
Bowerbird
queer little bird guy
- May 27, 2025
- 31
Can't sleep. Its 3AM. my life is meaningless without her. Nobody understands. If I cant see her again soon I would rather not be here at all. She is my soul mate as long as she is not around I will never be whole.
Also an annoying thing about being trans masc is belonging nowhere. Queer spaces think I have "male passing/man privileges" but in cishet spaces i am just a "confused biological woman". Nobody cares about trans mascs or representing us or our experience unless its "eww man pregnant lol" for shock value, or *shudders* "boys dont cry"
I am literally a man trapped in a womans body but there's nothing I can do about it the T isnt working I still get misgendered and dont pass even though I dress like adam sandler and have short hair and my voice is even deeper now. Nope still just a confused little girl. Except to my loved ones who probably don't love me anymore bc I am unrecognisable. I fucked up and ruined my life for a chance to get better and sacrificed all I had and in return for what? It feels hopeless.
Sometimes im scared im gonna go insane and crash out and boom, another "ooo scary autistic trans person is bad person and does bad stuff!!!" case for people to fear monger about and use to shit on the autistic/trans community even more.
Also an annoying thing about being trans masc is belonging nowhere. Queer spaces think I have "male passing/man privileges" but in cishet spaces i am just a "confused biological woman". Nobody cares about trans mascs or representing us or our experience unless its "eww man pregnant lol" for shock value, or *shudders* "boys dont cry"
I am literally a man trapped in a womans body but there's nothing I can do about it the T isnt working I still get misgendered and dont pass even though I dress like adam sandler and have short hair and my voice is even deeper now. Nope still just a confused little girl. Except to my loved ones who probably don't love me anymore bc I am unrecognisable. I fucked up and ruined my life for a chance to get better and sacrificed all I had and in return for what? It feels hopeless.
Sometimes im scared im gonna go insane and crash out and boom, another "ooo scary autistic trans person is bad person and does bad stuff!!!" case for people to fear monger about and use to shit on the autistic/trans community even more.