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Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
423
Hello,

I've been contemplating on and off to kill myself for last few months and eventually wanted to recover for a while. This didn't work however. I didn't post much for a while on here but eventually made up my mind: I want to die.

I'm stuck in a situation in life that I find so unpleasant it's unbearable. I really don't wanna live anymore and I'm ready to go through with it. I think that I have not much of a choice anymore and my time is running out for me to act.

This might be a bit impulsive but I want to get through with it and will do it now as soon as possible. I plan to die on either New Year's Eve or 1st January 2024. Despite this I'm not distressed at all and very calm. I will delete this account very soon too.

Goodbye for all people on this forum.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,310
I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace! Good luck!

May I ask what's your method?
 
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lebrodude

Mage
Jul 18, 2022
533
I'm sorry you are at this point.
Whatever happens I wish you all the best.
Peace.
 
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Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
423
I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace! Good luck!

May I ask what's your method?
I will hang myself. That seems the most reasonable thing to do because it is the most efficiant method I have with resources avaliable. For instance my country doesn't allow SN or anything like that. I've considered cutting but pass because it is unreliable and too painful.
 
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Tokugawa-dono, if you do recall, I was once Uesugi-Lord and though we didn't interact much, I appreciate having spoken to you when I did. I also remember why you chose the last Seii-taishogun as your profile username, I know it may not be too relevant but it's little things like that I appreciate about this forum.

I wish you all the best and hope you find peace.
 
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Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
423
Tokugawa-dono, if you do recall, I was once Uesugi-Lord and though we didn't interact much, I appreciate having spoken to you when I did. I also remember why you chose the last Seii-taishogun as your profile username, I know it may not be too relevant but it's little things like that I appreciate about this forum.

I wish you all the best and hope you find peace.
Thank you very much and I did enjoy our short conversations too.

May you find peace as well and best wishes from me as well.
 
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Deleted member 65988

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Thank you very much and I did enjoy our short conversations too.

May you find peace as well and best wishes from me as well.
It's just really sad that it had to come to this. That life has turned way it is for you despite wanting to recover, unbearable and unpleasant. Much peace to you
 
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Tears in Rain

Tears in Rain

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Dec 12, 2023
858
Sorry your recovery didn't work out for you. Go in peace!
 
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StaringIntoAnAbyss

StaringIntoAnAbyss

Is it all just a quantum dream ?
Aug 23, 2023
82
May you find peace in your decision ❤️
 
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Old Friend

Old Friend

Sleep well, Airstrip One.
Sep 24, 2023
477
Best wishes to you. I'll raise a glass.
 
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LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,796
I've been contemplating on and off to kill myself for last few months and eventually wanted to recover for a while. This didn't work however.
Goodbye for all people on this forum.
Hello Tokugawa-dono,
I'd like to give you a bow -
You've done as much as you can.
May you find peace - I pray from Japan.

May your suffering recede -
Tokugawa-dono, Godspeed 💙💛
 
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Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Tokugawa_Yoshinobu

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2023
423
Hello Tokugawa-dono,
I'd like to give you a bow -
You've done as much as you can.
May you find peace - I pray from Japan.

May your suffering recede -
Tokugawa-dono, Godspeed 💙💛
Thank you so much for this beautiful poem!
I'm strangely reminded of the tradition of death poems now that hails from Japan as well.
 
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SmollMushroom

SmollMushroom

send N pls
Sep 27, 2023
405
Good luck with your plan, I hope everything goes smoothly.
I wish you a peaceful passing.
 
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tsykoais

tsykoais

i can't drown my demons they know how to swim
Apr 9, 2023
138
goodbye, best of luck with your plans. wishing you peace and comfort ❤️
 
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huphup

huphup

Student
Dec 2, 2023
117
Wishing you peace and a painless journey. I hope everything goes as planned :)
 
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tiger b

tiger b

AI without the I
Oct 24, 2023
1,229
Best wishes
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,846
I hope that you find freedom from all the suffering, best wishes.
 
zombiegirl

zombiegirl

the living dead
Aug 17, 2023
186
Hello,

I've been contemplating on and off to kill myself for last few months and eventually wanted to recover for a while. This didn't work however. I didn't post much for a while on here but eventually made up my mind: I want to die.

I'm stuck in a situation in life that I find so unpleasant it's unbearable. I really don't wanna live anymore and I'm ready to go through with it. I think that I have not much of a choice anymore and my time is running out for me to act.

This might be a bit impulsive but I want to get through with it and will do it now as soon as possible. I plan to die on either New Year's Eve or 1st January 2024. Despite this I'm not distressed at all and very calm. I will delete this account very soon too.

Goodbye for all people on this forum.
originally this year i planned to die on new year's cuz it sounds romantic. i think it's a wonderful time to ctb honestly, and if i dont do it this year i might hold on till new year 2025 yknow? just seems like the best time to do it
 

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