might try anyway

[OutOfTheVoid]

living is too much. my pharmacy hasnt filled my hrt yet and its been a week. i'd rather die now than risk being off estrogen

i was originally going to try to od on a mix of as many drugs as possible, but i think i'll reduce it to just xanax, gabapentin, and a little alcohol. i dont have a lot, and i have some tolerance, but maybe it'll be enough. or it might just put me in a coma or leave me with brain damage. but at this point that seems almost preferable to living normally

if i do it, i'll do it tonight. i'll say goodbye to my girlfriend and hug her before i go. maybe i'll even tell her my plans, i know she'll try to stop me but thats ok

if im unfortunate enough to still be alive i'll post an update tomorrow

 

[Huntfish34]

Thank you for sharing and I'm sorry that life had brought you to this dark point.

I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen.

 

[BrailleTogepi]

Sorry to see you go. I wish you the best

 

[ghostpersonthing]

I hope you find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable wanting to be free from this existence, I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I know how it feels to worry about not having HRT; I wish you the best.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I know how it feels to worry about not having HRT; I wish you the best.

Just curious what does HRT stand for?
MUch love OP

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

Just curious what does HRT stand for?
MUch love OP

Hormone Replacement Therapy, it's for trans people who are transitioning.

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

living is too much. my pharmacy hasnt filled my hrt yet and its been a week. i'd rather die now than risk being off estrogen

i was originally going to try to od on a mix of as many drugs as possible, but i think i'll reduce it to just xanax, gabapentin, and a little alcohol. i dont have a lot, and i have some tolerance, but maybe it'll be enough. or it might just put me in a coma or leave me with brain damage. but at this point that seems almost preferable to living normally

if i do it, i'll do it tonight. i'll say goodbye to my girlfriend and hug her before i go. maybe i'll even tell her my plans, i know she'll try to stop me but thats ok

if im unfortunate enough to still be alive i'll post an update tomorrow

so it seems i'll actually be able to get some estrogen, should buy me time until i can get my prescription again. prolly not going to od tonight after all, tho im still keeping this method in mind

thank you all for the kind words

 

[heyrabu]

so it seems i'll actually be able to get some estrogen, should buy me time until i can get my prescription again. prolly not going to od tonight after all, tho im still keeping this method in mind

thank you all for the kind words

I'm so glad for you. i hope things gets better and next time there won't be delay for your estrogen. Wishing you the best