Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing that painless death is accessible.
I always wish that painless death is accessible, it'd bring me so much peace, relief and safety from suffering, I personally only see ceasing to exist as desirable and being able to painlessly die truly would solve everything for me as after all without existence I wouldn't be able to suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence. I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead and no matter what I really would never wish to suffer in this existence, I wish I never suffered at all instead, to me human existence really will always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes harm and suffering and I'll always see it as such a burden to exist in general.

I wish there's the option to simply die in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony as a result, I wish for a death like never waking again as all I wish for is the peace of non-existence, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing. I find it so terrifying how trying to die can go wrong, I personally just wish to never suffer ever again instead of suffering way more unbearably in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be burdened with this existence which is why I always suffer so much from how painless death is made inaccessible with me enslaved in this existence as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist, only permanently ceasing to exist could ever be desirable for me, non-existence is preferable to being conscious in this existence for me and always will do, I just don't see existence as worth it under any circumstances for me and it's something I'd never wish for, I just wish for permanent non-existence instead. I suffer just from existing and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, for me just existing is such a cruel, futile burden that just causes and brings suffering and I just don't wish to suffer at all in any way rather I'd just always prefer to not exist.

I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's something I just never would have chosen, I wish I just stayed non-existent instead, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm no longer conscious in this existence then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone instead. I just wish for this torturous, unnecessary existence to be all forgotten about, I wish to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent for all eternity, all suffering is a result of existence after all and I'd always prefer to not suffer, I wish I could choose to just permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again, I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing than be enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existence could never be worth it.
It truly could never be worth it for me, I just simply don't see existence as a desirable state rather it's something I'd never wish for that I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this existence rather I just wish I never suffered at all. I wish this existence was never imposed, I find it a tragedy how this existence was forced at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all, existence truly does just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and to never suffer ever again truly is all I could see as desirable.

I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence is no longer my problem and I'm permanently incapable of suffering, I'd always prefer to peacefully cease existing than prolong the suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, I personally just don't see any point, benefit or value to existing rather it's all just pointless suffering to me and it could never be worth it to me. I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I'd always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up way more tormented, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to get old.
I truly never would wish to be enslaved in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to die in agony from old age rather I just want to permanently cease existing instead. I only wish for the peace that never suffering ever again can bring me, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in this existence I always saw as so burdensome but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I wish this existence I always saw as a mistake was never imposed, to me existence truly is the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes so much pointless, unnecessary suffering until death takes away all anyway and I could never see benefit to prolonging the suffering just to suffer way more and I could never see benefit to reaching an old age rather such is just terrible undesirable suffering to me, old age just sounds like extreme torture and agony to me and it's something I'd never wish for. Existence to me really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I find it so tragic how I was forced into this existence at all, it's just so horrible to me how painless death is denied even know I never would have chosen any of this in the first place, I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing that just leads to the torture of old age and death anyway, I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist instead, for me peace really could only lie in never suffering ever again, I see so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards not wanting to suffer until old age, it's so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace as it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Permanent non-existence is all I personally see as positive.
It truly is all I could ever see as positive as I just want to never suffer ever again, non-existence is the only desirable state to me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, there cannot be any suffering if I'm no longer conscious of this existence, I personally just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again. I'd be so relieved to be permanently unaware incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain and I'll always find existence to be a painful, torturous burden, I just don't see anything desirable about having to suffer in this existence rather I find existing to be completely undesirable in every way, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, it is the only relief for me.

I just wish to be non-existent and no longer burdened with this existence, I'd be so relieved to just painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about, if I had the option to just peacefully end my existence it'd be positive for me as it would save me from all future unnecessary suffering, it'd bring me so much peace from this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chosen. Being unable to suffer could only ever be positive for me, nothing would make me wish to prolong the suffering of existing just to suffer way more, I'm so tired of being conscious and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I just wish for the peace of non-existence, it truly would solve everything for me, I just wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Really feels like I've suffered in this existence for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered in this existence for so long and I wish I never suffered at all, I find it such a torturous, unnecessary burden to exist and nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again. Eternal sleep really is all that can bring me peace as after all it'd remove what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and I really do see existence as the problem, I see it as something that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I truly never would have chosen any of this and never would do under any circumstances.

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me, I really was never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony I can feel rather I just never should have existed at all and it really feels like I've been trapped in this existence for so long, to me human existence will always feel like such a cruel, harmful mistake. I always find it so painful to suffer in this existence and the pain of existing just continues, for me the only relief could lie in never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I suffer so much as a result of existing and the suffering just continues with me hoping to be gone, non-existence really is the only peace for me and it's all that could bring me any peace from this existence where I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it dreadful to exist.
I truly will always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existing really is just dreadful, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I just have so much dread for what lies ahead. I see it as such a terrible tragedy to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to die in agony from old age and I see it as all so futile anyway.

To me existence truly is the most cruel, futile burden and it's one I only hope for permanent peace from, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and suffering, to never suffer ever again really is all I could personally see as desirable, I just want to permanently cease existing with all finally forgotten about for me, no matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have wished for. I'll always see existence as an abomination and it's one I wish I was never forced into more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence where there is all this endless suffering, to me existence truly is the problem which is why I only hope and wish to be gone, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where nothing can finally concern me but of course I never should have suffered at all, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware of this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's inevitable.
It really is and eventually this futile, torturous existence will no longer be my problem and I'll never suffer ever again which is all I wish and hope for, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to prolong all the suffering for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose rather I just wish to permanently cease existing. I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to being conscious suffering in this existence rather I'd just prefer to not exist no matter what, to me existing truly is just waiting to die and I suffer so much from waiting, I'm always so tired of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would have wished for.

I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply choose when I die even know death is all that's inevitable anyway, all I wish and hope for is to be non-existent, all I personally see as ideal is to not exist, I just want to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, non-existence truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from the suffering and pain of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To me it's such a tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware of this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous, futile existence at all, the way I see it existence truly does serve no function but to bring so much suffering tormenting existing beings so unnecessarily until death takes away all anyway and to never suffer ever again is all I could ever hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of eternal sleep really is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, it'd be such a relief for me to be permanently free from all suffering with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing and in general I only see non-existence as desirable. I just wish and hope to cease existing, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I find it so painful to suffer in this futile existence I was never meant for and never had any interest in, I'll always see existence as a mistake that just causes so much suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep.

I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'd always prefer to sleep eternally than suffer for the sake of it in this torturous, unnecessary existence but of course more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all. I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this existence, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so cruelly causes rather I just wish to be non-existent, I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, falling asleep permanently really would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering which is existence itself, I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what, it's something so cruel and futile, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just pointless suffering.
It really is just pointless suffering to me, it's suffering all for the sake of it that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for at all, I'll personally always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again. I just wish for peace from all the suffering this existence so cruelly causes, to me existence will always be the most terrible harmful tragedy that has just tormented existing beings and will do until death takes away all anyway.

I just wish to permanently cease existing but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence I never would have chose just hoping and wishing to be gone just waiting to die anyway, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know I never would have wished for this existence of pointless suffering and it was imposed in the first place. All I hope for is to permanently stop suffering, I wish to be incapable of suffering, I just wish for this pointless unnecessary existence to be no longer my concern but of course suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to death anyway and personally I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it all for the sake of it just to suffer way more in an existence I always saw as a mistake. It's so tragic to me how this existence was even imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and the only relief for me really could lie in never existing ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something that just causes harm.
No matter what I truly will always just see existence as something that just causes harm, I see existence as an abomination that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me. I really will always see existence as the most horrific tragedy, it all just feels like a mistake to me and I'd certainly always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this harmful existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm.

I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know existence truly is so harmful, I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, I see it as something so terrible to be burdened with this existence of pointless suffering, the fact that this existence was imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all is so tragic to me. I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence and my wish to die is a response to existence, existence itself will always be the true problem to me as it's the source of all harm and suffering and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I just wish to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence suffering so unnecessarily, I'd always prefer to avoid existence no matter what, none of this could ever be worth it for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes problems there was never a need for.
It truly does just cause problems with no limit as to how much one can suffer it's all just so dreadful to me, I really would never wish for the burden of existence and I really will always find it so burdensome to exist no matter what, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes rather I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way with all finally forgotten about. I just wish for this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes problems there was never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it to be no longer my problem as I could just never see any value or benefit to any of this rather I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, in fact to me existence itself is the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty.

Simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I suffer in this existence I'll always just hope for non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and save me from so much suffering in this existence I never would have chose. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I wish I could just simply choose to cease existing in peace as I'd always prefer to be non-existent than to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where I'm capable of suffering to unlimited extents just destined to decay and die anyway, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this cruel, unnecessary existence, I always suffer just from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping for freedom from this existence.
All I wish and hope for is freedom from this existence, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, it's all that could bring me any relief from this existence so torturous and undesirable where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, all I hope for is to be permanently unconscious with this existence finally all forgotten and no longer my problem.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and freedom I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to be permanently free from this existence really is all I could ever see as desirable, I'll always see existence as the problem no matter what, it's something so cruel and futile that just causes endless amounts of suffering which is why I only hope for freedom from this existence. I just hope to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I only hope to not exist but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish this existence was never imposed at all, I personally really will always see it as an abomination to exist and I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence either, I'll always see existence as a burden and it's one I only hope for permanent relief from, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway, to not exist is all I could ever hope for and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace as all I wish for is freedom from this existence and it's all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the most terrible tragedy to me.
I really will always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, it's something that just causes harm and suffering and I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather I just wish to not exist instead, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragedy of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this torturous, unnecessary existence and I just hope to sleep permanently, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem, it just feels like a mistake, I see existence as a tragedy and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all.

I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this undesirable existence I just saw as causing problems there was never a need for, there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so painful and terrible to me, I'd always prefer to not exist to escape from the terrible tragedy of existence but of course I never should have been forced into this existence of pointless suffering where I'm just waiting to die anyway. I'll always find it deeply undesirable having to suffer in this existence no matter what, I see existence as just causing harm and suffering, it really is such a terrible tragedy to me and it's one I only hope for permanent peace from, I just hope for the peace of never existing again where finally I can be at peace with all forgotten about, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I'd never wish for the terrible tragedy of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is only suffering to me.
No matter what I truly will see existing as only being suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence, all I personally hope for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me the relief from suffering I search for as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer. There's no suffering in what I personally only see as the ideal state which is non-existence, to me existence itself really is the problem, it's something so cruel, harmful and deeply undesirable that just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and to be permanently free from all the suffering is all I hope for, I just want all to finally be forgotten about for me.

I wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering instead I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten and I cannot be harmed in any way, I really would always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, existence really will always be an abomination to me and it's one I'd never wish for that I just hope for permanent relief from. I really was never meant to suffer in this dreadful, unnecessary existence that I see as being nothing but suffering, to me human existence always just feels like a mistake, its just pointless suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer until death takes away all anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace that only non-existence could bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is relief for me from cruelty and suffering.
There truly is so much cruelty in this torturous existence and it's all so futile and unnecessary anyway, I personally really would always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just wish to be non-existent and never suffer ever again, what comforts me about death is that if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me, I only hope to be permanently unable to suffer.

I just want this existence to be gone, forgotten and no longer my problem, for me non-existence truly is the only relief, I'd be so relieved to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, for me eternal sleep is the way to find peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway for them. Non-existence is all I see as desirable, I only hope for peace from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence, to me existence just feels like a mistake and it's one I wish was never imposed more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily and my wish to cease existing truly is a response to suffering in this cruel, futile existence. Just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal sleep, no matter what I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, I just want to finally forget about this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the relief that only never suffering again can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to die is a result of existence.
It truly is a result of existence, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and nothing no matter what would make me wish to be burdened with this existence, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway. I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile that I really was never meant for that I saw as causing nothing but harm, personally I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful, torturous existence rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering again, non-existence really would solve everything for me as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way.

There's no suffering in what I see as ideal which is permanent non-existence but of course I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I truly have only ever wished to not exist and it's all I could wish for no matter what, non-existence really is always preferable to me, I'd never wish for this existence of pointless suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I just hope to fall asleep permanently. I'd never wish for any of the suffering and cruelty this existence so tragically causes rather I just want all to be gone for me, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it so painful and undesirable to be conscious trapped in this existence waiting to die anyway, non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me peace, only non-existence can solve what the true problem is for me which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is desirable for me.
It really is all that could ever be desirable for me, I just want peace from all the suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake, I only wish and hope to never suffer ever again where finally I can be at peace and all is finally forgotten about for me. I only see non-existence as desirable as after all only then will this existence no longer be my problem, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and to sleep for all eternity really is all I personally see as ideal, I see it as something so dreadful and terrible to exist.

I just see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for at all, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist, existence is a burden that only non-existence can bring me relief from. I see it as completely undesirable to exist at all and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just want to not exist. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence capable of feeling endless and unlimited amounts of pain just to die in agony from old age, I personally suffer just from existing, I suffer just from being conscious, non-existence truly is all that can bring me relief from the abomination of existence where there is all this terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.

 

[human909]

This will become the most posted thread in the history of the forum!

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[FuneralCry]

If it's up to me I really would choose to erase my existence.
I really would choose to erase my existence as I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it, I want it to be like I never suffered at all but of course all the suffering just continues with me trapped in this futile existence just hoping and wishing to be gone. I just want to disappear from this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, being able to erase my existence would be ideal for me and solve everything for me bringing me peace from an existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in the first place.

No matter what only never suffering ever again could ever be desirable for me, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'll always see existence as something I'd prefer to forget about, I'd never wish for any of this suffering, I just wish for this painful, dreadful existence to no longer be my problem, I've suffered so much for so long and I really never should have suffered at all, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed. The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm and I'd never wish to be conscious in this harmful existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just waiting to die anyway rather I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, peace for me truly could only lie in being unconscious for all eternity, I've always just wished to erase my existence and it's all I could ever wish for no matter what.