Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
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Just got my first 90 day evaluation from my boss. They have extended my probation period for another month after telling me before that I only needed to make small improvements- they used the word "tweaks" - to my workflow.
So I sat through the last 30 minutes of the 1 hour meeting listening to her pick apart my work. She actually rescheduled another meeting just to do this.
As I have said before, I can point to no area of my life that is going well. I have my immediate family. That's it.
I dropped out of school 5 years ago and was forced to move back in with my parents. My career prospects are dismal. I am in debt. No one will date me. I can't even hold onto friends. There is nothing left for me here. I feel like an excess person. No one has any use for me aside from my parents. I wish they had had the sense to abort me 28 years ago. It's not like they even love each other.
But since they didn't abort me, it's finally up to me to make the right call. I wish I had the strength to end myself 5 years ago to save all this wasted effort on everyone's part.
Forget paying my debts or looking at alternative medicine. It's time to put what money I have left into buying a cremation policy and to get the 45 that will be my salvation. Hopefully, I will get that accomplished before my 29th birthday.
Thanks for reading.
So I sat through the last 30 minutes of the 1 hour meeting listening to her pick apart my work. She actually rescheduled another meeting just to do this.
As I have said before, I can point to no area of my life that is going well. I have my immediate family. That's it.
I dropped out of school 5 years ago and was forced to move back in with my parents. My career prospects are dismal. I am in debt. No one will date me. I can't even hold onto friends. There is nothing left for me here. I feel like an excess person. No one has any use for me aside from my parents. I wish they had had the sense to abort me 28 years ago. It's not like they even love each other.
But since they didn't abort me, it's finally up to me to make the right call. I wish I had the strength to end myself 5 years ago to save all this wasted effort on everyone's part.
Forget paying my debts or looking at alternative medicine. It's time to put what money I have left into buying a cremation policy and to get the 45 that will be my salvation. Hopefully, I will get that accomplished before my 29th birthday.
Thanks for reading.