Venting The problem is my sex

[delta2]

I've tried to go by non binary because I hate the sex I was born as, but every little thing I do has toxic masculinity written all over it. I can't even form my own life without a partner by my side. Even then I found a way to invalidate and manipulate her with my silly fucking emotions. I'm nothing without external validation and I'm always making everything about me. Every day I try to believe I can learn from my mistakes and be better, but every day I'm proven wrong. I feel like none of my thoughts or ideas are my own and I'm just parroting off everything I see. My brain objectifies every woman I see and it drives me insane. My eyes always wander and I push away friends with advances. I even blew all my cash asking random, non sex working women to sell nudes. I'm just another pathetic man whose dick leads him off a cliff. I'm ashamed that I've always been aware of the way women are treated in a man's world, but my stupid monkey brain just perpetuates the cycle at every chance I get. Surely if I wanted to be better I would be. Right? Maybe I'm just a shit person to the core? I genuinely believe the only way I can be better towards women is to die. I can run from it as much as I want to but I act like any other pathetic man on the face of this planet and absolutely no use for pathetic men who are too distorted to figure themselves out. I'm an insecure neuter who stinks up the room with his projections.

 

[skylar160]

Have you tried testosterone blockers? It helped me with my sex addiction.

 

[dyingslowly]

I've tried to go by non binary because I hate the sex I was born as, but every little thing I do has toxic masculinity written all over it. I can't even form my own life without a partner by my side. Even then I found a way to invalidate and manipulate her with my silly fucking emotions. I'm nothing without external validation and I'm always making everything about me. Every day I try to believe I can learn from my mistakes and be better, but every day I'm proven wrong. I feel like none of my thoughts or ideas are my own and I'm just parroting off everything I see. My brain objectifies every woman I see and it drives me insane. My eyes always wander and I push away friends with advances. I even blew all my cash asking random, non sex working women to sell nudes. I'm just another pathetic man whose dick leads him off a cliff. I'm ashamed that I've always been aware of the way women are treated in a man's world, but my stupid monkey brain just perpetuates the cycle at every chance I get. Surely if I wanted to be better I would be. Right? Maybe I'm just a shit person to the core? I genuinely believe the only way I can be better towards women is to die. I can run from it as much as I want to but I act like any other pathetic man on the face of this planet and absolutely no use for pathetic men who are too distorted to figure themselves out. I'm an insecure neuter who stinks up the room with his projections.

start taking escitalopram and you won't see women as sexual object do it long enough and you will be a walking talking vessel of a person

 

[delta2]

start taking escitalopram and you won't see women as sexual object do it long enough and you will be a walking talking vessel of a person

Wym?

Have you tried testosterone blockers? It helped me with my sex addiction.

I fear that if I mess with my hormones anymore than I have been already that I'm only gonna get worse

 

[dyingslowly]

Wym?

I fear that if I mess with my hormones anymore than I have been already that I'm only gonna get worse

that med kills sexual desires

 

[cosmic-realism]

I believe that some spiritual and philosophy books will help you see that the body is a mere vessel,a mere flesh suit,that we as all humans possess.You'll see beyond the fact soon enough.You have recognized the problem that in itself is hard for many.You hae taken that first step.