ChemicallyCalm
I Still Don't Know Where Everything Went
- Nov 24, 2018
- 69
Some things I'm feeling right now:
Jealousy- i get jealous of the people on here that get so much interaction, attention, posts and comments on their profiles and things they post in the forums and well wishes. How bad do you have to be that not even other downbeaten people want anything to do with you?
And I really hate feeling negative emotions, I know that i have RSD and that at least explains it but feeling these negative emotions makes me feel like a monster, like i'm so far up my own ass that maybe i deserve bad things. and even saying that, i feel like i'm acting self-important
Guilt- if i had been stronger, calmer, less rash, maybe they'd still be here.
Anxiety- fear of the future, upcoming birthday
Exhaustion- fatigue has been hitting me hard, i can't sleep and then when i finally do it's something like 14 hours at a time and i don't wake up feeling refreshed or well at all
Jealousy- i get jealous of the people on here that get so much interaction, attention, posts and comments on their profiles and things they post in the forums and well wishes. How bad do you have to be that not even other downbeaten people want anything to do with you?
And I really hate feeling negative emotions, I know that i have RSD and that at least explains it but feeling these negative emotions makes me feel like a monster, like i'm so far up my own ass that maybe i deserve bad things. and even saying that, i feel like i'm acting self-important
Guilt- if i had been stronger, calmer, less rash, maybe they'd still be here.
Anxiety- fear of the future, upcoming birthday
Exhaustion- fatigue has been hitting me hard, i can't sleep and then when i finally do it's something like 14 hours at a time and i don't wake up feeling refreshed or well at all
