Unfulfilled sexual fantasies

[BurningLights]

To add, it'd not just about banging crazy girls. It's way deeper than that. It's the connection we share that is amplified by the sex.

Right now, I'm with this girl, she's a solid 8 to anyone at the bar but she's a cutter, has a childhood full of trauma of all varieties and currently has a shitty boyfriend. She self medicates with alcohol and I'm usually the one that has to clean up the mess. Conversely, she'll pull me out of my depressive holes and keeps me going when things get bad.

We get each other in so many ways. We pick each other up, keep each other going. We'll hook up every once in a while and when we do, it's the most amazing thing. All of our pain, all of our fear, all of our sadness, everything....it's taken out in that act. We both realize that we would be super toxic for each other in a full time relationship so it's the way it is. It's friends with benefits where the benefits are not just sex.

Damn man, that's deep, I wish I could think/feel on that level. Fucking benzos have taken that away from me.
It's good that you've got someone that like, even if it is a bit rocky, must be nice to have someone to fall back on.

 

[TooLate2582]

Damn man, that's deep, I wish I could think/feel on that level. Fucking benzos have taken that away from me.
It's good that you've got someone that like, even if it is a bit rocky, must be nice to have someone to fall back on.

Thanks, She's pretty awesome. In the BPD (self diagnosis) world, she's what everyone calls a favourite person. I'm hers and she's mine. We take a lot of the outbursts and pain from the other but know it's only the illness talking. We've gotten to the point where we sort of know when the other is off. Having someone need and rely on you, honestly, not for personal gain and such is part of the reason I'm still here.

I'm sorry that pills have gotten you so fucked up, we both could easily be prescribed them but it's more fun for us to make poor decisions and self medicate together. Any chance of coming off for you?

 

[VX1]

 

[BurningLights]

Thanks, She's pretty awesome. In the BPD (self diagnosis) world, she's what everyone calls a favourite person. I'm hers and she's mine. We take a lot of the outbursts and pain from the other but know it's only the illness talking. We've gotten to the point where we sort of know when the other is off. Having someone need and rely on you, honestly, not for personal gain and such is part of the reason I'm still here.

I'm sorry that pills have gotten you so fucked up, we both could easily be prescribed them but it's more fun for us to make poor decisions and self medicate together. Any chance of coming off for you?

Oh man, I've been off the benzos for a year now, just been put on a ssri on top of a maoi (mirtazapine) and to be honest, it's kinda kicked me out the hole I was in. Well, that was until my birthday, so for now, I'm just gonna try and enjoy things for a few weeks. At least until the parents are back from holiday.

 

[Wantingpeace]

All I want is passionate affection

All I want is to feel people exist lol would be a start and then, that.

 

[agreement]

Edit: answer to the question is yes.
My wrong answer was originally this:

"All right folks, no one really answered the question.
I will show you how it's done.
Fisting, more exactly vaginal fisting."

 

[Nofaith]

All right folks, no one really answered the question.

I will show you how it's done.

Fisting, more exactly vaginal fisting.

I feel like I've missed a post or two to get to here.

 

[agreement]

I feel like I've missed a post or two to get to here.

Uh, maybe I?ve misinterpreted the question, I'll edit my answer without canceling it.
I don't care.

 

[Nofaith]

Uh, maybe I?ve misinterpreted the question, I'll edit my answer without canceling it.
I don't care.

Don't worry about it. I think it was more of missed opportunities than instructions of how to lol.

 

[Soon4me]

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[Soon4me]

Edit: answer to the question is yes.
My wrong answer was originally this:

"All right folks, no one really answered the question.
I will show you how it's done.
Fisting, more exactly vaginal fisting."

That's really HOT agreement

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

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[couldntthinkofaname]

i want a dinner with ryan gosling from drive

 

[samhelloall9]

i'm a virgin, but im okay with that. really. i dont just want to lose it either, even if i was going out, still wouldnt just for the sake.
moving on, well i mean i've watched a lot of porn (yes i know it's not reality, porn is just for show, like fake things in movies or pretending wwe is real wrestling when it's just wrestling entertainment, duh).
I suppose anal, with her being the receiving partner. nothing rough either. even as a virgin, i really just prefer vanilla sex. boring to some perhaps, but im a boring person. always have been, always wanted to be, always will be...but i'm okay with that.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I want to go to a swingers club, but I'm banned from the nearest one (which I've never even been to) because I had a big falling out with two regular 'visitors' there who are friends with the owner. Looks like I'm gonna die missing out on that.

 

[Nofaith]

I want to go to a swingers club, but I'm banned from the nearest one (which I've never even been to) because I had a big falling out with two regular 'visitors' there who are friends with the owner. Looks like I'm gonna die missing out on that.

Sounds like a very interesting backstory.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Sounds like a very interesting backstory.

I have less than conventional 'falling out with friends' stories..

 

[Nofaith]

I have less than conventional 'falling out with friends' stories..

And do the telling of such stories require any alcohol?

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

And do the telling of such stories require any alcohol?

They do, they do. I'm getting drunk tomorrow evening, pop me a message if you want!

 

[Nofaith]

H

They do, they do. I'm getting drunk tomorrow evening, pop me a message if you want!

These stories I have to hear. I will be on the look out.

 

[satou]

In the category of something that is realistic and I have considered doing in the past:

I'd like to make a sex film with a girl and upload it. Such a movie would have to be anonymous (no faces... at least not mine lol), but still good enough for other people to keep reuploading, spreading it and keeping it 'alive'. I don't like it much when I can get caught in the act by strangers (for example when having sex outdoors), because that distracts me too much. Maybe this is indirect exhibitionism... The risk of my identity being exposed is not a turn-on, but rather the idea of the film always being there, that in some form I (and her) would always be actively sexual. And also the fact that it would be irreversible, that there is nothing I change about it and that it would be out of my control.​

 

[Slacker]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/do-you-have-a-sexual-fetish.1266/page-2#post-17834

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Too many things I wanna try to list lol I have a fetlife with all my stuff I like.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I guess I can count myself somewhat lucky here. I'm a complete fetishist,and I did indeed get the opportunity to fulfill it once. It happened when I was actively looking for meth,because I really wanted to try it. I met a woman who could deliver it. at one point,when I was gonna pay her for both the product and delivery,she didn't have change,and was asking me for the entire bill.(which would result in me overpaying her.)

I then got the idea to..."ask" her for a favor in exchange for the extra cash. She obliged,and it actually resulted in a brief toxic pseudo-relationship between us. (I eventually had to ghost. she was a compulsive liar and associating with her became too dangerous)

I still look at that memory with a smile on my face,even though it was a really reckless moment of my life,I don't regret it one bit.

Gotta be honest, I admire your balls my friend. I can only dream of depths of life risk like this, hahaha xD

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Gotta be honest, I admire your balls my friend. I can only dream of depths of life risk like this, hahaha xD

Lol I've done similar got involved with a girl told her she could live with me. Started using meth together and she used to do private stripping and other shit for money and I used to bring her to these people which I hated but I wanted to protect her. We had a really toxic friend with benefits relationship and she said a snuff film making group was after her. Best sex though drinking while blasting edm while smoking meth and fucking for hours. The day after though was a nightmare from using.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Lol I've done similar got involved with a girl told her she could live with me. Started using meth together and she used to do private stripping and other shit for money and I used to bring her to these people which I hated but I wanted to protect her. We had a really toxic friend with benefits relationship and she said a snuff film making group was after her. Best sex though drinking while blasting edm while smoking meth and fucking for hours. The day after though was a nightmare from using.

And I admire your balls, hahaha oh my goodness I can only dream of such things, meth might however bring that more extroverted side out of me, but I'd end up in a ditch somewhere xD Oh my goodness what an adventure though <3

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

And I admire your balls, hahaha oh my goodness I can only dream of such things, meth might however bring that more extroverted side out of me, but I'd end up in a ditch somewhere xD Oh my goodness what an adventure though <3

It was a very fucked friendship ended up blacking out one night on purpose because she was talking about wanting sex from her business partner when she knew I had feelings for her. Months later after I moved went down to fl to get her out of a situation and let's just say it was crazy. She thought people were following us thought she had someone bug her purse, she was afraid to sleep in hotel so we slept in car, no matter were I was she would freak saying the group was after us which the group she mentioned is real. Oh and she was reported missing and I was the last one seen with her and had detectives calling me but she was afraid to talk to them.

 

[worldexploder]

We could all get together and have an orgy before killing each other

We could wine em, die em, and 69 em...not in that order.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

It was a very fucked friendship ended up blacking out one night on purpose because she was talking about wanting sex from her business partner when she knew I had feelings for her. Months later after I moved went down to fl to get her out of a situation and let's just say it was crazy. She thought people were following us thought she had someone bug her purse, she was afraid to sleep in hotel so we slept in car, no matter were I was she would freak saying the group was after us which the group she mentioned is real. Oh and she was reported missing and I was the last one seen with her and had detectives calling me but she was afraid to talk to them.

Oh my goodness, I just ahhh I would explode *laughs a bit manically at the though* Oh my goodness wait she's still missing >< Oh ,my goodnessz xD I'm sorry for being an ass it's just the sheer crazy makes me lol a little wait was she in some meth psychosis? I can only imagine my brain if dxm makes me psychotic a bit, meth would fuck me over >< I have had enough drama in my mind from online flings and relationships that turned but offline yeah I'd be dead or in prison, the last relationship my ex's new beau threatened my life but after I reported to the police he called it off, be they know my address, I don't know I don't think it'll happen but shit gets more real than I think sometimes xD Wahh D:<

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Oh my goodness, I just ahhh I would explode *laughs a bit manically at the though* Oh my goodness wait she's still missing >< Oh ,my goodnessz xD I'm sorry for being an ass it's just the sheer crazy makes me lol a little wait was she in some meth psychosis? I can only imagine my brain if dxm makes me psychotic a bit, meth would fuck me over >< I have had enough drama in my mind from online flings and relationships that turned but offline yeah I'd be dead or in prison, the last relationship my ex's new beau threatened my life but after I reported to the police he called it off, be they know my address, I don't know I don't think it'll happen but shit gets more real than I think sometimes xD Wahh D:<

No she's not she finally went to police station a state away because she was paranoid police were in on it. Idk what she had but was stressful I write about my crazy experiences on my tumblr as I get I'm very unusual situations.