Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Never having any interest in suffering in this existence.
I truly never have had any interest in suffering in this existence and never could do no matter what, I simply just don't see existence as a desirable state, I see nothing appealing about being conscious in this futile, unnecessary existence at all, I just don't see any point, benefit or value to existing rather existence is always a burden to me and it's a burden that just causes me to suffer. I suffer from the fact that I exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible, I just wish to be non-existent, permanent non-existence where all is forgotten about truly is all I could ever hope for.

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what and I just see so much cruelty in how the option of painless death is denied even know I'd never wish for existence and all of this was forced in the first place, this existence there was never a need for was imposed so I should have the option to painlessly free myself from it, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just hope for nothingness. I just wish and hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone for me, I just find it so burdensome to simply exist and what I see as the true problem is existence itself, nothing would make me wish for existence rather it just feels like a mistake to me, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist at all and it just terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so much longer in this existence I've never had any interest in, in the first place.

 

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Human existence truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering.
I truly do just see human existence as being pointless, unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible and torturous to me, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I only wish for peace from all pointless unnecessary suffering where the burden of existence is no longer my problem. Existence truly does just feel like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake to me and I only hope to painlessly die and never suffer ever again, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know this existence of pointless suffering was imposed in the first place.

I never would have chosen or wished for any of this and I find it so burdensome to exist, to me existence truly is deeply undesirable in every way possible and I'd prefer to die than suffer in this existence, in an existence where there is all this pointless suffering non-existence truly is the only relief for me. I personally just don't see any value to suffering in this existence rather I just wish to cease existing permanently, I only wish for true eternal peace from an existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me and bring me peace from. I could personally never see any benefit and value to suffering so unnecessarily in this existence just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped in this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence to unnecessary suffering.
No matter what I truly would always prefer non-existence to all the unnecessary suffering and cruelty this existence causes, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all with me forced to suffer all for the sake of it. To me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I suffer just from being conscious and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the terrible, torturous burden of existence but rather I just wish for non-existence.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, ceasing to exist is the way for me to escape from and prevent suffering in this existence I never would have chose in the first place and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway and to suffer in this existence will always be deeply undesirable to me in every way possible. I just see existence as causing suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for but of course what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, nothing would make me wish for the terrible suffering this existence causes rather I only wish and hope for nothingness where all is finally gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as an abomination.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible to me, nothing could ever make me wish for all the suffering this existence causes and brings. I'll always see existence as a mistake that just causes nothing but harm until death takes away all anyway, I just see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know existence truly is an abomination that was forced in the first place bringing so much pain as a result.

I'll always prefer to die than suffer in this torturous, painful existence I saw as just being suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem no matter what as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and without existence I cannot suffer in any way. There are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware and unconscious of the abomination of existence yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony and torture of existing can get, for me non-existence really is the only ideal state, I've always wished to die but more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile unnecessary existence that just brings pain. The thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I'd rather always die to escape from pointless suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway, only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence and the peace of non-existence is all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of suffering way more unbearably.
In this terrible, torturous existence where there's all this endless suffering I truly do fear suffering way more unbearably, it's so horrific to me how there's no limit as to how unbearably one can suffer in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, no matter what existence will always be an abomination to me and it's one that just causes so much pain, cruelty and suffering and it can easily get so much more unbearable at any moment just for one to be tortured by old age and die anyway if they suffer for that long. And what is so incredibly cruel and horrifying to me is how trying to permanently escape from all suffering can go wrong and lead to way worse torture as a result, it's just terrifying, I'll certainly only be unable to suffer once I no longer exist.

I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate enough to be enslaved in this existence, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all even know there was never a need for any of this, existence to me is the most harmful futile imposition that just causes one to suffer all for the sake of it. To be conscious of this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is something so painful to me, I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I just wish for the peace of non-existence to save me from all future torture and suffering in an existence where one is just waiting for death anyway, I'll always prefer to cease existing than suffer no matter what, all I wish is for non-existence to bring me the peace I've always wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is the only relief for me.
No matter what eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any relief, all I wish and hope for is permanent relief from the terrible, torturous unnecessary burden of human existence, I just wish to be non-existent, I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence I never would have chose that I just saw as causing nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, no matter what I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

I just want nothingness instead, eternal sleep truly is the only relief for me as after all only then am I safe from all the cruelty and suffering of existing, only then is this existence I was burdened with no longer my problem, in an existence so cruel and torturous all I hope and wish for is to sleep eternally, for me ceasing to exist would be the solution to suffering, it'd solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and I suffer so much from waiting. I just wish to fall asleep permanently and it's all I'll wish for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my problem, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never exist ever again, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just fall asleep eternally to save myself from suffering, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence that more than anything I wish was never imposed at all.

 

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Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
All I wish and hope for is the permanency of non-existence, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, to me only eternal dreamless sleep where this cruel, torturous existence is all finally forgotten about could ever be desirable. I just wish to painlessly cease existing in peace and finally forget about it all, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence but rather I just hope for nothingness.

I've personally only ever wished to not exist, it's all that's appealed to me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this dreadful unnecessary existence just continues, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as I just wish to permanently cease existing. I'd never wish for this existence that was so harmfully imposed in the first place and I'll always see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition, I'd personally never wish for existence rather I just wish to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for the permanency of eternal, dreamless sleep. I wish to be non-existent, I wish to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering in any way and to me existence truly does just feel like nothing but suffering, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway, to not exist truly is all I see as desirable and could ever be no matter what as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself after all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from the fact that I exist.
I truly do suffer from the fact that I exist and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering in this terrible, torturous existence rather existence just feels like the most terrible tragedy to me, it feels like a tragedy that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering and existing will always feel like only suffering to me.

I suffer from the fact I exist and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, no matter what nothing could ever make me wish for the suffering this harmful existence so tragically causes rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all, I only hope and wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is gone and forgotten, I suffer from existing as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from. What appeals to me about death is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then this existence is no longer my problem, I just want to never suffer ever again, I've suffered for so long and I'm always so tired of it, it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, no matter what nothing could make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. There's just so much suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything rather all I hope is for this existence to no longer be my problem, I just wish to forget about this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always feel so tired of suffering in this existence.
I truly do always feel so tired of suffering in this futile, cruel existence and I always will do no matter what, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I only hope for the peace that only permanent non-existence can bring me, I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to cease existing anyway.

I've always felt so tired and the tiredness I feel is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as so unnecessary in the first place, I'd never wish to suffer and my suffering is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me. I only wish and hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'll always find it such a terrible tragedy to have to suffer in this existence in the first place and existence to me feels like nothing but suffering. I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing, my wish to die is a result of existence and I always feel so tired of it all, I just hope to painlessly cease existing in peace, I just hope for the relief of non-existence where this existence is finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues instead and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway.

 

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Non-existence is all I'll hope for.
It truly is all I'll hope for, it's all I have done and could ever do no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish to be enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway suffering all for the sake of it and human existence truly does just feel like enslavement to me as after all it was something that was so harmfully forced and I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from it in peace. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me in this existence I never would have chose in the first place, in fact for me it'd be the solution for suffering in this existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and could ever do no matter what.

I just want to never suffer ever again with this existence all gone and forgotten about for me, I just wish for true eternal peace from an existence that I saw as causing nothing but harm in any way, in an existence where there is all this endless suffering non-existence truly is all that could appeal to me, I just want to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, as long as I exist I truly will just hope to be gone. I only ever hope for permanent relief from an existence that just caused me to suffer, in general I just have no interest in existing, I find it a burden to exist and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all which is why non-existence truly is all I hope for, it's the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence to be deeply undesirable.
No matter what I truly will always find existing to be deeply undesirable, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'd never wish to exist, I find it such a torturous futile burden to be conscious in this existence at all, I just don't find existence to be a desirable state and instead I just wish to be non-existent, I wish I never suffered at all more than anything. I just don't see anything appealing about being burdened with this existence rather I just want to painlessly die and never suffer again, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief, it's all I'll wish for, it's all I'll hope for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and the way I see it existence truly does just cause harm.

It causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I just don't have any interest in this as well, I could never have any interest in just waiting to die in this deeply undesirable existence rather I just want to fall asleep eternally, only eternal sleep has ever appealed to me, only dreamless, eternal sleep can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way. I only hope for true permanent peace from this deeply undesirable existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, nothing could ever make me wish for existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I just want to never exist ever again.