Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[TheHolySword]

final. that's it. that's all i'm feeling.

 

[fleetingnight]

Why can't it be as simple as taking a whole lot of OTC pills? I just want to go. I'm so exhausted. Every morning, I'm terrified when I think about the fact I have to live another day. Why can't I just die? Why isn't it easy for me?

 

[GlassMoon]

I'm terrified, but there's no physical threat, only somebody who is sad and angry waiting for me to talk to them. But it will hurt, and I don't want to be hurt in this way again...

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm scared because there's nothing I can do. I have no way to alleviate my suffering. I'm just forced to stay alive until natural death. I have no liberty or control to kill myself

 

[ebg]

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Headache

 

[Seaghost]

empty and at the same time under pressure.

I haven't been here so much lately and tried to solve my problem and surviving life. Didn't work well.
So I'm back and you know how it is.

Would be happy if Fentanyl would be rechable...I'm sitting once more at the edge of my life and have a look how it shouldn't work.

 

[Electra]

Tense. I feel tension.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm hungry but I'm too tired to go and fix up some breakfast. There's a battle raging between my tired body and my hungry tummy... My tummy is starting to take the lead...

 

[billie]

i'm worthless

 

[CTB Dream]

Rly hard say wrd

 

[BlendedHeart]

I was thinking I can't remember the last time I actually laughed at something.

Not a courtesy laugh, not air coming out of my nostrils, not thinking "huh, that's funny", not a tiny "hehe".

An actual, visceral, involuntary belly laugh.

Even with the few sitcoms and youtube shows that I like, they don't provoke those types of reactions anymore.

I guess I'm so used to feel anger, sadness and indifference all of the time that I forgot you're supposed to laugh sometimes.

 

[TheMountainTreeEgg]

I just thought of an old willow tree, I saw one a couple weeks ago and I've been thinking about it for a while.

I took a picture, here ya go.

 

[Electra]

My chest being pressed by something.

 

[HereTomorrow]

I left work and when I was about to drive into the intersection, a guy speed faster than at least 70 mph on the highway past a red that was there for 10 seconds. If I didn't hesitate on the intersection and drove a second earlier, I probably would of been directly struck on the side.

I'm unharmed, but if it stuck and killed instantly, I wouldn't mind.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I dread every day!!!! Anxiety is off the charts..... I don't know how I'm keeping it together.
The holidays are making it worse. When will this madness end????

 

[angelfeather]

I'm feeling confused. I've emailed my therapist to say I'm finishing with him. I know it's for the best as I feel I'm done with talking. I have now relapsed and my eating disorder is back. Therapy obviously worked right?! I also had my stockpiled medication took off me. Now I feel unsafe. Some people just don't understand how things work in my brain.

 

[Electra]

I felt abandoned in the morning. Now I feel like I'm in reclamation.

 

[greebo6]

Overall very anxious and a little desperate. Carrying a sad hollow (and heavy) empty feeling inside too.

 

[billie]

i'm lonely

 

[hereornot]

deception

 

[PA𝖨𝑁]

invisible

 

[belly.up4good]

I'm listening to music and it's such a chore, yes even to listen to music. I give myself a lot of stuff to do so I guess I don't look forward to it, in this case keep a bunch of new songs open in tabs, and it's 99+. Also just cried and everytime I do, I hope for some kind of magic that they can hear me and stop what they're doing that hurts me. I wondered if replying would lead to any good, maybe even a friend. I thought about how ironic it is, when people online agree with eachother that they're lonely, recieve millions of likes on their comment, and you know, we could all make eachother not lonely. I guess it's online, and too be honest I'm not really trying to make online friends anymore, I used to have an active online social life, but you know, it's tiring, it used to be fun but it also reminds me how alone I am in real life

 

[NullSz00]

So... there's the Sonic 3 Movie, the Xenoblade X remaster, possibly the Switch 2 and now they announced a new Ōkami game...

Man, the world really doesn't want me to kill myself huh...

 

[HereTomorrow]

Family all chipped in to buy me a giant stuffed animal I've been eying since July and when visiting the online shop it is now "Retired", no longer being made in production, and sold out.

The last batch was three weeks ago, they've been selling that design for at least five years. I was three weeks late.

It's got me feeling something, something weird. I might buy another design from a Japanese company I just discovered for myself, but it's not giant, barely 2 feet. I love an extremely uncommon animal and the one company I've been eying is the only one that makes one bigger than three feet stopped making it.

I just want something to rest my soul upon to make up for the lack of human company in my life...it's been fun.

 

[Electra]

I feel undecided. The slight headache makes me think I'm stressed and anxious. But I'm trying to calm myself down. Overwhelmed overall.

 

[foreverlanguish]

Tired. Tired of people treating me like I'm a little baby who can't think for herself.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate my college. I hate everything.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Got 61% on my final Government exam (I could have done better, but I'm so fucking tired of this shit), really want to just sell myself to earn money and live bms, autistic and constantly under the guise of self-inflicted confusion/regression or reminiscing about the bad stuff that happened to me.

I don't know why I bother at this point decides the actual fear that comes with the progress of ctb. I actually wish someone 2ould just kill me or something. But, I don't want extrapolations, hypotheses, or pity.

I want this shit to either get better, or end.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I feel tortured by the loss of everything meaningful in my life this year, especially the loss of my mind. I've been lonely since my wife left me and booted me from the comfort and stability of family life with our children, and angry at her for abandoning me when I needed support the most. I'm ashamed at insanely destructive things I did when I was manic, and I'm terrified of what nightmares mental illness has in store for me next. I feel trapped in a broken body with no hope of recovery. My only hope is for suicide to finally end all this suffering, but that hope is tainted by fear and tremendous sadness.