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vak

vak

In recovery 🤞
Feb 13, 2024
238
34M trying my best to climb out of the abyss.

I'm looking for someone kind and caring to remotely support and celebrate both big and small achievements with. We'll look out for each other and provide support. Maybe check up on each other few times a day, see how we are coping and if we can do anything for the other person. Age and gender don't matter at all, but I feel much more comfortable around women (I'm asexual, this is just a matter of trust). I'm LGBT+ friendly and super nice, positive and endlessly supportive 😊 Can handle being around a person with BPD at their absolute worst without even blinking. Also funny in the untreated random AHDH way 😜 Willing to exchange cute animal pictures 24/7.

I think sometimes we just need one good person in our lives who believes in us no matter what.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
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22 F, US
I've been really trying to recover so having someone to check in with and celebrating little steps would be great. Also that I can send cute motivating & comforting pictures/art to lol, I have a bunch of them saved so would really like to share them. It would be cool if we could encourage each other and comfort each other. I've had a couple bad experiences with people on here so I hesitate to post this but I'm hoping I run into the right people. I am in a bit of a fragile state of mind nowadays so just a heads up on that. Also I think I may have BPD. I also struggle with thinking clearly so I may have difficulties typing sometimes or forming sentences

I love Video games (especially horror. but I love all types of games except for sports games haha. Some of my favorite games are Resident evil games, doki doki Literature club, omori, World of Warcraft, overwatch, fallout, dying light, pretty much any indie horror game) I also love anime, drawing, nature, cartoons (owl house, Amphibia, big city greens, almost all Pixar and Disney movies, ATLA, Kipo, Adventure Time, Gravity Falls etc.), Japan and music (jpop, vocaloid, electro swing, K-pop, lofi, and more) if we're end up being a good match and end up being recover partners I may draw things for you sometimes lol

Please message (preferably conversation and not chat I'm really bad at replying to messages on chat) if interested and think we would be a good match, thank you so much for reading this ^^
 
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Denza

Denza

breaking down woohoo
Apr 15, 2024
36
18M

Been struggling recovering from a recent breakup and looking for more people to talk with. Just looking to make friends with people with similar age or ppl with similar experience with breakups and such since I'm taking this real badly rn.

Im into video games and model kits (gundams and stuff that bandai makes or basically anything adjacent to Japan stuff) not really into much else. Been trying to get into reading but pdfs of books bore me to hell so I guess I'll see how that goes.

Im really bad at starting conversations so if youd like to start one, id appreciate it very much. Thank you for reading this huhu.
 
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braziliansuicidegirl

braziliansuicidegirl

Member
Nov 9, 2020
32
23F from Brazil (I think my user already made that clear)

I spent many years thinking about suicide, but in the last year I decided to give life a real chance. I hadn't been here for almost 6 months, but I thought I could come here for another reason this time. So if anyone needs a friend, a listener, someone to talk to, I'm available. English is not my first language, but I promise to do my best.

I have personal experience with depression, bipolar, anxiety, panic attacks and suicidal thoughts. In the last years all of this has been under control, but it is not that easy.

Anyway, send me a message if you want to talk about anything about your or my recovery journey. Or any other topic you want to talk about. :)
 
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Lonelyhotcake

Lonelyhotcake

(I speak spanish).
Mar 16, 2023
41
Hi.
Female, 23 years old.
Argentina, Buenos Aires (I speak spanish).

I'm looking for a friend but I must admit I'm not a good friend. However, you can sent me a message and I'll be there. 🌼
 
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ryba

Member
Apr 13, 2024
21
23 m, usa.

hoping to find a buddy so we can hold each other accountable and stay on track with recovery. i've been struggling for a while, but i found a spark a bit over half a year ago and did well until recently. i don't want to keep slipping, so i figured why not try here?

at any rate, thank you for reading. feel free to send a message if you wanna chat.
 
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Akanea

Akanea

Student
May 24, 2023
142
Hello! 28 M from France.

I already posted a few times here and had great conversations with few people that helped me feeling better. Still not "well" but on the road to recover slowly. I would love to share nature pictures that I take when I go out, discuss about our struggle (mine are depression, anxiety, self hatred/body images issues mostly) and achievements.
I want to have someone to share stuff, hopefully making their day and mine little bit brighter by knowing someone is here to share stupid memes about crabs…
Don't hesitate to hit me up! I have 0 preferences (as long as you are a nice person and don't ask for money…. Yes that happened.)
 
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Changedmymind

Member
May 21, 2024
32
31yo male from Finland, the happiest country in the world because all the sad people here ctb. Wishing to share dumb thoughts and receiving wisdom from anywhere else. Don't really know about "recovering", what does it mean, who would know? Just getting through the week. Week after week. So yeah, hit me up before I regret this, as I regret almost everything I've done
 
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Cinnamorolls

Cinnamorolls

Student
Apr 28, 2024
148
34F from the Bay Area, California here. Looking for local people to hang out and discuss mental health issues. Perhaps sitting in the park and chatting about our struggles... it would be good for me to go outside more. Gender and age do not matter. I don't have many hobbies or interests left due to how severe my depression is. I basically just binge TV shows/movies in between work and sleep, that's about it for right now.
 
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PseudoUnipolar

Member
May 27, 2024
10
18, from Hungary
Been dealing with depression and panic attacks since the start of puberty
I'm really trying to keep myself busy with goals, etc to not relapse on sh and other harmful behaviors.
I'd be glad to talk with someone my age and feel free to vent to me, helping someone is sometimes one of the only things keeping me here.
 
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sdansht

sdansht

Member
Apr 17, 2024
16
26 M, India.

Any female (age 23-50).

I'm looking for a recovery partner. We could motivate each other, listen to each other's rants and offer support and advice. DM me if you would like to chat. 😊
 
Anhaedra

Anhaedra

Member
May 5, 2024
86
24 M Egypt.
Looking for recovery partner, any age, any gender.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
31 M from Ireland
I am not sure if I ever will recover but having people to talk to and other people telling me
Their issues really helps me feel a little better and less alone.. I can talk to anyone about anything.. gender/age/ or anything else doesn't matter!
 
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-nobodyknows-

Mage
Jun 16, 2024
504
24 M USA

While I've been trying to recover, I can't say for certain that that's the path I'll go down. I want to, I really do, but I just don't know if it's in the cards for me. I'd like to have someone who's okay with setting up specific times to chat on here. I can be quite melancholy when I'm having a problem so please don't feel too bad if I don't respond to your support in a positive way right away. Most likely I will come back later and thank you though. I do my best to be supportive of others, but I can be rather awkward.

I have depression and anxiety. I have been in treatment for nine years at this point and have done everything from therapy and medication to hospitalizations and ECT. At this point I've managed to get off medication and am trying to do normal things again, but being around other people is making things worse.

I enjoy anime, with some of my favorites including Angel Beats, Oregairu, Shinsekai Yori (the book is also really good), A Silent Voice, and the Heaven's Feel movies.

Feel free to look over my posts to learn a bit more about me. If you think we'd be a good match please reach out to me and tell me a little bit about yourself. I'm not really comfortable with a lot of people though so please don't feel too bad if I don't reply to you.
 
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emptyenvelopes

emptyenvelopes

Student
Jun 15, 2024
103
Late twenties female, USA. In rebuilding my will to live, I'd love someone I can dream with. Someone I can hope with. Hope is hard to come by, I know. But we can try. Someone to talk about little moments of joy with as a reminder that it's not all bad out there. Feel free to DM me!
 
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FunnyHam

Member
Jan 5, 2024
18
29m from brampton/GTA canada, also poland if possible
 
Cress

Cress

Arcanist
Oct 15, 2023
419
36 male from Chicago Illinois. People tell me I'm really handsome if that Helps?

Currently struggling with recovery. I have a full treatment staff therapist psychiatrist and a few social workers Very intensive treatment.

I do editing an audio work and I like just hanging out on my computer. I like video games anime and retro movies. I'm an introvert.

I had a bunch of nerve damage that's caused me significant issues throughout the course of my life I've done significant therapy to recover But I never gotten back to the way I was before. I'm still in treatment for it.

About 8 months ago my younger cousin who I've known since he was a little kid I've seen literally his entire life from three years old to 30 And to be honest I felt like he was a surrogate brother to me. He jumped in front of a train and took his own life. Some days I still just gorilla up on my couch and can't move or do anything. This has been extremely difficult to recover from. The pain is just so Unbearable some days. I Listen some of his old music playlists And browse his old social media :(.

I have SN and most of the materials that I need For CTB and it's been really really difficult the past few weeks.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Arcanist
Dec 14, 2023
466
31 NB from Sweden here.

Have slowly come to terms with that there are other options than CTB lately and I'm now (very carefully) on a path to some sort of recovery. Not exactly sure what it entails or what it's going to look like but I'm taking it one day at the time. Looking for a recovery buddy somewhere around my age, let's say 28 - 45 (give or take). I tend to have an easier time socializing with women, but gender doesn't matter at all. I'd prefer to talk to someone who have experiences with trauma, since that's why I'm here. I also have iatrogenic PTSDx2 from both psychiatry and therapy, so I'm naturally very critical of both and consider none of them viable options for me anymore.

Was thinking that we can help eachother come up with strategies and resources, bounce ideas back and forth, check in on eachother once in a while and slowly get to know one another. :)

Some things about me:
Kind, caring, playful and curious
Some of my hobbies are: music (listening to, singing, playing the guitar albeit rarely nowadays, record collecting), antique glass collecting, arts and crafts, cooking, animals (particularily cats), board games, ethnological history, model building
I know a lot about psychology, particularily psychotraumatology
I'm a socialist
I live with chronic, stress-related fatigue and nerve damage since three years. Because of this I may not always have the energy to socialize, but I'm committed to those around me and I'm actively trying to come up with strategies to balance my energy levels and socialization.

HMU!
 
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EmoIsNotAPhase

Member
Jan 12, 2019
84
I feel so lonely. I'd love for someone to talk to on the regular. I'm 27 and I'm trans. I'm open to all genders but prefer people 25 and up. I go hiking and when I'm doing ok I love cooking. I've gone through a lot of trauma so someone who isn't scared to talk about trauma and doesn't try to one up but talk about as equal. Feel free to ask me more questions.
 
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ambivalent_thespian

ambivalent_thespian

Depressed Theatre Adult
Oct 5, 2023
30
18F, greatly prefer someone college-aged. I'm on EST

I have a romantic partner already so nothing of that nature plz

I'm down to talk abt whatever. Tell me ur story and I'll tell you mine
 
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Pathetic and Sad

Pathetic and Sad

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
151
19M looking for a friend to work on recovery with. Preferably someone at or below 25, we can still talk if you are older be we probably can't relate much. We can play some games together maybe? You can just dm me if interested (:
 
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SickNSad2024

Member
Jun 3, 2024
14
42F- Life has been incredibly painful, especially the last 6 months. I sometimes feel like I can't handle it anymore but if I can just talk to one person about staying positive and being motivated to keep me going a little longer...
 
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Somebody

Somebody

The Answer is 42
Feb 16, 2021
25
Late 20s Male, USA. Been feeling really tried all the time. I just lack any motivation and It's really hard to do this alone. I have to study for an Exam that I have in 5 weeks, and have been procrastinating. I just need someone to help motivate me and just be there to talk to. I am here to listen and be a friend if you need one. Feel free to DM or chat me.

PS. Please have discord
 
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wellitisnotwhatitis

wellitisnotwhatitis

oh hi..
Aug 3, 2024
31
21M. NYC.
You love anime? Quentin Tarantino and similar vibe movies? Would be nice to spend time together :3
 
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Serial Experi Pain

Serial Experi Pain

I hate me more :P
Sep 12, 2023
126
37/f/US- My friends and online friends are always shocked to find out my age since I don't remotely look it or act it, which I'm not positive is a good thing or an insult, but it does make it difficult to find anyone I relate to in general.

Stuck between being young at heart and having to adult like a MFer. Agoraphobic so I'm absolutely cool with online friends. My entire life has been serious trauma and abuse. I am very much a realist and I'm an extremely open person that doesn't judge much about others at all, because if I have not personally been through it, someone I know likely has.

I can tell you if you make it this far you do get sick of hearing people say it gets better, and if someone says it II think you should be allowed to tell them to fuck themselves without them being offended, even if you know they mean well, at the same time, I think if anyone has paid attention to the world it should be obvious to everyone that sometimes things just "don't get better", but we CAN want them to... Just don't go around like a beacon of positive toxicity making promises that you have no evidence to support.
I'm someone who take more of an "I don't know the exact feelings you're dealing with, but I can relate in this way...and I'm sorry that it's happening to you, too", kind of person.

I'm always happy to listen to anyone. It's one of the only things I've ever been told I was good at, and it has been one of the only things that has made me appealing to others. I'm a pile of shit when it comes to figuring out my own issues or battling my own inner demons and loving myself, but I'm very good at understanding others and seeing what is special about them, or at least hearing and understanding why they feel the ways that they do. At one point I did want to become a therapist because I was doing it for free, daily for friends.... before I cut nearly everyone off and out of my life when I became so sick that I wanted to end things myself and didn't want anyone close so it would hurt others less. I'm still battling that off and on, but I'm doing somewhat better, and looking into a new diagnosis. If anyone wants to bullshit, or vent or feels like talking I'm around.. You'd have to message me first because I'm shy. Definitely friendly, but very shy unless approached first.

Love to you all.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
May 10, 2023
424
37F. From RU
Looking for someone my age I could connect with and who's not gonna get upset if we didn't…. Preferably male. I've already been betrayed by girls before…..
 
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ColorlessTrees

ColorlessTrees

Stuck
Jan 4, 2022
261
(I swear if there's a limit to how many times (total) one can post on this page, I WILL reach it someday because I never learn.)

F, early twenties, Southern USA. Any age or gender is fine as long as we have something in common and recovery is intended. Feeling raw and I would like someone to mutually support, or just to speak with.
I have mostly obscure or "strange" interests, like to talk and ramble a lot once I feel comfortable (which is increasingly difficult with my experiences), am generally unhinged and told I'm too much, have a history of dysfunctional attachment and loving/caring way too deeply but for few or the wrong people; I'm putting this out there in hopes to attract the same, or at least someone who understands a sense of alienation & shame/has that overemotional, sensitive, blunt, rambly, empathic sort of nature. Not diagnosed with anything aside from anxiety in early childhood, strongly suspect PMDD but I'm completely disillusioned with healthcare, mental and physical.
I value honesty above all—that's why I'm being upfront with what I am.

Any amount of venting is fine with me, no negativity or topic is off limits or too much, and I'm not easy to bristle unless you become an armchair psychologist at me—otherwise I hate conflict and agree to disagree. I am also pretty much always available (for the moment—I consider this as 'purgatory') and being an emotional support animal is a worthy distraction, if nothing else.
I don't often click with people so if it fizzles out fast it's nothing personal, but generally real time chatting works better for me (however, I would prefer to 'schedule' this with PMs first, because the chat feature literally never gives me notifications)

I am horribly frazzled lately and it shows in my words, so if anyone has read my bullshit in full, I sincerely hope the rest of your day is spent more pleasant.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
797
19m, Midwest. Pretty dead set on CTB for myself (it's not for a bit, dw), but I'm very happy to help others recover in whatever way I can. Available for venting, talking, or whatever else you like. Age/race/gender/views/etc don't matter to me; whoever you are I can probably empathize. Fair warning, if we become friends I'll ramble about my favorite band endlessly :b

Oh also I have discord
 
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Clowndollie

Clowndollie

Focused on healing 💭
Apr 14, 2024
108
Hellooooooooooo everyone. Since I've decided to try to focus mostly on recovery I was wondering if there is someone out there who's also focused on that and maybe wants to share our achievements/daily happenings with each other? I'd love to make a friend :) I'm 19F and you can call me dirt for now! We can talk about anything honestly. I personally like creativity, spirituality, watching movies, spending time around animals and cooking. I'm trying to get more into other interests/hobbies so if you have a niche interest please tell me about it! :))))
 
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lacrimosa

Experienced
Jul 1, 2024
233
I am looking for someone whom is familiar with being in a hopeless situation and wants to get out.

I have a lot of self loathing and mental health problems.

Recently was sectioned after a serious suicide attempt and am getting ready to work on myself regarding recovery but don't want to go it alone.

I am determined but am also so afraid to put myself out there.

But I can get busy living this time.

I am tired of being alone and a friend would be appreciated very much at this point.

I am into writing and history. Politics is also interesting to me. But most importantly is recovery.
 
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