Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile and torturous existence more than anything, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, I always find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I never would had chosen and as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to be gone.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so terrible to suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence just waiting to die anyway and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel, torturous and futile to me.