i’m trying a tourniquet

[FoolsExpedition]

i feel semi-confident with this next attempt. i'm not sure what my belt is made out of but it's thick and sturdy. i practiced on my wrist and almost got my hand stuck so i think i'll get it stuck on my head really well.

i've wrote a goodbye note to my mother.
i'm sure i'm gonna end up in hospital or dead, it was so difficult to get my hand out, i'll never get my head out. i'm quite scared honestly but i;ve been through 13 years+ of hell and recently lost everything meaningful to me too, this feels like the only way i'll find salvation of meaning or peace. i'm almost 30 with nothing to my name, i failed at life.
if i fail this i'll try to update of course but it may take some time if i am hospitalised

i'm so sorry to everyone i've hurt or failed.

resource for what i'm trying:

practice runs are going "ok", i hate not knowing if i'm doing it "right" i can still breathe and i'm not getting the head exploding feeling like with PSH, could be not enough pressure or could be going fine, never passed out in my entire life so i am unsure of what to expect nor how long it takes. i'll get comfortable and keep practicing since i'm left alone all day i won't be found when i do the full run anyway.

 

[Hefinator]

i feel semi-confident with this next attempt. i'm not sure what my belt is made out of but it's thick and sturdy. i practiced on my wrist and almost got my hand stuck so i think i'll get it stuck on my head really well.

i've wrote a goodbye note to my mother.
i'm sure i'm gonna end up in hospital or dead, it was so difficult to get my hand out, i'll never get my head out. i'm quite scared honestly but i;ve been through 13 years+ of hell and recently lost everything meaningful to me too, this feels like the only way i'll find salvation of meaning or peace. i'm almost 30 with nothing to my name, i failed at life.
if i fail this i'll try to update of course but it may take some time if i am hospitalised

i'm so sorry to everyone i've hurt or failed, but especially to the person who sent me this song.




resource for what i'm trying:

practice runs are going "ok", i hate not knowing if i'm doing it "right" i can still breathe and i'm not getting the head exploding feeling like with PSH, could be not enough pressure or could be going fine, never passed out in my entire life so i am unsure of what to expect nor how long it takes. i'll get comfortable and keep practicing since i'm left alone all day i won't be found when i do the full run anyway.

May you find peace.

 

[FoolsExpedition]

update.

i'm going to keep trying but i'm falling under the impression that this may actually be a non-method that shouldn't be attempted. the amount of force that seems to be needed is an awful lot, my neck was very constricted but nothing happened. maybe it's my belt, maybe it's me not doing something right.