nitrogenous
Just wanna break free of all suffering
- Dec 26, 2025
- 305
I'm so over trying to get help. My professionals clearly know I have bipolar (and have been formally diagnosed) and have been having a hypomanic/manic episode for the past few weeks which are starting to look a bit unsafe. I've had several emergency presentations the past week alone and everytime I am out, another professional would just call 000 because they all believe I should be inpatient and not out and about. Yet every single time, they just discharged me without even really listening to me or anyone really. Last night, I was discharged with the statement that they thought this mania is not real… They blamed it all on alcohol and past trauma even though I've clearly had episodes in the past while being sober for years (at that point in time). They are really just doing their best to not take care of me, no matter if it's related to suicidality or mania. I'm really just seen as a burden to the system. It's so conflicting for me and I am enjoying this hypomania episode but I know once it ends I'm going to just crash and potentially end it all for good… I think it's clear I'm beyond help with no way out. I regret not taking the SN much earlier when I was really feeling it and planning it…
