Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Rounded Apathy]

I'm so fucking tired of this bullshit casino that is living. You can do the right things and of course you can't win if you don't play, but you also can't lose and let's be real, that's what's gonna happen most of the time. Odds are always stacked in the house's favour, always. Even if you're the best the house will eventually shut you down cause that's how the whole damn system is rigged from the start.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i hate myself too. i wish there was an easier way to get rid of the self-loathing.

its kinda funny, for me the same person that helps it is the same person that kinda causes it.
he shows me to love myself so it kinda helps, but because of the "bad things" (my addiction and destructive behaviours) i dont feel good enough and hate myself. yay me? lol

 

[WhatPowerIs]

its kinda funny, for me the same person that helps it is the same person that kinda causes it.
he shows me to love myself so it kinda helps, but because of the "bad things" (my addiction and destructive behaviours) i dont feel good enough and hate myself. yay me? lol

I'm sorry. It's a tricky situation.

 

[StrangePossum]

fucking pissed at this stupid capitalist society

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

kind of strange, empty and lonely but also an impending sense of doom. i dont know if i would actively try to kill myself but im definitely not in the mood to resist death atm

 

[Ceterum]

emtiness, desire to cuddle, desire to get drunk

 

[Life_and_Death]

"i dog sat last night"
well thats fucking good for you. look nothing against you dude but i RAISED you. and the same people that left me to raise you from when i was 11-16, some fucking how felt i wasnt good enough to babysit at 14. so i really dont want to hear about you and your damn dog.
im getting fucking sick of the constant "look what i did" that i didnt get to do by the SAME FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!! if they were different people then whatever, human personal choice. but the same fucking people? no, thats clearly a fucking dig against me and im fucking sick of it

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Lonely and want to die. Want to be with R.

 

[IWillSmileWhenIDie]

shit, I'ma take a nice shit

 

[Leiden]

Frightened... So very, very frightened.

 

[ManicPanic2018]

Should be sadder than I am. In denial that a relationship that started recently just exploded in my face. Started drinking at 10am every day this weekend. Feeling a lot better after I found out about SN today. Somewhat relieved.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Feel doomed. Too stupid to be alive. Scared. :/ I don't know how I'm going to get through another day tomorrow…

 

[FrozenMango]

sick

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I feel scared. Don't know how I'm going to get through the next few weeks.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I feel irrationally rattled by a Twitter take that all adults that play lots of videogames must be depressed and let life pass them by. The whole "think of top 100 moments of your life and none of them probably happened in videogames". Felt compelled to ask people on here what they think about it and whether top 100 moments of their lives include videogames or not, then remembered this is a goddamn suicide forum where almost everyone is depressed and most people would have a really hard time coming up with any top 100 moments, of their lives. Sometimes I forget how sad my life is and how little perspective I have on what it actually means to live a normal life.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i still want to die i know he doesnt fix it, but i feel so useless to him like this

 

[reverse03]

Lonely. Numb. Just want to die already.

 

[Life_and_Death]

hes stupid and shouldnt have come back. im worthless and hes better off...

 

[Rocinante]

Ugly. Destined to rot.

 

[Lullaby]

Feeling really unlovable. It's nothing new, but it's been stronger lately. It seems like whenever anyone says I love you, it's either untrue or a mistake. I can't even remember the last time my mom said those words to me. It just hurts.

I really don't belong here.

 

[Challu]

Feeling okay.

 

[Mixo]

There were only two choices - give into the gaslighting doctors, lean into and internalize their ignorant assumptions, decline, and CTB. Or abandon the traditional medical establishment altogether, give them a high flying middle finger, and investigate other options, do research, and implement other treatments. Many would find the methods I used these last couple years to be legitimately crazy, questionable, or risky, which is fine. None of that matters now. The only thing I wanted was positive change, and I couldn't be more grateful in this moment.

 

[Life_and_Death]

3 words:
i
hate
bpd

youll figure it out.....

 

[ryo the frog]

I'm sleepy
I want to go to sleep and not wake up
wish I were in a fictional world

 

[Zegers]

Numb, nothingness

 

[Achromatix]

I feel so alone. I feel like i could disappear and no one would notice. I want to scream, hurt myself, hide, and die, but I'm scared to screw any of that up. I've already been hospitalized once, and everyone around me agreed it was attention driven. I just dont want to be here. As a weak person, i want to hide from everyone all the time. I hate this I can't survive on my own. It needs to end

 

[Wasabi]

I feel tension

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Panic... This feeling is horrible and I still need to pretend like everything is OK. I can't sleep, I can't do anything. I don't want to be touched, my heart is exploding. Idk what to do, how get out now. I wish I could leave already!

 

[TiredLostHope20]

I feel empty, i realise now i have always felt this way. I ordered some SN and suddenly felt a rush of what i had forgotten, Happiness. Happiness to die.

 

[jodes2]

The only thing I look forward to in life is death. So bored and fed up