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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
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Mentally, what year are you still stuck in? What period of time seems like it was just yesterday to you, when really it was ages ago?

For me, I think it's probably the end of 2022. That's when things stopped moving, stopped growing. When I became "fixed", sterile. When my philosophical beliefs went from a frenetic, boiling, molten cauldron of disparate ideas to a hardened caulk. Case in point, the other day, I was looking up when the Queen died, and was shocked to discover that it was in September 2022, because to me it feels like that just happened yesterday...
 
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xaxs

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Dec 4, 2025
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2021 tbh. nothing "significant" has happened to me (excluding one relationship i had), i'm pretty much flawed the same way i was back then. it's saddening that i need external "assistance" like a girlfriend to function like a normal human. otherwise i'm in crumbles
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
409
It's interesting because there are a few years and time periods I feel like I am stuck in and constantly reminiscing over, mostly from 2016-2023, but I'd say I'm most stuck in 2018 - probably because my life peaked in that year, I would say. I was still depressed and facing struggles at that time, but I can definitely say I felt way more "alive" back then compared to now. Now I'm just a husk, completely dead inside and waiting for it all to end.
 
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shaggy_dooo

shaggy_dooo

My cozy place
Jan 26, 2026
57
Real shit im stuck in the 90s and i wasnt even born yet 🖤
 
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3spiral

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Apr 22, 2026
73
24 I guess
 
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Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
55
September 2nd 7am 2025
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Honestly 2020. I know it was the worst year for a lot of people, but for me it was probably the best year of my life. As an introvert, I was thrilled to hear the government say I was not allowed to go interact with anyone else. I worked from home and had a second job, so I was pulling in tons of money (although I was also deep in debt). I did not have to go see my family over the holidays. I spent the year streaming and playing Cyberpunk.

My brain clings to 2020 as that was the last time where I felt pretty good.
 
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ben_

ben_

i ben therefore i am
Oct 31, 2023
106
i don't want to say. i don't even know because i don't want to think about it. gonna just shove this question somewhere where it's not seen by anybody....

okay, next question, Mr. Therapist....
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
855
basically 2014/15 and any other year that i was alive before that
 
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X-sanguinate86

Specialist
Sep 26, 2025
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The year my first wife left me and I failed in my career at the same time. And that was a long time ago.

There were mini stops and starts before and since but that was the pivot where things went from still possible with an active, usually interested mind to idling in neutral like a mindless, disaffected zombie devoid of inspirations or aspirations.
 
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