Traveling next week, wishing for death

[yyytry]

I have such a fear of people due to being isolated for over 6 months.

I'm hoping that the driver has an accident with a landslide and it kills me and my dog.

If I make it to the airplane, I hope it crashes. But to me airplanes are safer than cars.

 

[sigh333]

i definitely resonate with the wishful thinking around accidents (except planes, bein on them is the only time i'm not suicidal LMAO). and also re: isolation, it can be so hard to transition from that to being around people, it can feel like a shock.

wishing you peace & ease

 

[SeenMoreThanEnough]

If I make it to the airplane, I hope it crashes. But to me airplanes are safer than cars.

airplanes are safer than cars by several orders of magnitude. i wish for the same things you do -- except mainly it's wishing that i don't wake up each day. dying in one's sleep is the ultimate mercy

 

[yyytry]

bein on them is the only time i'm not suicidal LMAO

Hahaha, yeah…I do love planes. Both flying and jumping out of 'em

 

[yyytry]

Welp. Not traveling next week anymore.
Because I'm a loser and a reject. I hate myself so much. More isolation time! Over 6 months now!

Maybe I just gotta get real and leave my dog behind.

My hang setup is beautiful and strong.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable wishing to die in an accident as it means that we won't have to find a way to leave ourselves. Those who die certainly are fortunate to me as they cannot suffer anymore. But I envy the way that you feel towards the hanging method, you sound confident in it. I'm still scared of it after reading about failed attempts and it just sounds difficult to succeed with. But yes, I'm certainly always wishing for death.