I tried partial suspension last week as a test run. Used a scarf wrapped around a doorknob and then did a simple knot (I know I should have used a slip knot but I wanted to check the "logistics"). I also tried a slip knot with a scarf, but it just wouldn't tighten enough as the material was kind of thick and kept getting caught before it could tighten enough.
After 1/2 minutes, all I felt was difficulty breathing. But nothing was happening in terms of feeling faint. I then tightened the knot, and after about 5 seconds, felt dizziness and and flashing lights. I stopped after about 8 seconds because I didn't have a note written, and I had things to sort out that week. Whilst I couldn't breath, I felt no sense of panic even though I could feel the blood draining. It felt almost peaceful.
I'm still set on partial suspension hanging being my method to CTB, as I want to end myself as peacefully as possible. No blood or trauma to anyone else.
But I have a few questions about how to go about this.
I know I need to use the slipknot to achieve this, but how do people do this with a scarf? I know Kate Spade did this but I'm so stuck. Scarfs are so thick it just doesn't seem logical. Would twisting the scarf round and round to make it thinner get rid of this? Or should I just use a different ligature? I'm thinking about buying rope, but I don't want it to hurt my neck. If I'm going to die, I want to make my last moments as least painful as possible.
So I've decided my method is going to be the following -
Using a slipknot on my neck to tie the rope to the door (also a slipknot). Then using a scarf to pad my neck so I don't feel too much pain. What do you guys think? I'm also going to get drunk as possible.