Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Hoping to never exist ever again.
All I personally hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from this futile, torturous existence and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chosen, to me human existence truly does just feel like a mistake, I find it a terrible, tragic mistake to suffer in this existence that was so pointless.

I see existence as something that just causes harm and I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chosen, I just hope to never exist ever again and to never exist again has been all I've hoped for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone. In an existence so futile and torturous ceasing to exist truly is the only relief for me and I'd always choose to never exist again over suffering so unnecessarily just waiting and wishing to die, only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me and remove what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. I just wish to never exist again as existence is the problem for me, I find it a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence at all that was always so unnecessary, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I've suffered so much for so long.

 

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So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and torturous, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence and death is all I'll wish for no matter what, I just want to never exist ever again but of course I continue to suffer enslaved in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake. There's so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to escape from this existence I never would have chose, I just want to simply cease existing in peace where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existence but rather I just want nothingness, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the torment of existing rather I just want to painlessly die and ever suffer ever again, I was truly never meant to suffer in this cruel existence, I was never meant for any of this suffering, non-existence truly is always preferable to me no matter what. I just want to cease existing to escape from all pointless unnecessary suffering, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is the only peace for me, it's all I hope for, I just want to be free from this existence where there is all this dreadful cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the suffering of existing truly is endless, I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish for permanent peace.
I truly have only ever hoped and wished for peace, I wish for permanent peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and brought me nothing but pain, I wish for permanent relief from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence that always just felt like a mistake to me. I wish for peace and for me peace could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone and this existence is no longer my problem anymore.

To me existence means suffering and it's suffering so pointless and unnecessary and I suffer from being conscious trapped in this cruel, futile existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I just want to be permanently at peace from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer. To be burdened with this existence is always something deeply undesirable to me and is something I'd never wish for no matter what, I just want nothingness instead of all this cruelty and suffering, I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I just want peace. I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, non-existence truly would solve everything for me, it'd solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is non-existence, never suffering ever again truly is all I see as desirable and I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again, I only hope for the absence of existence where all is finally gone and I can be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be the problem to me.
No matter what I truly will always see existence as the problem, I see existence as something so cruel and harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, without existence all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

I find it such a terrible, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me. I'll always see existence as something deeply undesirable and I'd never wish to exist, nothing would make me wish for the suffering this existence causes and brings, I personally just want to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again, I find it such a cruel, futile burden to exist and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me peace from. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I'm so tired of suffering all for the sake of it enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace even know ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me, I only hope and wish to never exist ever again, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the ultimate problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that can bring me peace from this torturous, harmful existence.
It truly is all that can bring me peace from this existence, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from this torturous, harmful existence I always saw as a terrible mistake, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and without existence I cannot suffer in any way. I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence as after all there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

I see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I'll personally only be at peace once I no longer exist unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, for me non-existence truly is the solution to save me from pointless suffering, I just want peace from this torturous, futile existence that just causes so much harm. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this horrific reality where there's all this endless cruelty and torment and non-existence is all I'll wish for no matter what. I personally see existence as so undesirable in every way, I could never see value to being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existence, it's all just so terrible to me, I'll always see existence itself as nothing more than an unnecessary harm and more than anything I wish it was never imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Denying painless methods will always be cruelty to me.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless ways to cease existing are denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I just wish to never suffer ever again, it's just so painful how there isn't the option for me to just cease existing in peace even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I never would have wished for the cruel and futile burden of human existence so I should be able to painlessly free myself from it whenever I wish to.


I just wish for peace from all the suffering of existing and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I have so much dread for what lies ahead and I just find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in general, I'd always prefer to not exist and I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly cease existing without the fear and risk of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, it's just so horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong. I'd never wish to suffer in this horrifying reality where there is all this terrible suffering and cruelty, I'll personally always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence, I just wish for peaceful non-existence instead, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, being able to peacefully die would be such a relief for me and save and prevent me from so much suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want nothingness, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all that could appeal to me.
No matter what dreamless, eternal sleep truly is all that could appeal to me, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again, personally I could never see any benefit and value to being enslaved in this cruel, pointless existence just suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to sleep eternally. Eternal sleep truly sounds so peaceful to me and is all that can bring me peace from all suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanent sleep could ever take away for me.

I just want to sleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I'm still trapped in this existence just suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I'll find it so undesirable to exist, to me existence truly always was a burden that only ever caused me to suffer, I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human rather I just want to sleep permanently, I only wish and hope for the peace of never suffering ever again but of course I just continue to exist, in general eternal sleep is all that appeals to me. I'd never wish to exist, the thought of existing until old age is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just hope for nothingness instead, I only hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is forgotten for me and finally I can be at peace, I just want to rest, I've only hoped to never suffer again.