soon, hell yeah

[halfstay]

Well boys, I've got my SN, sedatives, Dramamine, and have effectively burned every bridge in my life within the last three days.

I walked out on the only job I could tolerate, lost my friend (who was my boss) in the process. My sister flew down for a day, she's my one reason for living, and she was disgusted with my self harm. so after chilling with her for a while, and then her departure, I decided now's probably the time. I was gonna wait until my 21st but now I don't actually have anyone to go out and party with anymore so what's the point in delaying? I'm not gonna beg for my job back and i haven't even told my roommate I quit yet so better to bite the bullet, literally, than suffer for an extra month just for shits and giggles.

So either tonight or tomorrow during the day. Which ever lets me sneak out easier. I'm gonna buy some new blades and just go wild like I've always wanted. Might as well satiate some morbid biological curiosities before I'm out the door. And then that'll be it. gone is the permanent stain I am on this world. and I'll just be free.

ill update just before I go do it. cheers

 

[halfstay]

looks like tonight's the night. just waiting for my roommate to leave so I can get out to my car and go. I don't think he'll even notice I'm gone until tomorrow. although I imagine some squad car will roll up and find my body before then. can't park fucking anywhere in the us man.

 

[isthisthingon]

What are you planning to do? Best of luck to ya

 

[geepeedee]

good bye and good luck.

 

[halfstay]

What are you planning to do? Best of luck to ya

Gonna drive out to a state park, take the sedatives and dramamine, walk around until I'm feeling tired, go back to my car and drink the 50g of SN. I haven't eaten all day so I don't need to worry about that. I think it's more or less pretty solid.

gonna sh too. i know it's strange but im addicted to it and wanna see how far I can go without being limited by the consequences. last dose of serotonin before I head out