Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[KenDuh]

I feel tired, as if nothing makes sense, just repeating the same activities over and over again. Deep down, I want to improve and stop feeling this way, but I don't know how. Everything I try fails, so I'm still here, waking up every day in the same place, in the same bed, and I don't know for how long.

 

[MrJoker789]

Overwhelmed

 

[Dejected 55]

Blah blah blah bland. Why is it not over already? Why am I still here? Why can't I leave?

 

[huifu]

empty. even if i had a good day, even if i know people care, i can't stop wondering if love is really enough, this life is null and void

 

[amputatedandalone]

I hope I am gone before I am homeless.

 

[4colliez]

I give up to be honest. I thought things were good, turns out it meant nothing. Idk why I let myself believe in it. I'm worthless and I should stop acting like me or my feelings mean anything to anyone

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Scheduled an appointment with a therapist. On the form it fucking asked me "what skills do you think you bring to your sessions?" or something similar. That was barely a paraphrase. Absolutely ridiculous, what is this a fucking job interview? Fucking dark. This world is so absurdly dysfunctional and antihuman I don't know why people think this way in such massive numbers. Like I'm supposed to perform psychic fellatio and go "oh I'm good at this and that". No fuck that and fuck you. I'm the one paying YOU dipshit. Services have been perverted into extortion. Like when I got charged $500 for blood tests I was pressured into getting with no prior knowledge but I guess I can get amphetamines delivered to my door for $8 as long as daddy says it's okay and I have a script (and there are people who have had their lives artificially ruined [jail time, etc] over using the exact same substances without said daddy's permission)
Fuck all of this fake shit

 

[IsolatedChaos]

I don't want to go back to my country. I hate it there so much. I'm currently on the first vacation abroad I've ever taken by myself and I am already worried about getting back "home". I can't fucking do this anymore I can't stay here and I feel trapped and there's no way out. I wanna die before I get there. I want to just never return at all. Just... Wait it out, run out of money, CTB. I'm so conflicted and I hate this fascist country I'm stuck with I hate it I hate it I hate it.

 

[Manaaja]

Some beings are so fucking submissive it's impossible to defend their rights.

The gods could come and fucking order them to be dominant or go to Hell, and they'd still be submissive and rather go to Hell.

Think of a shitstain, it can't move, it can't speak, but is it submissive? Hell no!

It's extremely draining to be around the submissive species.

 

[Dejected 55]

It is all pointless. Well, maybe to someone else there are points... but not to me. I say things, I do things, none of it matters to anyone but me. I don't need to be special or told I'm special... I just wish I mattered somehow. I don't need praise and a cheering section... but it would be nice if sometime I said or did something and could see that it mattered somehow. I can be anonymous or in shadow and never get credit or acknowledgement... it would be enough for me to know I said or did a thing that mattered to someone somewhere. Beyond that, sure, I wish I had acknowledgement from someone special in my life who mattered to me as much as I mattered to her... but that's a pipe dream beyond pipe dreams.