Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Feeling forced to suffer in this existence.
I really do feel forced to suffer in this painful, cruel and torturous existence as after all this existence was so tragically imposed yet I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from it and never suffer ever again, all I hope for is this existence to be no longer my problem and I'll only be at peace once this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally forgotten about for me. There's just so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know I never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the harmful imposition of existence where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I personally suffer so much from existing and I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I just want to fall asleep eternally and finally forget about it all, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence I just saw as causing nothing but harm no matter what and non-existence truly is always preferable for me than suffering in this cruel, painful existence just waiting to die anyway and existing to me really is just waiting to die. I wish I had a death like never waking ever again to save myself from so much unnecessary suffering and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, all I've ever wished for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, to be able to choose to permanently stop suffering really would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting to die.
And that's all it could ever be to me no matter what, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die as after all eventually all will be finally forgotten about in non-existence anyway, death really is all that's inevitable and if I'm gone it'll be like I never existed at all as after all I'll be permanently unconscious. I personally only hope to forget about this existence, I just wish for permanent peace from this torturous, unnecessary existence that just causes so much suffering, it just feels so cruel to me how painless death is denied even know all will be gone in death anyway.

I'd personally rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up suffering way more unbearably, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for nothingness, I just find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, it's all just pointless suffering and I find it so tragic how I was forced to suffer at all even know this existence was completely unnecessary and there was just never a need for any of this. All I hope for is to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, for me existence really was never worth it but rather something that just caused suffering and harm and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from this harmful existence, I really was never meant for the burden of existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence, it really is all just so terrible and torturous to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I only wish for nothingness.

I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'd prefer to forget about this existence, I just want all to be gone for me, to me existence truly does just feel like only suffering. It feels like a mistake to me and it's one so cruel and painful that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all anyway and I'm always so tired of suffering, all I personally hope for is non-existence. I just want to sleep for all eternity but of course the suffering just continues instead and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, I wish for the option to just choose to never wake, only never waking ever again can bring me peace from this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence rather I wish I never suffered, to suffer in this existence truly is something so dreadful and torturous to me that I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the pointless unnecessary suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.
I truly would choose to erase my existence if it's up to me as all I wish for is some peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, to me existence really is the most torturous, futile burden and it's one I'd never wish for that I only wish for permanent relief from. I just wish to disappear from this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me wishing to be gone, to me existing really does just feel like only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for all to be gone for me.

I just want permanent peace from this existence and being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me, it's all I could ever wish and hope for, I just want this existence to be all finally forgotten about but of course I'm still trapped in this cruel, futile existence just wishing for the peace that only non-existence could bring me, no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist. Nothing would make me wish for the terrible unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably until death takes away all anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's one I always wish I could disappear from, I'd never wish to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain that only non-existence could take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep and to sleep permanently is all I could hope and wish for. I just wish for this existence to be all forgotten about and no longer my problem but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead and I continue to be trapped in this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering wishing for the relief that only non-existence can bring me.

No matter what I'd prefer to sleep permanently than suffer in this existence, I just find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and it's pain that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'd be so relieved to sleep eternally and never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten about for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again as non-existence is all I could hope for and could ever do no matter what. I was just never meant for the torturous burden of human existence and I never should have suffered at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing, I just want nothingness instead. Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, only never existing ever again can take away what I personally see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, I just wish and hope to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me feels like only suffering.
It truly does just feel like only suffering to me and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I wish I never existed, I personally always see it as so dreadful to be forced into this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering that was completely unnecessary and that there was never a need for at all. I was never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered in this existence, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one I just want permanent peace and relief from, I just hope to never suffer ever again.

I'll always see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I just wish I was never forced to exist, I'd never wish to be conscious of this existence, I find it so dreadful to be forced into this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just waiting to die anyway. I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it so burdensome to exist no matter what, it's a burden that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just wish for non-existence, I just want peace, I don't want to suffer at all in any way and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this harmful, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, existence just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and it's all just so torturous and terrible, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence wishing for the peace that only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me.

As long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten about, for me non-existence really is always preferable than the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want to sleep eternally, I'll always see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it, just hoping and wishing to be gone, existence really does cause so much harm. It's just so terrible to me, I'd never wish for the terrible unnecessary suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it, I just hope and wish for non-existence instead. Only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that always felt like the most cruel, harmful mistake to me, there's just so much suffering in existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this torturous, harmful existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just hope to be gone instead, only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is deeply undesirable to me.
No matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous, unnecessary existence rather I just wish to not exist, I just see nothing appealing about existing rather I just hope and wish to sleep eternally. I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and there is no more suffering, to me existence is the most cruel, futile burden that just causes problems and pain there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the thought of suffering in this existence for much longer just to be tortured by old age is really unbearable to me.

I'd just never wish for any of that suffering, I only hope and wish for nothingness instead, I just want to sleep for all eternity where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and finally all is forgotten, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. Wanting to not exist truly is all I know and is all I could hope for, I just want to forget about this deeply undesirable existence I was unfortunate enough to be burdened with, I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all even know never existing would have saved me from so much suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and peace from all the suffering has been all I've ever wished and hoped for, I just wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to not exist is a response to existence.
It really is a response to existence, I wish to die as a result of being forced into this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep instead, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for non-existence and it's all I've wished for. I'd never wish for the suffering this existence so tragically brings where one is capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, it's just so terrible, painful and dreadful how there's all this suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope and wish for non-existence instead.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable, existence to me really does feel like the most terrible mistake that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and I just want peace from it, I'm just not meant for any of this as well, I could never be meant for something as torturous and futile as existing. For me existing was always deeply undesirable in every way and never worth it, I'd just never wish for any of this and I suffer so much from how the option for me to peacefully cease existing is so cruelly denied, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish to just fall asleep permanently.
All I hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where this existence is finally all gone, eternal sleep is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I just want to forget about this existence I saw as the most cruel, harmful terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this existence, I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist.

I just wish for non-existence where finally this existence is no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, to never suffer ever again truly is all I could wish for, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all harm and suffering where I'm no longer burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish for the torturous unnecessary burden of existence rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, I just want to sleep for all eternity where I'm finally unable to suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious, there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one I only hope for eternal sleep to bring me peace from, I just want to sleep permanently but of course the suffering in this cruel existence just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all for them anyway, I just find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist and to me existing really is just waiting to die. I suffer so much from waiting to die in this dreadful existence and I'll always feel so much dread for what lies ahead, for me existence really was never worth it but rather just something I saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

There's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so painful to me, I'd prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this dreadful existence that was so tragically imposed just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I never should have suffered in this existence and my suffering is such that only non-existence can take away for me. I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. As long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I just wish for this existence to finally be forgotten about for me but of course all the suffering of existing just continues instead, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous unnecessary existence I never would have chosen that was so tragically imposed, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for nothingness, I just wish to be permanently unaware of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is always preferable for me.
It truly is always preferable for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, only non-existence can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, non-existence really is preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose and was never meant for.

Non-existence would solve everything for me as it'd remove what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I've always wished for non-existence and it's all I could wish for, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never suffering at all is true perfection for me. I just want to forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I've just never had any interest in the torturous burden of human existence as well, I just want nothingness instead, eternal nothingness really is all that can bring me peace from this existence I never wished for, for me existence was never worth it rather it's something I just want to be all gone for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all I could ever see as desirable, I just hope and wish to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist, I find it so painful to be conscious in this existence, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence rather I just wish for some peace instead, I only wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence and all is finally gone for me. It's so tragic to me how this harmful, torturous existence was even imposed and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope for permanent non-existence instead, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again.

I'm just so tired of suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer, there's no pain in non-existence, I personally just want peace and peace for me could only lie in never existing ever again. I wish I could just choose to simply die in a painless way but of course I cannot have such an option which is just so painful, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous, futile existence and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, only non-existence can bring me relief from the pain of existing, I just want to never exist ever again and finally forget this existence I'd never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffered for so long.
I really have suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I really never should have been forced to suffer in this unnecessary undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of eternal nothingness, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just causes pain and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always so tired of suffering.

I just hope and wish for this existence to be all forgotten and no longer my problem, simply just existing is tiring for me and is enough to make me wish for death, as long as I exist I'll just hope to sleep eternally, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I just wish for true permanent peace instead, I only wish to never exist ever again. I'd personally be so relieved to not exist with all finally gone for me, I just want to sleep for all eternity, peace for me really could only lie in non-existence and permanent relief from all the suffering is all I could ever hope for, I was just never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing, I really never should have suffered at all and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of existing and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I just want nothingness, I just want some peace and eternal sleep really is all that can bring me any, I just hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally unable to suffer in any way and all is forgotten for me. Never existing ever again really would solve everything for me as after all existence is the source of all suffering, I personally see existence as just being an deeply undesirable abomination that causes so much harm and I'd never wish for any of this, I just want non-existence instead and it's all I've hoped for.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I've always felt so tired and always will do, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, I see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so dreadful to me. There's so much cruelty in existing and in fact to me existing feels like only suffering and I just want peace from all this, I only hope for the peace of non-existence where finally I can forget about this existence, I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the burden of existing, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence.