Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase this torturous existence.
I truly am just always wishing to erase this torturous existence, I just want peace from the terrible, dreadful burden of existing that just causes and brings endless amounts of suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one that just causes and brings endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence is just the only relief, existing to me could just never be worth it.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
It truly does mean to suffer and I wish that more than anything I never had to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I'll always see as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, no matter what I'll always see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering, all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and I wish I never suffered more than anything, existence really is always the problem to me and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is peace, I just hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

Existence to me is always an abomination, there is just so much suffering in existing and I'll always see this cruel, torturous existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existence really is the problem and I just always suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just always feels like the most terrible, cruel mistake to me.
It truly does feel like the most terrible cruel mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence.

For me non-existence is just the only relief from the abomination of existence, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain and suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much pain and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, deeply undesirable and cruel existence rather all I want is peace.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I'll always see existing as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, more than anything I just wish I never had to exist, this existence really is the most terrible, torturous abomination.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existing as only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see this torturous, cruel existence as only suffering and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I hope for is peace, I just want to be gone.

I'd never wish for the abomination of existence rather all I want is to be gone, for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence that is only suffering that I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so torturous.
No matter what I'll always find it so torturous to exist and I'd never wish for this torturous, dreadful existence of futile suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I find it so torturous to be conscious every second in this painful, deeply undesirable existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, to me existence will always be the most dreadful, terrible abomination and it's one that just causes and brings endless amounts of suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[metfan647]

I don't in any sense mean to diminish your suffering or your posting style, but how is there such little variation in your posts? I see about 20 key words just jumbled up and rearranged across a plethora of (forgive me) impersonal posts.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is just torture existing beings.
It truly does just torture existing beings and no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer in this painful, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence, all I hope for is to be gone, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and an abomination and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll always see existence as the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence that just tortures existing beings and causes them to suffer so unnecessarily.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, all I want is non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, torturous and dreadful abomination of existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, deeply undesirable existence, all I could ever hope for is for non-existence to solve everything for me, for me non-existence is the solution.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist really is always an abomination.
No matter what I really will always see it as the most terrible, dreadful abomination to exist, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering in this painful, deeply undesirable existence that I never would had chosen, all I want is peace from all the suffering and I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, for me non-existence truly is all I see as positive and desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
To exist truly does mean to suffer and I just suffer so much as a result of this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, to permanently cease existing and never suffer again is just all I could hope for.

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from the abomination of existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel, terrible and dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything, all I want is the peace of non-existence where all is gone and forgotten, I just want to never suffer again, I wish to erase this dreadful, torturous existence so it's like I never had to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true permanent peace.
To be permanently at peace from this dreadful, cruel and painful existence is just all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence is just the only relief from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence I just never would had chosen that just caused me to suffer and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to find true permanent peace from the dreadful, painful and deeply undesirable abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it.

 

[WantingOut2]

I'm very sorry to have made it to the end of another year.
I wanted to be dead the last three years, esp. the last two.
NOTHING.
No progress, nothing.
I couldn't even stand to listen to a song I liked a holiday song (I hate most), Happy Xmas (War Is Over) by John Lennon,
as it starts out "So this is Christmas...and what have you done? Another year over...."
And it made me feel so MISERABLE....
which I already did.
Want the nightmare to END already...

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of anti-suicide.
There truly is so much cruelty in anti-suicide and it's all so terrible and dreadful, I just wish that more than anything I never had to suffer and I just always suffer so much from existing in this horrific, dreadful world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just always suffer so unbearably from how peaceful, guaranteed death is denied for me so finally I can be at peace from the abomination of existence, all that anti-suicide does is just cause harm and suffering, to me anti-suicide is such a terrible unacceptable crime, I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and torture of this cruel deeply undesirable existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as the most cruel, dreadful mistake rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to be gone.

For me non-existence is just the only peace in this torturous existence I just never would had chosen that just caused me to suffer and I'll always see this painful, torturous and cruel existence as only suffering, I just suffer so much as a result of the terrible abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
It truly is the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence rather all I want is some peace, it's just so terrible to me how humans punish others by burdening them with this existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this suffering as a result and the suffering of existing is endless, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I'll just always see existence as the problem and I wish this torturous, cruel existence of futile suffering was never imposed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing this torturous, cruel existence as the problem.
No matter what I really will always see this torturous, cruel and futile existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering.

I just want the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me, I'll just always see existence as an abomination and it's one so terrible, dreadful and cruel that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I just want to be gone and I'll always see this existence as the problem, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, I just want non-existence to bring me peace.

 

[paperwork]

Welcome back and I hope things start to look up for you!

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to suffer in this cruel existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I just always saw as a mistake rather all I hope for is some peace.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I just never would had chosen, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this painful, deeply undesirable and torturous existence I just always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me and I'd just never wish for this torturous, cruel and harmful existence of futile unnecessary suffering rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer in this dreadful, painful and deeply undesirable existence ever again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, to suffer in this existence truly us an abomination and it's one that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, no matter what I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless pain and suffering.
It truly does just cause endless pain and suffering and the torture this existence causes is endless, no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, all that this existence has ever done is tortured existing beings and it's all so terrible.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, only in non-existence will I be at peace from all pain and suffering, I just always suffer so much as a result of this painful, cruel and torturous existence I just never would had chosen, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much pain and suffering.
It truly does just cause so much pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous, cruel existence, all I wish and hope for is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist, I'll just never wish for this deeply undesirable, futile existence that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so painful, cruel and torturous and I'd just never wish for the terrible mistake of existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much pain and suffering in this torturous existence and it's all so cruel and terrible to me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, in this existence so dreadful that causes all this endless cruelty and suffering non-existence is just all I see as positive and I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result, to me existence truly is always the problem and I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence that just causes all this dreadful unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is denied for me.
I truly do always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me so finally I can be free from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from this horrific reality where humans force others to suffer all for the sake of it and the suffering of existing truly is endless.

It's just all so terrible and dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just find it the most dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed, all I want is to cease existing peacefully, I just hope for no more suffering and I'll always see this cruel existence as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful.
I truly will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence that only ever tortures existing beings and the suffering of existing truly is endless, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this torturous dreadful existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel existence, all I could ever hope for is to be gone, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and is all that can bring me peace from this torturous existence of futile suffering.

I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, I'll always see this existence as only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous, futile existence, I just want peace from all the suffering, to be burdened with this existence is just always the most dreadful abomination to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true permanent peace.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is true permanent peace from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, deeply undesirable existence rather all I hope for is to be gone.

I'd just never wish for this existence that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and for me non-existence is just the only relief from the abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, the fact that this dreadful existence was imposed truly is the most terrible tragedy to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace that only non-existence can bring.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes all this pain, cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly does just cause all this pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all just so cruel, terrible and dreadful, as long as I exist I really will just hope to cease existing.

I just wish for peace from all suffering and I'll just always see this existence as only suffering, as long as I exist I'll just hope for true permanent peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, existence to me truly is the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes unnecessary suffering.
It truly does just cause unnecessary suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence, in this existence so cruel and dreadful that just causes all this endless suffering non-existence is just the only peace for me.

More than anything I wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence that just causes and brings all this suffering and I'll always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering, existence will always be a mistake to me which is why the peace of non-existence is just all I could see as positive, I just hope and wish to never suffer again, I just want peace from the suffering of existing.