Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
No matter what non-existence truly is all that's positive for me, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, non-existence is all that feels positive as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and all is finally forgotten about. I only wish to be permanently unconscious of the terrible, tragic mistake of existence that only ever caused so much suffering all for the sake of it, in this existence that is so cruel and torturous, eternal non-existence truly is all that can bring me any peace, I see it as positive to be incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain, there are no disadvantages to ceasing to exist yet there is no limit as to how agonising the torture of existing can get.

I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, the thought of suffering in this existence until old age is just so horrific to me, I'd never wish for such agony rather I just want nothingness, I just want peace, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the relief of eternal non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve what I personally see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself. Non-existence truly is all that's positive for me personally, it solves everything for me and saves me from all future suffering, I only see it as ideal to be permanently unconscious, existence to me truly does just feel like an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway it's something I'd always prefer to be unaware of, as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being enslaved in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much from being enslaved in this torturous unnecessary existence and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist could ever take away for me, I personally just hope and wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just wish for all to be gone for me. I just hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally I can forget about this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm and I'll always find it so harmful to suffer in this cruel, futile existence.

To me existence truly does feel like the most terrible, tragic mistake and it's something I'd never wish for, I'd always prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence, I'll personally always see human existence as an abomination and it'll always be enslavement to me as after all it was so harmfully forced in the first place yet there isn't the option for me to just painlessly free myself from it in peace and never suffer ever again. I just hope for the absence of all cruelty and suffering, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the pain of existing, I just want the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep instead where there is no more pain, no more suffering, I truly would never wish for any of this under any circumstances, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and I wish I was never forced into this reality more than anything, I suffer from how painless death is denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to die as a response to existence.
I truly do wish to die as a response to existence, my wish to die is a result of being conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, wanting to permanently cease existing truly is all I know as I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of existing as a human. I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, no matter what I truly will always see human existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, existence truly does just create problems there was never a need for and I could just never see a point to any of this as well, I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way possible.


As long as I exist I truly will only wish and hope to be gone, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten about, I wish to cease existing as what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous unnecessary existence that always felt like the most cruel mistake, to me existence truly is the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings and I'd never wish to suffer at all. I don't see any point, value or benefit to existence rather it's something I wish was never imposed more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile existence but now I suffer and have done for so long all I can hope for is the peace that only eternal non-existence can bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrific to me how a human can suffer so long.
It truly is horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to face the extreme agony and torture of old age truly is so terrifying to me, it's just so cruel how there's no acceptance towards wanting to die when death is all that's inevitable anyway. To me existence truly is nothing but pointless suffering that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for at all and if I die then nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again with this existence all gone and forgotten about, I'd never wish to be enslaved in this existence no matter what.

I see existence as an abomination and to me denying painless ways to be free from it is extreme cruelty, I should be simply be able to die in peace when I wish to as I never would have chose any of this suffering, I'd rather painlessly not exist than be trapped in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, the fact that this existence was even imposed truly is the most terrible tragedy to me. I'd always prefer non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that can bring me peace, ceasing to exist is my way of escaping from suffering and cruelty in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway but of course all the suffering continues with me trapped in this existence, it's truly so horrifying how a human can suffer for so long, nothing would make me wish for the torture of human existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes problems there were never a need for.
It really does which is why I just hope and wish for death, it's just so dreadful to me how existence causes all these unnecessary problems and suffering all for the sake of it that could have been prevented by never suffering at all, the fact that this existence was even imposed truly was the most terrible, cruel tragedy to me that only ever caused me to suffer.

In fact what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything rather I just hope for non-existence, I wish to permanently cease existing as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware of this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake in the first place. Nothing would make me wish for existence rather I just wish and hope for nothingness, I wish for the absence of existence, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from this existence I always saw as a burden and I'll find it so burdensome to exist no matter what. I see existence as a burden that just causes cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for, I see no benefit to suffering in this existence and I see no value to it either, I could never see any point to being enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, I truly would always prefer to die than suffer in this existence that just causes problems there was never a need for at all, to cease existing and never suffer ever again truly is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me truly is just waiting for death.
No matter what I truly will just see existing as waiting for death, I could personally never see any point and value to suffering in this existence at all rather it's all just so futile, death is all that's inevitable anyway where all will be eventually forgotten about no matter what and to permanently cease existing truly is all I hope for, only non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and all is gone could ever be ideal for me.

I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence that was so unnecessary that was so harmfully imposed in the first place, existing to me truly is just waiting to die which is why it feels so cruel to me how there's no acceptance towards choosing when that is, no matter what I'd prefer to cease existing painlessly than suffer all for the sake of it just to end up in a situation of way worse torture and agony just to die anyway, I'd personally rather prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it but of course I'd rather not suffer at all. More than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, torturous mistake, I'd never wish to suffer in this futile, unnecessary existence rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence that I only wish for true permanent peace from, eternal non-existence truly is all that could ever appeal to me, I just want peace from all the suffering and the fact that a human can suffer in this existence for so long truly is so terrifying to me, I just hope and wish for the option to simply painlessly die and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for permanent peace from this existence.
I truly do only hope for permanent peace from this existence, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, for me peace truly could only lie in eternal non-existence where all is gone and forgotten with this tortuous unnecessary existence I always saw as a mistake finally no longer my concern. For me personally eternal sleep truly is all that's appealing, it's all I've ever wished and hoped for, nothing would make me wish for the burden of existence rather I just want peace from it instead.

I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence I always saw as a mistake, no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I never became conscious in this existence but now I suffer and have done for so long, all I can hope for is permanent, eternal peace, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where all is gone for me and forgotten about. I wish for non-existence to save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, permanent non-existence truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself and I'll always find it so dreadful to exist no matter what, I'd never wish for all the suffering this existence so tragically causes and brings rather I just want peace instead, non-existence is all I see as ideal, I just wish for the peace of being permanently unconscious where all is finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing which is so horrible and terrible to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, to me existence truly is the most harmful abomination that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all anyway and to painlessly cease existing truly is all I hope for.

I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering and I see it as a terrible tragedy to be forced into this unnecessary undesirable existence at all, it's something so dreadful to be conscious of any of this capable of suffering to unlimited extents just destined to decay and die anyway, the fact that there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence yet the option of painless death is denied is just so horrific to me. It's all just so cruel, I only hope to not exist as only then am I safe from all suffering and harm, and to never exist ever again truly is all I see as desirable, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer, I wish for this cruel, pointless existence to finally be no longer my problem, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again. Nothing no matter what could make me wish for the cruelty and suffering this existence so tragically causes, rather I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from an existence I never would have wished for and as long as I'll exist I'll suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant to exist.
I really was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this futile, cruel existence at all, I just find it such a tragedy how this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty was even imposed at all, I was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it under any circumstance. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious of this existence no matter what, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering in the first place and as long as I exist I'll suffer and wish to be gone, I suffer because of existence.

I find it deeply undesirable to exist and I find it a burden to exist as well, for me existence just feels like the problem that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again, and I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake. I truly was never meant for something so dreadful and harmful as existence and I just have no interest in any of this either, I've never wished for existence and never would do no matter what, my wish to die is as a result of being conscious in this existence, for me non-existence truly is the only desirable state, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering, I'd never wish for any of this suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from this existence I truly was never meant for, I always suffer from how I simply cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be gone.
I really do only hope and wish to be gone and as long as I'll exist I'll only wish to permanently cease existing, I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally gone and forgotten about for me, I'd prefer to painlessly cease existing no matter what than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it but more than anything I wish I never existed at all, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'd never wish to exist rather I only hope to be gone, I just wish to forget about this existence I only saw as causing so much suffering all for the sake of it.

To me human existence truly is the most terrible, tragic mistake and it's something I never would have chosen that I never would have wished for, instead I only hope and wish for peace, I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings. In an existence so cruel and futile non-existence truly is all that appeals to me, it'd solve everything for me as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence. I just wish to disappear from this existence I always saw as unnecessary that just leads to decay and death anyway, non-existence is preferable for me but of course I never should have suffered, I never should have been burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly is the most terrible tragedy.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, it's something that just causes harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for the terrible tragedy of existence and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all. I truly do see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition, it all just feels like a mistake to me, I'd never wish for the terrible tragedy of having to suffer in this cruel, futile existence all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything, rather I just want non-existence.

Only in non-existence am I at peace from the terrible tragedy of existence, only then am I safe from all suffering and harm, there's just so much cruelty in existing it's all so dreadful to me, only permanent non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing as only then is there no more suffering but really I never should have been forced into existence. I wish I never became aware of the terrible tragedy of existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, to me human existence truly is just unnecessary cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and it's all just so futile anyway, I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just want some peace instead, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply just painlessly cease existing to escape from the tragedy of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wished to suffer in this existence.
I truly never have wished to suffer in this existence and I never could do no matter what under any circumstances, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for permanent nothingness where all is finally gone. I just hope to never suffer ever again where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and this existence is finally no longer my problem, to me human existence truly is cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.

I'll always find it so dreadful to be enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily, all I wish and hope for is to painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I've never wished for any of this and never could do, I really was never meant to suffer in this reality and I don't see any value to such either rather I just see existence as a torturous, futile abomination that just causes harm, it's something I'd really never wish for. I just don't see any point and benefit to be enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway, I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I only hope and wish for non-existence instead and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I just see it as something so painful to be conscious of this existence at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I see it as deeply undesirable to exist and always will do, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want all to finally be gone for me instead with no more pain, no more suffering, for me existence itself is the ultimate problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy of existence.
It truly is all that can bring me peace as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy no matter what that just causes so much harm, I'd always prefer to cease existing than be enslaved in this torturous, harmful existence just waiting to die anyway. Existence to me really is just pointless suffering and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, I really was never meant for the tragedy of existence and more than anything I wish it was never imposed.

I wish I never became conscious, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the pain and suffering of existing where existing beings are tortured all through no fault of their own rather I just wish for nothingness, eternal non-existence truly is the only peace for me personally. I just hope and wish for the peace of never existing ever again, to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way really is all I see as desirable and could ever be to me no matter what, I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish for nothingness, I could personally never any see value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence that just creates pain and problems there was never a need for at all, existence truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for, I just hope and wish to painlessly die and never exist ever again and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just want peace from the terrible tragedy of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to just disappear from this existence.
All I personally wish and hope for is to disappear from this existence I always saw as the most cruel tragic mistake, I just want permanent peace from all the suffering, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me. I truly do just see existence as cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and no matter what nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to disappear.

I wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer exist with this existence finally no longer my problem, as long as I've existed I've only hoped and wished to disappear. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I wish to never exist ever again, to me human existence truly does just feel like cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it that was completely unnecessary and I'd never wish for any of this.

I just want the peace of eternal non-existence instead, the only relief for me truly could lie in this existence being gone, I just wish to disappear and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the imposition of existence rather I just wish to disappear. I find it the most cruel, terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed and I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering as a result and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only never suffering ever again can bring me, I was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrible how painless death is denied.
No matter what I'll always see it as so horrible how painless death is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead as I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy and cruel, torturous abomination of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me.

I just wish to die in peace instead of suffering all for the sake of it just to end up way more tortured in a situation of way more immense agony, being able to die painlessly truly would solve everything for me and save me from so much suffering, it'd be suffering prevention in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway and to never exist ever again really is all I could hope for. I find it terrifying as well how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse agony and torture, it's just so cruel how painless death is denied, there's so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards the choice to die as eternal non-existence is truly all that's ideal for me, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again. I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about but of course I continue to suffer and I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence, human existence will always be enslavement to me as long as the option to die painlessly is so cruelly denied.

 

[death_bed221]

I hate new years, I hate everyone and myself. I hope some kind of meteor kills us all like the dinosaurs. Human beings are the worst animal. Unlike other animals we have an option to be good and we chose to be worse than all of them. I am glad my suicide will hurt the human race at least a little .

 

[FuneralCry]

Death truly is the only relief for me.
Ceasing to exist truly would be the only relief for me, it'd solve everything and remove what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again. Ceasing to exist would be the relief for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, nothing can matter in death as after all I'll be permanently unconscious, for me it'll be like I never suffered at all, for me non-existence is the only peace, it's all I see as the ideal state and it's all that's desirable to me.


I just hope and wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, to me existence truly does just always feel like a mistake and it's something I'd never wish for rather it's something I just wish for permanent peace from, the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to die in agony from old age is so terrifying to me. I'd never wish for that rather I just want the peace of never suffering again, I wish for relief from the futile and unnecessary burden of a human, I was never meant for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes. I just want to cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all, only non-existence can bring me the relief and peace I search for, and I suffer so much from how I cannot just simply cease existing in peace, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake ever again, I wish for the relief that only non-existence can bring me, for me personally ceasing to exist would be my solution to all this pointless, unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Really feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake and more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have suffered in this existence, something as harmful and torturous as existence is something I'd prefer to stay permanently unaware of and would never wish for.

I see it as the most dreadful unnecessary imposition to have to exist and it really feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just wish for eternal nothingness. For me non-existence truly is the only ideal state but of course true perfection could only lie in never suffering at all, I wish I never became conscious, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

I find it the most torturous, unnecessary burden having to exist, I see it as so burdensome to be enslaved in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited and endless amounts, personally I only hope and wish to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, it really feels like I've suffered for so long and what terrifies me is how the suffering in this existence I never would have wished for under any circumstance could continue for so much longer. I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I just wish to sleep permanently instead which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again to save myself from all future unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to be conscious of anything at all.
I personally really would never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I see it as such a terrible, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I personally find it so burdensome to simply exist, for me existence is a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. I find existence to be the most cruel, dreadful tragedy that just causes so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, I really would never wish for any of this but rather I wish I never existed more than anything, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and to me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I personally suffer from being conscious in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

I find it such a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I personally just don't see any value, point or benefit to being conscious in this existence rather I see such as just causing suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep yet there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence just to decay and die anyway. To me existence truly is the problem, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, it's something I'd never wish for that I only wish for true eternal peace from and peace for me could only lie in being permanently unconscious, I only wish to be unaware of this existence incapable of suffering and incapable of being harmed in any way, I just want all to be gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is something I see as deeply undesirable.
It truly is something I see as deeply undesirable in every way, nothing would make me wish for the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I could never see any value to being enslaved in this existence and I'd always prefer to not exist.

Only permanently ceasing to exist could ever be desirable to me but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never forced into this deeply undesirable existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm, and as long as I exist I'll suffer and wish to be gone, I just wish for permanent peace from this deeply undesirable existence I never would have chosen that I only saw as the most dreadful, futile mistake. I truly was never meant for any of this, I'd never wish for the pointless suffering of human existence rather it's something I was never meant for that I see as deeply undesirable in every way possible, for me only non-existence can bring me any relief as what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself, I find it a dreadful, tiring burden to simply exist and I have so much dread for what lies ahead. It's so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence that was imposed without the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to simply cease existing and never exist ever again, I see so much cruelty in how the option to cease existing painlessly is denied for me even know I see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I wish more than anything I was never forced to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep always preferable for me.
For me eternal sleep truly is always preferable and is all I hope and wish for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for the pointless, torturous burden of human existence rather I just wish for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I just hope to sleep eternally and never exist ever again, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really is all I wish for and could ever do. I just wish for the absence of existence, I just wish to be permanently unconscious and unaware, to sleep permanently truly would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep truly is all that's desirable to me and is all that appeals to me.

I'll personally always see existence as an abomination that just brings and causes suffering and it's one I'd never wish for, I just want to forget about it all instead, I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than suffer for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen just to be tortured by old age. For me eternal sleep would be the solution to my suffering, I only wish to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, the only relief for me could lie in eternal sleep as after all only then is this existence no longer my problem, there are no disadvantages to the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer as a result of existence.
I truly do suffer as a result of existence and I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to be conscious in this reality, to me human existence truly does just feel like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake, it's something I'd never wish for but rather only something I wish for permanent relief from, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course I'm enslaved in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone.

To me existence truly could never be worth it and it's something I see as deeply undesirable, I personally suffer as a result of existence and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, the fact I had to suffer at all truly is a tragedy to me, more than anything I wish this unnecessary futile existence of pointless suffering was never imposed at all, existing to me truly does just feel like only suffering and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, to permanently cease existing truly is all I see as desirable. I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering and incapable of being harmed in any way and I see existence as causing nothing but harm, non-existence truly is always preferable for me than being enslaved in this torturous, harmful existence that there was never a need for at all, I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten about for me, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish to be free from it all, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and for me peace could only lie in eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Human existence will always feel like enslavement.
It truly will as after all it was something that was forced and imposed in the first place yet I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and I suffer so much from being burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway, for me personally non-existence is all I could wish for. I just wish for some peace from all pointless unnecessary suffering and I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to exist, to be forced into this existence always feels so dreadful to me.

I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never enslaved in this existence but now I am and have done for so long all I can hope for is to be gone, I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where I'm no longer enslaved in this existence, the thought of suffering in this reality with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to be tortured by old age is so terrifying and horrific to me, I'd never wish for that rather I just hope and wish for nothingness. I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place, all I hope and wish for is the option to simply die in peace with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, I find it so horrifying how such could happen and it just shows how human existence really is enslavement, I see human existence as forced suffering with suffering seen as to prolong no matter what, it's all just so dreadful and painful to me, I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from all pointless suffering.
All I wish and hope for is peace from all pointless suffering, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I just want to painlessly cease existing where all is gone and forgotten about for me, no matter what nothing would ever make me wish for the terrible tragedy of existence rather I just hope for nothingness.

I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where nothing can concern me, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering, non-existence really is all that can bring me peace, for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again and to be permanently free from this existence truly is all I've ever hoped for. I really was never meant for this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering and I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I personally just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way, I just don't wish to suffer at all. I could never see point, benefit and value to suffering for the sake of it in this existence just waiting to die anyway rather I just wish for peace from all pointless suffering instead, I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering where all is finally gone for me. I'd always prefer to cease existing than be enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence so cruel, harmful and undesirable that I never would have chosen, all that's desirable to me is being permanently at peace from all pointless suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me because after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence, non-existence would solve all problems there was never a need for and remove the source of all suffering. All wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just for them to be tortured by old age and die anyway, personally I'd prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more, non-existence would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I find existence to be the problem as I'd never wish to exist, I find it deeply undesirable being conscious at all in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious which is why it's all I hope for. I just wish to be incapable of suffering on any way, for me non-existence is true peace and is the only peace for me, only in non-existence can nothing concern me, can nothing matter to me, I personally just want to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and harm, I truly never would have wished for any of this and I never would do no matter what, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me and I suffer simply from existing, all I could ever hope for and wish for is to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped and enslaved in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone, I see human existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake, I just see it as being pointless suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from. All I could personally see as desirable is never existing ever again as after all only then am I unable to suffer, only then is all the suffering gone for me with all finally forgotten about, no matter what nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering.

I find existence to be deeply undesirable in any way and I see it as a problem, a burden ultimately responsible for all suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I suffer just from being conscious and I'll only no longer suffer once I no longer exist, I personally just wish to disappear and forget about this existence I always saw as so undesirable in every way. To me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and I just want peace from it all, non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy of existence, I just wish to permanently disappear from this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm and never exist ever again, I'll personally only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem and I'm permanently incapable of suffering in any way and unable to feel pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death as a relief for me.
For me personally death truly would be the relief, it'd be the relief for me from this existence so cruel and futile where there is all this unnecessary suffering, I just hope to never exist ever again, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this endless cruelty with no limit as to how much can be tortured. For me ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention and the way for me to find safety from suffering as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering which is existence itself.

There cannot be any suffering in what I personally see as the ideal state which is permanent non-existence rather I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish for this existence rather I just wish for nothingness where all is gone for me, I wish to finally be at peace from the burden of existence and no matter what I'll always see it as so burdensome to exist. I suffer just from being conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just destined to decay and die anyway, human existence will always feel like a mistake to me no matter what and it's one so terrible and torturous that just causes so much cruelty and suffering, non-existence truly is the only relief for me, it's all I personally see as positive and could ever be for me, I wish for the relief that only non-existence can bring me, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace.
All I personally hope and wish for is the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again and it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have that even know this torturous, unnecessary existence was imposed in the first place causing so much suffering as a result, I wish I could just simply choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course I'm trapped and enslaved in this existence just hoping to be gone.

There's so much cruelty in how painless death is denied with the risk of trying to die going wrong and leading to worse suffering being there, I personally just want permanent freedom from the burden of human existence, I'd never wish for this existence of pointless suffering and death is all that's inevitable anyway so I should be able to choose when that is. I should be able to choose when the suffering ends for me, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just destined to decay and die anyway. The thought of prolonging the suffering of existing just to be tortured by old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want all to be gone for me, I only hope to never exist ever again, I suffer just from being conscious and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist could bring me peace from, it's just so horrible how painless death is denied, it just shows what a horrific world we exist in where there's no acceptance towards the personal choice to not exist, I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence.
There truly is so much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence, it's all just so painful to me, I'd personally never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for eternal nothingness where all is finally forgotten, existence itself to me truly is an abomination and a terrible, tragic mistake that I never would have chose and never would have wished for, I find it deeply undesirable to exist and always will do no matter what.

There's just so much suffering in existence in fact to me existence feels like nothing but suffering and what is so horrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existence can get. The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm and there's just so much cruelty in existing and I see it as all so unnecessary and all for the sake of it, I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all as all I see as desirable is just being non-existent for all eternity, I only wish and hope to never suffer ever again. I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to die in agony tortured by old age, I just hope and wish to be permanently unconscious and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence as I only hope for non-existence. I just wish for permanent peace from the terrible tragedy of existence, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I only hope to never exist ever again, I just wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
Permanent non-existence truly is always preferable to me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this torturous, unnecessary existence that always felt like such a cruel mistake to me, eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable, for me non-existence is the only desirable state. I find existing to be deeply undesirable and always will do no matter what, I could personally never see any benefit to being conscious suffering in this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm and I'll always find it so harmful to exist, there are no disadvantages to eternal non-existence after all yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture and agony of existence can get and I'd personally never wish to exist at all.

I just see no benefit and value to existing rather I see it as a burden to have to exist at all and it's a burden so cruel and futile that I wish was never imposed, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the imposition of existence that causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, non-existence is always preferable to me as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone. I only hope for permanent peace from all the suffering, I just wish for this existence to be no longer my problem, non-existence would solve everything for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just simply die in peace, all I wish for is to forget about this existence and finally be unconscious for all eternity.