Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[KenDuh]

I feel tired, as if nothing makes sense, just repeating the same activities over and over again. Deep down, I want to improve and stop feeling this way, but I don't know how. Everything I try fails, so I'm still here, waking up every day in the same place, in the same bed, and I don't know for how long.

 

[MrJoker789]

Overwhelmed

 

[Dejected 55]

Blah blah blah bland. Why is it not over already? Why am I still here? Why can't I leave?

 

[huifu]

empty. even if i had a good day, even if i know people care, i can't stop wondering if love is really enough, this life is null and void

 

[amputatedandalone]

I hope I am gone before I am homeless.

 

[4colliez]

I give up to be honest. I thought things were good, turns out it meant nothing. Idk why I let myself believe in it. I'm worthless and I should stop acting like me or my feelings mean anything to anyone

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Scheduled an appointment with a therapist. On the form it fucking asked me "what skills do you think you bring to your sessions?" or something similar. That was barely a paraphrase. Absolutely ridiculous, what is this a fucking job interview? Fucking dark. This world is so absurdly dysfunctional and antihuman I don't know why people think this way in such massive numbers. Like I'm supposed to perform psychic fellatio and go "oh I'm good at this and that". No fuck that and fuck you. I'm the one paying YOU dipshit. Services have been perverted into extortion. Like when I got charged $500 for blood tests I was pressured into getting with no prior knowledge but I guess I can get amphetamines delivered to my door for $8 as long as daddy says it's okay and I have a script (and there are people who have had their lives artificially ruined [jail time, etc] over using the exact same substances without said daddy's permission)
Fuck all of this fake shit

 

[IsolatedChaos]

I don't want to go back to my country. I hate it there so much. I'm currently on the first vacation abroad I've ever taken by myself and I am already worried about getting back "home". I can't fucking do this anymore I can't stay here and I feel trapped and there's no way out. I wanna die before I get there. I want to just never return at all. Just... Wait it out, run out of money, CTB. I'm so conflicted and I hate this fascist country I'm stuck with I hate it I hate it I hate it.

 

[Manaaja]

Some beings are so fucking submissive it's impossible to defend their rights.

The gods could come and fucking order them to be dominant or go to Hell, and they'd still be submissive and rather go to Hell.

Think of a shitstain, it can't move, it can't speak, but is it submissive? Hell no!

It's extremely draining to be around the submissive species.

 

[Dejected 55]

It is all pointless. Well, maybe to someone else there are points... but not to me. I say things, I do things, none of it matters to anyone but me. I don't need to be special or told I'm special... I just wish I mattered somehow. I don't need praise and a cheering section... but it would be nice if sometime I said or did something and could see that it mattered somehow. I can be anonymous or in shadow and never get credit or acknowledgement... it would be enough for me to know I said or did a thing that mattered to someone somewhere. Beyond that, sure, I wish I had acknowledgement from someone special in my life who mattered to me as much as I mattered to her... but that's a pipe dream beyond pipe dreams.

 

[amor.dor]

I feel like I have nothing left to see. I have the lethal poison in my hands (SN), but I think: will I see something interesting tomorrow? Deep down, I know tomorrow won't bring any novelty.
to be or not to be?
I feel like I have nothing left to do.

 

[Manaaja]

Have you noticed?

Girl: I want to be a housewife and homemother!
Everyone: How sexist! You don't need a man! Women aren't incubators! Go to work till you drop dead!
Girl dies.
Everyone: Omg, this is horrible. Why did she have to die? She was so important! She was a wife and mother! WIFE AND MOTHER!!!!!

When a girl is alive, she's seen only as (potential) worker number 58945892582, but when she dies, they instantly speak like she was only important because she was a mother and wife.

If you aren't a mother or wife, it makes you feel people would have been more okay with your death. As if you were less important if you didn't have a spouse and kids.
If you like or want to be a housewife or/and homemother, it feels really hypocritical, how you are prevented and critized from following your wishes, but when you die, people will only remember how many kids you printed out and whether you have a husband missing you.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

High again, more suicidal, why am I even still here? Why am I feeling like this and how did it even happen?

 

[idk i forgot xx]

Sorrow, I can't believe tarnishedstoner is gone.. The whole week he wasn't replying I didn't think to check the feed to see if he had posted something.. Two people who I'm close with are hospitalized, one for attempting - The person I was in love with said goodbye to me today, overall just alone and riddled with just a lot of stuff I don't want to get into.

Hope you're doing well.

 

[Dejected 55]

It all sucks. Most people suck. Nobody owes anyone anything, but that doesn't mean people should be cruel so often. It's even okay to not care, but why do you have to not care actively, by making things difficult intentionally for others? Being ignored also is horrible. Being ignored is technically better than being treated badly repeatedly... but being ignored is painful too. At least being acknowledge and then neglected means you are noticed. People take the time to see you and move around you to avoid you... rather than stepping on you or pushing you out of the way. It's all just unending horrible whether on purpose or by accident whether your fault or not. When does it end?