Recovery Partners Megathread

[Blackswede]

22M - Sweden.

Im looking for someone to talk to, age and gender dosent really matter. I don't have a particular subject so we'll just see what happens. I'm a black guy, I like basketball and anime. I'm on Zoloft and I'm still adjusting, I'm having dark thoughts but I'm pushing though. If you're interested, pm me!

 

[NoFancyNames]

33 F - Somewhere in Europe

I'm looking for a recovery partner, I can support them back too if needed. I am trying my best to recover and am in active therapy, I've changed a lot in my life and on paper things are really good, but I am going through crisis, quite intense one and I'm struggling to find strength. I have some people in my life I can rely on to an extent but I have learned that I can't really tell them how I truly feel cause they freak out or get angry. And what I really am looking for is someone who I can speak to often, daily if possible, to rant and vent to so I can find the strength to keep going. Maybe it's a lot, but I can offer the same. Obviously no romantic interests etc. Just someone anonymous to talk to that doesn't freak out at the thoughts of CTB.

 

[8leveloquenfrn4evr8]

Middle aged male somewhere in North America.

I'm honestly just desperate to talk to someone and feel like I have a friend. Age/gender/race etc not relevant to me. Must be able to relate to marginalized and excluded failures. Must be able to criticize party lines of any variety. I hate lying and those who get others to lie.

 

[tiredash]

35M from Spain

Im not sure what can I offer... Im just tired of talking to people who dont understand this and say the typical stuff that I dont want to try to change and shit...
Im very lonely and never had any motivation to do anything...

 

[Mixo]

Late 30s female
I've managed to achieve meaningful recovery after many years of suicidality due to chronic, debilitating health issues, family rejection, and other life problems that most people would not come back from. Hobbies include computers, technology, animals, meditation, cooking, music, personal finance/investing, reading, self-improvement.

I'm happy to be a sounding board for anyone very interested in trying to get on a better path, or for anyone who wants an accountability partner when they lose motivation or slide into cynicism too deeply. Not looking to meet up irl but online conversations are cool with me. Probably best if you're around my age and not actively suicidal (I'm probably not going to be terribly helpful if you're currently wanting to ctb).

 

[Lupisour]

Late 30s female
I've managed to achieve meaningful recovery after many years of suicidality due to chronic, debilitating health issues, family rejection, and other life problems that most people would not come back from. Hobbies include computers, technology, animals, meditation, cooking, music, personal finance/investing, reading, self-improvement.

I'm happy to be a sounding board for anyone very interested in trying to get on a better path, or for anyone who wants an accountability partner when they lose motivation or slide into cynicism too deeply. Not looking to meet up irl but online conversations are cool with me. Probably best if you're around my age and not actively suicidal (I'm probably not going to be terribly helpful if you're currently wanting to ctb).

Hello, I'm new here and thought of making a post here just as I saw yours, after thinking about it I think I may need some help, I don't think it's serious but maybe just some life advice would be nice? And maybe I'm stupid because I don't know how to contact anyone on here.

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

30 F Brazil

I'm not entirely sure about trying to recover, but I might give it a chance and I think a recovery partner would be nice, I'm willing to help too in a dynamic of helping each other to get better.

tried to dm you but I couldn't, it seems its not available

 

[pulse1]

20 F europe

I suffer quite hard from feelings of loneliness in my depression/suicidality. I'd like to try being recovery partners so I can combat this better.
I'm currently a uni student so anyone else in uni with similar issues as me would be really nice, otherwise I'm open to anything to make this stop.

 

[Lupisour]

26 M from Asia

I've attempted a few years ago and was on a somewhat good recovery path, got a full-time job, started working out, started going out a lot more, got a girlfriend.

All this until the covid pandemic happened and I lost my job and my girlfriend cheated on me, I still work out and do part-time work but I feel like I'm just surviving at this point. I've grown more reclusive ever since and my anxiety is at an all time high to a point that I can't handle interviews. I feel this downward spiral mentally, like everything is very slowly crumbling away and everyone is leaving me behind and I'm helpless to do anything.

It hasn't come to a serious point like a few years back where I viewed everything in a negative light and was bitter as all hell, and I want to have hope, I'm just not sure how. I guess I'm finding someone that I can be honest to and they with me, with no judgements but still voicing our opinions. I'm not looking for someone to give me hope, just company to maybe ease our burdens together.

My hobbies include Games, Exercising, Reading, Writing, and Horror. I used to be very into Anime too but nowadays I just watch what's popular. We can just talk about anything (if you want to vent too it's fine, I'd like to think I'm more of a listener). Or play games (Overwatch, League of Legends, etc. though I'm not very good at them) Or just watch a movie or TV Series together, I'm down for anything.

 

[franzhype]

25 M - Argentina, Buenos Aires.

Interests: Video games, reading/writing, violin/guitar, anime, kittys, long Discord calls, and watching funny or paranormal videos/TikToks together, studying computer engineering.

So… my girlfriend recently left me. She was my favorite person, my closest friend, and the partner I thought I would spend my whole life with. She truly was everything I ever wanted. All my time revolved around her, talking to her, waiting for her, and doing things inspired by her, like playing video games together, making playlists, or writing. Now, I'm completely devastated and trying to find something to fill that empty space...

I'd love to make new friends to play games and chat with because I feel really lonely most of the time, and I am... I don't mind your gender, age, or anything else, I just value connection. I feel more confident speaking Spanish, but I understand English perfectly fine. I enjoy sharing photos of my daily life, having Discord calls until we fall asleep, and I would love spending time together while we try to get better and recover.

Feel free to DM me if you're looking for someone to talk with 24/7, I mostly use Discord, if you prefer talking on there.. I'm pretty much always online.

 

[tiredash]

35 M from Spain

My main point is that I do not enjoy anything in life. Everything costs effort and pain. I always been alone, but I always needed a woman to give meaning to my life and to give it meaning... So I would have strength to deal with the pain of existing... The loneliness of not having anybody has always caused me huge pain...

About me... I do not like to socialize, or having friends, or going out, or traveling. I have depression and autism. Im always in front of my computer unless I have to do errands, although most of the time I am bored. I play or watch videos and stuff, but mostly single player.

Sorry to repost, thought to be more honest...

 

[fallingleaves]

31 - Pretty cool - complex trauma - financial problems - relationship problems - please help I don't know how to stay brave all the time

 

[BadChanges]

34m from Israhell.

Looking for someone who wants to connect. I have had health issues for a long time and struggling with mental health on top of it. Im a good listener and I feel really alone.

Hope you guys can feel better in this hell hole.

 

[ikigaimg]

22 F from Poland. I enjoy reading books and learning about fashion history. This week or next, I plan to try fitness and ping pong. I have depression, social anxiety and I'm very lonely. I'm self-employed, but I've worked very little due to my mental health. Hopefully, that will change soon.

 

[itbelikethat]

25/M usa. Would like to talk to people as myself, going through a difficult time atm.

I've cut off the people I hung out with irl because I felt quite toxic.

Pm if interested, we can make arrangements on whatever platform you wish.

 

[theshund]

50m UK. Going through a dreadful separation, been cut off from my family including the kids, living alone in a strange city. Have CPTSD. Anyone in a similar situation would be good to share and support each other.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Hi. I'm a 25 year old guy in the Eastern US. I'd like to chat with someone who's okay with supporting me a little bit. If you are planning to ctb though and don't want any support please do not reach out to me. I cannot handle getting close to someone and then losing them.

While I've been trying to recover, I can't say for certain that that's the path I'll go down. I want to, I really do, but I just don't know if it's in the cards for me. I'd like to have someone who's okay with setting up specific times to chat on here. I can be quite melancholy when I'm having a problem so please don't feel too bad if I don't respond to your support in a positive way right away. Most likely I will come back later and thank you though. I do my best to be supportive of others, but I can be rather awkward.

I have depression and anxiety. I have been in treatment for nine years at this point and have done everything from therapy and medication to hospitalizations and ECT. At this point I've managed to get off medication and am trying to do normal things again, but being around other people is making things worse.

I enjoy anime, with some of my favorites including Angel Beats, Oregairu, Shinsekai Yori (the book is also really good), A Silent Voice, and the Heaven's Feel movies.

Feel free to look over my posts to learn a bit more about me. If you think we'd be a good match please reach out to me and tell me a little bit about yourself. I'm not really comfortable with a lot of people though so please don't feel too bad if I don't reply to you.

 

[sakakap]

21m from the netherlands. i recently went through a bad breakup and life has felt very tumultuous since. i've tried hard to recover, i even got a job but i keep feeling like i'm on the verge of collapse. i don't really have anyone to talk to, i can feel my eating disorder becoming more prominent again and over time there's been a significant increase in the amounts of time where i feel like giving up and trying to ctb (again).
i feel like i need someone i can talk to, who can help me sort my thoughts, give me a bit of a push to improve my life and who can make me forget about how bad things are atm.

sorry for the negativity, i promise that's not all there is to me .

 

[SoulCage]

32F from Austria. I have a feeling that my mood and panic will improve if I speak to more people about the frustrating recovery journey. Because, so far, I learned that only people with suicidal thoughts can understand what I am going through.
I am extremely polite to strangers, because I am always scared to say/do something hurtful. If you read my sasu history you will see that I have moments of rage, but in reality I am always paralyzed in real life situations. I hate hurting someone, because I know how it's like to live with the pain.
Please keep that in mind when we message each other, sometimes my replies might be short, because I seriously don't know what to write - making sure you don't feel uncomfortable in any way.

To distract my brain from suffering:
I like playing games, lol's team fight tactics is currently my poison (because it's slow enough for my reaction, but interesting enough to play different strategies). I like watching tv shows and enjoy stories that have unpredictable elements and don't change or create new rules to justify new behaviour. Example: recently watched all seasons of "slow horses" and really liked it.
But yeah, I don't really have anything that gives me highs, I just use them to turn off my brain from panicking about survival.

Ideally, I am looking for someone from Austria or similar European countries that has ia going through the same support systems. Kinda figuring out how to best use it (as it still offers some kind of help compared to other countries). I have never been forced to stay in a psychiatric institution, despite saying I feel like I have a strong will to take my own life in a crisis. And I still might. I can't promise you to stay alive.

Ah yeah and I always write too much. Sorry. But I also like to read what's on your mind - reminding me that i am not completely insane for thinking that life actually sucks. And also hoping to learn a thing or two about how to cope better with it.
Write me if you like. Maybe start with telling me what you do most days to stay above water. Thank you.

 

[spicerymer]

32 female. Schizoeffective (bipolar 1 type) and just looking to find someone who wants to talk about it. I welcome everyone to chat but would love to be fully understood. I do still have strong suicidal ideation but I want to live.

Hi, not sure how to PM but would love to chat if you're still active on here?
19, F, UK
Looking for anyone to talk to, don't mind age or gender (just no creeps pls).

 

[Yume Nikki]

23 F US

Struggling with OCD, PTSD, psychosis and memory loss.

Would be nice to able to try to recover from my breakup and befriend others going through the same grief.

 

[sakakap]

hi, i went through a breakup 3 months ago (girlfriend was unfaithful) and have been quite lonely since. i'm a 21yo male from the netherlands and i like to read, exercise (mostly running) and watch movies & tv shows. i'm starting uni in september, until then i'm working.

i like to think i'm open-minded and relatively easy to talk to :p

anyone is free to pm, i'll respond to everyone.

 

[Pathetic and Sad]

hi 19M, looking for an accountability/ study buddy.

Am at CDT (UTC -5) timezone so looking for someone with with not much time difference than mine.

Just started uni with CS major, hopefully you are in the same major too. Won't mind if you are not in uni, as long as our goals align (studying) and age difference isn't too much (18-25).

I don't necessarily mind the gender, but I tend to be more comfortable with males. If you are a female, I may be a little awkward at first but shouldn't matter in long run. I know there are other genders too, I don't know much about them but I won't mind it.

And I expect you to be in somewhat of a recovery phase too or at least someone looking down that path and not actively looking to ctb. Am in US rn, but originally from Nepal.

Pls just dm me if interested.

Thanks.

 

[qualityrice]

23m from uk here
recently graduated with zero job prospects, feeling kind of worthless and self esteem shattered. i'll respond to everyone and lend a ear to your venting if you also put up with my whining.
even if i don't know you or ever meet you, i love you

 

[S like Siren]

I thought I'd write here because I would like a friend.
At the moment I have to live...because all my attempts at ctb have failed so I have to live, I have no other choice. Obviously I'm sad the majority of time and I still pretty often deal with suicidal thoughts but in any case as difficult as it is I have to force myself to live because I have no other choice at the moment.
I'm thinking of signing up for some activities for a month (swimming pool, theater and dance) to help me discipline myself and maybe open up and meet someone (since I never talk to anyone and I'm cut off from the world).in the hope of putting myself out into the world and opening my mind to be more positive and hopefully find a job and try to live "normally".
However, I am encountering difficulties that are getting me down because I have a paralyzing anxiety that makes me live in fear and blocks me from doing what I should do. And so for weeks I have been procrastinating on what I wanted to do.

I would like a friend...someone I can talk to about anything,someone open minded and not judgmental,someone that would like a friend.(we can chat on telegram or whatsApp)
I am a kind and nice person.
I am 31/female Italian,it doesn't matter where you are from,your age and gender if we are looking for the same things.
I am here,dm me please

 

[fawnfurever]

22 and she her. trying to recover after two s attemts. ussa west coast

 

[8leveloquenfrn4evr8]

Hi,

I am reposting because I want to add a possible reason to interact for anyone who is interested.

I would like to connect with someone who wants to learn something that might enable some minor remote work. Some sort of computer thing is what I have in mind. Something super basic and easy (I have zero computer background and do consider myself to be stupid) like "learning to code" or learning python computer language.

I would also like to converse with someone in French in exchange for conversing with me in English.

If anyone is interested in either or both of these ideas, please message me. All ages/genders/races/etc are fine.

Or if anyone just wants to chat, whether trying to recover or wanting to ctb. I am posting this in Recovery since these activities make more sense if one isn't planning to leave right away but I am somewhat cynical about the world and my future in it so I won't make the best "accountability partner" or the best chat friend for people seeking life-affirming positivity.

 

[bus catcher]

Hello, I'm Bus Catcher (20M). USA

I struggle with severe social anxiety when it comes to interactions, but I'm actively working to overcome it. Part of that journey is reaching out and connecting with others. I'm on a path to recovery, and while it's not easy, I will do my best! :)

On Writing, Worldbuilding, and Reading

I'm an aspiring storyteller and world-builder who is currently diving into the art of writing. I am also into map-making (I am learning CC3+). Currently trying to get my daydreams onto paper. For a long time, depression kept me from reading, but I'm excited to rediscover that passion. While fantasy was once my sole escape, I'm now exploring nonfiction and other genres. One book that's truly inspired me is "The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks." Let me know your favorite books!

On Gym and Personal Hygiene

While I'm working on improving my life, I'm also focusing on my personal hygiene. I'm making an effort to shower regularly, brush my hair and teeth, and keep myself clean even when it's challenging. I'm also hitting the gym and following a diet to lose weight before I head back to college. If you have any tips or advice, I'd really appreciate hearing them!

On Other Stuff

I'm really into coding. I have experience with Java and Python and am currently expanding my skills by learning HTML, CSS, and JavaScript (to code my own website). I started out as a computer science major, but I've recently discovered a passion for literature and storytelling, which has me considering a switch to English.

I'm here to learn, grow, and maybe even share a little hope along the way. I would love to chat with anyone who's on a similar path or just wants to swap stories.

(I spent more time writing this than I'd like to admit. lmao)

I'm also interested in joining small, close-knit groups centered around my hobbies. If you know of any and would like to invite me, I'd be more than happy to join! I'm looking to connect with people who share my interests as well as those with unique passions that differ from mine. I love learning about new things.

 

[Sunderland]

24/m/Virginia

Hi all, my name's Sean. 24 year old fuck head, trying to do better. At the peak of my suicidality I self destructed and destroyed my relationship with my fiance, all my friends, and all hers. I'm quite alone now. For a time I was content just sinking further, but after staring down the barrel of a 66 it made me rethink. I'm not entirely sure if I'm set on recovery, the only thing I know that I want is contact. I don't care what your gender or orientation is, lets meet up for a coffee or something. Or not, the balls in your court.

 

[endlessmelancholy]

32 male from India. I am open to talking with any females