Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed at all, I just never should had suffered in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is an abomination that just causes and brings endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope for peace from all the suffering, I just want to never suffer again with this torturous, futile existence all gone and forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I could hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence that just causes pain, problems there were never a need for and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.