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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I have to a bunch of futile things. My partner is out to see a house to buy to run away from my corpse, accompanied by their owner. They think I don't know. I will feed them in the evening. What an honour to be useful as they are passing my death sentence.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

Visionary
Apr 2, 2020
2,404
I woke up, had coffee, ate a few times, exercised, read the forum, contemplated suicide. Just a regular day.
 
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catalepsy

catalepsy

Student
Sep 4, 2020
117
I've worked 6 12hr days this week, and today is my only day off. Next week will probably be the same. So today, I am adamantly refusing to go to sleep. I will be strung out and go shoot stuff with a redneck friend and take copious amounts of drugs to make up for the desert of reality I've been dragging myself through.
 
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ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

Experienced
Sep 9, 2020
234
Still havent been able to get out of bed. Dont feel like doing anything even though I know I need to complete things
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,865
Can't find a place to live.
I make 3 times minimum wage, and it's not enough to rent an apartment near where I work.
Fuck capitalism.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Doing sorta okay right now. I kinda want to ctb right now though at the same time
 
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not_ready

not_ready

When I leave tell me to have goodnight
Oct 5, 2019
43
sending a message after along time waiting for a response get ignored i feel like burden.. wanting to hang myself.. today was a bad day
 
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Borghesia

Borghesia

mors certa, hora incerta
Jan 5, 2019
55
Same old, same old... every day is exactly the same. I could be 20 or 70.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I have to kill myself but I am procastrinating. Smokes and coffee.

I regret having been positive.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,636
Feel like crap. What's new...
 
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nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,042
Went to the kitchen earlier and was surprised by a flooding. With tiny, rotten (?) pieces. On the floor and in the drawers... Everything smelled like beer and rot. Spent hours to clean everything and missed a live stream.

At least it distracted me a bit. Now I feel sick and hungry.
 
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not_ready

not_ready

When I leave tell me to have goodnight
Oct 5, 2019
43
shitty day
 
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RottenDeer

RottenDeer

Rotten to the core.
Feb 29, 2020
157
Already stressful and horrible and it's only 9am.
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
I worked 17 hours in a row to fix a mess I created at work due to honestly having no idea what I'm doing because I'm very new, then dropped down and slept like dead. I woke up to a missed conversation with my teamlead about the way I failed to fix the mess and it got so big there is now an investigation involving everyone up to the highest level. I get a hunch I'm going to be unemployed by the end of the day and I have no idea what to say to people who question "how the f this happened?".
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
6,921
I wondered around the woods looking for deadfall and figuring out what species of tree were located in what locations and soil conditions. This was in an effort to find the best place to collect leaf litter or leaf mould during the autumn.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
My day went okay. Felt like ctb, got my hair done, went to the hair store for a night cap and got some Chipotles
 
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ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

Experienced
Sep 9, 2020
234
I am so bored lately but I can't get myself to work because Im bored with that too. Nothing seems interesting lately
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
2,659
Just woke up again:notsure: I give up. Making coffee and feeding the cat... actually looking forward to the day. Going to a fair, the first since the big lockdown
 
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Deleted member 1465

_
Jul 31, 2018
6,921
Walking along a back alley, I found a magnificent green dragonfly resting in the middle of the road. I nearly stepped on him. I've always loved these creatures and had the larvae (terrifying alien like creatures with jet propulsion and a folding spear jaw) in my pond. I once saw one emerge and transform, but I've never seen an adult up close before. Shame I didn't have my phone for a pic.
I picked him up and put him on a tree. He didn't fly off. Looked healthy enough. Maybe he was just old and worn out.
 
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nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,042
Felt heavy/groggy all day long. It was not beneficial that I ate too much in addition. Later on I could motivate myself to go for a walk, but I was surprised by a thunderstorm. So I went home again. Did some cardio and now I'm tired af.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,636
Went to therapy for yet another initial session. This therapist seems pretty cool. Feeling really anxious today and foggy. I was so on edge during the session that I had tremors and was twitching. Yikes
Felt heavy/groggy all day long. It was not beneficial that I ate too much in addition. Later on I could motivate myself to go for a walk, but I was surprised by a thunderstorm. So I went home again. Did some cardio and now I'm tired af.
Did the cardio help at all? It's great that you were able to do it :)
 
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nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,042
Today I'm tired af again.

Went running after getting up and got really tired afterwards, but I still managed to clean the floor and got rid of things before napping. Will go for a walk later on and then call it a day.

Did the cardio help at all? It's great that you were able to do it :)
No, but I expected nothing else. No matter what I do, nothing changes.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,636
Today I'm tired af again.

Went running after getting up and got really tired afterwards, but I still managed to clean the floor and got rid of things before napping. Will go for a walk later on and then call it a day.


No, but I expected nothing else. No matter what I do, nothing changes.
I understand. Nothing I do changes anything either. But I'm glad you're taking steps to care for yourself, at least.
 
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nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,042
Got up, made breakfast and went for a walk near the tracks just for fun. I was looking for a certain spot, but the area is so remote and dodgy that I didn't feel safe. Then I went to another spot I knew. Felt totally exposed and suspicious when two passenger trains passed, and when I was waiting for a freight train and it came, my heart started pounding and I hid behind a pole. I had to chuckle when I left.
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
Woke up in the morning, went out to a shop to buy some food, and discovered that my balance is zero. The bank decided to swiftly cut off all of my credit limit as soon as I repayed my debt. Did not expect this at all. Went home empty handed and laid on the floor with my cats for two hours because I just can't anymore.
 
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Blueman

Blueman

Student
Aug 13, 2020
171
Woke up early lay in bed wishing I hadn't left my job, spent too long on here instead of looking for new jobs.
Showered had breakfast came back on here thinking that ctb might be a better option the continually looking for jobs I probably won't get and if I do probably won't like
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Yesterday was rough as hell. My ctb thoughts were pretty high. Went to the book store and all I felt like doing was curling up in a ball on the middle of the floor and dying. Today I'm feeling a little better, though still feeling like ctb.
 
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Phill

Phill

Student
Dec 19, 2019
150
So far, unproductive. Just another wasted day.
 
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Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
afraid. paranoid.
 
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