Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed at all, I just never should had suffered in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is an abomination that just causes and brings endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope for peace from all the suffering, I just want to never suffer again with this torturous, futile existence all gone and forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I could hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence that just causes pain, problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
It truly is so dreadful to me and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence so cruel, futile and dreadful that I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me peace, I'll just always prefer to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, I just want peace, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence that I never would had chosen and as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more suffering, existence is always the problem to me, existence just feels like a mistake to me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to escape from the pain of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the problem to me.
It really is always the problem to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for, in this existence so dreadful non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is the only relief for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile existence I always saw as a mistake no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really would just never want to suffer in this existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer simply from existing, I truly would just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
It truly is always an abomination to me and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to never wake again, in this existence so cruel, futile and dreadful only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, all I hope and wish for is to not exist and only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so torturous that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be gone.
No matter what all I could hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again with this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence all gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes so much unnecessary suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for, I just hope and wish to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence so cruel and futile.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could ever hope and wish for is some peace, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything.

I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never exist again with all gone, existence to me really is always the problem and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this torturous existence and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, to me existence really is an abomination.

 

[FuneralCry]

As long as I exist I'll just hope for peace.
No matter what I really will just wish and hope for peace, peace from this cruel, torturous and futile existence I always saw as a mistake really is all I hope for, all I want is to never suffer again.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this torturous, cruel existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it really is all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the futile, undesirable abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me any relief.
It truly is the only relief for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this endless suffering, I just want some peace.

I just want to never exist again and in this existence so undesirable and dreadful only non-existence can bring me peace, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence I always saw as a mistake non-existence is just the only relief for me.

I'll just always see it as the most dreadful, terrible abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from and I just wish I never had to exist, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me any relief and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this deeply undesirable, painful existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish for any of this.
I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence finally all gone, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable.

It's the only peace for me in this existence so dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this pain, cruelty and suffering as a result and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just wish to never suffer again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never had to exist, existence to me truly is an abomination that just causes so much suffering.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I suffer so much as a result of this harmful existence, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I want is to be gone, I just wish to be free from this harmful, dreadful and torturous existence I never would had chosen where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence really is the only peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just pain and suffering.
It really is just pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for non-existence to finally bring me peace from this existence so cruel and dreadful I always saw as a mistake and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this deeply undesirable existence that to me is only suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this futile, cruel existence and there's just so much suffering in existing, I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, painful existence and I wish that more than anything this existence that just causes all this harm and suffering was never imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always waiting to die to me.
I really will always see it as just waiting for death, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from existing, I could never see any point to any of this, it's all so futile.

I just want it to be all gone and forgotten, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me and it feels like I've suffered for so long, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone for me with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There really is just so much pain in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel, terrible and dreadful and all I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again with this existence all gone and forgotten.

For me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so undesirable and torturous that I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence that just causes and brings so much pain and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this painful existence I always saw as a mistake that only ever caused and brought so much futile unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be gone.
No matter what all I could hope and wish for is to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again with this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake finally all forgotten, I wish I could erase this existence.

I just want it to be like I never suffered at all and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never exist again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering in this deeply undesirable, futile existence, all I want is to be free from it all, I just wish for peace from the suffering of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
It truly is the only peace for me and no matter what I'll just always prefer to peacefully cease existing than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so cruel and painful and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is just the only relief and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful existence and there's just so much suffering in this existence I just never would had chosen. For me non-existence is just the only peace and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen, all I hope and wish for is peace from all the pain and suffering and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer and I just wish I never suffered more than anything in this torturous, futile existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see aa desirable.

All I want is peace from all the pain and suffering, I just want to never suffer again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this dreadful, futile existence I just never would had chosen and there's just so much pain in existing, as long as I exist I really will just wish for non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful that I always saw as such a cruel, harmful mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always an abomination to me.
It really is always an abomination to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

All I want is to be gone but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always see this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me.

I just want some peace from the terrible, dreadful and torturous abomination of existence but of course I continue to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering so unnecessarily, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and is the only relief for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, all I want is to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so futile to me.
It truly is always so futile to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from this deeply undesirable existence that I search for and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone from it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this futile existence as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most dreadful mistake, to me existence truly is something so futile, it just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could see as desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable and is just all I hope for in this dreadful, torturous and futile existence, for me only non-existence is positive and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so terrible and dreadful and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I'd never wish for the terrible, dreadful burden of existence rather all I hope for is true permanent peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never wake.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish for non-existence, all I want is to never wake again with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, cruel existence, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to never wake ever again and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence that just causes pain and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is peace from it all, I just hope and wish to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
It truly is always so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result, to me existence will just always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to be gone, in this existence so torturous only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how painless death is denied for me.
I see so much cruelty in how the option to cease existing painlessly is denied for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from the suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

All I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is the only peace for me in this existence so torturous and futile I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I want is for all to be forgotten, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what I really could only ever hope and wish for non-existence, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, futile and deeply undesirable existence finally all gone and forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me peace and is just all I wish for, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I'll ever see as desirable, I just want to never suffer again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten.