Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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The feeling you get right before you send an emotionally-charged text message....racing heart and a pit in stomach. Of course I could ignore the person, however, there's some things that have to be said and I ain't neva scared!!!
I used to get like that. An pace around alot first. I hope it goes the way you expect it to.
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

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The feeling you get right before you send an emotionally-charged text message....racing heart and a pit in stomach. Of course I could ignore the person, however, there's some things that have to be said and I ain't neva scared!!!
That's why I have taken to waiting at least until the next day to send such messages.
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Anyone still awake
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Brick are you from Ohio btw?
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You don't have to answer that question of course
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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That's why I have taken to waiting at least until the next day to send such messages.
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Anyone still awake
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Brick are you from Ohio btw?
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You don't have to answer that question of course
I'm up, na not from Ohio. I'm on the east coast of the US. Do I give off an Ohio vibe or something? Hehe
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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No but I have some pretty stupid relatives up there.
I have family in like 12 different states. I'm the only one in my state though. Except my ex wife and two young sons.
@a.n.kirillov how'd your day go?
 
waived

waived

I am a sunrise
Jan 5, 2019
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I almost went way down because my left earbud became quieter than the right one.
 
Lorntroubles

Lorntroubles

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Jan 19, 2020
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@a.n.kirillov oh I've waited, alright. It's just...deep shit ya feel me?
 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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@not-2-b-the-answer turn your profile wall on ya stalker :pfff::pfff::pfff::pfff:


I have a hard enough time keeping up with you guys already. :)):)):)) I don't even have time to post here … barely enough time to like posts. I think I'm at least a few pages back. :wink:
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

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I have family in like 12 different states. I'm the only one in my state though. Except my ex wife and two young sons.
@a.n.kirillov how'd your day go?
Meh... I'm in Europe so at least six hours ahead of you. When we were writing yesterday it was already 4AM.

My cat wouldn't let me sleep
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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Meh... I'm in Europe so at least six hours ahead of you. When we were writing yesterday it was already 4AM.

My cat wouldn't let me sleep
I've been having alot of sleep issues myself lately. But it's been more related to stress then anything I think. How're you today?
 
a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

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I've been having alot of sleep issues myself lately. But it's been more related to stress then anything I think. How're you today?
Alright I guess, bit of a hangover.

Are you stressed about the job issue?
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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Alright I guess, bit of a hangover.

Are you stressed about the job issue?
I've been stressed about that, relationship troubles, and finances in general. I may potentially be in my last days.

I recovered from a major separation only to be smacked back down to square 1 because of Corona. I'm running out of patience.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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Fuck I'm so gutted right now...
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Aw I'm sorry Brick.:aw:
Motherfucker, I love you my dude. I remember when you first made your comeback even. You've been thriving and surviving in your own way and I have nothing but love and respect for you!
 
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I'm still doing what I can but feeling somewhat despondent recently. In that weird zone where you look around and think "This is it, isn't it? I'm never going to get back what I've lost, I somehow have to accept this new limited life."

You went into recovery and have managed so much, you can still do it. There will always be setbacks, comes with the territory.
 
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Brick In The Wall

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I'm still doing what I can but feeling somewhat despondent recently. In that weird zone where you look around and think "This is it, isn't it? I'm never going to get back what I've lost, I somehow have to accept this new limited life."

You went into recovery and have managed so much, you can still do it. There will always be setbacks, comes with the territory.
My recovery and future are fucked. I'm probably going to disappear like @one4all or Widow did.
 
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Epsilon0

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Oh, BlueWidow... I still remember her long, beautiful posts.

There's such a lot of pain in the world...
My recovery and future are fucked. I'm probably going to disappear like @one4all or Widow did.


I am sorry to hear that...
 
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RM5998

RM5998

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Sep 3, 2018
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@Brick In The Wall I hope things get better for you... it would be sad to see you go like that.

Also, the graphic novels you selected look interesting... Are you an avid follower of the current DC comics canon?
 
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Blue's posts were epic dissertations but still remained eloquent and captivating.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oh, BlueWidow... I still remember her long, beautiful posts.

There's such a lot of pain in the world...



I am sorry to hear that...
Bluewidow was my SS female counterpart. I miss her all the fucking time. Now it's probably @Carina.
 
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Epsilon0

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It was a bit strange not seeing the Ban and Suggestion sections. As far as bans are concerned, I understand it's better for the banned user to keep those discussions private. But I always enjoyed reading the Suggestions forum - some of the ideas were really good.
This forum is awesome anyway as far as the design is concerned. Very user-friendly.
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

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@Brick In The Wall we need you around here dude; you are the supreme shit talker. It would become pretty boring in here without you
 
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Lorntroubles

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Jan 19, 2020
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Brick, you're my ultimate thread games partner. But thanks for the entertainment. Keeps my mind off things momentarily.
 
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Quarky00

Quarky00

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It was a bit strange not seeing the Ban and Suggestion sections. As far as bans are concerned, I understand it's better for the banned user to keep those discussions private. But I always enjoyed reading the Suggestions forum - some of the ideas were really good.
This forum is awesome anyway as far as the design is concerned. Very user-friendly.
Concur. My suggestion is to post a private suggestion asking to post public suggestions.

(which were prob counterproductive to mods, all us lot with our chatter etc)
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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So much love from everyone. I appreciate it! But yea I'm done for. My current woman has left me and she was my last reason to continue.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Very soon my love, very soon....

20200216 211550
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
25,158
What is that? Nitrite?

If you wanna chat send a PM
It's 3 methods and all of the antiemetics, scales, measuring cups, and benzos you could dream of! I'm surely leaving a bit out tho but not intentionally.
Very soon my love, very soon....

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Kit includes: 3x Loudwolf SN, 1x Loudwolf SA, 1x 100ml 2M2B, 3x Tagamet box, 1x Metoclopramide box, 1x Domperidone box, 1x Zofran bottle, 10x Xanax pills, 6x Headache powders, Digital Scales, Holy Bible, 1 Table Spoon, 4 Extra batteries for Scales, 2 Pens, 2 Sheets of paper. 2 measured drinking glass.
 
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