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Takeme2whereibelong

Takeme2whereibelong

Already gone
Jul 25, 2025
33
Last post and rant Im fuming im seething angry at the mental health system always being lied about and they get away with it. No ones records are correct and they wont correct them. A glimpse of my previous record states i "think" im autistic that im not diagnosed. I have been fn diagnosed by psychologists, gps, psychiatrists just not by the form that costs $2000 in australia. And how dare they write my dog used to be my sisters therapy dog. How dare they fuckin disrespect him like that. He was my dog and only ever my dog he was my assistance dog not a therapy dog and no one elses dog. Last month in the mental health unit they told me i was lying and that i have pets to go home to. Someone has told them i own a pet horse. My fuckin pet horse is a lifesize fibreglass horse. But apparently i own a real horse that lives in loungeroom in a town like wtf is wrong. Correct if im wrong but to me the mental health workers are the ones more mentaly unstable. But you cant fight them because no one believes us its so incredibly wrong
 
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jpeq

jpeq

Zombified and lingering in limbo 💤🧟
Jun 15, 2025
8
Bad but unable to process it. I want to laugh. I have to wake up in 2 hours, I haven't slept. I can't bring myself to do anything important and I'm watching my deadlines pass and I do nothing but sit here and take up space. I feel great, fine, present in the moment but in a sense it's an act as the real world and my real responsibilities all pile up. I'm tired and scared and angry and happy and overwhelmed and disoriented.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Warlock
May 7, 2025
733
I am hollow. I am empty. I have so much to give, so much I want to give, and no one ever to give to. I need to be held and touched and seen and loved and heard, but I am alone, always alone. I am broken, shattered, the pieces are drifting away, out of reach, I can't even see many of them anymore. Parts of me are gone forever, I can never be fully put back together again, but also no one is trying and I no longer care myself. I am a shell of who I was, a fraction of who I could be, and all the unrealized potential and dreams and experiences... they aren't even things to be imagined anymore, not even fantasies to be held in my mind to keep me company or delude myself further. I know there is nothing, always nothing, and the walls are closing in on me. The end is coming whether I want it or not... so I might as well try to want it, accept it, find my place in it... and see if I can at least take the reigns on my end in a way I've never been able to do so in my life.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,042
still trapped in eternal darkness
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,087
I'm getting so tired of this shit. I feel so fucking annoyed right now and I don't fucking fully know why. I want to hang myself so badly right now but I can't because my mom is home. It sucks because I have the rope in my bag. I want to cut myself as well, but I can't. I'd cut my thighs and arms as deep as I could if I were able to, but I can't because I was an idiot and told them about my SHing. I know that they would have inevitably found out about it but I still regret telling them. I feel so out of place everywhere I go. I even feel out of place here. Hell, I feel more disconnected from this site's user base compared to when I first signed up here.
 
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Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
Feb 7, 2023
338
Thinking about the next semester of classes is stressing me out so bad because there's so many things wrong with me. I want to fulfill my dreams, but if I'm too lazy to do basic tasks like taking care of myself, how am I expected to pass all my classes? I misuse OTC medication to help me get through the day, but it makes my heart hurt and race. I know what I'm doing is unhealthy, and I'm scared of the long-term consequences of abusing stimulants. However, if I don't have them, I can't bring myself to do anything

I hope I die on those stimulants so that everyone knows what they pushed me to do. I'm not being melodramatic; I'm doing whatever it takes to deliver the results people want because they would rather watch me implode than give me a break
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

i must rest here a moment
Mar 9, 2024
1,392
I feel weirdly....okay? July was quite bad but then suddenly the last few days were fine, idk. The randomness of it all sucks. I have no doubt I'll shoot back down. Which is fine by me, because that's where I feel comfortable. Feeling okay like this is scary.
 
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Bowerbird

Bowerbird

queer little bird guy
May 27, 2025
30
god i really want to ctb

but i cant leave yet, theres someone who needs me
 
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NutORat

NutORat

Sleepwalking
Jun 11, 2025
7
I don't know how to articulate these feelings emotionally so instead I will describe how it feels physically:
Weird, almost ticklish "pain?" in the chest, and weakness in the rest of the body, limbs especially. Also that suffocating lump in the throat. Also my head feels heavy, like it's being weighted down from the inside, mostly in the frontal part.
I guess that's how I feel, I don't know, I didn't think this through, which was the assignment ok I'll shut up now haha.
 
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painfully

painfully

Lonely guy...
Jun 16, 2025
58
Always massively lonely... Nobody will ever want me...

Also Id like to play World of Warcraft but I have nobody to play with...
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,042
lost in an endless dark void
 
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Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
Feb 7, 2023
338
Overwhelmed; looking at my cumulative GPA makes me so disappointed in myself, and it just makes me realize that I truly fucked up my dreams. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like a defective product. Right now, I just wish I had some SN on me so that I could take it and call it before I disappointment both myself and anyone else more.
 
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PhDone

Experienced
Jul 29, 2024
262
Alone. So fucking alone. Damn chronic illness. Its a cage.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,042
my depression is wearing me down
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Warlock
May 7, 2025
733
Tired. I had to go out for groceries today, which means a lot of walking which is tiring physically... but a lot of exposure to other people, and that is exhausting emotionally. Either I am stressed by interactions with people OR stressed by anticipating interactions and trying to avoid them. Either way, exhausting. I almost fell asleep a little bit ago just sitting on the couch. Some days I take short naps. It's all just too much.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,087
I've sent a few text messages to my brother a while back and he hasn't responded to them. I'm starting to think that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I don't blame him, since I was horrible to him back when we were younger. It's all my fault if he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. That is completely within his rights. I decided to block him and now I kind of want to attempt, but I can't because my mom is up. I don't like the idea of attempting while she is home. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I'm such a horrible person. Idk what to do
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
284
Managing anxiety is hard, especially if you don't want to bother or burden others close to you… and I'm afraid I do it all the time… and I don't want to be a miserable, un-fun person to be around and accidentally push the people I care about away… But I'm probably just being neurotic again; I don't know…

I wish I was more capable. I wish I could do more. I wish I was impressive. I wish I was as intelligent and as effortlessly charming as them… I wish I wasn't so chronically nervous and second-guessing every word that comes out of my mouth…

I wish I was more stable…
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
129
I'm such an autistic piece of garbage. I should not have been born as a burden to everyone. The world would be better off without my existence. I have no idea why I am still alive. I wish my mother had aborted this leech on society. Nobody loves me.
 
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dustymuck

dustymuck

Lonely idiot
Jul 21, 2025
13
Can't bring myself to do anything... I feel tired
 
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blood-orange

blood-orange

Member
Jan 19, 2025
23
Very lonely. I'm tired of being single. I want to be loved again, and have someone to love. I just don't know how i'm going to find it. it feels like even if i try i will probably face rejection or i just won't connect on a deep emotional level. It's been more than a year now since i broke up with my ex and have unsuccesfully dated two people. They just don't understand me like my ex did. I don't think i will ever find anyone like him again.

I'm also tired of working. It feels meaningless to me. I'm just doing it for money and to fund my existence but then i actually have nothing in my life that makes it feel like it's worth living. I don't even know if being in a relationship will fix that. I'm starting to feel as though nothing will make me happy. I'm so tempted to just go on a drug binge and ruin my life. I have people in my life who care about me so i can't do that unfortunately,
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Member
Aug 22, 2020
92
Very lonely. I'm tired of being single. I want to be loved again, and have someone to love. I just don't know how i'm going to find it. it feels like even if i try i will probably face rejection or i just won't connect on a deep emotional level. It's been more than a year now since i broke up with my ex and have unsuccesfully dated two people. They just don't understand me like my ex did. I don't think i will ever find anyone like him again.

I'm also tired of working. It feels meaningless to me. I'm just doing it for money and to fund my existence but then i actually have nothing in my life that makes it feel like it's worth living. I don't even know if being in a relationship will fix that. I'm starting to feel as though nothing will make me happy. I'm so tempted to just go on a drug binge and ruin my life. I have people in my life who care about me so i can't do that unfortunately,
Same.

Except I'm sex starved on top of love starved.
 

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