ShatteredSerenity
I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
- Nov 24, 2024
- 193
I feel tortured by the loss of everything meaningful in my life this year, especially the loss of my mind. I've been lonely since my wife left me and booted me from the comfort and stability of family life with our children, and angry at her for abandoning me when I needed support the most. I'm ashamed at insanely destructive things I did when I was manic, and I'm terrified of what nightmares mental illness has in store for me next. I feel trapped in a broken body with no hope of recovery. My only hope is for suicide to finally end all this suffering, but that hope is tainted by fear and tremendous sadness.