Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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I'd be relieved to cease existing.
I really would be relieved to cease existing, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence. For me non-existence is peace, it'd be a relief to be free from the burden of existence and I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and torturous that just causes so much suffering and problems there were never a need for, if I don't exist then nothing can concern me and nothing can matter to me which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this unnecessary existence, I personally only see non-existence as desirable and it's all I could ever hope for, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of human existence and the thought of suffering until old age is horrific. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just want to never exist ever again instead, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence but of course I'd be relieved to cease existing, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me the safety, peace and relief from suffering I am searching for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting for death.
I really always see existing as just waiting for death and to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again really is all I could hope for, as long as I exist I really will only hope to not exist, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten about for me. I'll always see so much cruelty in how suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the wish to permanently cease existing even know death really is all that's inevitable anyway.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, death is all that's inevitable so I'd rather cease existing sooner to prevent suffering but of course the suffering just continues and I never wished to suffer in the first place, to me existing will always be deeply undesirable and I was just never meant for any of this, I never should have suffered at all. I just find it so tragic how this futile unnecessary existence was even imposed at all, it's all just pointless suffering to me and I just wish to be permanently unconscious of it all, I'll always see it as a burden to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and it's a burden that only non-existence can bring me relief from. I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, I wish I could just simply choose to permanently stop suffering so I can finally be at peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is nothing more than just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist, the fact that this existence was imposed that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it will always feel so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and to me existing feels like only suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I'll suffer until non-existence takes away all for me, non-existence truly is always preferable for me and is all I could hope for, I only see the peace of dreamless eternal sleep as being desirable, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me just hoping to be gone.

I find it so dreadful how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again as I'd just never wish for the burden of human existence, I only hope and wish for permanent non-existence instead where all is finally gone, only non-existence could ever appeal to me as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious of this existence. To me existence truly does just feel like a mistake and it's one so cruel and terrible to me that just causes suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wishing to be permanently safe from suffering.
All I hope and wish for is to be permanently safe from suffering in this futile, torturous existence, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all of the suffering in this existence just continues with me just hoping to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for as after all there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about. If I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in what I personally see as ideal which is eternal non-existence, in an existence so cruel and futile non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief.

I just don't want to suffer at all in any way and I just don't see any point, benefit or value to suffering enslaved in this existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I wish for true permanent peace from the burden of human existence that was so tragically imposed, I just don't want to suffer at all and existing to me really does feel like only suffering, all of this really does feel like a mistake to me and it's one so unnecessary and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering. Only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for as after all there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence, existence itself is the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, all I wish and hope for is to never exist ever again, I just want to finally forget about this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much because of this torturous existence.
I truly do suffer so much because of this torturous existence and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again and that's all I could hope for, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering and cruelty in the first place, there cannot be any suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is why it's all I hope for. To me existence really will always be the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one that just causes so much harm, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish to be permanently free from this existence that just torments existing beings and causes them to suffer until death takes away all anyway. Existing to me really does feel like only suffering and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this futile existence that was completely unnecessary, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer.

Nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, I always suffer so much as a result of existing and all I could ever hope and wish is for this torturous existence I always saw as so deeply undesirable to be no longer my concern, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep has been all I've hoped for.
It truly has been all I've hoped for, I just hope and wish for peace from this torturous, futile existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, dreamless eternal sleep truly is all that could ever be desirable to me personally and it's all I'll wish for as long as I suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I just hope for this existence to finally be all forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering this existence brings rather I just want to sleep eternally, eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any peace and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to choose to fall asleep permanently as all I hope and wish for is permanent relief from this existence.

I just want to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is eternal sleep to finally bring me the peace I've always searched for and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I just hope to finally forget about this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for. I really would never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish for nothingness, for me existence itself really is the true problem and as long as I exist I'll only wish for it to be all gone for me, non-existence will always be preferable for me but of course I never should have suffered at all, I find it tragic how I was forced to suffer in this existence when never existing was perfection.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be deeply undesirable to me.
No matter what existing really will always be deeply undesirable to me, I see nothing desirable about suffering so unnecessarily burdened with this existence just hoping and wishing to cease existing and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, to me existing really is just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so painful, torturous and terrible to me.

I just wish I could finally fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, existence itself to me really is the true problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way, I could personally never see any benefit to suffering in this existence rather I just want to never exist ever again but of course more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer. I never should have been forced into this cruel, unnecessary existence that just causes so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, existence to me was never worth it and never could be for me rather I see it as deeply undesirable to exist, only the peace of eternal dreamless sleep could ever appeal to me and it's all I'll hope for as long as I'm unfortunate to be enslaved in this existence. I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what and it's one so futile and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I really would never wish for this, I'd always prefer to sleep eternally instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist, all I wish and hope for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep to bring me the relief I've always hoped and wished for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and there's just so much suffering in existing, for me there could never be any peace in suffering in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age. For me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'm unable to suffer in any way, nothing no matter what would make me wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather to me existence truly is the most cruel, torturous abomination that causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it and it's all just so dreadful, painful and futile to me.

As long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the cruel, harmful burden of existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, non-existence really would solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I could hope for. I'd never wish for this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering and cruelty rather I just want some peace, I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence would solve everything for me and is all that could be positive for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile to me.
It really is so futile to me, I see existing as just being pointless unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and it's all just so dreadful to me, I just wish I was never forced into this unnecessary existence of suffering for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway and the fact that this existence was even imposed at all is such a terrible tragedy to me. I see existence as a mistake, it's something so torturous and harmful that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, I could never see any point and benefit to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence, I see existing as just waiting to die and more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence but of course I do and the suffering just continues with me only hoping for the peace that only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again and I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from this futile existence I was never meant for and never would have chose. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering in this harmful existence and I'll always find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, I really never should have suffered in this existence, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to be conscious in this futile existence wishing for the peace of never existing ever again, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I hope for is to never wake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me and is all that can bring me any peace, relief and safety from suffering in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious for all eternity, there's no suffering in the absence of existence which is why it's all I wish and hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence is ideal and desirable for me and I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just to decay and die anyway and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering.

I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and futile with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really would always prefer to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, for me peace could only lie in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my problem. I just hope and wish to be permanently non-existent where finally nothing can concern me, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I just want to forget about this existence I only saw as causing suffering and harm and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it rather I just wish for non-existence, it's always preferable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this torturous, unnecessary existence that was so tragically imposed but really I never should have been forced to suffer at all. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about, I've always felt so tired and always will do no matter what, I feel so tired as I was just never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have existed at all.

To me existence is a burden and it's one so cruel and futile that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer at all rather I only hope for some peace instead, I just want to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and to me existing really was never worth it rather it all just feels like a mistake to me and it's one I'm always so tired of. I just hope and wish for eternal sleep to bring me the peace I search for, it always feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again even know I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I really never should have been forced into this existence at all and I'm always so tired, I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only relief for me lies in non-existence.
The only relief for me truly does lie in non-existence, I just wish to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this torturous existence ever again, I was just never meant for something as cruel and harmful as existence and I always find it so dreadful to exist and always will do no matter what. I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather I just hope for non-existence, it truly is the only peace and relief for me, I really never should have suffered in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I just hope and wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway, to me existence really is the most torturous abomination that just causes so much harm and I'll always find it so harmful to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. I just wish this existence was never imposed and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, all I wish for is the peace of never existing ever again. For me existence was never worth it but rather it's something I just want to escape from, I only wish for non-existence especially as there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer but of course all the suffering just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering of existing is endless.
Existence truly does cause endless amounts of suffering, no matter what I truly will always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence that I always saw as completely unnecessary. To me existence itself really is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and existing can easily get way more unbearable at any moment.

It's all just so terrible to me and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous existence, I find it such a burden to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this cruel, futile existence, the way I see it existence just serves no function but to bring and cause so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, it's all so futile to me and I truly would never wish for any of this. Nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about and I'm finally free from this existence of endless suffering, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering. It's all just so terrible to me, as long as I exist I really will hope to never exist ever again, in an existence that just causes so much harm permanently ceasing to exist really is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for eternal sleep.
The peace of an eternal dreamless sleep is all I could ever wish for and could do, I just wish to never suffer in this futile, torturous existence ever again, eternal sleep would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place which is existence itself, there cannot be any suffering in the peace of non-existence which is why it's all I hope for. For me eternal sleep really is always preferable to the unnecessary suffering and torture of existing and I truly will only wish to sleep permanently, I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until all is forgotten about in death anyway.

To me personally existence really will always feel like a mistake and it's one I was never meant for and never would have chosen, as long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for peace from the burden of existence that was so tragically imposed and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again. I really would prefer to forget about this existence, I've suffered so much for so long but really I never should have suffered at all, I was just never meant to suffer in this pointless existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to sleep eternally, I see existing as being only suffering, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering that only dreamless eternal sleep can bring me relief from, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, all that this torturous existence does is cause so much harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway and no matter what I really would never wish for any of this, I just wish for nothingness instead, I just wish for the peace of never existing ever again where all is forgotten and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen. To me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, to me existence really is an abomination, existence just feels like a mistake to me that causes so much harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer.

To me existence really is the most terrible tragedy that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from this harmful existence that just brings so much pain, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to no longer being enslaved in this existence. Being permanently free from the torturous, unnecessary burden of existence is all I see as desirable but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became conscious of this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering this existence so tragically causes and brings until all is forgotten about in non-existence anyway and to permanently cease existing really is all I could ever hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so harmful as it's the source of all suffering.
It truly is so harmful as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather I just hope for nothingness. Only non-existence can bring me peace from this harmful existence that always felt like the most terrible tragic mistake to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for death, I just want peace from this harmful existence that brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really does feel like nothing but suffering.

It's all just so terrible to me and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all even know there were was never any need for any of this, I wish I never suffered more than anything, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from this harmful existence, the amount of suffering and harm this existence causes truly is endless with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious enslaved in this reality, to me existence truly is the most harmful, cruel burden and I see it as all so futile anyway, it's horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is why it's all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being conscious.
I truly am always so tired of being conscious and I'd never wish to be conscious in this torturous, futile existence, I just want nothingness instead, non-existence really is all I hope for and is all that's desirable for me, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it really is all just so painful and terrible, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish and hope for nothingness, I always feel so tired and always will do as long as I suffer in this existence.

The tiredness that I feel is such that only non-existence can take away for me and to permanently cease existing really is all I could personally see as desirable, I just wish for peace from the futile, cruel burden of existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering until all is forgotten about in non-existence anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this and never could do, I just hope and wish for peace from all the pointless suffering and to me existing feels like only suffering. I find it deeply undesirable to exist and always will do no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose, I just wish I could fall asleep permanently and it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to sleep permanently, I see it as something so dreadful and terrible to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence itself really is the true problem and always will be, I'd never wish to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, unnecessary existence and I never wished to suffer at all, to me human existence really does feel like the most cruel, futile burden that I was never meant for and I really would never wish for any of this rather I only hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence that I feel like I've suffered for so long in.

For me existence was never worth it but rather it's something I only hope for true eternal peace from, the fact that this existence was imposed really was the most terrible tragedy to me and more than anything I wish I never suffered, I never should have been forced into this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this existence. To me existing really does just feel like only suffering and it's suffering that only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me relief from, as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone as I'm always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me. As long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from this existence I've suffered for so long in, more than anything I wish I never suffered, to me existing really will always be deeply undesirable in every way, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

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Always suffer so much from being denied the option to peacefully cease existing.
It's just so horrible to me how even know this existence was forced in the first place the option to just peacefully free myself from it and never suffer ever again is so harmfully denied, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from so much unnecessary suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. All I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for the option to just permanently stop suffering with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, it's just so terrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence.

To me existing really just does feel like only suffering and I'd never wish for any of this, it's so painful how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally, all I've ever hoped for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, I just see no benefit to existence rather I see it as a mistake that just causes so much harm and I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this harmful existence just wishing for the peace of eternal dreamless sleep. To have the option to peacefully cease existing really would save me from so much suffering, it'd be suffering prevention to me in an existence I always saw as an abomination, to me existence itself really will always be the true problem and I'd just never wish for it, I only wish and hope for nothingness instead, I really do suffer so much from being trapped in this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really does feel like a mistake to me.
It truly does feel like a mistake to me and it's one so cruel and futile that I only hope for permanent peace from, all I hope and wish for is to cease existing where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather I just hope to be permanently unconscious unable to suffer in any way. I wish to be non-existent for all eternity, to me existence just feels like a mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it really is all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden that was so tragically imposed, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where I'm just waiting and hoping for death anyway, I'll always see existence as an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm and suffering, non-existence really is always preferable for me and it's all I could hope for, nothing would make me wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself. It just feels like a mistake to me, it's the source of all suffering after all that just torments and tortures existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I really would just never wish to exist, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering only hoping and wishing for peace from the mistake of existence.

 

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Existing to me is just waiting to die.
To me it really is just waiting to die, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just wish for non-existence. I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to die painlessly is denied even know ceasing to exist really is all that's inevitable anyway, eventually this existence will all be forgotten about so I should be able to have the option to save myself from suffering in this torturous existence where I'm just waiting to die.

I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existence rather I just wish for nothingness, I just wish for peace and relief from this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, to me existing truly is just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer. I never should have been forced to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist than be tormented in this futile existence just to die in agony from old age, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem, I'd never wish to be conscious suffering in this existence waiting to die anyway rather I just wish for non-existence. I suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief, it's all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering and it's suffering only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from, for me existence really is the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes so much harm and I really would never wish for any of this, as long as I exist I'll just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and this existence is all forgotten about.

I'll always feel so tired no matter what, I wish for eternal sleep to bring me relief from the tiredness I feel, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to suffering in this existence and is all I could ever hope for, I was just never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing and I just never should have suffered at all. I'll always find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence that just caused so much unnecessary pain all for the sake of it was even imposed, nothing would make me wish for the imposition of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is forgotten and this existence that always felt like a mistake to me is finally no longer my problem, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, to be permanently free from this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm really is all I could ever wish for, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence can take away the tiredness I feel.

 

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Existing is just so painful to me.
It truly is so painful to me, I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful torturous existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it rather I just wish for nothingness, all I wish and hope for is peace from this existence. I'm so tired of suffering and I'll always find it so painful to exist, it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem but of course I continue to suffer and I find it so painful how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. I just wish to be permanently unable to suffer but of course all the suffering just continues which is so dreadful and terrible to me, there's just so much suffering in existing and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering.

I just wish I was never forced into existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have suffered at all, I never should have suffered in this cruel, futile existence that just causes existing beings to suffer so much. I personally just hope for nothingness, I'll only ever hope for peace from this painful existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again, no matter what I'll find it so torturous and painful to exist, I never should have existed at all, never existing would had saved me from all this suffering.

 

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Non-existence really is all that can bring me peace.
It really is all that can bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence and permanent non-existence really is all I could hope for, I just wish for this futile, torturous existence to finally be all forgotten about.

I just want to forget about this existence that only ever brought me pain but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence, to me existing really does just feel like only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want non-existence to finally bring me some peace, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the burden of existence that just tortures existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway. I wish I could just choose to fall asleep eternally and eternal sleep is all I could hope for, I was just never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced to suffer at all, no matter what I'd never wish for something as cruel and torturous as existence that just causes an endless amount of pain, it's all just so terrible to me. I just want some peace instead of this existence of unnecessary suffering that was so tragically imposed and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence wishing for the relief that only eternal sleep could ever bring me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can easily get way more torturous at any moment.
It truly can which is just so terrible and horrible, I really would never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten, existence to me really is an abomination and it's so horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence. To me existing truly is just only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious enslaved in this existence just hoping and wishing to not exist, I need the peace of non-existence as after all only then am I safe from all suffering and cruelty, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence where all is finally gone.

Only in non-existence will I be safe from the torturous and unnecessary burden of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably, the amount of suffering this existence causes really is beyond comprehension, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist I was never meant to suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering and I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long capable of suffering to unlimited extents just to die in agony from old age. It really is all so cruel and painful to me, nothing would ever make me wish for the burden of existing and I suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know I'd never wish to suffer in this reality, I just want peace from this torturous existence and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting this existence to be all forgotten about.
All I hope and wish for is this existence to be all forgotten about, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this cruel, futile existence I never would have chose, it really is all just so terrible and painful to me and as long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from all the unnecessary suffering in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chose.

All I wish for is to finally forget about this existence I see as causing nothing but harm and it feels like I've suffered for so long, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish for nothingness instead, permanent non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much. To me existence really is something so terrible and cruel and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence hoping and wishing for death and a long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again, I wish for this existence to be all gone for me, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as nothing would make me wish for the pain and cruelty of existing no matter what. I just want to sleep eternally instead, dreamless eternal sleep is all I could ever hope for but of course only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, nothing really would make me wish for any of this and I never should have been forced to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for existing.
I really was never meant for something as torturous and futile as existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently, I just want to finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible cruel mistake that just caused endless amounts of suffering. As long as I exist I really will just hope for death, eternal non-existence really is all I could hope for and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to sleep eternally and finally be free from this existence I was never meant for, I'll always find it the most cruel burden to exist and it's one that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any relief from.

I truly was never meant for any of this and I really never should have been forced to suffer at all, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I personally just hope and wish for nothingness, to be conscious in this existence is so painful to me. I'm so tired of being conscious trapped in this existence, to me existence itself is the ultimate problem and I find it so horrific how there's no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that can continue for so long. I'm always so tired of suffering and I wish I never suffered at all, I truly never should have been forced into this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, the peace of eternal sleep really is all I could hope and wish for, nothing would make me wish for the terrible unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to exist and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to fall asleep permanently with this torturous, futile existence finally all forgotten but of course the suffering of existing just continues.

I always suffer so much as a result of being enslaved in this existence, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist and I find it the most terrible cruel tragedy how this existence there was never a need for was even imposed, I'm always so tired of existing and it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me peace from, as long as I exist I really will only ever hope for nothingness, I just want to never exist ever again. For me existence was never something worth it but rather something so deeply undesirable in every way possible, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it rather I just want some peace instead and peace for me could only lie in never suffering ever again. Existence to me really is the true problem and I'd just never wish to exist, I just hope and wish for the relief of eternal non-existence instead, I always find it so dreadful to exist and I always have so much dread for what lies ahead, existing to me really does just feel like only suffering, existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Need non-existence.
Non-existence truly is all I need, it's all that can bring me safety from suffering in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll always see existence as the most torturous burden no matter what and it's something so terrible and painful that I'd never wish for. I'll always find it so dreadful and painful to exist and it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I personally just don't want to suffer at all in any way rather I just want non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this cruel, futile existence where I'm just waiting to die.

Non-existence would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source and ultimate cause of all problems which is existence itself, there cannot be any suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is why it's all I hope for and I suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing, there's just so much suffering in this existing and I just wish for non-existence to finally bring me peace and relief from it all, I just want to fall asleep permanently. Only non-existence can bring me the safety from suffering I search for, I'll only be safe from suffering once I no longer exist and existing to me feels like only suffering, no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just want some peace instead, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony I can feel where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much pain in existing, it really is all so terrible and painful to me, I'd personally never wish to exist especially as there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this torturous, futile existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it. What I find painful is even know this existence was so tragically imposed causing so much suffering as a result I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking again to finally free myself from it, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone, as long as I exist I really will just hope for nothingness.

I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten about, I'm always so tired of suffering in this painful existence and what terrifies me is how the suffering of existing can continue for so long just for one to face so much more agony, there's so much cruelty in existing and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for. I was just never meant to suffer in this existence that always felt like the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence really is the most harmful abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, I just want to never suffer ever again.