Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[jodes2]

I rely on other people completely. I feel so dependent and helpless

very bored. and hungry, yet the more i eat, the more the hunger increases...

I'm always bored too. I made a thread asking what sites people go to to waste time which helped me. It's a shame this forum is so quiet nowadays, I can't use it to completely fill my time anymore

 

[artificial_ineptness]

I feel like an error, a genetic failure. Like I shouldn't be here, and that everything I do is wrong. I wish I could just erase my existence.

Even this comment will just be a waste of someones time.

 

[jodes2]

Why am I such a useless POS

 

[Dead Ghost]

Why am I such a useless POS

POS? define please.

 

[jodes2]

POS? define please.

Piece of shit

 

[niiina]

Emptiness

 

[Nanako]

I'm so anxious. Why does this have to be so hard? None of this is my fault, I did nothing to deserve this, so why is this happening to me? I'm not gonna be able to ctb, my family will find me before I can go, or I'll vomit everything and be forced to live the rest of my life with brain damage. Why why why?

 

[outatime_85]

I wake to a broken, unrecognizable reflection staring back at me, broken and tired, thinking, If this is hell, what does peace look like?

 

[jodes2]

Sweaty and bored

 

[Lullaby]

Im done. Just absolutely done with this all. Every week I'm given more reasons to go and it just feels like a joke at this point.

I really wanted to stick through this for my cat but I don't even think I can do that. I don't want to do another year of this, I'm tired and I've been completely broken down by everything and everyone around me. I'm over this.

It's time for me to get serious about going. I'm not doing this anymore.

 

[Life_and_Death]

when something as basic as grabbing the cooking spray for breakfast sends you into a rant on past abuse...its 100% understandable why one would be suicidal. and its like this for everything

 

[a_lesser_moon]

i'm sad and tired of figuring out all the possible options of treatment, i just wanna take a year long nap, never waking up would be fine as well

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I am lonely and needy and sad and I don't want to be this way right now because I am not killing myself within the next few days and I do not want to be miserable until I die. I need some good distraction, but I'm out of ideas, and alcohol makes me want to message people and burden them with my sad neediness which is not nice. I need some solitary activity to distract me from this shit.

 

[jodes2]

Im lonely and needy and sad and I don't want to be this way right now because I am not killing myself within the next few days and I do not want to be miserable until I die. I need some good distraction, but I'm out of ideas, and alcohol makes me want to message people and burden them with my sad neediness which is not nice. I need some solitary activity to distract me from this shit.

I made a post in off topic section - online boredom cures, there were some helpful suggestions there for activities to occupy the mind

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I made a post in off topic section - online boredom cures, there were some helpful suggestions there for activities to occupy the mind

I am totally going to check that out. You're a rockstar.

 

[Life_and_Death]

those things you should talk about but the topic is behind closed doors...... i wish i could deny what just happened...i cant deny it, i cant talk about it....i dont feel bad about it, i should feel horrible and wrong...numbed by ptsd...

 

[Ringo]

I keep trying and I keep failing, I haven't been able to gather the materials after all this time, even to die I suck.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Numb again

 

[Zegers]

Tired, listless, empty, i don't even feel like watching videos or something, i just lie in bed scrolling phone

 

[Life_and_Death]

i wish i knew what was wrong with me. im beyond broken..

 

[Luchs]

I just feel exhausted, my mental state has been swinging between bottomless depression and boundless hope and optimism by a ten hour tact. I just need a break from life.

 

[Werewolf]

I feel like going for another drink but to quote the ever brilliant cpt jack sparrow
"Why is the rum always gone"

 

[VirtualSnow]

A lot of nerves, I have taken some pills (10.5mg of bromazepam, not much, but it's not like I had a lot left) that I hadn't touched in ages and I'm currently writing down the results just in case anyone finds them useful, I'm not sure if I should post them though, would they be really useful? I'm not an expert of any sort and they may not be too accurate.

 

[Sakura94]

I just want it all to end so badly, staring at a wall wishing it was a movie and the story just stops/runs out of tape.

 

[apple2myeye!]

my brain feels like it[;'s been fucking torched from the inside

 

[crystalclear2102]

I'm bored.
As every morning since some weeks ago I woke up, disappointed of having woken up.
I have to survive to an 8 hour shift and then continue to "be".

 

[Dead Ghost]

Fear
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Por

 

[crystalclear2102]

Fear
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Por

About what, if I may ask

 

[AUTIST777]

my mom keeps on bitching at me and its only a matter of time before i ctb

 

[Dead Ghost]

About what, if I may ask

I do things wrong unintentionally, I make a lot of mistakes and then I have to take responsibility for the consequences. I'm not talking about self-sabotage or anything like that, I'm just talking about everything that I try to do very carefully so that it goes well and that suddenly at the last minute it's a very difficult disaster to solve.
I have inadvertently put my paw back in and fear the consequences. And right now I'm getting really sad about it and I want to cry again.
I'm always afraid to do the things that have to be done because I often fear the consequences if they don't go well, and I usually complicate my life because of it.

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Faig les coses malament sense voler, m'equivoco molt i després m'he de fer responsable de les conseqüències. No parlo d'autosabotatge ni res d'això, només em refereixo a tot allò que miro de fer amb molta cura perquè surti bé i que de cop i volta en l'últim moment es un desastre molt difícil de resoldre.
He tornat a posar la pota sense voler i temo les conseqüències. I ara mateix passo a estar molt trist per això i torno a tenir ganes de plorar.
Sempre tinc por de fer les coses que s'han de fer perqué sovint temo les conseqüències de que no surtin bé, i habitualment em complico la vida per això.