My goodbye

[auti]

My name is Elizabeth. I'm 21 years old. And I'm going to fucking kill myself.

I feel so excited! I'm finally going home!

Let me not get too ahead of myself. I'm still waiting on a part of my method to come in the mail but it is expected by tomorrow. I've worked out most of the details. Tonight I will run a test for the scheduled email to ensure it runs smoothly. I will send one to the police office around 8ish hours after my attempt with my location so they can recover my body. I will be using a slightly remote wooded area which is important to me. After that I will schedule an email for my family with important information, but my note will be handwritten and left with my body. Tomorrow I will clean my room, shower, and do my makeup while I wait for my package. I saw someone say they wanted to do blue makeup to match the rest of their body and I think that is so cute so I will be stealing it >:3. My method is sn and I'll be taking 25mg (I am just shy of 80 kg) along with 30mg metoclopramide, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 10mg oxycodone. I still need to pick up an antacid but I'll take double the listed amount for that. I'll prepare one spare drink in case I vomit. I had my last meal at around 2pm today so I'll be very ready. Are there any other details I am missing? I'll try to continue posting as I move through the process. Thank you to everyone who I've interacted with on this site, you've all been a blessing. This wouldn't have been possible without you guys!! :DD

 

[if_i_make_it]

good luck, I hope you find your peace Elizabeth

 

[Soumatou]

may you find peaceful rest

 

[flufflepuff]

goodluck! we'll be going around the same time with the same method. i hope we both can find peace :D

 

[Front Back]

Hope it's a smooth sail. Go find your peace, Elizabeth

 

[mars2027]

Have a safe journey, Elizabeth

 

[body_snatcher]

Good luck, I hope your journey is peaceful

 

[Matchaaa]

May you find your peace. Good luck, and have a safe journey, Elizabeth.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

i hope you find peace

 

[SASU-KE]

Notti Auti,your PFP always gave me a chuckle.You will be missed. See you on the other side.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Good luck and hope that what you find is better than what this world offered u

 

[darksouls]

love and peace to you, Elizabeth

 

[geepeedee]

good luck elizabeth. safe travels.

 

[auti]

I'll try to continue posting as I move through the process.

I was gonna factory reset my phone and then destroy it but I changed my mind. I've finished wiping most of the unnecessary stuff for now. I'll leave my messages, photos, etc for my family to look through.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Sad it had to come to this

 

[Aphid]

I hope you find peace.

 

[chudcell]

Im so sorry you are going through this. Best wishes on your journey to the other side

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace

 

[Kanoh]

You seem determined and relieved. No SI kicking in at all?

 

[auti]

You seem determined and relieved. No SI kicking in at all?

It comes and goes. Will probably be feeling it more when time actually comes. I was talking to my brother and it hit hard bc I hate to hurt him but it has to be done.

 

[auti]

Update: I am terrified and exhausted. So not much different than usual.