount of suffering this existence causes truly is beyond comprehension, it's endless and no matter what I'd always prefer to cease existing, I have so much dread for what lies ahead and find it so dreadful to simply exist, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, to never suffer ever again and be permanently unable to suffer is all I hope for, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment.

 

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I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep.
No matter what I truly will only be at peace in eternal sleep, in this existence so torturous and futile dreamless eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me peace, it's the only relief for me personally, I just want to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious in this existence.

I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, to me human existence really is just pointless suffering all for the sake of it and it's all so painful and dreadful to me, I always find it so painful to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that eternal sleep could ever bring me.

I just want to fall asleep for all eternity and never exist ever again, eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone then there is no more pain, no more suffering and this cruel unnecessary existence is no longer my concern which is all I hope for. I just hope and wish for peace from all the suffering and only eternal sleep can bring me relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing it's all so dreadful to me, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for any of this. I just wish and hope for permanent non-existence, it's all that's desirable to me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep, I just wish to never wake ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Permanent non-existence is all I could ever see as desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence that I always found to be deeply undesirable, in general I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again. Nothing could make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just wish for the peace of permanent non-existence, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a cruel, terrible mistake.

I just hope and wish for peace and it's all I'll ever hope for, to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering truly is all I personally see as ideal especially as there are no disadvantages to never existing ever again, I'd always prefer to stay permanently unaware of this existence no matter what and under no circumstances would I wish to exist. I personally could never see any benefit, point and value to suffering all for the sake of it rather I just wish for nothingness, in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering permanent non-existence is all I could see as desirable and I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, I wish for the choice to just simply cease existing in peace as nothing would make me wish for any of this, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and I just wish for the peace that only non-existence can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in suffering in this existence.
I truly never have had any interest in suffering in this existence, I'd never wish to exist, I find it such a cruel, futile burden having to exist at all, I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering with this existence finally no longer my problem, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I find it a tragedy how this unnecessary existence was even imposed at all that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this.

I find existence to be so undesirable and I just don't see myself as meant for any of this, I personally see nothing desirable about being conscious in this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me, I find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden that just causes suffering, I'd never have any interest in any of this and I'd never wish for the pointless suffering of existing as a human rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all. No matter what I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the harm and cruelty it causes and to me existence is just so harmful, it causes endless suffering, I personally just don't wish to suffer at all, I just want nothingness instead, only eternal non-existence can solve and bring me peace from what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I only hope to never suffer ever again as I just don't have interest in being conscious in this existence and never would do.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake to me.
It truly does feel like that, I just see existence as a mistake that causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, it's all so terrible and torturous to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I wish to never suffer ever again. I could personally never see any value, benefit and point to being conscious in this existence rather existence just feels like the most terrible mistake to me ultimately responsible for all unnecessary suffering and to me existence truly is an abomination as after all it's the source of all suffering, without existence one cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way, no matter what existence will always feel like a mistake to me, and it's one I only hope for permanent eternal peace from.

I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy of existence and save me from all future unnecessary suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish this existence was never imposed. I see it as a tragedy how I was forced into this unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake, I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's something I'd never wish for, I just wish for the permanent true peace of never suffering ever again instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much from not being able to painlessly cease existing.
I truly do suffer so much from not being able to painlessly cease existing so I can finally be at peace from the terrible, torturous burden of existence, to not exist truly is always preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway in this existence I never would have chosen and to never exist ever again truly is all I wish and hope for. I just want to cease existing with all finally forgotten about for me, I find it so horrible how the option to die peacefully is denied as nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want nothingness instead, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, it'd be suffering prevention and all I see as desirable.

In an existence where there is all this unnecessary suffering non-existence truly would be the only relief for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace as nothing would make me wish for the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human rather I see such as a mistake. To never exist again truly would be such a relief for me, in fact the only relief, I never should have suffered in this existence at all and I find it so tragic how this existence that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for was imposed, I always suffer so much from not having the option to peacefully free myself from the imposition of existence, the fact that the option of painless death is denied for me is extreme cruelty that just causes way more suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering just continues.
It truly does just continue and there's so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me, I see existing as nothing but suffering, to me human existence truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's something I wish I was never forced into more than anything. I wish I never became conscious in this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty all while one is just waiting to die anyway and to never suffer ever again truly is all I see as ideal, I just wish to be unaware of this existence, I wish for this existence to finally no longer be my problem.

I wish to be non-existent permanently incapable of suffering and incapable of being harmed in any way, to me existence really will always feel like the most cruel mistake and it's something I'd never wish for that I just wish for permanent relief from but of course the suffering continues with me trapped and enslaved in this existence just hoping to never suffer ever again. I'll always see so much cruelty how the option to just simply die in peace is denied even know this existence was so tragically forced in the first place, I just don't want to suffer and I never wished to, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, for me existence itself is the true problem, it's what I ultimately have a problem with as after all it's the source of suffering and if I'm gone I cannot suffer and all is finally forgotten about for me, I just want to forget about this existence and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so burdensome to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it so burdensome to exist, to me just being conscious is such a futile, torturous burden that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I see it as such a burden to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place and nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence. I find it a tragedy how I was forced into this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

I just see existing as so unnecessary as well, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for permanent relief from this burden, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable, it would solve everything for me as after all there's no suffering in non-existence, there's no disadvantages to no longer being burdened with this existence, to me human existence truly is just pointless suffering all for the sake of it and I'll suffer as long as I'm burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway. Non-existence truly is always preferable to me than being burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I find existing to be deeply undesirable, it's such a dreadful, pointless burden to have to exist at all, existence itself is the true problem to me which is why I'll only wish for non-existence no matter what, all I see as desirable is never suffering again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the relief of never existing ever again, to me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it.

Existence something so dreadful and undesirable to me and I'm always so tired of it, I personally just wish to cease existing in peace and forget about it all, I wish to be permanently unconscious unable to suffer in any way, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile abomination that was so tragically imposed, existence will always be an abomination to me that just causes nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it. I'll feel tired as long as I'm conscious, all I hope and wish for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering, it's all just so painful to me having to exist and I've never wished for any of this and never would do. I just want non-existence to bring me relief from all my suffering, I just hope to never exist ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for true permanent peace from this existence I'm so tired of that has only ever caused me to suffer, I suffer just from being conscious which is why I just wish for eternal sleep and it feels like I've suffered for so long, it'd be such a relief for me to finally be able to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for existence.
I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, nothing would make me wish for this cruel, futile existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, I find it such a dreadful tragedy how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering at all and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be permanently free from it.

I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I only hope and wish for permanent relief from this existence I truly was never meant for and no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer, to me existence truly does feel like a mistake and it's something I was never meant for and never could be no matter what and I'd never wish to exist, for me personally only eternal sleep is appealing and is all I could ever hope and wish for. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and finally forget about this existence I was never meant for that really did only ever cause me to suffer and I suffer just from existing, I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway. I just see existence as a problem that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes all away and I see it as so burdensome to simply exist, for me existence is a burden that only permanently ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I was never meant for.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to die is a result of existence.
It truly is a result of existence, it's a result of being conscious in this futile, cruel existence just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where this existence is no longer my problem. I've personally always wished for death as to me existing is only suffering and under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious in this existence at all, I see existence as the problem.

I find it so burdensome to exist and I was never meant for any of this either which is why I truly just wish and hope to not exist, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I just don't see anything desirable about existence and I find it painful to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I find it so terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age. The thought of suffering for that long is horrific to me, I wish for non-existence as only then will I be safe from all harm and suffering, permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me personally, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, and for me peace could never lie in this pointless, torturous existence rather I see existence as an abomination, to exist is always something so terrible to me and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to painlessly cease existing where all is finally gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that death is permanent is why I hope for it.
It truly is why I hope for it, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped and enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace, I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing in a peaceful way as to permanently cease existing truly is all I hope for and is all I could see as desirable no matter what. The fact that non-existence is permanent is exactly why it appeals to me, I wish for this existence to finally no longer be my concern with all gone and forgotten about instead, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all, all problems are a result of existence itself, I only hope for the burden of existence to no longer be my problem.

I wish to be non-existent as after all there are no disadvantages to it, there cannot be any disadvantages to never suffering ever again, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me, I only hope for non-existence as I find it deeply undesirable to be burdened with this torturous, unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. For me personally being permanently unable to suffer is something positive as I just don't wish to suffer in any way, I don't wish for the burden of human existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from cruelty and suffering where finally I can be at peace and peace is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.
If it's up to me I really would choose to permanently erase my existence as I want it to like I never suffered at all, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I just want to disappear from this existence and never suffer ever again, I'd choose to erase my existence as more than anything I wish I never suffered and this existence never should have been imposed. I see it as a tragedy how I was burdened with this torturous, futile existence just hoping and wishing to be gone, no matter what I truly will see it as deeply undesirable to exist, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes but rather I only hope and wish for nothingness.

Being able to permanently erase my existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from all the suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragedy and the most dreadful abomination that just causes harm and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I truly would never wish to be conscious of any of this rather I just wish for non-existence, I could personally never see any benefit and value to existing at all rather I just want to forget about this existence, I wish to forget about all the suffering this existence causes, I just want to disappear and be non-existent but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer in this existence, I only wish and hope to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I wish for this existence to be forgotten about and no longer my problem. I wish to no longer be burdened with this existence that I was never meant for and never would have chose, and no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence just waiting to die anyway rather I just wish for true permanent peace.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally all is gone for me and there is no more suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence, I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing and never suffer ever again, I wish for the relief of eternal nothingness where I'm finally at peace from the cruel, futile burden of existing. Non-existence truly is the only peace for me and it'd solve everything for me as after all it isn't like I could suffer from permanently ceasing to exist, there's no suffering in what the only ideal state is for me which is eternal non-existence, all I personally hope for is to cease existing in peace, I wish for the peace that only non-existence can bring me, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious, I could never see any peace in this reality where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, nothing would make me wish for all the unnecessary suffering this existence causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wanting non-existence.
I personally truly do only wish for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally gone and forgotten, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty, pain and suffering of existing rather I see existence as an abomination and something completely undesirable in every way possible. All I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this torturous, harmful existence, only when I no longer exist will I be safe from all suffering which is why it's all I hope for, I just wish to be permanently unconscious of an existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and there really is so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me.

I certainly only see non-existence as ideal, I see it as the only ideal state for me, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I see it as a tragedy how this existence that just caused suffering all for the sake of it was even imposed when never existing was true perfection. I wish this torturous, unnecessary existence was never imposed, I'd prefer to suffer as little as possible but only true perfection for me could lie in never suffering at all, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just waiting to die anyway with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, for me existence could never be worth it rather it's something I only wish to be permanently free from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist for me would be suffering prevention.
It truly would be, it'd save me from and prevent so much unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, no matter what I truly would always prefer to permanently cease existing than be enslaved in this futile existence there was never a need for at all. I'd prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to end up way more tortured, I wish to cease existing as I just wish to never suffer ever again.

I personally just don't see any value to suffering in this pointless, torturous existence rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just want permanent peace and relief and safety from suffering, only being permanently unconscious is desirable to me. I find it horrific how a human can exist for so long just to die tormented in agony from old age, ceasing to exist truly would be suffering prevention for me, it'd save me and bring me relief from so much suffering and this is why it feels so cruel how painless death is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway. To me human existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and I'd never wish to suffer at all in any way rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is gone, I wish for a painless death to prevent suffering and save me from am existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake and what terrifies me is how the pointless, unnecessary suffering of human existence can continue for so much longer causing so much more agony as a result, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I only hope to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for the absence of all suffering where this existence is finally all forgotten about and no longer my problem. To suffer in this existence at all is such a terrible, painful abomination to me and it's something I've always seen as deeply undesirable, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently relieved from it.

It feels like I've suffered so much for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered in this futile, unnecessary existence in the first place, I always find it such a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all and I was forced to suffer all for the sake of it as a result, I could personally never see value to being burdened with human existence rather I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just hope to cease existing in peace. I wish to be permanently unconscious and permanently incapable of suffering, in an existence where there is all this endless suffering eternal sleep truly is all I could see as desirable, I just hope and wish for the relief of never suffering ever again where finally I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just waiting to die anyway.
That is the way I'll always see existence, I just see it as waiting to die anyway, eventually no matter what death will take away all suffering and I'll finally be at peace which is all I hope for, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious where this existence is no longer my problem and all is forgotten, I personally just hope to never suffer ever again and as long as I exist I'll suffer and it's suffering I see as so futile and unnecessary. Existing to me is nothing more than waiting to die which is why it feels so cruel to me how painless death is denied as I suffer so much from waiting, death is all that's inevitable anyway and I never would have chosen or wished for existence in the first place so I should have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence, there are no disadvantages to never suffering again after all and if I cease existing then nothing can concern me.

For me non-existence truly is all that's ideal and desirable, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence just suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it waiting to die anyway rather I just wish for non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and ceasing to exist would save me from so much suffering, I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it. I could never personally see any value in prolonging the suffering of existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to peacefully cease existing, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want nothingness, non-existence is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible and torturous to me, all I personally hope and wish for is to just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I see existence as an abomination, an terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much harm and suffering, existing to me will always be deeply undesirable in every way and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what. Human existence is just cruelty and pointless suffering to me with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, personally I'd never wish to be conscious burdened and enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway rather I just wish for the peace that only never suffering again can bring me.

I only hope to be permanently unconscious of this cruel, futile existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering, no matter what I truly will always see it as so dreadful to exist, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and to me there's just so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards preferring to permanently not exist. The fact that the option to just simply cease existing in peace is denied is just so incredibly cruel to me, there's so much cruelty in this existence I never would have chose, more than anything I wish this existence was imposed, I see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition, it's all just futile suffering that torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, I'll always find it so incredibly dreadful to be conscious in this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, I personally just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I've always felt so tired and always will do, I just want to fall asleep eternally and finally be at peace but of course I continue to be trapped and enslaved in this futile and cruel existence just hoping to be gone, I wish this existence was never imposed so I wouldn't be forced to suffer at all.

I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence which is why I always feel so tired, I feel tired because I was forced into this existence, I was burdened with this existence of futile, unnecessary suffering and I'll suffer until I no longer exist, to never wake again truly would bring me so much peace, I wish for the option to simply cease existing. I just hope and wish for a death like never waking again to save me from all future unnecessary suffering and I'll always be so tired of suffering no matter what, permanent non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me, it's the only ideal state for me as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'm always so tired of it, as long as I exist I'll only and always be hoping to sleep permanently. I suffer simply from existing and I just wish to never suffer ever again, I wish for peace from this cruel, futile existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me and always will do no matter what, I find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

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Existing to me truly is just suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just being suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering, it's something I'd never wish for that I see as deeply undesirable in every way, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence can take away for me and to never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for.

I could never see any point, benefit or value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for rather I just want to permanently cease existing and forget about it all, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only relief for me. I'll always see existence as an abomination and I see it as such a tragedy how I was forced into it in the first place, nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existence rather existing is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would have chosen. To me existing truly is only suffering and I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem, I find it such a dreadful, futile burden to be conscious in this existence at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from all pointless suffering and cruelty in this existence I never would have wished for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

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Just hoping for permanent relief from the suffering of existing.
All I wish and hope for is permanent relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, painful existence. To me human existence truly does just feel like a terrible mistake and it's something I'd never wish for that I only hope for permanent relief from, I truly was never meant to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering, for me non-existence would be peace, in fact it'd be the only peace for me, it's all I see as desirable.

I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I'd never want to suffer in this cruel, unnecessary existence there was never a need for at all, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious in this existence I always saw as so undesirable but of course I continue to suffer and the suffering just continues, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway. Existing to me will always be only suffering and it's suffering that I only hope for permanent relief from, there's just so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful and I suffer so much from being denied the option to painlessly cease existing, I only hope to never exist ever again which is why it feels so cruel how I cannot just choose to simply cease existing in peace, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence.

 

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Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, the amount of harm this existence causes truly is endless, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most horrific, cruel tragedy and I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence. I find it so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this harmful existence there was never a need for even know there weren't any disadvantages to never suffering at all and to never suffer in this existence ever again truly is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to be permanently unaware of this harmful existence.

I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way, to me existence truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm it's something so cruel and terrible to me, I see it as just pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll always see it as so harmful to exist in this horrific reality where there is all this suffering and I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way but also so immensely harmful, I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I find it so tragic how existence has caused so much harm torturing and tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, to me existence truly does feel like an mistake and an abomination, it's something I'd never wish for but rather only something I wish for true permanent relief from. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I find it so incredibly cruel how the option to just be euthanised is denied even know all of this was forced and existence just causes all this harm.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, the amount of harm this existence causes truly is endless, no matter what I'll always see existence as the most horrific, cruel tragedy and I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence. I find it so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this harmful existence there was never a need for even know there weren't any disadvantages to never suffering at all and to never suffer in this existence ever again truly is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to be permanently unaware of this harmful existence.

I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way, to me existence truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm it's something so cruel and terrible to me, I see it as just pointless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll always see it as so harmful to exist in this horrific reality where there is all this suffering and I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts. I find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way but also so immensely harmful, I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, I find it so tragic how existence has caused so much harm torturing and tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, to me existence truly does feel like an mistake and an abomination, it's something I'd never wish for but rather only something I wish for true permanent relief from. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I find it so incredibly cruel how the option to just be euthanised is denied even know all of this was forced and existence just causes all this harm.

I feel your pain, I'm currently reading The House of the Dead by Dostoevsky, which describes life in a hard labour penal colony in Siberia, and all I can think of is the sheer amount of ways there are to suffer in this existence. Endless, infinite ways to suffer. And how many humans have lived and died on this Earth, having gone through so much needless suffering. Consciousness is truly the greatest tragedy this world has ever spawned.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, no matter what existence really will always be something deeply undesirable to me and it's something I never should have been forced into that I was never meant for. I really never should have been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake and to me existence will always feel like a mistake, it's something so dreadful and futile and it's something I was never meant for, I should have stayed non-existent.

I should have stayed permanently unaware of this existence but of course I continue to suffer in this existence that always felt like the most terrible tragedy, for me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem and I suffer just from being conscious, it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I just wish for this existence to no longer be my problem. I find it tragic how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering and I truly never should have been forced to suffer at all, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence and no matter what existing will truly feel like only suffering to me, I really was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced to exist at all, there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me, nothing would ever make me wish for the endless cruelty and suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself is the ultimate problem to me.
It really is the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, no matter what nothing would make me wish to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about, I'll personally only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened and enslaved by this existence just waiting to die anyway. I just find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, as existence itself really is what I see as the true problem, I'd never wish for existence and my wish to die is a result of existing, it's a result of being conscious in this cruel, futile existence, I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what and it's a burden that just causes harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing truly is all I hope for, it's all I see as desirable, I just want to never exist ever again.

I just wish for true peace from what I see as the problem which is existence itself, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious of this existence. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want non-existence where I finally cannot suffer in any way, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, the only relief for me really could only lie in never suffering again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is peace for me.
It truly is peace for me and it's all I could ever hope for, I just wish for permanent peace from this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, for me peace truly could only lie in never suffering ever again and to be permanently free from all future suffering really is all I wish for.

I could never see any peace in this horrific world where one is just waiting to die anyway where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, rather I just see existence as a cruel, futile, harmful abomination that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and it's something I only hope for permanent relief from. For me non-existence really is peace, it's the only peace in this undesirable existence where existing beings are tortured and have to suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all for them anyway, I really would never wish for the cruelty of existing, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. I find it a burden to simply exist which is why eternal non-existence truly is the only peace for me, only non-existence can solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence one cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence and to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I could hope for, for me non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all that could bring me peace from all pointless suffering and cruelty in an existence that always felt like the most terrible tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, it really is all just so terrible and dreadful, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for. I find it so dreadful to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all and as long as I exist all I can hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from all suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination, I see existence as a tragedy that has just caused harm so unnecessarily.

I personally only see it as desirable to be permanently free from it, all I wish for is to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way, I just hope for this existence to no longer be my problem, I wish to no longer be burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, I always have done and always will do. I'd never wish for existence under any circumstances rather I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, for me non-existence would solve everything, it'd be my solution to what I see as the problem which is existence itself, I'll only be at peace once I never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence truly is all that could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all I see as positive, to permanently cease existing truly would bring me so much peace and relief from suffering in this existence I never would have wished for, for me never suffering ever again could only be something positive, I've only ever hoped for non-existence, it'd solve everything for me and bring me peace from all cruelty and suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible harmful mistake, non-existence is all that can bring me safety from suffering and to me existence truly does cause nothing but suffering.

I'd never wish to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I just want to never exist ever again, non-existence is peace for me, it'd solve everything for me, in an existence so cruel and torturous it's all I see as desirable, I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way which is why non-existence is all I see as positive. I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence there was never a need for at all that just caused and brought so much pain, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy. Non-existence truly is all that could be positive for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, human existence to me truly is the most pointless, cruel abomination and it's one I only hope to be permanently relieved from, I see the permanent absence of suffering as something positive, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.
I truly do find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I always will do no matter what, all I personally wish and hope for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again and for me peace really could only lie in non-existence, I just want all to be gone for me. I just find it so undesirable to exist in general, I have no interest in existing and I never would have chosen any of this, I find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden so torturous and undesirable that just causes unnecessary suffering and problems and pain there was never a need for at all.

I just don't see any benefit, point and value to being conscious in this existence at all rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, non-existence truly is all that appeals to me and could ever do, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, only permanent non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'll personally always see existence as the problem. It's something so cruel and futile that just causes endless amounts of suffering, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and existence could never be worth it for me rather I just want to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would have chosen and I'd never wish for.